My heart breaks everyday
Just so it can bloom a new
And I can once again
Fall madly
In love with
You
Everyday

Not every storm brings bad weather
You will know my love like a tropical rain
Is meant to wash the grey and pain away
To reveal the paint and the magic Swirling yellow in your vincent blue
As the light of that starry starry night
Not every cloud of doubt may stay
You will know my love to be the wind
And leave only trace of silver lines
In skys where only star and moon may shine
In the waters of ocean blue within your endless eyes
Not every thunder cry carries only doom
You will know my love by the beat and boom
Of the pulse flowing from my heart
My soul to sheild your ears from
Monsters whispers and demons lie
And then you will hear sweet and pure
The reason I hold you so beautiful and dear
As your song resonates through the air

Let my tounge be the key to unlock your folds
Let me eat your pain and taste your nectar
Let my fingers stray from mind to thigh
Ease your worries and slide in pleasure
I in you and you on I
******* dance with rythmic breath
Gentle groans and heavy whispers
Eager mouths and pleasing hands
Let these moments never end
You on I and I in you
Let me unlock your pains
And fold your pleasure
With one word whispered
You release my life and

love

From me to you and you to me
No sinful act could bring half the heaven
When tangled limbs do sway and stride
As my heart does erupt to say and hear
That one word that trembles both bone and soul

love

And I have written, whispered,  shouted, and howled
And dreamed, longed, wished, and hoped
And you know I say these three words true
When I say

*I Love You

Snow white red lips
And devil made grin
Hair of black raven
And porcelain pearl eyes
She was a fairy tale girl
But
I was a cheap dime store
Novel guy

My love will always burn for you
My heart always willing to bare your suffering and ache
My soul always willing to stand near your silent cold hours... days...
My hand to always write and record of your truth and your beauty
Always burning for you freely
For nothing in return
My heart and soul yours to hold and to have
While my body and hands
Live and walk through
The flames of the sun
Consumed by the fire
And when this sun dies
I will burn here still
Long after the planets have collided  and crumbled
Alone writing of your beauty
Every word a new star
Every sound a new song
Everything truthfully
And beautiful
And glowing
From the light
And the love
Of you

Let my breath be your brush
To spread your color
And bring you pleasure
To part your clouds and thighs
Release the floods of dew and doubt
My tounge pushing demons out
By brush strokes traced along
Both black and blue and you
Till mixed the darkest shades of red
Of blood of soul and skin
Be not my prize of lust
It is the beating of my heart
That makes me dream of sin
I can love and leave no trace
I would spill no life or seed
If you did not whisper love back to me
My soul is yours
Chained to this fate
To ease your every pain
No pleasure need be mine
From parting cloud and thigh
I will savor ever crooked tooth
And leathery wing
And never cease to eat
Any demon to dare crawl
And hide within your sheets
My servitude is yours
My feet be puppet
And hands be marionette
To forever be your fool
My breath your brush
To spread your color
And paint your pleasure

The seven letters in her name
No other need to write
No better way to scribe
No purer way to compose
LOVE so lovely or as well
Than when I write them down
And dream of her

No letters could be gold
Other than the five you find
Hiding in her rhyme
So sweet with honeys blood
As beautiful and true

It was one of those bad days that followed me as my heavy weary eyes fell to slumber.  Soon nightmares had wrapped their blanket of fear and doubts around my heart and lungs.  My bed turned to a turbulent  ocean soaked with tears and silent screams echoing in the lighting streaking between thunderous clouds.  I tried to scream back but only silence slithered and slid out of my throat.  My sweat collected into thick crimson red puddles and claws reached out and strapped me down farther into the darkness.  I knew it was a nightmare but everything was eating away at my senses and no amount of struggle could wake me.  Arguments and memories haunting me and dragging away the joy in my heart.  My eyes held open as I was forced to watch another dream die as this nightmare unfolded its dark corners.  
I would have started crying but I had died with the dream... turned into a ghost to wander aimlessly through its death.

My eyes creaked open but my mind was still lost in the nightmare.  My heart beat slow and cold in my chest and pulsed a living numb through my bones and marrow.  I had no urge to get out from under the blanket the nightmares had tangled me in.  All I wanted to do was let the misery wash over me and drown me... I couldn't even start crying, I just didn't have the will to do anything.  I layed there in dark, staring off towards the void... just wanting to be swallowed out of existence.

