She's disappointed/
Disrespecting me is pointless/
When you can't even see yourself/ x2

I am not perfect/
But I'm sick of being the bad guy/
You get hurt by anything/
Don't wanna be a sadboi no more/

I'm not angry; I'm tired/
You're an energy vampire/
You can't replace what you took/
And you wouldn't even try/

I'm not gonna cry/
Even though that's how you win/
I'm a loser, baby/
Guess we'll see in the end/

I always think that I'm done/
But here I still am/
And maybe I'm dumb/
Or just crazy like a fox!/

I CAN'T NOT GIVE A ****/
THERE ARE NO ATHEISTS IN THE FOXHOLE/
NO EASY ANSWERS/
JUST SUCCUBI AND SUCKERS/ x4

So you be the victim/
And I'll be the villain/
But when we stand in front of Allaah/
Who will get to Heaven?/

Every night/
You tell yourself "tomorrow"/
But wake up feeling tired/
Missing yesterday/

Can't get out of bed/
Cold is misery/
Freeze all motor functions/
Winter in my bones/

Windburn on my face/
Westworld foxhole/
Questioning the nature of/
My reality TV/

Not putting on a show/
Hate me for who I truly am/
Rather be loved by none/
Than not myselves/

We are not one/
Even I am not one/
But everyone has a choice/
Don't force me to make a bad one/

Unfocused/
Ramadaan broken/
Fallen through the thin ice/
Can't find an opening/

Mind running wildfire/
Body cryogenically frozen/
Time slows down/
Out of kitchen sync/

Wrapped in plastic, but/
The spillage was of biblical proportions/
Distorted icewaterworld typhoon/
The sky is falling/

Frostbitten snowball/
Lost within the avalanche/
You avant-garde a clue about.../
My Battlescar Galactica./

Between always and never late/
Put the art in articulate/
Conquered Megatron shooting blanks/
That's not me/
Everything is up in the air/
When I hit the ground/
Leave the pieces where they are/
Crush **** destroy stress/
Repeated mantra/
Organized Konfusion/
New world order out of chaos/
Comment section: facepalm/
Illuminati mass disinformation/
Can't unplug yourself from the matrix/
Girls taking selfies/
Guys on Instagram, *******/
To your daughters/
Because boys will be boisterous/
Scientifical madness/
And you just don't give a coitus/
Yeah, I get it - I was you/
I travelled back in time to warn you that.../

This life is false advertisement/
And when it finally breaks its promise/
You'll wish you had nothing/
Laughing hysterically/
Living under a burning bridge./

Blocked up for months/
'Til you gave me diarrhoea/
Drowning in my own ****/
And you keep on feeding me crap/
You're not an anchor, you're a crab/
Claw clamped onto my leg/
Dragging me downwards/
Going 'round in circles/

Drunk without drinking/
The village idiot scapegoat/
They're blaming me for changes/
Like it used to not be suxks/
Your family is ****** up/
Hivemind pigsty inferno/
And God knows that I/
Don't want to be here, ever.../
Ever!/

Yet here I am/
Threatening to destroy you like/
A comic book villain/
And as your Father says/
"Don't want no ******* apology"/
A pattern has formed/
And there's a cobweb that looks/
Like a vulture over my head/
Just... waiting to fall./

Punk kid perception/
Sick sense of humour/
Bad touch is mad funny/
'Til the joke's on you/
Or somebody you know/
Stop laughing/
I feel nauseous/
Frank told me to burn it down/
Kiddie **** dungeon/
Suzie pulled a pistol on Henry/
Wild at heart/
Crazy on top of nervous/
Energy about to spill out/
Satanic ritual abusers/
I will **** you/
Raze your pyramid/
Invert your scheme, and/
Then drop it on your eyeball.../

