Why should I keep going?

We spend half our lives preparing for the other half of our lives.

And half of those halves of our lives are spent doing nothing.

are spent doing nothing other then studying, preparing for things to come (that never even come)

Please don't lead me on

if it's all just a joke to you.

A simple jump,

like so many others.

Only this one would be defining for so many people.

She was at the very end,

nothing was worth living for.

She had made up her mind when she stepped off with her eyes closed.

But as she felt herself fall she realized

that this isn't what she wanted,

she needed to live,

to live and fix all her mistakes, say a few sorries.

There was so much she hadn't said to those that cared about her

and that she cared about.

How did she forget them right before she jumped?

But now there is nothing to hold on to but air.


It's to late.

Steady, things have been going steady,

starting to be someone new and improved

maybe actually be someone that another guy would like.

But then you appear somehow again

dragging me back into my dreary old life and mind

I don't currently feel like giving anyone a lecture,
so I'll try to put it simply.

If you keep setting your mind on the negative,
you will never be anywhere near positive
and you will never be better (which, I might add, you say you are try to do)
and you will end up alone in life and even more miserable then you are now
(or say that you are) and then you might actually end up where you think you are heading now (dead)