I start to move subconsciously as my hand reaches blindly for my phone and my fingers strech out across its surface.  I'm not aware of what is happening... and then your picture appears in front of my dreary eyes and the words just fall out in a hushed whisper... "i love you.. "
In an instant, the blanket disappears and warmth resurges within my heart.  The dream resurrects itself and puts the nightmare in the noose.  I press my lips to your picture and repeat the words again... "I love you"
Somedays thats the only thing that can get me through another day

You are not what you see or feel
Demons have robbed you of your eyes
And placed a nightmarish carnival mirror before you
Monsters have stolen your heart
And buried it in mountains high and cold
Replaced it with a comfortable pain of numb
Your light shrouded by the devils clouds of doubt and misery
It is not you you see or feel
It is the lie and reflection
These scoundrels have placed in front of you
It is only a shadow and shell that these beasts have made
To trick and deceive
To torment and steal
Your heart
Your soul
Your beauty
Your truth
For I have heard your truth sing
I have been inspired by your beauty
I have danced with your soul
And I have been touched by your heart
The have thier lies screaming over your skin
To steal your confidence
They clutter your head with thoughts of failure
To bring down your self esteem
They take the color and magic from your eyes
And leave only the grey and dark ugly nighmares
You're not what they try to make you do
You're not what they try to break you to
When you think its you hating yourself
It is them and the living lie they have made from your fears
The mirror in front of you
Is full of demons smoke and beastly illusion
It does not reflct you
These monsters and devils work
For the black demon dogs of depression
They strip you of your truth
To feed them late night snacks
They drain your heart of love
To wet their burning tounges
They break your souls bones
To give them something to toy with and gnaw on
And then they leave you alive just enough to stand back up
So they can come back for more
It is a never ending cycle of lies and deceit
They hide you from yourself and only let you see
The marionette they have made to mock you with
I have seen your doubts and pains and aches
I have heard your tears sing in fear and desperation
And I have felt the nightmare blanket wrapped tightly around you...
It is not a thing many could survive
It is a place where most cannot escape
It is the pit no one dares look into
Without instantly begging for death
It is the void that devours the weak whole in but a single breath
It is a place where light dies without the trace of a shadow
Where dreamers bury their hopes and lose their will to wish...
It is here they have tried to hide your true self
It is from this pit I first saw your light streaking out from
That I first heard the call of your voice
I was helpless  to do anything but jump blindly into the pit
Into the unknown dark
And I have fallen to the end of its bottomless depths
And found you here
And here where all light dies
You still outshine the sun
Here in the cold dark
You blaze infinite warmth
You fight countless battles
Demon and black dogs
Beasts and monsters
Devils and scoundrels
Fight against you endlessly
You have your scars
You have lost your battles
And yet you stay strong
Your lungs ache to the brink of death
But you still inhale deeply
You have pushed through this war
For many a day and nights
Alone many times without aid
I have fallen here
Given myself to you completely
Dedicated my purpose and drive
To your aid
You do not belong here
Your light too beautiful for this place
Too beautful for this world
I am here now with you
You never need fight or fear alone
I will always be by your side
We will walk out together
Fly beyond this place
Reunite you to yourself
You will then see
Your heart
Your soul
Your beauty
Your truth
As I do
And then you will see
You make all things beautiful

Love exists as an absolute
Or as a void
As flame
Or as smoke
As living
Or dying
When you have it...
Care for it absolutely
Let it fill your every fiber
Give it your everything
And every thought
Belong to it
For if you let it slip
Mistreat or abuse
Feel only half heartedly
It will leave its void
And that is what
You will become
A void of love
Walk into its flame
Let it burn and consume
Your all
Your body
Your soul
Your heart
Tend to the fire
And you become part
Of its flame
To forever burn
Without turning to ash
But without your all given
To hold back
Half in and half out
You will be reduced
To cinders and smoke
And vanish to air
Live in it absolutely
Love is to give
More than you take
Don't let lust
Mislead you
Walk the line with grace
No less than two steps to give
For every one that you take
It is easy to die here
Tread carefully
Stride with passion
Embrace the unknown
With wonder
Not fear
For fear is a shadow
Much colder than death
And death is often
The result of fear
And if you do die here
Know this
One day
You will exist again
You will live again
Absolutely again
In love again
And when you do
Care for it with your every fiber
Your every thought
Belong to it with your
Everything
With your body
And heart
And soul
Become the fire
And the flame
And forever burn
Always
To give
With wonder
And passion
To live in love
Is to never
Need fear dying
Or death
For in love
We all become
Immortal

