I saw you once, a passing glance
Be it fate or luck or simple chance
Our meeting was but happenstance

So long ago, and now there's this
It started with a simple kiss
From broken heart to lovely bliss

You're so far out of my league
I never thought of you and me
So here I am, surprised to see

You came to me out of thin air
Of your affections I was unaware
But I'm happy that they were there

But you and I? Let's take it slow
I want to see where this could go
We should do things right you know?

I have messed up once before
And then I gave him one encore
He's left me twice, so no more

I know you're similar to him in part
But I've seen you have a gentle heart
I'd always liked you from the start

What to call this? I'm not sure
And what you're after is quite obscure
But mystery has it's own allure
For now at least, I'll call me 'yours'

You're called by the name I gave you
And look exactly as I said
I know all your smallest details
And the sort of life you've led

I know that you have ice blue eyes
And hair as dark as night
I know you're over six foot tall
And have a smile that invites

I know that you are popular
And can easily draw a crowd
I know you're not good at holding back
And often voice your thoughts aloud

I know you are romantic
And speak of love that lasts forever
I know you have eyes for only me
But still we are not together

I know that you are musical
You'd always sing and play for me
Piano, bass, sax, guitar
It is where you feel most free

I know that you are quite carefree
And make everything a game
You're bad at being serious
But I know you're not ashamed

I know that you're athletic
Different things keep you active
basketball, track and ballet
They make you quite attractive

I know you spent three years with me
I know you cheated twice
I know that you regret it now
But you still must pay the price

I know you have a sister
And loving parents too
You have a great group of friends
Always willing to support you

I know that you're in a band
You love being up on stage
I know that you're as old as me
But neither of us act our age

I know that you're a loyal friend
That can always make me laugh
You tell me I'm the only one you love
Your perfect other half

I know everything there is to know
All your successes and your strife
I know everything you've ever known
Because I dreamed you into life

Mirror mirror, on the wall
Who's the fairest of them all?
Waiting there, proud and tall

Here I'm stopped in my tracks
Before me now, the mirrors cracked
All the different me's stare back

Smothered by the sight of these
I'm losing count of all I see
Who's the reflection, them or me?

My sanity is wearing thin
Their reaching now to pull me in
Not my fault, but still a sin

How do they all fit inside?
Brought to life with every lie
Am I crazy? I can't decide...

How am I supposed to feel?
My body's what they aim to steal
What is false and what is real?

Each of us wants control
But only one can have that role
If I lose, am I still whole?

Each of them is me in part
All of us were one to start
Somehow I've all but fell apart

So how do I put us back together?
Is there hope for one so severed?
Am I stuck this way forever?

No one can see what's gone amiss
Perhaps there is no fixing this
The real me, I will surely miss

I guess it's not so bad a trade
Someone else steps up when I'm afraid
My mind is more than a little frayed
That's what it is to be a girl unmade

I wish, I wish, with all my heart
That we never have to be apart

And even now I see your face
But someone else is in your place

There's a stranger in your skin
Why on earth did you let him in?

They say it's a curse, to have loved them all
Too easy I fall, too easy I fall

It hurts more to give more, and then have it unfurl
More love in the world, more love in the world

It can't possibly hurt anyone but me
Eager to please, eager to please

I'll give all I've got, til I disappear
Hope someone remembers
I was here, I was here

I feel my heart in pieces
       Although I see its whole

I feel aged beyond my years
       Though the mirror says it’s not so

I’m lonely all the time now
       Though the crowds would disagree

And from memories inside my head
       There’s no hope of breaking free


I hate that a relationship
        To start, always takes two

And when it’s time to end it
        All it took was you

Now everywhere I look
        And in everyone I see

A little bit of you
        Is staring back at me


I’m trying to move on
        I’m trying to forget

But all the little things build up
         And so I stay upset

Tears will come, and tears will go
         I’ve never cried so much you know?

And even when I should be hating you
          All I care is you’re not hurting too


I feel like I was cut short this time
           I still have things to say

You handled this all wrong, my friend
          There were a hundred better ways

I may not know you all that well
           In return, you don’t know me

I’m sorry I couldn’t be that girl
          The one you wish I’d be


I was nervous, I was new
         And I was horribly afraid

I knew we wouldn’t last forever
         But I said ‘yes’ anyway

I wanted, so bad, to be there for you
        To fulfill your every need

But mistakes were made, I’m sad to say
        And from me you did recede


I didn’t know what I was doing
        This was foreign, you were strange

And to this day, when I look back
          I can’t see what made you change

There was a time you wanted me
         And indeed you were my first

‘He got what he wanted, after all’
         If that’s true, then this is all far worse


If you used me
         Good for you

I hope you’re proud
         Of what you do

If you settled
       Or were expecting more

I’m sorry,
         I’d never done this before


Was I just filling another’s place?
          Did you plan this from the start?

I’m not sure where I stood sometimes
           But what had I, if not your heart?

I’m not one for protocol
           Nor wrapped up in tradition

While you were pining for a prior love
           With you I did fall smitten


Then things got quite out of hand
           And I couldn’t reach you anymore

All the romance seemed to die
          And you left me feeling like a *****

As much as I want to see you smile
          And though I tried to keep you

It felt like you wanted no part of this
          I only want it, if you want it too


I cannot fathom what went wrong
           I asked and got nothing back

We grew apart, you and I
          Until in silence I was trapped

I wish I could undo what happened
         There are things I wish I’d said

Instead my words remain unspoken
         And inside my heart feels dead


I know I will love others
          That’s something I can’t withhold

Just know that you don’t surprise me
         You acted exactly as I foretold

I know you really meant well
         At least that’s what I hope

Although many here have warned me
          “It was nothing but mirrors and smoke”


Before, we were together
          And now we are apart

It’s sad how I can clearly see
          The finish from the start

I guessed that you would end us
          The same way we came to be

You waited far too long to say it
         So the asking came down to me


Back then you said so lightly
         That I was all you needed

And then you turned so easily
          And said it better if we end it

You hurt me more than ever
          For days I could not cease crying

And the first question in my mind was
          So which time were you lying?