I've written and rewritten
my suicide note dozens of times
and I am still not satisfied
because I can not figure out how to
politely tell you that I want to die
but that it is in no way
anyone's fault
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I swear to god
it seems like friends
are hardly ever the people
we expect them to be
they stab you in the back
and then offer you some bleach
to help get the blood stain out of your shirt.
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I had a dream about you last night
for the first time in a long time
I walked past you on the street
and my heart began to sink
just as it does every time I see you
but this time was different
because you chased after me
and ran into my arms and embraced me
and we stood there sobbing in the middle
of the ******* street in broad daylight
and you whispered in my ear
"I will never leave you again.
I will always love you."
And I woke up in that instant
thinking for a brief moment
that it wasn't just a dream.
But it was.
You have forgotten about me.
I am a chapter you do not want
to ever reopen.
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