No rivers made of gold
No heaven to behold
Without your name humming softly in the air
No mountain tops so high
No cloud where  bird or angel fly
Without your light and warmth raining over them
No celestial cosmic flow
No paradise may unfold
Without the magic stars that swirl deep within your eyes
No flames dance upon the sun
No sin burns within the devils grin
Could burn as incandescently or as luminous as your heart
No moment or no breath
No beat or pulse of mine
That is not made into this dream
Where my heart lays at your feet
And my love sits in your hands

She had the needle dancing in her eyes
And poison living in her veins
She was boiling her life away a spoon at a time
I can still hear her voice crying
On the other side of the phone
She just wanted one more ride
Before starting a brand new tomorrow
I can remember tracing the scars on her back
Thick and deep like wings
A history note left behind from a previous love
She liked the idea of dying
And often gave into trying
...
I loved her then...
...
Listening to the tears and apologies  on the other side of the phone
She wanted help
A better life
A better tomorrow
But the needle dancing in her eyes
Kept taking her on that one last ride
More poison than blood dancing inside
And I collapsed to crying
Last time I remembered
Tracing the scars on her back
And I couldn't stop thinking
Has she given into the trying...

She undid the seams of her skirt
And I ate ever thread
And she showed me she was the universe
She unfolded her flowers
And I inhaled all the pollen
And she feed me her nectar and wine
She offered her hand and then lead the way
And guided my touch over breast and through ribs
And gave me the blood straight from her heart
Beating and pulsing over my wrist and down throat
Her salt and her red soaked into my soul
And I was covered in her colors of love
She stepped out of her flesh
Then devoured my body
Leaving us both naked before the wheels of fate
And the stars and the sand gave their lives
To become our new skin
And every kiss was a beautiful pleasure
And every pleasure filled with decadent sin
We consumed the sun and the moon
And brought down heaven and hell
Love is all that we left and all that we were
As we sewed back here skirt to remake the universe

I'm just waiting...
Waiting here at the ends of time
Watching the last flower bloom and fade
Watching the last apple fall from a lonely tree
Watching the lakes go dry and the fish gasp for air
Watching the waves recede and turn to rock and sand
Watching the sharks and whales loss life and home
Watching mountains scream and bear and beast starve and cry
Watching the last cloud change shape and twist and dissipate
Watching the sky fall and horizon shake and earth quake
Watching the last star take its final breath
Watching the moon give up its poems and its ghosts
Watching the sun go quietly out as we witness the death of flames
Watching the universe crumble and fade to dust and ash
Watching god pack his bags and the devils tearful goodbye
Watching it all end
Everything going and gone
Nothing left
Just waiting and watching
Waiting for that one thing
I am suppose to do
And I'll be here waiting
In the dark
And the cold
And the void
Of it all
My heart
Beating
Alone
The last flame
That refused
Deaths wish
Still
Burning
After its all gone
Waiting
And
Waiting
...
..
...
For loves
Return
And you

All in the pursuit of love
Footsteps of misery
Walking the lonesome miles
Lost to the sands and fire
Soul sacrificed to the divinity
Of longings aches
And distant dreams
Love needs a flame
Life needs the hurt
Theres no difference
Between heaven and earth
When lost in your gaze
No distance too far
No hope too dim
No wish too frail
For footsteps taken
Towards forevers end
When all in the pursuit
Of love

I saw the fires at the ends of time
Burning in the depths of iridescent blue seas of endless darkness
I set sail on a paper boat
Chasing a paper moon hanging above the blazing horizon
I heard the call of madness
And was helpless to follow
Whispers and whishes pushing the paper sails to the waters on the edge of time
And I walked into the flames
Burning blood red and jack-o-lantern orange
And I was consumed by the ache and the pain and the beauty of the embers and coals
Swimming through the anguish and tears of the shadows between the tounges of licking fire
The song and call growing louder
Hypnotic and alluring causing my heart to race
With fear and anticipation
My soul lost to the flicker of the dancing light
My heart singing back to the madness
I walked deeper through the flames
Burning everything of me away
My flesh and my pains
My bones and my doubts
My marrow and my sorrows
Leaving only my heart to burn and beat  naked through the truth
And the heat
My heart alone
Beating quickly
Burning slowly
Completely given into the song and call
Madness now pulling my heart to its center
There in the middle of the fires and flames
I found what made all things beautiful
A soul and heart
Of pure white flame
Burning burning
Like the sun
Burning brighter
And more gracefully
Never never
Had I felt such warmth
And radiance
There was nothing I could do
But be consumed
Always always
To be in love
In this madness
Made of you