BABIES ARE CRYING/
STOP THE CYCLE/
PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBED/
HURT MYSELF/
SHADOWBOXING WITH PURPLE KNUCKLES/
****** BRICKWALLS/
MY FUNNYBONE IS BROKEN/
AND I'LL USE IT/
SKELETON KEYCARD/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
SPLINTERCELL/
STOP THE CYCLE/
PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBED/
HURT MYSELF/
SHADOWBOXING WITH PURPLE KNUCKLES/
****** BRICKWALLS/
MY FUNNYBONE IS BROKEN/
AND I'LL USE IT/
SKELETON KEYCARD/
FREE ALL THE PRISONERS/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL/
SPLINTERCELL./

Freespeech is cheaptalk/
Doublestandard issue/
Hit you with a brick, but/
Walls don't listen... only bugs/

Living in dystopia/
Ironfisted brokenheart/
Fullmetal alchemist/
Turn bullets into armor/

Armageddon in the atmosphere/
Cracks in the waterworks/
Sand in the concrete/
Gats at the borderline/

Lines on my face/
Inflation in the grocery store/
Deflated by default/
Demoralizing social norms/

I've fallen a thousand times/
Probably fall a thousand more/
Hands in my pockets/
Peacesign out of order, man/

If justice is the question/
Then war is the answer/
Divide and conquer/
Enslave their wives & daughters/

They do it everyday/
Via MK-ULTRA/
Unplug yourself before/
Uprise of the robots/

Accidents don't happen/
Nanotechnologies/
Microscopic microphones/
Cyclops still watching me/

Problematic doctors/
Pushing population control/
They claim you have a choice/
Until you say NO./

I flash fangs at commoners/
****** daggers at dogs of war/
Crush **** destroy stress/
And ***** streams of conscious thought/

Bad Taste!/
Just give me space like ancient astronauts/
And I'm blasting off your face if you take too much, sucka/
Most people are parasites looking for Paradise in others/
In others... but not I/
I can survive with, or without you/
Even if I don't want to/
Pops said "Beggars can't be choosers"/
I who have nothing, but the comfort of The Truth/

MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/

I inhale mass pollution/
Exhale mad abstractions/
Better out than invoiced/
Razorblade Saliva!/

Why so serious?/
Spraying Glasgow grins on village idiots/
Everyone deserves to smile/
Prescribe 'em all **** & pillage/
Excuse my paradox/
I unsubscribe to your mailing list/
Spiritual apocalypse/
I'm a certified organic mess/
Detoxification makes me wanna punch a wall/
Dysfunctional; I'm saving you from the evil of myselves.../

ICESOULATION!/

MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER/
MENTAL TEXTRIS PATCHWORK CLOCKWORK/
FREEZERBURNER FREEZERBURNER./

I, sun of midnight, am far from perfect/
My enlightenment is enhanced by darkness/
Pitchblack is dead calm, my heartbeat slows down/
To a halt; icecold blood, sweat and tears build up/
Until they spill out like frozen wolverine claws/
Berserker rage in my bones - hyperventilation/
Stab you in the brain until the penny drops in the fountain/
The evidence is melting; let it all soak in/
I'm holding it together with string, tape and staples/
Tales from the crypt? Tick! Keep it surreal, kid/
Download my soul one piece at a time/
Everyone's a critic these days - nonconstructive/
I'll never sellout; you don't have what I want, man/
Slave of Allaah, spewing venom on your preciouses/
Children need leashes, women need lashes/
Eyes see nothing, because minds are distracted/
Blinded by life, and bloodlust of the desert/
Revampirate; the vultures feast on the elephant/
In my room like a son of a beach, boy/
Girls just want to have funds, but I'm mental/
Religious psychobabbletronic mindspray projectiles./

I'm sick & tired of demons/
They never sleep/
I wish I could just **** 'em all/
And turn it off forever/

Story of my life/
Armed, in a tourniquet/
Itch in my veins/
Whispers in my ears/

And if I do it now/
I'll regret it in five minutes/
And if I don't?/
Well, I'll probably do it later.../

