Your words were always there to help me stay strong
but you just had to leave for your own reasons.

Now your words just tear me down
and I’m left wandering the skies without you

This time let me tell someone.

I don't want to put up this act anymore.

Can I please tell someone of my happiness?

When all you gotta keep is strong
move along, move along like I know you do

you say

but as much as I want..need to,
how can I when I can't even lift my feet
off this office-white pavement?

sleep has been tugging at me

for hours now.

But i'll just chug another coffee

and continue staring at my blank screen

Please tell me what to do now.

I don't know what normal is anymore.

This time last year
I wanted to cry because I would have to leave you..
the only constant in my life.

But this year,
I want to cry because there's no one to miss.

shattered, dashed upon the rocks


                                                              ­                                                                 ­   


                                                           ­                                                              on a dark, stormy night

I knew you're world shined to bright

but I didn't think it would blind me for life.

You wrote your promise in the sand.

But i forgot

that winds will blow

that feet will walk wherever they choose

and that the tide always comes in

and washes it all away.

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends

As I drift under the surface,

the blue waters cloud my vision

I close my eyes and try to let go.

But your image is always here.

Nice to see you're happy,

'cause I'm not.

You won't let me be

with your lack of words.

So sorry...

so sorry...


This must be my fault

I'll do anything to fix this.


I'm so sorry...

I'm so sorry...

Like a snake waiting in the shadows
We both know it's there

How do we get rid of it?

simple answer:

We don't

One can only study so much
Practice for so long
Stay locked up for a period for time.

Complain about being stuck inside?
There are only so many miles one can run,
So many pounds someone can lift,
So much weight one can lose.

Don’t **** me when I’m young,
I don’t care if that’s what your parents did to you,
I’m not letting it happen to me.

The music I'm blasting hurts my ears

but its better then the words being cried out in the outside world

I stare at the screen

seeing that you read everything I sent you.

99% knowing you'll never respond

1% hoping

Everyone knows you...
even my extended family.

Letting you go and not thinking of you
all the time is impossible

because everyday they remind me...

A tear silently

s l o w l y

makes it's way

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       o
            w
                 n.
                     m
                          y.
                              c
                                 h
                                     e
                                        e
                                           k.

I will not fall   I will not fall  I will not fall I will -not-
                

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for                                                                                                                                      **you

It's a constant struggle

to find true happiness in my life

without you.

That boy sitting at his computer across town

is not someone I know.

Maybe on the outside...

but something has happened that I cannot explain.

That boy has gone mute

to what matters

They are as much mine as yours,
but you are the house of those dreams...

keep them safe,
and maybe one day we can live them

.                                                                                      (your name comes up in every conversation)

...my biggest regret

Even as the sun is setting

the moon is rising

its you i like, the way you are right now, the way down deep inside you, not the things that hide you

I don't know who he will be, or what he will look like, just how it will feel...

*(like love)

it's these bitter-sweet nights
that i miss you the most

Sorry for seeming to ignore you...

but

I just like feeling like I belong

in a fun and daring group

I'm tired!

it's been a long day

and another is coming tomorrow

I don't need to deal with you

not tonight

not tomorrow

not *ever

You are my spring
that melts

    a

                    w

                                               a

                                                                                        y

the cold snow.

Nothing matters anymore...

So should it end?

*Would anyone care?

Smiles get harder

                            and harder to fake

                                                          as the day wears on

You don't get it...

when I say no one listens

I mean the only person I wish would care





doesnt..

You won't respond...

my life's a mess

You're the only one I can talk to

~

But your stupid pride is in the way

of send a simple email

or say any simple word

just to let me know you're there

I would do anything to fix this,
to be on top of the world again
just because you are talking to me.

But my everything...

is just not enough