you're like a scab
that I keep picking at
and refuse to let heal
even though it is
going to leave
a horrendous scar
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Last spring
I cried myself to sleep
every single night
because you were no longer
mine
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This spring
I fall asleep with a smile
every single night
because he is and always will be
mine

It's kind of hard
to find a Mother's Day card
that is fitting for you,
Mommy dearest
So I wrote you my own:

"Thank you for never loving me
the way a mother is supposed to love
her darling daughter.
You taught me that I will never be
good enough
skinny enough
pretty enough
to make it in this world."
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