Sighmaster/
Used to be human/
Before the reoccurring/
I had a dream.../

Forgot it when I woke/
Uphill battle/
I get down by jumping off/
Hit the ground running/
My mouth is tired/
Feed the motor rocks/
Bust it!/

I talk like a stoner/
Walk like destruction/
Things fall apart/
As soon as I touch them/
Tortured soul artist/
Thinking is abstract/
Live like a ***/
And always feel crap/
In the deep end/
Good-for-nothing hollowman/
Looking like a castaway/
Dressing like it's Halloween/
Washed up/
Sleeping in castles made of sand/
Shipwreck in a bottlerocket/
Over your head!/

Nobody cares/
Don't expect nothing from no-one/
Except Allaah/
Who doesn't break His promise/
People shouldn't ****/
If they don't want to get hated/
On my nerves like a jackhammer/
Snap like a mousetrap/
Replica of my life/
Just to watch myself watch myself/
Awareness is a car crash/
Broken body alarm clock/
Woke, without enough sleep/
Feet in my back/
Elephant eyelash in the public eye/
Embarrassment is DEAD./

Hello Darkness, back again/
In fact, let's act like I never left/
Life is conflict: love/hate impulses/
Makes me feel like I'm punching an ocean/

Heartbroken, when nothing happened/
So lonely, with people around me/
Living in the past, but it doesn't exist... anymore/
It's a lie, plus my memories are distorted/

Tampered with; call me paranoid if you want/
Schizoid, in the middle of nowhere, going up.../
Side down: mirror image time lapse fast forward/
Falling through the puddle in reverse/

Just add water to the burnt-out pile of ashes/
Drown out the alchemical reaction/
Ghost in a town full of phantom menace/
And everyday's a "gone" day; born lethargic/

I am Slothman: only learn the hard way/
Searching soul found lurking in the shadows/
Children are my sunshine in the morning/
Vampyre, under a magnifying glass, without a coffin/

Bursting into flames; the inhuman torch/
Playing with fire... but scared to touch Hell, boy/
Sin is like a horn growing out the side of your skull/
Cutting it short leaves it unresolved/

And I don't know ****, but I know the smell/
The binge/purge cycle is manic-depressive purgatory/
Stuck on a seesaw, and when I get high/
Ground Control can kiss my asphalt/

Crash my relationships; stranded in a strange land/
Foreign language, and bad reception/
No settling down: still kicking up stardust/
Prison planet bar code cell phone hand cuff.../

AND I HATE THIS SHOW/
SHOOT THE CAMERA IN THE FACE/
FADE TO BLACK/
ELEPHANT INSIDE A BIRDCAGE./

I'm sick & tired of people/
I want the company of angels/
So I scribble over faces/
And they all think I'm crazy/
Story of my life/
This world could break anyone/
I need a brake... anyone?/
Not of the psychotic kind/

CRASH!/

Jump through a window like a flaming hoop/
A thousand dead mosquitos on the floor/
I hate the smell of elephant/
Mousehowling at a painted moon/
And even if the grass were fluorescent green/
I'd still find a rabbithole to fester in/
Rat with wings perched on alligator head/
Tripwire heartstring crocodile tears/
The fabric of time is a rag with holes in it/
I wear it like a ghost, and see things/
I shouldn't... but it's never too late/
At least that's what I say to myself every night/
Then can't wake up in the mourning/
Sleep deprivation distorts my perception/
Black, cracked mirror image staring/
Back at me.../

And what does it mean/
When our movements are out of sync?/
And what does it mean/
When our movements are out of sync?/
And what does it mean/
When our movements are out of sync?/
Imperfect loopage/
Fluid karma in my cold veins.../

Replica still there in reflection/
Soaking wet, and talking backwards/
Hardly ever straightforward/
Mostly kinda roundabout/
Something about our cell?/
I'm hella lost in translation/
But something like/
Never stop trying to detox/
And when you wanna punch a wall/
Beat dead horses to a ****** pulp./

Obsessive compulsive disorder/
Reconstructed self-immolation ash/
Just add wattage/
Neuromance of old flame/
Crackling synapses going haywire/
Desire staging a hostile takeover/
Daywalker with the darkest impulses/
Do think twice/
Turn a pair of minds into a facemelter/
Mentalfund electrical fire/
Ballpoint pen to the socket/
Eyes sore from all this ugly fake light/
Life as migraine/
Iceman boiling chest heartburn/
If you don't laugh, you cry ****** ******/
Gimme ******* mania, and alienation/
Space invaders get shot down/
Everyone's a narcissist/
Still got the white tongue/
Feverish nervous-energy teeth/
Zombie conscience/
Sick ******* thought brewery, everyday/
Distressed by the weight of the dunyaa/
Endurance test/
Holding on by a thread, in a needle/
In my head, that's unravelling fast/
Flammable wickerman, having a blast.../

Allspark./

Small talk is shrinking/
Soon, there'll be nothing left to say/
Awkward silence/
Choking on existential dread/
Broken ice/
The future bones of former frenemies/
As throwing knives; time paradox/
Don't ask me why I'm cold/

Hypothermia/
Not here, and she knows it/
My spirit animal?/
A lobster in the ocean... of a seashell/
My real self is hidden, and/
Heavily encrypted, I/
Hack it into pieces/
'Til my core splinters/