You be the bee
And I'll be the honey
We'll stay busy
Busy busy
Living and loving
In that treehouse
Under the sea
You be the ocean
And I'll be the waves
We'll always move
Each other
And handle every storm
Laughing and crying
Never torn apart
You be the stars
I'll be the night
I'll catch every piece
Of you that falls
I'll never let you down
My soul
Your forever home
You be truth
And I'll be love
Meant to be together
We'll write our own fates
Happily ever after
Page after page
No end to our song
Our tale
Always fresh ink
On forevers
Mobius strip

I let my feet dangle over the edge of the bed
Hoping the monsters will drag me underneath
My flesh is rotting
And my heart smells of decay
My bones could use some breaking
I'm over due for a good long cry
And a little blood letting
Somedays the ache just doesnt hurt enough
The cold comfortable numb has its teeth
Sunk too deep into my soul
And I can scream
But no sound escapes my mouth
I'm trapped on the sunny side of the sun
And the fires only cool me as I wander pointlessly about
I'm just lost in a dream a sleep away
From a bad shave
The kind of shave you can only get in Seville
My throat is thirsty for a kiss and a bite
From your warm lips
Or cold steel
Death is suppose to be lovely
Around this time of eternity
And I would die
For just a moment
Of that promise
Of forevers bliss
Slithering slyly on your tounge
My ears desperate to feel it say that one word
That four letter word
Full of grace and pain and beauty and truth
And if I cant have that
Then the end of the world
Can't get here soon enough
I just hope those monsters are hungry
And nasty
And mean
I need to bleed a little
Before my heart burst
It just feels too good to be true
You're too **** beautiful
And I'm not worth
A dime of your lipsticks
Much less your love
And my bare neck
Is overdue for a shave
Its just my body needs the dying
My heart and soul
Won't go anywhere
There yours
To hold in your hands
Or hide on your shelf
They got that forever
Kind of love
And its dancing flames
Spell out your name
Where are those
Monsters
Anyway...

Paper moons
Paper flowers
Paper hearts
Paper me
Paper you
Lovers on the page
Madness all the rage
Shreds of pulp
Book full of love
Paper suns
Paper stars
Paper boats
Paper you
Paper me
Madness on the page
Love in full rage
Shreds of books
Pulp full of love
Paper smiles
Paper laughs
Paper happiness
Paper us
Paper us
One single page
Written full of love
By two hearts
Becoming one
In this paper tale
This paper world
This paper love

I will always be yours
Although you may never be mine
But that will not **** my heart
Or chase my soul away
Your heart is numb towards love
I know
Your have days of darkness and  biting doubts
Whispers of failure and loathing echo through your ears
You can walk through a warm pleasent day
Yet your every breath fills your lungs with ice
And everything you do hurts
You could look straight to the sun
And your eyes would still only see clouds of misery
Somedays you have your reasons
And somedays this lifeless blanket just wraps itself around you
Tightly like it is your skin and your soul
Somedays are worse than others
Somedays are not so bad
Some even good
And maybe it wouldn't be so bad
If you just knew what each day would bring
Sunny tuesdays
Horrible saturdays
A black storm appointed
Every third thursday...
If it was predictable
Maybe... maybe it would be easier to bare...
Probably not...
But maybe if there was a why...
A why to the darkness
A why to the bricks in your hands
A why to the wall going up more often than down
A why to the whispers
A why to your lungs filled with ache
A why to the numb
A why to you crawling back into this pit
A why to the again and again
A why to you hurting
A why to you hurting yourself
A why for your loss of lust for life
A why to your reflection not being as beautiful as you actually are
A why to the silence breaking over the beat of your heart
A why to the whys...
But the days are unknown as to what you will wake to find
And the nights are unknown of when the monsters will whisper
Or the demons will be hiding under your sheets
Or what seeds of doubts the devil has placed under your pillow
To rot your dreams and your hopes
From within your sleep
And the whys only echo more whys and whys
And even the days you wake up to a smile
Or fall into pleasant dreaming at night
Not knowing how long it will last is the shadow stitched to your feet
The nagging question of how long before it hurts to breath again
The anxiety and fear of a bad day looming
Only brings the clouds more quickly
You have lost sight of yourself
And its hard to see yourself as anything
Anyone would be inspired by
Anyone would treasure
Anyone would call beautiful
Anyone would love
So you listen to the whispers and the doubts and the whys
And you brace yourself for a bad day
Instead of enjoying the good one you woke up too
And no matter how many times you hear it
Or are shown that
You are treasured
And beautiful
And inspiring
And that you are loved
You still find yourself crawling into your pit and your darkness
I don't have a cure
I don't have the answers to the whys
Because there is not always an answer
And there is no cure
Treatments works to a point
Pills often **** as many if not more than they help
But the greys of the unknown
Are darker than what little light is understood
What I do have...
Is my hand
And my hope
And my love
Every time you crawl into that hole
I will crawl down with you
I will burn my heart and soul
To keep your lungs warm
I will always be here
In the dark
In the hurt
In the doubts
I will always be yours
My heart will not die or break
My soul will stay by you
No matter the weather tomorrow
Or next week
Or at the end of time
I will love you endlessly
And expect nothing in return
My only purpose need be
To show you your light
And your heart
And your soul
To reveal your true teflection
Your true beauty
To show you
You are inspiring
You are treasured
Your are beautiful
And you are
Loved

