Even as the sun is setting

the moon is rising

Everyone has taken their pictures of the sun set,
the sun is gone, and its not what people like on postcards
and to show off the friends anymore.

But as the tourists leave the beach in one big crowd,
they fail to notice the moon rising
large and bright behind them

You know what.....
Ima stop crawling on my knees
just to talk to you.

If I'm worth it to you,
you'll come find me.
And if that's the case...

You better hope I didn't forget you.

Roll down all the windows
and blast the music

Let your hair loose
and go full speed on a freeway

We're young and wild and free babe,
In a sunshine state with no parents around

My brother and father are talking the the front of the car.
About some cool twist in mystery my brother learned about in school,
or maybe about a latest buisness plan.
My youngest brother is sleeping next to me in the very back of the car.
My middle brother is listening to music,
like he always does as he falls asleep.
My sister is sleeping as well.
She can't read, because she always gets car sick.
And I'm sitting awake in the back seat,
as I always am on this long trip.
Staring out the window...
just thinking about everything going on in my life,
trying to find anything in it to grasp...
trying to fight back the threatening tears.
This is how it always is at 1 in the morning on this never ending trip.
We are all in this small space for a long time.
But no one will ever know me like they think they do.
Even if they asked...(which they never will) why would I tell?
I'll just be told I'm being silly,
and then a lecture will start on how they grew up,
and how that's how I should as well...

Not that i'll ever listen.

There are four other "role models" in this car.
Other kids that have set the standard for how I will be
even before I was born.
But no one ever thinks that that's not who
I want to be.