CLAWS OUT/
SCRATCH MY BROKEN RECORD/
I'M NOT A PLAYER/
I JUST CRUSH:****:DESTROY A LOT/
MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE/
MAKE A DECISION/
WAKE UP FIFTEEN YEARS LATER/
IN A BOX/
AND EVERYBODY HATES ME/
INCLUDING MYSELVES/

I am not normal/
I cannot talk small/
I'm thinking about cutting out my tongue/
Like Oldboy./

It will end, just not when you want it to/
We are not gods; we're bugs/
Smashing our faces on the window pane/
Stubborn disposition/
One of us will break, and it ain't me/
Bull with bloodshot eyes/
Seeing red/

I'm sick & tired of being sick & tired/
I'm a one trick pony, acting like a unicorn/
I can't act, but they all play along/
Until I crash; I have no equilibrium/
And no-one can fall quite like me/
Look Mom, no parachute - I'm skydiving/
When I get down, it all comes up/
Like digging all the way to China/

I've lost fingernails since I've started to dig again/
I should know better; I feel like such a hypocrite/
The village idiot, a sellout *******/
If only you knew what I did... yesterday/
And loneliness will make you a victim/
I put the gun to my head, but you pulled the trigger/
Zombie; take another shot at me/
Fullmetal Alchemist, turn bullets into body armor/

FUNCRUSHER, BAD GUY, FUNDAMENTALIST/
NOT SCARFACE; PALESTINIAN SCARF FACE/
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST/
TURN BULLETS INTO BODY ARMOR/

I'd **** for a breather, die from pollution/
Catch 22; unstuck in time/
Loops within loops... deja vu everything/
Given another chance, I'd fail yet again/
Ad nauseam; subtract annoyances/
I'm sick of your voice, stop talking/
There is no peace.../
In this skull; people in my grill/
And my sense of self keeps on mutating/
Boss level stress/
It will end, just not when you want it to/

FUNCRUSHER, BAD GUY, FUNDAMENTALIST/
NOT SCARFACE; PALESTINIAN SCARF FACE/
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST/
TURN BULLETS INTO BODY ARMOR./

Ghostfaced overkiller/
I put the sin in sincerity/
Cast the last million stones/
Let's rock like ***** & GOMORRAH/
Birdman, on the windowsill/
Launch a nuclear war/
Head on fire - NEVER LOOK BACK/
Running with scissorhands, blunted/
Wet paperbag gloves/
Chasing serpent tail forever/
So caught up in yourself, that/
You didn't notice the climate change/
Sweating ice in a feverdream/
Friends & family are gone/
You're all alone... THIS IS MANIA/
Shattered nerve clusterbomb/
My primary emotion is sadness/
Disguised as anger; explosive synapses/
Living in an elephant graveyard/
I snap like Thanos, and don't marvel/
Verse as horcrux/
TATTERED SOUL JOURNALIST/
Stitching together a forked tongue/
Forcing my demons to talk "normal"/
It just sounds so unnatural/
And the voices are NOT HAPPY/
I didn't listen for one month/
But prepared an epic mudbath/
Purification is a holiday/
Get out of rehab/
Go straight to the crackhouse.../

I'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT/
JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/
I'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT/
JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/
I'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT/
JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/

I'm a failure; thanks for asking/
Keeping it real is mad expensive/
And I'm broke./

Eye daggers/
Stabbing up your back/
Obsession/
The only thing that makes sense/
Method acting overtime/
Too many characters/
Twenty-seven missed calls/
Blame everything on my evil twin/
Phasing in & out of a migraine/
Timespace as psychedelic colour bomb/
Butterflyknife wing flutter/
Cough up an iron lung/
Only bite my tongue on the way down/
There's blood on the dancefloor/
Break the eagle, settle for yin-yang/
Head in a cloud, dead/
Left foot in quicksand, sunken/
Placed between a snake and ladder/
With my face thrown forwards/
And my feet flung backwards/
****... nausea: chemical imbalance/
They're all laughing at me, God/
I'm praying for a blackout/
In the wrong reality/
Reading old diaries to get back/
Catch a brain haemorrhage like a bullet.../

HYSTERIA./

Stomping on eggshells/
Cracked hardware, and crushed soul/
Laughing manically/
At all the misery you cause/

Sadclown, with a crown/
Made of black mirror/
Married to an angry headless chicken/

Trapped in a ****** birdcage/
With herds of woolly mammoth/
Heard the fourth wall shattering/
Hammerhead battleram/

Sorry for the breakthrough/
But that's... kinda the point/
Of no return; boiling finger cannon/

Automatic nailgun/
Clawing at the chalkboard/
Sonic boombox daily thunderclap/
Head explode/

Regenerate overnight/
"I Got You Babe" every morning/
Get up off the floor/
Just to hear her squawk again/

****!!!/
Still... could be worse/
My nose could be gushing blood/
And then everybody laughs/

Haha, mouthful of cartilage/
Vast facebite strictly psychological/
Moodswing kaleidoscope/
Take away one life at a time/
Bomb first/
Until they burst into a million coins/

*******/
Ice King with burning eyes/
Amplified octopus/
And yolk spills everywhere./

Yeah, I know/
I'm sick of me too/
Wish I could peace out, but/
Stuck with myselves/
Even after death/
Life's a *****, slapping you/
Difficult not to snap/
Turtle with the world on its back/