Been waiting  my whole life for this and I never knew
Been waiting my whole life to love like this and I never knew
Been waiting and waiting
And never knew I was waiting
To find someone who had to be perfectly imperfect perfectly
You
And now that i know what I was waiting for
And now that I know this new kind of love
This brand new love
This love I've never known like this before
No other love will you find me ever waiting for
This is my only love
My one and only true love
That I willl always be loving
And always be waiting for
Only you
Only you
Only
You
For loving you
Is what I am suppose to do
And that is what I've been waiting for

Happy sun
Happy sun
  Your day is done
  Your day is done
Sleepy sun
Sleepy sun
When do you dream
  When do you dream
You've been up
All day long
All day long
How many days
Has it been
How many days
Since you last slept
Its been a
Never
  Never
Life for you
   Never closed your eyes
  Never dreamt
Never asked a thing
  Poets always writing
To the moon
  About her shine
   About the man living
    With her
About her dark side
No one every
Stopping for you
To write about
Longing to walk
  On the sunny side
Of the sun
If you could sleep
Just one night
  Just one night
Where would you go
What would you do
  Would you sleep
    In an ocean deep
   Cool your temperament
  Relax your blazing heart
Watch mermaids swim between
  Your dancing flames
    Turned blue
   Collect coral reef
  And broken shells
And tooth and treasure
In lost green seas
Oh happy sun
   Happy sun
  Your day is done
Your day is done
Your
Never
  Never
Has
Just
  Begun
Has
Just
Begun
Your
Day
  Never
Never
Done
  ...
   ..
  ...
Burning
  ..
Burning
  ...
   ..
    ...
  My sympathy
   For you
    For my
   Heart
  Is always
Burning
Burning
Too
And all
I do
  Is sleep
   And dream
    And dream
   I know
  I know
You love
Her
Too
  I know
   You've
    Seen
     I
    Know
   You've
Seen
My Paper Queen
My Paper Queen
  The
Only dream
  Only dream
  That
Can
Out shine
You
   Out
    Shine
   You
  My
Paper
Queen
My Paper
Queen
No
Other
Dream
No other
Dream
  Can
    Rule my
   Heart
  For
   I
  Only
  Burn
For my
Paper Queen
And my
  Never
Never
Has
Just
  Begun
  Has
Just
Begun
And
  My always
   Always
    Love
     Has
    Long
   Long
  Last
Found
Its forever
Home
  Its
Forever
Home
In her soft
Kind hands
  Soft kind
   Hands
  Where I only
    Burn
   Only
      Burn
     For
      The
     Majesty
   The
  Majesty
    Of
   My Paper
  Queen
My Paper
Queen

Loving someone has never felt so good
Being in love has never been so beautiful
My sleepy tired eyes
Never so awake
My beating aching heart
Never so alive
My sad lonely soul
Never smiling as widely
Love has never felt as good or been as beautiful
As it is loving you

Your heart is trapped in the cold and the numb
Behind a wall inside of you of impossible heights
I have seen these things behind your eyes
Your eyes of infinite tears of salt and oceans blue
Your pain painted with brush strokes
Mixed with the colors of lunacy and magic
Swirling like stars of Van Gogh
This is where and how I learned to love you
Fall madly for you
Devote my heart and soul to you
And only you
Your eyes lead me into the mouth and madness
Of my own heart and soul
Showed me the true reflection of my love and spirit
Never before had love bloomed more wildly and lovely
Never before had there been such a garden inside me
Never had the flowers swayed and sung so merrily
I had known both love and madness before
But never had I known or been so madly in love
Never so perfectly connected to my inner being
Never felt the harmony of the universes heart beat in sync with my own

Here...

