so many inconveniences
-
the tiny parking space I am given
the red lights on the way to work
the empty pack of cigarettes
the commercials on the radio
the obnoxious children next door
the distance between you and I
the fact that you are just a boy
the realization that I am getting older
the light that flickers on my vanity
the churning in my stomach
the god awful heat wave
the lack of flowers in my garden
the lack of a garden in general
the promise of you moving on
the ache residing inside my chest
the empty pill bottle on my dresser
the nightmares about you
the heart that refuses to let me die
-
so many inconveniences

well look what we have here
an empty bottle of *****
you must be so proud of yourself, babe
just like your glory high school days
come on over, ladies and gents
plenty of me to go around
everyone come get a look at
the tragedy
the beauty queen
the train wreck herself
guess it is true what they say
like father, like daughter

but hey,
at least you're having fun again
stupid *****.

“How did you know you loved him?”

I was too drunk to answer with a lie
So I poured out the truth like wine

I knew I loved him when
His name tasted sweet on my tongue
The warmth of his touch became an addiction
Every dream, every thought was consumed by him
My smile lit up as if I swallowed the sun
Each kiss was a flower blooming with color
Making love to him left me feeling infinite

You see,
I knew I loved him because
Losing him took the breath out of my lungs
and
Telling you this took the beat from my heart

Trains
Car after car after car
Traveling
Carrying
People cargo dreams hearts
So many trains
So many tracks
Where do they all go?
What if I jumped on one
And never came back
No one would miss me
It’s just a train
Here comes one now
Let’s out run it

self proclaimed straight-edge
self proclaimed alcoholic
self proclaimed gentleman
self proclaimed *******

I don't know
who
or what
you are anymore.

in the midst of this
the only thing I think of
is our one last kiss