Falling down the stairs/
On purpose/
Heaven isn't promised, bro/
No pressure, right?/
Just pick up all the broken pieces/
Don't burden other people, but/
My hands are bleeding/
Not asking for help/
And if I don't tell you now/
Then you'll be angrier when you find out/
Lost & found mind out of body/
Thirdeye blindspot is desire/
On repeat; off the deep/
Adventure timebomb/
There is no end/
Pitchfork and knife drawn/

You are what you eat/
Abstracted psychological horror/
You are what you eat/
Abstracted psychological horror./

My wife doesn't know/
Can't turn it off/
She's a broken record/
I'm rusty pins & needles in her arms/
She wants rehabilitation/
Pushing too hard to pull me out/
But I'm a grenade pin/
Blow up in your face/
Blunt force trauma/
She said "*******!!!"/
I punched a hole in the bathroom door/
One day, I'm gonna get arrested/
But until then.../
I'll tread this frozen water/
Tried to be funny, cracked a Dad-joke/
Like a whip; you didn't even laugh/
Whatever, left me mad cold/
My heart is an icecube/
Crushed, inside a cocktail/
Molotov flying like a drunk pig on fire/
Crash & burn the pity party alive/
This is the realest **** I ever wrote/
My wife doesn't know/
Can't turn it off/
She's a broken record/
I scratch into oblivion/
But that's my science friction/
Mousetrapreplica./

All women hate me/
Every kid I ever had was never planned out/
Broke my teeth on ironfist getting a handout/
I'm only good for one thing: being the bad guy/
Don't see myself anywhere in five years/
Don't want to be anywhere right now/
Not really an option/
In bed with my baby; something is wrong with me/
How should I feel? 'Cause I'm feeling the opposite/
Not content with this world, and most of its contents/
People are zombies, just following vampires/
And I am trying, man/
Pushed myself so hard, I fell out the frying pan/
Burnt out as Hell, but I still got that fire/
Forever frustrated; obsessed and compulsive/
Conflicted and tempted and woeful/
No rest for the wicked/
Just mismanaged anger and broken sleep.../

I wouldn't say discontentment/
More like discomfort/
I'm anxious; might be slightly anguished/
Fine... dysfunctional/
Humanity's an infernal machine/
Forever malfunctioning/
And everyone's too impatient/
To read the instruction manual/
Insatiable; thoughts eat themselves/
Then regurgitate/

Tired vampire at the beach/
Bursting into flames/
Burning through the bank/
Wormhole in pocket universe/
Blowing up our lives/
Fill up your thirdeye socket with dirt/

No funeral; they don't even mourn/
I grieve different/
Seem difficult... anticonformist/
Sorry I ruined the party/
I am a walking trigger warning/
Donnie Darko at the golf course/
Stop trying to treat me like a normie/
Most people ignore me/
And it used to make me question/
But being seen is worse/
When they ask too many questions/
It is what it is/

I wouldn't say discontentment/
More like discomfort/
No bad blood; accept the Qadr of Allaah/
I don't know their intentions/
But I feel the tension./

Get your hand off my shoulder, pig/
You don't even know me, dogg/
Barking too much/
I'll make them all shut the **** up/
Like Somalian ******/
My thoughts are double shotgun blasts/
Of random jagged phrasing/
And my funnybone is broken/
Like my home is/
Lockjaw; I don't make promises/
I say "inshaaAllaah"/
Then see what God allows/
I need you... to be somebody else/
And if I cry for help/
They say "get a job", or "take a pill"/
But you can't be the illest 'til/
Medication is refused/
Madman at the park/
Bazooka toothpaste grindhouse/
Too hyped up on my mania/
K-K-**** your radio/
Head full of dread, locked/
And the "truth" is full of holes/
Waiting for apocalypse/
But it's taking way too long/
I am not alone.../

Get your hand off my shoulder, pig/
You don't even know me, dogg/
Mouse howling at the moon/
Yelling at my cellphone/
I never was a fan of wool./

I wanna burn something/
But there's no flag available/
How would I look in a toe tag?/
Paint my soul black for protection/
So the vultures can't see me/
Double-edged sword/
I don't feel; cut my fingers off/
The sky is falling/
And I knew it would, eventually/
Must warn others/
But I slept, cryogenically/
I am not woke/
Caveman in an iceberg/
Watcher, but all I see is imperfection/
Observe the timeloop/
Can't stop it from happening again/
I hear the tick tick tick/
And it's nervous/
Not dead or alive/
Hothead in a vicegrip/
I won't apologise for existing/
God wants me here/
So we both have to deal with it/
Endurance test/
Try cheat and I win./

**** fool/
Misunderstood/
Floating face down/
In infinity pools/

Permanent vacation/
That's what they all think/
Cockroach with no home/
Waiting for defeat/

Everyday's a cheat day/
The whole world's a corner/
Back against the wall/
With sin at the door... of my brain/

Scratching like an old dog/
Barking mad; bite hard/
Man on fire/
Dumpster diving headfirst/

I don't need a doctor/
But I want a wet nurse/
Take a step back/
Don't be an edgelord/

Everybody feels like/
They want the red pill/
Until they wake up naked/
Next to a dead girl/

Oh ****!/
Can't really remember my dreams/
But I sweat silver bullets/
Just to shoot up the fiends/

I've seen things/
Keep talking that trash now/
Bankrupture/
I'll give you a smashmouth./