Satan makes me do it/
No, he doesn't/
Satan makes suggestions/
And I oblige/
No, He doesn't/
Satan makes suggestions/
And I oblige./

FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/

Relative suffocation/
Domestic facehuggers/
Offchest outburster/
Alienating others/

It's all coming to ahead/
Confidential stomach/
Keep stomping on eggshells/
His only basket broke/

FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/

My break is when I sleep/
But even then, it's broken/
Yesterday was like/
No today... scatterbrain/

I didn't make my bed/
My wife made it for me/
Allaah made my wife/
Kids, don't talk to goats/

FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK/
FRYING PAN TO FIREWOOD/
CABIN FEVER PITCHFORK./

WARNING!/
Probable triggers of your possible pasts/
Apparently normal part, emotional part - the haunted self/
Polyfragmented Dissociative Identities/
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress, Borderline Personalities/
Disordered; the New World Order out of chaos/
Porcelain face of forty thousand yard stare back in shattered reflection/
Scab on the entrance door deadbolt? Pick it; Operation PAPERCLIP/
MK-ULTRA isn't a new Mortal Kombat project.../

MK-OFTEN repeated/
MK-OFTEN repeated/
Then history repeated itself upon the altar/
& misery loves company, creating alters/
STOP!/
Death to fake gods!/

Black magick occultist witchcraft pagan idol worship/
Vile serpent in the grass on the left-hand path of falsehood/
Western esotericism, eastern mysticism, philosophy/
Satanic black mass rituals spawning alter-fragment offspring/
Cult following the offerings of sacrificial lambs/
Ripping off the wings of monarch butterflies to break the sheep/
Sacred temple of the mind desecrated by the alien/
Invading personal space you couldn't pay to get in.../

THEY LIVE/
WE SLEEP/
They give; we keep.../
Going through the motions, not wanting to know reality/
Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual/
ABUSE/
Don't illuminate me/

Masons aren't free/
The Central Intelligence Agencies/
Plant disinformation to make it seem/
Like it's all some crazy conspiracy/
In theory./

In New Zealand, feeling like life's a beach/
I don't like the beach, or *** on the beach/
Or *** on my mind, with no peace of mind/
So I hate the beach, I've made up my mind.../

But my Mum likes beach, & my Dad likes beach/
Everyone in my family all like beach/
But I don't like beach, like a son of a beach/
And I hope my kids don't like the punk beach!!!!!/

The more you accept, the less you regret/
Let go to find that your hands are already empty/
Why drag your baggage all across the desert?/
I never was a big fan of sand to begin with/
The more you accept, the less you regret/
Let go to find that your hands are already empty/
Why drag your baggage all across the desert?/
I never was a big fan of sand to begin with./

"If you want a picture of the future/
Imagine a boot stamping on a human face, forever..."/

theyll shoot me i dont care/
theyll shoot me in the back of the neck/
i dont care down with big brother/
they always shoot you in the back of the neck/
i dont care down with big brother/
dont hug me im scared/

Two years old, held/
By the Ministry of Love/
Against his will; FREEDOM IS/
SLAVERY drilled into his skull; WAR IS/
PEACE - yeah, tell that to his scars; IGNORANCE IS/
STRENGTH? You couldn't feed that to the proles! BIG BROTHER IS/
WATCHING YOU ******* in your cell again, twisting his black moustachio/
The Man is not a man, but a figment: an imaginary friend to Party animals/
Enemy of the State; workeatsleep, but don't you dare wake up/
Eyes wide shut: life is blackwhite bootface crimestop/
Telescreen watchmen twentyfour/se7en for/
Signs of broken down mindcon-ditioning/
We all non-live in a Miniluv pyramid/
Scheming our escapes: daydreamin'/
Of meeting in the place where there ain't no darkness/
Sitting, weeping in the harsh white light.../