Lost in the paint and magic of  your eyes
And the pain and ache of your soul
The hopes and dreams of your heart
All your perfectly beautiful frailties
Here in your shrouded darkness
I found your light
And in your light I found
A touch of unknown delicacy
A color unkown to mortal eyes
An exquisite madness
And I found the lost truths of love
Whispered and shouted
Dancing and twisting
Entwining with my blood and marrow
Lifting the lost and dead pieces of both my heart and soul
The unknown secrets of life and joy pulsing throughout me
Bringing me whole and making me complete
I have become part of something more
Than life and death
Than love and sorrow
Than suns and moons
I have become the freedom
Of the sins of angel and beast
Of the beginning and end of time
Of heaven and hell

I want to be tied to your bed
To keep the monsters beneath
And the devil out
I want to be chained to your wall
To always be bound inside with you
And to help tear it down
I want to be buried in your heart
To keep its flow and pulse forever warm
I want to be the war of the wind
To blow away the coulds
And **** the rains of doubt
Let me live and love you
From within your darkness
And by your side
I will always be yours
Even if you will never
Be mine
I cannot stop my fall
And love for you
I cannot control
This fate anymore than I could willingly stop
My heart from beating
And my heart
Will beat for you
Past the decay of my bones and flesh
Past the ends of the world
Past the broken ticks of time
My heart and my love
Always set
Always rise
Over infinites horizon
Singing for you
And only you

I would shackle the sun
And drag it back down to earth
To warm the numb surrounding your heart
Soothe and till its soil
Troth my soul to its dirt
Plant my seeds of life and love
Deep within its hurt
And should a garden fail to bloom
I would dig to the center of the sun
And bring back its fiery core  to
Shine on only you
And plow the earth of your heart again
Plant more seeds of my love and life
And water the grounds with the tears
Of the flowers longing for your love
That dance and sing inside of me
And I will stay and never go until at last
I make a garden bloom and grow
And your heart has found
The warmth it needs
To love again
Then if you let me
I would take your hand and stay
And say I love you
With my every breath
And down every road
For all time to come
And shout it from the top of every tall mountain
And every tall tree
And from the bottom of my soul
While swimming in the deepest part
Of the deep blue sea
Holding your hand still
Long after time has come
To its end

Why are you singing covers Bob
You aren't thinking of knocking
Knocking on that door
Your songs will out last us all
So why not you
Why not you too
This years been rough enough
And the cannon ***** are
Still flying
So stay a little longer
And don't go knocking on that door
...

The calender reads 2016
But its feels more like 1984
Have you heard the crying
The American dream
Lying dying in the streets
While big brother
Is strapping blinders
On our heads
And shackles to
Our hands and feet
Were being lined up
By the rows
Willing prisoners
Of the slave power
Empire of minimum wage
Shuttling our children
Off to the animal farm
Market of big business
And big lies
***** water mixed
In with the rotting
Apples of the
New American pie
The sugar isn't sweet
To the starving
In the street
While trash cans
Over flow in the back lots
Of the super market
Super chains
Of the slave power
Empire of criminal rage
And its the cold dark waters
Of nuclear waste
Soaking the pages of the calender
That reads
2016
In these days that feel like
1984
No kindness or compassion
For hands shaking tin cups
Needing just a little change
Just a little shelter
From their sad weather lifes
Living on the cold ground
Below our overpass ways
No shelter and no change
No compassion and no kindness
In the fist and pockets
Of the slave power
Empire of ignorant ways
Bullets, bombs and hate
Harvesting fresh blood
For the ink
To print the pages of the calender
That reads
2016
As politicians write us back
Into the pages of the days of
1984

Paper planes weren't made to cross the ocean
Not the Pacific or the Atlantic
Paper hearts weren't made to burn all night
A quick flame and a bright flash
Paper loves weren't written to last forever
Nothing more than a rhyme and a rhythm
But then my paper love turned real like Pinocchio
And sold my soul to the darkness below
And my paper heart burns but refuses to turn to ash
The fire growing brighter and hotter everyday
And the paper planes circle high around the moon
Over the ocean to give my heart to you
And now I'm made of paper
And my blood has turned to ink
And my marrow is the pulp to the pulse
And you're now my paper queen
With my paper heart
A jewel in your crown
As I'm just a paper fool
A paper puppet
A paper love
Ruled by you