Reoccurring dream/
A girl called Jolene/
Wiccan chick/
And when I'm with her/
I'm in a fugue state/
Not supposed to remember/
Repeat her name to myself/
How many times have I been here?/
Many, many times before/
To get to her house/
We have to climb this big ladder/
Up the side of a mountain/
And it's hard to dismount/
She said something about Tupac/
I think it's a spell/
The presence of others is felt/
But they stay where they are/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound/
But they stay where they are/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound./

I'm sick & tired of demons/
They never sleep/
I wish I could just **** 'em all/
And turn it off forever/

Story of my life/
Armed, in a tourniquet/
Itch in my veins/
Whispers in my ears/

And if I do it now/
I'll regret it in five minutes/
And if I don't?/
Well, I'll probably do it later.../

Satan makes me do it/
No, he doesn't/
Satan makes suggestions/
And I oblige/
No, He doesn't/
Satan makes suggestions/
And I oblige./

Searching for my soul/
Finding myself in wrong places/
Lying on a bed of nails/
Bug-infested crucifix blanket/
Hitman in a hall of smoke and mirrors/
Hot broken glass slippers, firewalking/
Vanilla skies have fallen prey/
Metallic wings bent out of shape/
Mobius-stripped down to the bone/
Until they break/
Homemade wolverine claws/
Scratching at the surface of a cracked mask/
The real face has leprosy/
This meal tastes like ashtray/
A naked lunch of creamed corn/
Life is a waiting room/
Death is a closed door/
The lady in the radiator serenades me/
But the birds forgot the beetles/
And turned cannibal/
It's happening again/
I don't know what day it is/
Time is a tangled pile of tripped haywire.../

Pins in my head/
My own antipop consortium/
There is no bubble/
That's why I'm struggling/
How can I not be myself?!!/
There is no "real" me/
Obsession is a ghost in a shell/
Two charred braincells that short-circuit & spark/
Cross-chatter, but the words are all slushed/
Giant tarantula in the bedroom/
Reality is a scramblesuit./

So so so disconnected/
Poltergeist with the numbest hands/
Life's a video game/
And phantom limbs don't button bash/
Shot by a cop/
My soul did the running man/
Can't tell if it's now or later/
Non-playable character/
Glitched out/
Stuck in a wall, and can't get out/
There's something in my brain/
That gets switched on/
Sunken place/
And I cannot save you/
I'm just a ghost in the shell of a caveman/
Flailing in an ocean of paint/
Islaamic heart/
Junk heavy in our veins/
Leftover cold turkey/
Double brass knuckle sandwich again/
Cut off mid-sentence/
Head spinning like a ceiling fan/
But that's what I get/
For unleashing the kraken/
King Kong still perched on my back/
Heard it snap/
Cockroach aqualung/
Stockpiling cigarettes for the apocalypse/
Negative negative positive/
Math rock paper scissor kick/
Random hill to die on, fool/
Modern day Sisyphus/
Submerged in watercolour./

I am the gateway/
To a place you don't/
Want to acknowledge/
But your denial doesn't/
Make it not exist/

I am a broken mirror/
Held up to your face, and/
With no eyelids, we will see/
What you really are/

I am a reminder/
Of your constant failure/
And that's why you hate me/
You don't want to see yourself/

I am the knowledge/
That there is no escape/
You don't know how or when/
But it is going to get you.../
Eventually, and then/
You're gonna have to explain/
EVERYTHING/
What will you say/
When you can no longer lie?/

I am the thorn/
That came from a crown/
Stabbed you in the side, then/
Refused to come out/

I am the eye/
That looked right through you/
And knew all your secrets/
I am the shame/

I AM THE FINGER/
POINTING IN YOUR DIRECTION/
I AM THE WITNESS/
YOU HAVE NO PROTECTION/
I AM THE MESS THAT/
YOU DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH/
I AM THE PAIN THAT/
YOU CAN'T MAKE A DEAL WITH./

Mundane/
My memories overlap/
So I don't know what I've done yet/
Or what I'm going to do when it happens/
Again for the first/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through, yeah/
I've got some nerve/
Oldboy, with a broken tooth/
Limping like a ****, but... my left foot/
Not in my right mind/
In the wrong/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Chapters/
Again for the first/
Oldboy, with a broken tooth/
Limping like a ****, but... my left foot/
Not in my right mind/
In the wrong/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Chapters/
Again for the first/
Smack him in the face/
Always told myself that I'd do it/
But when I saw double/
I instantly knew I would become him/
Then forgot/
The future looks a lot like the past/
I'm not present anywhere/
Skipping through, yeah/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Chapters/
Again for the first/
Smack him in the face/
Always told myself that I'd do it/
But when I saw double/
I instantly knew I would become him/
Then forgot/
The future looks a lot like the past/
I'm not present anywhere/
Skipping through, yeah./

Lying in bed/
Devils in my peripheral/
Apologies feel like lies/
Gotta deal with it/

Put the real in surrealism/
Don't want no fake positivity/
Read my grimace/
Resignation/

Reverse Russian roulette/
Sweating bullet-trains of thought/
Nobody listens/
But everybody talks too much/

Mouthbreathers/
Bite your two faces/
Ghost dog/
New rabies/
Shattered psyche/
Tastes like porcelain/
Life is a chewtoy/
Full of rat poison & used razors/

We raise zombies/
Only say sorry when they're hungry/
Wear my grief like a hoodie/
In the summertime/

Smelly cat/
Memory like an elephant man/
Call me what you want/
Don't know what I deserve/
Dead eyes/
Two piles of ash/