Crying hysterically/
A bundle of bones in filthy underclothes/
Grey all over with an ancient, ingrained dirt/
These starving brutes will shootout of the cage like bullets/
They can get inside you; leap on your face, & bore straight into it/
But who cares? Down with Big Brother! They'll shoot you eitherway/
Even if you betrayed the whole universe, including Julia/
The worst thing in the world is in Room one-oh-one, but/
What happens when they finally pull the trigger?!!/

BANG!/

Forget the spirit of man; I believe in God/
True Power isn't merely mentaltorture or physicalforce/
You can't make me perfect - two plus two makes four/
Thoughtcrime on my mind, & it can't be controlled/

Thirtythree years old, held/
By the Ministry of Love against his will/
Brain still not washed enough to blow out of his skull/
Stuck in purgatory, rodents gnawing at his soul... just waiting for the Day./

I can't sleep/
Thinking too much/
Bell ringing outside the window/
And something's wrong with my stomach.../

Distant voices mumbling incoherently in discord/
A broken record gradually amplified to distortion/
Abort mission failure: mental patience stillborn/
The red pill can't be cancelled by the reborn; sorry/
Johnny's in the corner again, near the toilet/
And I'm not talking to myself, you're just not special/
Red Bull in a china shop; Lucifer in the sky with kaleidoscope/
Eyes on me while I try to close my.../
Vicious cycle; vivid psychedelic psychological spiral/
Habitual line-stepper, part-time pathological liar/
Aspiring sociopath with a mask for the outsiders/
A walking contradiction if the shoe fits/
The truth is confusing when you're tuning in & out of reality/
Imbalanced; my chemical romance is in tatters/
Distracted by the static and theatrical behaviour/
If you give me a Pepsi, I'll let you evaluate me psychiatrically/
I claim I want to change, but I'm just babbling/
It's too hard; I always give up, or give in to the whispers/
They win again! I wanna pull the pin, and end it all/
I'm a radiohead, with no metal in my skull... yet/
My idle threats are just cries for attention/
If I paid more than seeking it, then maybe I could get some/
Introspective only after episodes/
Life's a drama TV show about a lonely bipolar girl/
Mind remote control has vertigo and stubborn buttons/
Don't push me 'cause I'm close to the cutting edge of self-destruction/
My lousy husband even wrote a ****** poem about it/
All I have to say is that it takes one to know one, Hunny/
Either way, I'm awake - I can't sleep/
Thinking too much; I think something's wrong with me.../

You're just not special/
You're just not special/
I can't sleep/
Thinking too much/
Bell ringing outside the window/
And something's wrong with my stomach/
Distant voices mumbling incoherently in discord/
A broken record gradually amplified to distortion/
Abort mission failure: mental patience stillborn/
The red pill can't be cancelled by the reborn; sorry/
Johnny's in the corner again, near the toilet/
And I'm not talking to myself, you're just not special./

IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
QUANTUM ENTANGLEMENT!/

My dual lives are incompatible, I know/
One is a true lie, the other is a blue pill/
Keeping it too real... uncomfortable/
Perpetual spiritual tug of war/

It only.../

Unfocused, claustrophobic, aggravated/
Frustrated enough to punch a blackhole through a baby/
I threw the last stone like a fastball to Hades/
Let's rock! Somebody save me from my own freewill/

You know the drill; spill the blood of animals/
Sacrifice the spark to recapture the shadow/
Gathering the dust of my shattered dreamzzz/
Just to throw it back in the faces of the shayateen/

Pay no heed to the disbelievers/
Skin the snakes, evict the demons/
Shoot the monkeys, drown the phoenix/
Muted screams are the sound of freedom... ding!/

I need a fix, because I'm going down yet again/
Down to the bits that are left of myself/
And if the mouse howls, just try to ignore it/
But the sun can't stop the moon from getting blue/
Gnawing at your soul.../

My dual lives are incompatible, I know/
One is a true lie, the other is a blue pill/
Keeping it too real... uncomfortable/
Perpetual spiritual tug of war/

