You won't respond...

my life's a mess

You're the only one I can talk to

~

But your stupid pride is in the way

of send a simple email

or say any simple word

just to let me know you're there

I walk on a lonely road .   .   .

the faces and memories pass by

before fading behind me...

I cannot ever stop walking

no matter how tired I am

nor can I        ----------------->         run               --------------->                           ahead  <---------------

...again
                                   ­      (of course)
in time...

and I walk alone.

Heartbreak?

what the hell have I been talking about
all this time?

Have I ever thought of the true heartbreak
felt by the loved ones of the soldiers
sent over seas to fight
for spoiled people like me.

Heartbreak?

ha, yeah right...
I don't know the word

Not when I see little kids
who's dad's are fighting
across a wide and stormy sea.

We were like sunflowers

following the sun

Turns out it was only a light bulb

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends

Stop thinking of feelings.....

i slip away...


music is my drug

Is depression

supposed to

be this

wildly crazy

and painful

and bland

and worth

the loss

of tears?

Nothing i do can reflect my true feelings deep inside

Nothing matters anymore...

So should it end?

*Would anyone care?

My life is a constant rant

of words that refuse to be heard

of to many thoughts to say in a lifetime...






But the one word that defines my life

will never be heard in it's full meaning

I can ramble forever about everything we had,
everything we could have been,
everything we had going for us.
I could write dozens of poem about everything that we lost,
and I have.
I could ramble on forever....
and never have said enough.
It's one of those things you can never describe...
no matter who it is speaking.
But the one thing I must come to face eventually
is that your gone forever...

                                                               ­                                  and there no way to get you back.





                                                      ­                                                                 ­                                      ´ *ever

My gift is my song and

this one's for you...



It's been almost a year now
since you sung me those words...
full of the emotion they were written in....

How fast they were lost in your memory

One slip of tongue can ruin a bond

so close...

that it defied all laws of society

"I want a relationship"
you said
"Same has always been for me"
I replied.

What has happened since then?
How was it that we fell apart

When just weeks ago you said
"How are we going to make it through college?"

How did that happen?
When we didn't even last a year?

How can a love so strong
a love we both risked for

Have been blown away
with a single breath?

It's been over a year now,
but even now
with every word comes a memory

And I can't forget...


Will I ever even get over you?

reality sets in


and i realize he is still gone

shattered, dashed upon the rocks


                                                              ­                                                                 ­   


                                                           ­                                                              on a dark, stormy night

Together we will stay,
'til the moon lit stars set

The many happy memories are the cause of my tears

They are as much mine as yours,
but you are the house of those dreams...

keep them safe,
and maybe one day we can live them

Don't stop your dreaming

I don't ever want those boyhood dreams

to be lost in the wind...

its you i like, the way you are right now, the way down deep inside you, not the things that hide you

That split second of eye contact

was like seeing a shooting star for the first time.

My messages are pending...

is it crazy that i check every few minutes
just to see if you have been on?

maybe things never really ended between us...
maybe you think of me as often as i think of you...

but that's just a stupid wish

Darlin' be calm,
everything will be alright.

The moon will rise
the sun will bring light to the world.

You'll find love someday,
and I hope it's everything you didn't find in me.

Please don't lose me in the crowd


*...like so many have before you...

I don't want to fall in love
just to say goodbye

.                                                                                      (your name comes up in every conversation)

...my biggest regret

Everyone says they want to forget
I never want to forget what we had...
I just won't let the regret and longing dominate my life.

The music I'm blasting hurts my ears

but its better then the words being cried out in the outside world

Autumn...it's the kind of color memories are made of.

with every casual goodbye...




                                                                                                                        ...I wonder if it's the last

"Let me take your burden for you"*

I lift my trusting eyes to the one who has always helped me

The plea is answered, and the weight is lifted.

Each day, the thoughts and feelings pile up,

the pain, the joy....everything.

Now it is released and I can let go..

to start anew

*"Thank you, Poetry, for always helping to carry my heavy loads."

Such a tiny speck...
in the middle of no where                                                            ­                                             literally

Suddenly, from no where,
it explodes!
***** of fire,
flames of passion                                                          ­                                                            Erupt­

My! What a sight to see!

But no one is there to see it

This started the universe


yet it remains...                                                       ­                                                             
                                                                ­                                                                 ­               Unseen
                                           ­                                                                 ­                               unproven.










                                             ­                                                                 ­                  Lost...

Make a wish on a shooting star.*

I can only see the northern star
and the big dipper.

Stars are hidden by artificial lights
in the city.

One day I'll run away,
and find my shooting star.