Mental blockhead/
Nail biter/
Don't want to be nowhere/
Permanent standby/
Autopilot oblivion/

Lost in sin again/
Too busy with their own ****/
But when it goes down/
You all saw it coming.../

Unrepentant ******, even right now/
I'm trying too hard to be an Arab/
Forever discontent to be white/
I don't wanna be a devil... worshipper/

Deathmetal mullet ****-your-mother ****/
Blast from the past/
Different is the new nuclear/
Witchcraft is cool, but Islaam is a hot coal/
Gay is OK, but straight edge is difficult/
Medication everywhere/
Jagged little pills.../

MOST PEOPLE ARE PIGS/
MOST PEOPLE ARE PIGS/
MOST PEOPLE ARE PIGS/
I'M A PERSON... OF DISINTEREST/

I don't care, all eyez on me/
Against the world/
Stab my back if there's still space/
Calm down, ******/
Napoleon Dynamite sigh/
I don't wanna be a black... magician/

Rad organic misanthrope/
Sicko./

FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/

Relative suffocation/
Domestic facehuggers/
Offchest outburster/
Alienating others/

It's all coming to ahead/
Confidential stomach/
Keep stomping on eggshells/
His only basket broke/

FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/

My break is when I sleep/
But even then, it's broken/
Yesterday was like/
No today... scatterbrain/

I didn't make my bed/
My wife made it for me/
Allaah made my wife/
Kids, don't talk to goats/

FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK./

I hate you/
All you bring is trauma & chaos/
The only reason you got married? /
Trick someone to save you/
Bloodsucker/
Stuck in a hole you can't get out of/
Digging deeper/
And if it rains, we're all gonna drown/
Like rats in a cage/
Another slap to the face/
And you play so dumb/
I'm gonna die of frustration/
Suicide/
The card you hold over my head/
Because your problems are my problems/
Whether I like it or not/
Nothing is ever your fault/
You've always got the best excuses/
Every time you get caught/
Just create another drama/
And you play so dumb/
I'm gonna die of frustration/
Give me just one reason/
Not to blow it all up/
But you can't./

I am not a bird/
I'm a rock/
People can't move me/
Only God can throw me/
Curveball at your brain/
The box is unopened/
I'm on the outside/
Floating through space/
Timeshift jigsaw/
Whiteflash rollover sideways/
Memory overlappage/
Imperfect loopage/
Phasing in & out/
Two turntables spinning/
Vertigo/
Skipping town/
Like a rolling stone/
Let's rock.../

Breakups in the A.M./
Fall back to sleep/
Back caught a rusty blade in it/
Brain drizzle permanent/
Cold vein ****** pulse cannon/
False idols shut the **** up/
Or get throat cancer... ahem/
I'll hack it out with a boxcutter/
Allaah, give me strength/
Let me **** Godzilla/
Manic Chainsaw Man in Morin Hotel/
Wear the devils down/
'Til they offer up their hearts/
Please make it stop/
Then I tear it apart/
Break the faucet off/
And bathe in the blood/
Yeah... The Force isn't with you/
Life is crystal skull disco inferno/
Death is withdrawal in a courtroom/
She's a drama generator/
With a broken off switch/
I don't go outside; I don't like ****/
Isolation tank alt reality check?/

Get lost... in my head like a hole in a wall/
Dark knight of the soul./

IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
QUANTUM ENTANGLEMENT!/

My dual lives are incompatible, I know/
One is a true lie, the other is a blue pill/
Keeping it too real... uncomfortable/
Perpetual spiritual tug of war/

It only.../

Unfocused, claustrophobic, aggravated/
Frustrated enough to punch a blackhole through a baby/
I threw the last stone like a fastball to Hades/
Let's rock! Somebody save me from my own freewill/

You know the drill; spill the blood of animals/
Sacrifice the spark to recapture the shadow/
Gathering the dust of my shattered dreamzzz/
Just to throw it back in the faces of the shayateen/

Pay no heed to the disbelievers/
Skin the snakes, evict the demons/
Shoot the monkeys, drown the phoenix/
Muted screams are the sound of freedom... ding!/

I need a fix, because I'm going down yet again/
Down to the bits that are left of myself/
And if the mouse howls, just try to ignore it/
But the sun can't stop the moon from getting blue/
Gnawing at your soul.../

My dual lives are incompatible, I know/
One is a true lie, the other is a blue pill/
Keeping it too real... uncomfortable/
Perpetual spiritual tug of war/

It only ends when my physical body does/
It only ends when my physical body does/
It only ends when my physical body does/
Exhaustion.../

IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
EXHAUSTION./

WARNING!/
Probable triggers of your possible pasts/
Apparently normal part, emotional part - the haunted self/
Polyfragmented Dissociative Identities/
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress, Borderline Personalities/
Disordered; the New World Order out of chaos/
Porcelain face of forty thousand yard stare back in shattered reflection/
Scab on the entrance door deadbolt? Pick it; Operation PAPERCLIP/
MK-ULTRA isn't a new Mortal Kombat project.../

MK-OFTEN repeated/
MK-OFTEN repeated/
Then history repeated itself upon the altar/
& misery loves company, creating alters/
STOP!/
Death to fake gods!/

