What your watching or doing on your phone can be paused. The time with other conscious can not. It is lost in time never the same. Just corrupted by emotion.

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My loyalty is so pure,
                          So strong,
                                 That it has created a beast. A demon that is always there silently waiting to speak. He/she comes with soft Sweet whispers of logic crippling the lover of Loyalty...... "Trust".

It's been a long day.  Better yet along tiresome road from the cross point where I changed my direction. The room was cool from the outside pounding heat and within Minutes was undressed bags resting on the floor. The long fall in to the soft fluffy pillow top caught me in its inbrace like her arms held me to her breast.  I pull the soft brown 1800 thread count sheets up my body getting slight flash backs of her soft Nubian skin brushing against my skin.  Consciously I was fading with my right hand over my heart..  The ceiling fan turned and my heart beat as the fan turned.  Before darkness had it's grasp on me I reached under my pillow for the note they will find.  My heart beated through my chest, the last thing I thought before sleep was how does this heavy broken thing keeps working and if they find the note can they tell I died from my secret broken heart.

When she mounted me aggressively. I did not feel dominated rather empowered. I knew then she was the one.

She loved me with her hands like most.  Where my love is felt through the brush.

I see it.  When I thought it was lost. I seen it come I seen it go.  I even see it with others and others with it.  Yet I don't have it. I'm okay with that.