Its quite and its dark and its cold here
And I'm so afraid
I'm afraid I can't make you happy
The way you make me happy
And I keep getting stuck in the silence
Wanting to say that one thing
That one thing that can either build a kingdom
Or wreck one apart
You've done nothing but paint a smile on my face
You've made my dreadful boring days
Beautiful and rich
And I don't know how to repay your kindness
For shining your light into my dark life
I know you didn't do any of these things intentionally
I know you never expected this to happen
Neither did I
And now here I am dying to tell you what you already know
The words that my heart sings
The words that echo in my soul
Their burning in my gut
Their making my throat bleed
And their scaring me
Because I'm afraid I'm going to die if I say them
And Im afraid I'm going to die if I don't say them
But most of all I'm afraid if I do say them
They won't make you happy
And what good are they if they don't make you happy
But I just need to say them at least this one time


*I

  Love


    You...

I could shadow the voice of Baudelaire
And write tragic dark lines of flowers in pain
I could refrence Neruda or sit on a happy cloud with Blake
I could get drunk off Bukowski and steal from his grave
Or *** some dharma off of Kerouac while mispronouncing his name
And the list goes on
As does their influnce and voice
And they all slip in from time to tragic rhyme
We are all but theives
And death will make liars of us all
When our bodies turn to dust
In the **** and dirt of our shallow graves
I could...
And I do...
It might be my pen in my hand that I hold
But I don't always have complete control
Just like the heart
Living inside me
Crying inside me
Not wanting to die inside me
Its fire out of my hands
Too hot for my blood
Too pure for my eyes
Its yours now
To break or to hold
To care for or ******
To love or ignore
Its gone wild and rabid
And madly in love
Praying and singing
To you

Somedays the loving gives into the crying
Somedays the living calls out for the dying
Somedays the silence can't quite the screaming
Somedays the only thing moving me is falling for you

My love for you
Is not a desperate act of need
I will not lie
And claim without your touch
Your kiss
Your love
I will crumble
And fade
I am not desperately
In love with you
Without your love
I will survive this hollow strugle
We pretend to live our lives in
I will not crumble and fade to dust
And be scattered by the wind
And lost and forgotten in the rain
...

But I cannot hide this burning and desire of my heart
Or deny that I do love you
I can neither lie about the longing and ache of my love for you
Its beautiful hurt that dances wildly within me
It is an act and love not of desperation
It is the golden honey blood
Dripping from the
Heart of madness
A taste of sweet sickly love
I have never tasted
Never desired so intensely
Never been lost to so completely
Never danced with so recklessly
No my love for you has not made me weak and desperate
It has made my blood rich and thick and vibrant
It has made my heart beat and sing loud and fierce
It has raised the dead and lost parts of my soul
It has placed my reflection back in the mirror of truth
It has stiched my entire being back together
I am whole again and stronger
Madly in love
Mad for your touch
Your kiss
Your love
And without
Your love
Your kiss
Your touch
I will dance madly
I will live with these
Aches and longings
I will burn with desire
And purpose
Spending the rest of my days
And life after life
In the heart of this madness
And flames of this the sun
Blazing through eternity
For you
And only
You

Bodies made of honey
Souls rebuilding Kubla Khan
Hearts dripping sweetness
Pulsing gold blood through
Endless rivers of piety
Deep in the chasms
Of forbidden fidelity
A dream made and undisturbed
Between the soft and silky folds
Of sinew and quintessence
Along the edge of primrose path
Trembling hands did stich
Vivacity to consciousness
And gods of nectar pith
Did decree no act of love
Even those of
lewd and shameful tendrils
Could be spoken of as a wickedness
Your whispers rapturous delight
Made thunder bloom and devil cry
As your fingers lightning  
Galvanized the rage within the chambers of my heart
As crested waves did beat and pound
The tissue of my temperament
My soul capsized within did drown
And sank through depths unknown to man
A sinuous dance to madness called
And as Eden and leaf do fade and grieve
In this pulsing gold of honeys blood
By Moira I am bound to stay
Eternity a plaything
Of our love
Free to pleasure of endless flow
No thought or act a sin
Worlds collide and every moons heart do palpitate
To watch the stars rewrite the history of flame
As we walk and burn the surface of the sun with our feet
And our bodies cooled by its flickering tounges of fire
Our two hearts forged to one
And beat a song of huricanes
Engulfing and extinguish its blaze to the core
Collapsing the suns immortal heart
Planets swallowed to the vehemence birth of the black hole left behind
And we swim effortlessly from its rend and tear and pull
The universe ours to make a new
Your name makes ever gods lip quiver
And their eyes jealous and envious in heart
And they dare not speak to you as any less than their queen
In this place where you have
Become the beauty and light
And sun and heart
Of love itself
I am no king
Nothing more than
A feeble fool
Under the gaze of
Forevers sunset and eternities sunrise in the infintie blue seas
Choreographed in your eyes
Just a broken toy
Left to the care and disposition of your whim
To be played with
Or left to gather dust on your shelf
Yours and yours alone
Imprisoned in this resin pulse of gold
Favored by fate
To wear these blissful chains
No desire
Other than to walk
Naked through your incandescent souls scintillating luster
My love for you infused to immortality
My heart to suffer
To spare yours pain
My souls black blood and quill
To write song and prose
Of your pure truth bloomed
Here pulsating in honeycomb rivers flow
My entirety burned to this purpose and desire
My only act to walk through these flames
Only existing to be consumed by the blaze
And to live in your fire