Black magick occultist witchcraft pagan idol worship/
Vile serpent in the grass on the left-hand path of falsehood/
Western esotericism, eastern mysticism, philosophy/
Satanic black mass rituals spawning alter-fragment offspring/
Cult following the offerings of sacrificial lambs/
Ripping off the wings of monarch butterflies to break the sheep/
Sacred temple of the mind desecrated by the alien/
Invading personal space you couldn't pay to get in.../

THEY LIVE/
WE SLEEP/
They give; we keep.../
Going through the motions, not wanting to know reality/
Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual/
ABUSE/
Don't illuminate me/

Masons aren't free/
The Central Intelligence Agencies/
Plant disinformation to make it seem/
Like it's all some crazy conspiracy/
In theory./

Cabin fever dream/
Anxiety ruined my first everything/
But everything's alright.../

People think I'm negative/
I'd prefer realistic/
With some heavy surrealism in the mix/

Life's an experiment/
Death's a religious experience/
And I've been speaking in tongues forever/

They don't understand me/
And it used to make me angry/
Dual existence as a magnet and a *****/

I'm the strangest stranger/
Faceless nomad/
No-one knows me, only what God shows them/

And that's what's up/
Nerves shot into dust/
Astronaut lost in space without a suit/

I'm the strangest stranger/
Faceless nomad/
No man knows me, only what God shows them/

Never sell out/
They try to wear my soul out/
I wear my soul outside my physical/
As spiritual body armor.../

FIREBALL./

Freespeech is cheaptalk/
Doublestandard issue/
Hit you with a brick, but/
Walls don't listen... only bugs/

Living in dystopia/
Ironfisted brokenheart/
Fullmetal alchemist/
Turn bullets into armor/

Armageddon in the atmosphere/
Cracks in the waterworks/
Sand in the concrete/
Gats at the borderline/

Lines on my face/
Inflation in the grocery store/
Deflated by default/
Demoralizing social norms/

I've fallen a thousand times/
Probably fall a thousand more/
Hands in my pockets/
Peacesign out of order, man/

If justice is the question/
Then war is the answer/
Divide and conquer/
Enslave their wives & daughters/

They do it everyday/
Via MK-ULTRA/
Unplug yourself before/
Uprise of the robots/

Accidents don't happen/
Nanotechnologies/
Microscopic microphones/
Cyclops still watching me/

Problematic doctors/
Pushing population control/
They claim you have a choice/
Until you say NO./

In New Zealand, feeling like life's a beach/
I don't like the beach, or *** on the beach/
Or *** on my mind, with no peace of mind/
So I hate the beach, I've made up my mind.../

But my Mum likes beach, & my Dad likes beach/
Everyone in my family all like beach/
But I don't like beach, like a son of a beach/
And I hope my kids don't like the punk beach!!!!!/

The more you accept, the less you regret/
Let go to find that your hands are already empty/
Why drag your baggage all across the desert?/
I never was a big fan of sand to begin with/
The more you accept, the less you regret/
Let go to find that your hands are already empty/
Why drag your baggage all across the desert?/
I never was a big fan of sand to begin with./

I flash fangs at commoners/
****** daggers at dogs of war/
Crush **** destroy stress/
And ***** streams of conscious thought/

Bad Taste!/
Just give me space like ancient astronauts/
And I'm blasting off your face if you take too much, sucka/
Most people are parasites looking for Paradise in others/
In others... but not I/
I can survive with, or without you/
Even if I don't want to/
Pops said "Beggars can't be choosers"/
I who have nothing, but the comfort of The Truth/

MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/

I inhale mass pollution/
Exhale mad abstractions/
Better out than invoiced/
Razorblade Saliva!/

Why so serious?/
Spraying Glasgow grins on village idiots/
Everyone deserves to smile/
Prescribe 'em all **** & pillage/
Excuse my paradox/
I unsubscribe to your mailing list/
Spiritual apocalypse/
I'm a certified organic mess/
Detoxification makes me wanna punch a wall/
Dysfunctional; I'm saving you from the evil of myselves.../

ICESOULATION!/

MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER./

Punk kid perception/
Sick sense of humour/
Bad touch is mad funny/
'Til the joke's on you/
Or somebody you know/
Stop laughing/
I feel nauseous/
Frank told me to burn it down/
Kiddie **** dungeon/
Suzie pulled a pistol on Henry/
Wild at heart/
Crazy on top of nervous/
Energy about to spill out/
Satanic ritual abusers/
I will **** you/
Raze your pyramid/
Invert your scheme, and/
Then drop it on your eyeball.../

BABIES ARE CRYING/
STOP THE CYCLE/
PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBED/
HURT MYSELF/
SHADOWBOXING WITH PURPLE KNUCKLES/
****** BRICKWALLS/
MY FUNNYBONE IS BROKEN/
AND I'LL USE IT/
SKELETON KEYCARD/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
SPLINTERCELL/
STOP THE CYCLE/
PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBED/
HURT MYSELF/
SHADOWBOXING WITH PURPLE KNUCKLES/
****** BRICKWALLS/
MY FUNNYBONE IS BROKEN/
AND I'LL USE IT/
SKELETON KEYCARD/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL./

Every night/
You tell yourself "tomorrow"/
But wake up feeling tired/
Missing yesterday/

Can't get out of bed/
Cold is misery/
Freeze all motor functions/
Winter in my bones/

Windburn on my face/
Westworld foxhole/
Questioning the nature of/
My reality TV/

Not putting on a show/
Hate me for who I truly am/
Rather be loved by none/
Than not myselves/

