I started to write a poem
but then i realized
no one is going to listen
or going to care
everyone is too busy
too  easy  just brush it off the sleeve
like a fallen hair
pretend to never care  or if
you were even there
until thats what they beleive


since  promises get broken
words a dime a dozen
loves fall  into and fails out
friends come and go
seem to never care

i started to write a poem
just to be silent












Maybe then my heart ,my voice, my love will be heard.
                                                     alan spivey 2015

Sitting at the poker table
The cards handed to me
Four aces and king of hearts
Any players dream
I could win that hand and carry
Home the ***
However
I kept the ace of spades and king of hearts and discarded the rest
In return I received queen of hearts, jack of diamonds, ten of clubs.
A flush how ever I may not win the game.
Bets all placed cards shown.
I could have cleaned house with main hand, however I threw away the greed and picked up my pride and still won the game.
The flush.

How do you tell someone
how much they mean to me
how much i care
and love even through an old broken heart
  how do you tell someone
how special they are to me
the friendship is  cherished and very dear
how do you tell someone
i can ***** up big time
its the only way i learn to do things right
how do i tell some one  
their trust in me is golden
sacred
how do i tell some one
i learned to never make a promise
because more  gets broken than  just the promise
how to i tell a friend i still need  and want our friendship

(I left the poem unfinished)
How do i tell someone
I love them with all my heart
with out ruining their livesand relationships.
How do i tell them
Thank You
and im sorry i broke the promise and your heart..  

by alanspivey -

apon the topic of love
oh what can i say ,
every day i hear  I love you, xoxo
and with in minutes i hear your my buddy

no promises made lets just stay and remain   the friend

yet i  hear i love you , xoxo day to day.
yet i am still single
yet i still love
yet i  desire the  feel from  love
yet i desire  making love
yet i  still hear day to day i love you
and  next lets stay friends
yet i grow older , wiser not sure
yet i  yurn for  a love to hold
yet i still think theres a *** of gold at the end of every rainbow
yet I ..... the story still unfolds

If i didn't wake up one day
would my love
still wipe your tears
still keep you warm on cold cold nights
would my love carry you through  harder times
help you  along life's uneasy times
did my love  shine through
even  when i couldn't smile
from the pains i was going through
did my love  come through each time
i messaged
came to your side
when you asked for help
when  no one else was around
or really  showed much care
did my love show when i was there
i hope so, because i really needed  love my self
someone to say  i care , i love...
even when things went wrong
i needed some one there
all my life i felt alone
will my love show through  the hard , rough times
will it be enough
even if i am not there
and alone and single
If i didn't wake up one day
would my love
still wipe your tears
still keep you warm on cold cold nights
would my love carry you through  harder times
help you  along life's uneasy times
did my love  shine through
even  when i couldn't smile
from the pains i was going through
did my love  come through each time
i messaged
came to your side
when you asked for help
when  no one else was around
or really  showed much care
did my love show when i was there
Will it be enough?

Just breathe

buried underneath  the piles of ruble
it took just a deeper look
just to see
me

not as a boyfriend, lover, best friend or other
not to see the lonesome heart or  son or brother
a deeper look to see
me
i am of no other
trials and mishaps did not ****
so  they only showed my strengths
i have not had my fill

a deeper look
showed a heart
struggle
a life
love beyond all reasonable means
it showed me........ me


a deeper look
what i have been searching for
was ........
me