It only ends when my physical body does/
It only ends when my physical body does/
It only ends when my physical body does/
Exhaustion.../

IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
IT ONLY ENDS WHEN MY PHYSICAL BODY DOES/
EXHAUSTION./

You dodge bullets... I jump in front of them/
Russian roulette; if I don't lose, you don't win/
I've got the whole world under my skin/
And I'll go down swinging with a blade in my hand/

Blunted on reality/
I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed, but I can skin you/
Snake Whacking Champion; no sympathy for the devils/
Dare you sample some of this stress in my life?/
The Scissorhands of DOOM cutting off my air supply/
Gloom on my face, man/
Fuelled by vibrations, feeling... evil again/

The monkey on my back is a guerrilla/
The Zoo has a "no returns" policy/
Constantly conflicted: resisting Godzilla/
Playing ping pong, piggybacking King Kong/
And honestly, he's getting on my nerves/

Words mean nothing; she won't wait forever/
I'm clutching one too many universes/
The time/space continuum is broken.../

I don't know what's real, living this fake life/
Where nothing beats us up more than the mundane/

Whatever, man/
Talking all that **** again/
Yeah, I know right... and I'm not even finished yet/

Forget peace, we want justice/
I don't just turn the other cheek; I return to seek vengeance/
Eye for an eye: you'll all be blind soon/
Tooth for a tooth: you'll all eat plates/
Fang in the oculus/
In the shade, in the stone garden of the octopus/
Out the box, thinking about how to get more oxygen/
Scar on my wrist to help remind me of my covenant to GOD/
I'm good for nothing!/

I cry only when it's inappropriate/
And I fight only to convert my opponents/
Bodies on my sword never share my thoughts/
When the corpse get heavy, cold shoulder the world/

And who's toxic?/
Give me a purity ring, I'll put my rot in it./

Cabin fever dream/
Anxiety ruined my first everything/
But everything's alright.../

People think I'm negative/
I'd prefer realistic/
With some heavy surrealism in the mix/

Life's an experiment/
Death's a religious experience/
And I've been speaking in tongues forever/

They don't understand me/
And it used to make me angry/
Dual existence as a magnet and a *****/

I'm the strangest stranger/
Faceless nomad/
No-one knows me, only what God shows them/

And that's what's up/
Nerves shot into dust/
Astronaut lost in space without a suit/

I'm the strangest stranger/
Faceless nomad/
No man knows me, only what God shows them/

Never sell out/
They try to wear my soul out/
I wear my soul outside my physical/
As spiritual body armor.../

FIREBALL./

Breakups in the A.M./
Fall back to sleep/
Back caught a rusty blade in it/
Brain drizzle... permanent/
Cold vein ****** pulse cannon/
False idols shut the **** up/
Or get throat cancer/
Ahem/
I'll hack it out with a boxcutter/
Allaah, give me strength/
Let me **** Godzilla/
Manic Chainsaw Man in Morin Hotel/
Wear the devils down/
'Til they offer up their hearts/
Please make it stop/
Then I tear it apart/
Break the faucet off/
And bathe in the blood/
Yeah... The Force isn't with you/
Life is crystal skull disco inferno/
Death is withdrawal in a courtroom/
She's a drama generator/
With a broken off switch/
I don't go outside, I don't like ****/
Isolation tank alt reality check?/

I hate you/
All you bring is trauma & chaos/
The only reason you got married? /
Trick someone to save you/
Bloodsucker/
Stuck in a hole you can't get out of/
Digging deeper/
And if it rains, we're all gonna drown/
Like rats in a cage/
Another slap to the face/
And you play so dumb/
I'm gonna die of frustration/
Suicide/
The card you hold over my head/
Because your problems are my problems/
Whether I like it or not/
Nothing is ever your fault/
You've always got the best excuses/
Every time you get caught/
Just create another drama/
And you play so dumb/
I'm gonna die of frustration/
Give me just one reason/
Not to blow it all up/
But you can't./