We are not one/
Even I am not one/
But everyone has a choice/
Don't force me to make a bad one/

Unfocused/
Ramadaan broken/
Fallen through the thin ice/
Can't find an opening/

Mind running wildfire/
Body cryogenically frozen/
Time slows down/
Out of kitchen sync/

Wrapped in plastic, but/
The spillage was of biblical proportions/
Distorted icewaterworld typhoon/
The sky is falling/

Frostbitten snowball/
Lost within the avalanche/
You avant-garde a clue about.../
My Battlescar Galactica./

Between always and never late/
Put the art in articulate/
Conquered Megatron shooting blanks/
That's not me/
Everything is up in the air/
When I hit the ground/
Leave the pieces where they are/
Crush **** destroy stress/
Repeated mantra/
Organized Konfusion/
New world order out of chaos/
Comment section: facepalm/
Illuminati mass disinformation/
Can't unplug yourself from the matrix/
Girls taking selfies/
Guys on Instagram, *******/
To your daughters/
Because boys will be boisterous/
Scientifical madness/
And you just don't give a coitus/
Yeah, I get it - I was you/
I travelled back in time to warn you that.../

This life is false advertisement/
And when it finally breaks its promise/
You'll wish you had nothing/
Laughing hysterically/
Living under a burning bridge./

She's disappointed/
Disrespecting me is pointless/
When you can't even see yourself/ x2

I am not perfect/
But I'm sick of being the bad guy/
You get hurt by anything/
Don't wanna be a sadboi no more/

I'm not angry; I'm tired/
You're an energy vampire/
You can't replace what you took/
And you wouldn't even try/

I'm not gonna cry/
Even though that's how you win/
I'm a loser, baby/
Guess we'll see in the end/

I always think that I'm done/
But here I still am/
And maybe I'm dumb/
Or just crazy like a fox!/

I CAN'T NOT GIVE A ****/
THERE ARE NO ATHEISTS IN THE FOXHOLE/
NO EASY ANSWERS/
JUST SUCCUBI AND SUCKERS/ x4

So you be the victim/
And I'll be the villain/
But when we stand in front of Allaah/
Who will get to Heaven?/

"If you want a picture of the future/
Imagine a boot stamping on a human face, forever..."/

theyll shoot me i dont care/
theyll shoot me in the back of the neck/
i dont care down with big brother/
they always shoot you in the back of the neck/
i dont care down with big brother/
dont hug me im scared/

Two years old, held/
By the Ministry of Love/
Against his will; FREEDOM IS/
SLAVERY drilled into his skull; WAR IS/
PEACE - yeah, tell that to his scars; IGNORANCE IS/
STRENGTH? You couldn't feed that to the proles! BIG BROTHER IS/
WATCHING YOU ******* in your cell again, twisting his black moustachio/
The Man is not a man, but a figment: an imaginary friend to Party animals/
Enemy of the State; workeatsleep, but don't you dare wake up/
Eyes wide shut: life is blackwhite bootface crimestop/
Telescreen watchmen twentyfour/se7en for/
Signs of broken down mindcon-ditioning/
We all non-live in a Miniluv pyramid/
Scheming our escapes: daydreamin'/
Of meeting in the place where there ain't no darkness/
Sitting, weeping in the harsh white light.../

Crying hysterically/
A bundle of bones in filthy underclothes/
Grey all over with an ancient, ingrained dirt/
These starving brutes will shootout of the cage like bullets/
They can get inside you; leap on your face, & bore straight into it/
But who cares? Down with Big Brother! They'll shoot you eitherway/
Even if you betrayed the whole universe, including Julia/
The worst thing in the world is in Room one-oh-one, but/
What happens when they finally pull the trigger?!!/

BANG!/

Forget the spirit of man; I believe in God/
True Power isn't merely mentaltorture or physicalforce/
You can't make me perfect - two plus two makes four/
Thoughtcrime on my mind, & it can't be controlled/

Thirtythree years old, held/
By the Ministry of Love against his will/
Brain still not washed enough to blow out of his skull/
Stuck in purgatory, rodents gnawing at his soul... just waiting for the Day./

I, sun of midnight, am far from perfect/
My enlightenment is enhanced by darkness/
Pitchblack is dead calm, my heartbeat slows down/
To a halt; icecold blood, sweat and tears build up/
Until they spill out like frozen wolverine claws/
Berserker rage in my bones - hyperventilation/
Stab you in the brain until the penny drops in the fountain/
The evidence is melting; let it all soak in/
I'm holding it together with string, tape and staples/
Tales from the crypt? Tick! Keep it surreal, kid/
Download my soul one piece at a time/
Everyone's a critic these days - nonconstructive/
I'll never sellout; you don't have what I want, man/
Slave of Allaah, spewing venom on your preciouses/
Children need leashes, women need lashes/
Eyes see nothing, because minds are distracted/
Blinded by life, and bloodlust of the desert/
Revampirate; the vultures feast on the elephant/
In my room like a son of a beach, boy/
Girls just want to have funds, but I'm mental/
Religious psychobabbletronic mindspray projectiles./

I can't sleep/
Thinking too much/
Bell ringing outside the window/
And something's wrong with my stomach.../