I need you the way the skin needs a knife
Cutting away the dead and exposing the new
Such raw painful feelings
Such addicted needings
I want you like the page needs the pen
Spilling your dreams into my pulp
Feeding my pulse with your love
I'm just the face of a clock without hands
In each moment I spend without you
No use or no purpose
I'm dying for the cut of your kiss
Break the skin of my neck with your teeth
Expose all the lust and dreams hiding beneath
I'm aching for a drop of your heart
To absorb your light and your hopes
To be sweetly bleesed on the high of your touch
I need your hands on my face
Wipe away this dusty deaperation of tears
Give my life reason and heart hope
With your love

Strangers
We're all strangers
No matter how long
We know each other
Love each other
Wether its days or weeks or years
Of loving and fighting and *******
Spending our days of cold silence
And warm whispers together
Lonely nights in the same bed
And desperate longing when apart
Where just strangers
All of us
Married for years
Or stumbling through that first night
Of awkward first kisses and trembling hands
Strangers pretending to know more
And love more than we truthfully know how
Moaning names through the night and grumbling the daylight away
Just for that dreadful moment of false peace and happiness

None of us knowing anymore about anyone else than we know about ourselves
And we know nothing of ourselves
Faking the word
Pretending to feel

Unless you get lucky... not many do.  But theres a few rare gems out there that know  
The mad, the lunatics, those who refused the pill and choose the sickness
Those that would rather live ten million life times of anguish and torment just so they could feel one perfect moment of pure beauty and truth
Those seeking out the strange ones amongst the strangers
Those who do not pretend but know the how and dance with the why and its madness
Those that write their names across the clouds of heaven in stars blood
Those who kiss the angels and dance with demons
Those that have found each other life after life
Those who have swam through black holes
And walked on the surface of the sun just for that one moment to be together
That moment of beautiful  painful truth of love shared
Tangling body and heart and soul
Where they both become the singular heart beat of love resonating throughout the universe.  A sound that makes even the horizon of eternity shudder with pleasure.
I only knew strangers most of my life
A few strange ones here and there
And we had our moments
Of beauty and truth
But never a strange one like this
No nothing like this
In this one
I found that one perfect moment
That once in a lifetime love
And falling
And have fallen
To this mad mad love
For her
It is the honey gods are made of

Paper flowers blooming in my paper heart
Swaying gently back and forth
Singing every day
Song after song
Every sound
Every word about you
Its become an eternal spring
Under the sunshine of your smile
New words by the hour
Pushing through the pulp
Glowing deep red with pure love
Gardens unfolding by the mile
The grey dark skys washed away
Painted by the endless ocean blue of your eyes
Paper flowers
Paper heart
Paper world
All of it carved and covered
By the words inspired
By your soul
Your heart
Your light
Your love

Sometimes you just have to put your tears on the page
And let your love
Rage rage
Rage
True love has got to have that hurt
Just ask the universe
Why do you think
The moon is always
Cry cry
Crying
I never meant to fall
You never tried to steal
My heart
I fell though
Like sudden death
To madness
Loves sweet misery
Came and took
Me away
Above the clouds
Happy as a loon
Watching eternities sunrise
In those endless ocean eyes
My heart in your hands
To break
It happens
No blame
You never tried to steal it
It leapt into your hands
First chance it had
I don't blame it
I didn't trip over this edge
I jumped
I had too
Too beautiful and perfect
To let this chance pass
And I fell
Into this mad mad love
You can break it
I'll still be here
Heart or no heart
Madly in love
I won't leave you alone
I'll always be here
With you
Whenever you need me
I'll be at the end of the sea
Watching that eternal sunrise
In those endless ocean eyes