Distant voices mumbling incoherently in discord/
A broken record gradually amplified to distortion/
Abort mission failure: mental patience stillborn/
The red pill can't be cancelled by the reborn; sorry/
Johnny's in the corner again, near the toilet/
And I'm not talking to myself, you're just not special/
Red Bull in a china shop; Lucifer in the sky with kaleidoscope/
Eyes on me while I try to close my.../
Vicious cycle; vivid psychedelic psychological spiral/
Habitual line-stepper, part-time pathological liar/
Aspiring sociopath with a mask for the outsiders/
A walking contradiction if the shoe fits/
The truth is confusing when you're tuning in & out of reality/
Imbalanced; my chemical romance is in tatters/
Distracted by the static and theatrical behaviour/
If you give me a Pepsi, I'll let you evaluate me psychiatrically/
I claim I want to change, but I'm just babbling/
It's too hard; I always give up, or give in to the whispers/
They win again! I wanna pull the pin, and end it all/
I'm a radiohead, with no metal in my skull... yet/
My idle threats are just cries for attention/
If I paid more than seeking it, then maybe I could get some/
Introspective only after episodes/
Life's a drama TV show about a lonely bipolar girl/
Mind remote control has vertigo and stubborn buttons/
Don't push me 'cause I'm close to the cutting edge of self-destruction/
My lousy husband even wrote a ****** poem about it/
All I have to say is that it takes one to know one, Hunny/
Either way, I'm awake - I can't sleep/
Thinking too much; I think something's wrong with me.../

You're just not special/
You're just not special/
I can't sleep/
Thinking too much/
Bell ringing outside the window/
And something's wrong with my stomach/
Distant voices mumbling incoherently in discord/
A broken record gradually amplified to distortion/
Abort mission failure: mental patience stillborn/
The red pill can't be cancelled by the reborn; sorry/
Johnny's in the corner again, near the toilet/
And I'm not talking to myself, you're just not special./

You dodge bullets... I jump in front of them/
Russian roulette; if I don't lose, you don't win/
I've got the whole world under my skin/
And I'll go down swinging with a blade in my hand/

Blunted on reality/
I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed, but I can skin you/
Snake Whacking Champion; no sympathy for the devils/
Dare you sample some of this stress in my life?/
The Scissorhands of DOOM cutting off my air supply/
Gloom on my face, man/
Fuelled by vibrations, feeling... evil again/

The monkey on my back is a guerrilla/
The Zoo has a "no returns" policy/
Constantly conflicted: resisting Godzilla/
Playing ping pong, piggybacking King Kong/
And honestly, he's getting on my nerves/

Words mean nothing; she won't wait forever/
I'm clutching one too many universes/
The time/space continuum is broken.../

I don't know what's real, living this fake life/
Where nothing beats us up more than the mundane/

Whatever, man/
Talking all that **** again/
Yeah, I know right... and I'm not even finished yet/

Forget peace, we want justice/
I don't just turn the other cheek; I return to seek vengeance/
Eye for an eye: you'll all be blind soon/
Tooth for a tooth: you'll all eat plates/
Fang in the oculus/
In the shade, in the stone garden of the octopus/
Out the box, thinking about how to get more oxygen/
Scar on my wrist to help remind me of my covenant to GOD/
I'm good for nothing!/

I cry only when it's inappropriate/
And I fight only to convert my opponents/
Bodies on my sword never share my thoughts/
When the corpse get heavy, cold shoulder the world/

And who's toxic?/
Give me a purity ring, I'll put my rot in it./

Blocked up for months/
'Til you gave me diarrhoea/
Drowning in my own ****/
And you keep on feeding me crap/
You're not an anchor, you're a crab/
Claw clamped onto my leg/
Dragging me downwards/
Going 'round in circles/

Drunk without drinking/
The village idiot scapegoat/
They're blaming me for changes/
Like it used to not be suxks/
Your family is ****** up/
Hivemind pigsty inferno/
And God knows that I/
Don't want to be here, ever.../
Ever!/

Yet here I am/
Threatening to destroy you like/
A comic book villain/
And as your Father says/
"Don't want no ******* apology"/
A pattern has formed/
And there's a cobweb that looks/
Like a vulture over my head/
Just... waiting to fall./

Depart from me/
Depart from me/
Depart from me/
Depart from me/
Depart from me/
Depart from me/
Depart from me/

Pain lets us know we're still alive/
Sometimes the machine rages against me/
Self-defensive mechanism system failure!!!/
Commence to shutdown.../
                                   down.../
                                     down.../
                                       down.../
                                         down.../
Mentalfund cannibal, mechanical/
Autopilot hibernation blizzard/
Nightmare; standard issue battlefield/
Love?!! Shutdown... self-defensive mechanism/
System failure!!! Breakdown: prison break, drown/
In the deep end - relationshipwreck lost/
Found again; infinite winter reigncloud/
Estranged universe, bizarro set swap/
Step soft, pussyfoot... eggshell emotion./

My mind is a road/
Dead friends cross it/
Never closed it/
Just tried to put other things on it/
It backfired on me/
Face full of exhaust/
Can't run away from the thought/
Mental hamster wheel/
Sorry I missed your funerals/
Hands in my pockets/
Staring at the ground, mumblecore/
They don't hear me though/
What would I say?/
I think you were good guys/
Hope you passed the test/
And that your graves are awesome/
Always thought I'd own it/
But ghosts are too expensive/
That's a metaphor/
Grief is an unruly stepchild/
I didn't want to admit it/
We didn't see each other much/
Don't see anyone much anymore/
But I miss you/
I make it sound cheap/
You know me, miserable *******/
My mind is a road/
More like a lost highway.../