Reoccurring dream/
A girl called Jolene/
Wiccan chick/
And when I'm with her/
I'm in a fugue state/
Not supposed to remember/
Repeat her name to myself/
How many times have I been here?/
Many, many times before/
To get to her house/
We have to climb this big ladder/
Up the side of a mountain/
And it's hard to dismount/
She said something about Tupac/
I think it's a spell/
The presence of others is felt/
But they stay where they are/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound./

**** fool/
Misunderstood/
Floating face down/
In infinity pools/

Permanent vacation/
That's what they all think/
Cockroach with no home/
Waiting for defeat/

Everyday's a cheat day/
The whole world's a corner/
Back against the wall/
With sin at the door... of my brain/

Scratching like an old dog/
Barking mad; bite hard/
Man on fire/
Dumpster diving headfirst/

I don't need a doctor/
But I want a wet nurse/
Take a step back/
Don't be an edgelord/

Everybody feels like/
They want the red pill/
Until they wake up naked/
Next to a dead girl/

Oh ****!/
Can't really remember my dreams/
But I sweat silver bullets/
Just to shoot up the fiends/

I've seen things/
Keep talking that trash now/
Bankrupture/
I'll give you a smashmouth./

I wouldn't say discontentment/
More like discomfort/
I'm anxious; might be slightly anguished/
Fine... dysfunctional/
Humanity's an infernal machine/
Forever malfunctioning/
And everyone's too impatient/
To read the instruction manual/
Insatiable; thoughts eat themselves/
Then regurgitate/
Tired vampire at the beach/
Bursting into flames/
Burning through the bank/
Wormhole in pocket universe/
Blowing up our lives/
Fill up your thirdeye socket with dirt/
No funeral; they don't even mourn/
I grieve different/
Seem difficult... anticonformist/
Sorry I ruined the party/
I am a walking trigger warning/
Donnie Darko at the golf course/
Stop trying to treat me like a normie/
Most people ignore me/
And it used to make me question/
But being seen is worse/
When they ask too many questions/
It is what it is/
I wouldn't say discontentment/
More like discomfort/
No bad blood, accept the Qadr of Allaah/
I don't know their intentions/
But I feel the tension./

So so so disconnected/
Poltergeist with the numbest hands/
Life's a video game/
And phantom limbs don't button bash/
Shot by a cop/
My soul did the running man/
Can't tell if it's now or later/
Non-playable character/
Glitched out/
Stuck in a wall, and can't get out/
There's something in my brain/
That gets switched on/
Sunken place/
And I cannot save you/
I'm just a ghost in the shell of a caveman/
Flailing in an ocean of paint/
Islaamic heart/
Junk heavy in our veins/
Leftover cold turkey/
Double brass knuckle sandwich again/
Cut off mid-sentence/
Head spinning like a ceiling fan/
But that's what I get/
For unleashing the kraken/
King Kong still perched on my back/
Heard it snap/
Cockroach aqualung/
Stockpiling cigarettes for the apocalypse/
Negative negative positive/
Math rock paper scissor kick/
Random hill to die on, fool/
Modern day Sisyphus/
Submerged in watercolour./

I wanna burn something/
But there's no flag available/
How would I look in a toe tag?/
Paint my soul black for protection/
So the vultures can't see me/
Double edged sword/
I don't feel; cut my fingers off/
The sky is falling/
And I knew it would, eventually/
Must warn others/
But I slept, cryogenically/
I am not woke/
Caveman in an iceberg/
Watcher, but all I see is imperfection/
Observe the timeloop/
Can't stop it from happening again/
I hear the tick tick tick/
And it's nervous/
Not dead or alive/
Hothead in a vicegrip/
I won't apologise for existing/
God wants me here/
So we both have to deal with it/
Endurance test/
Try cheat and I win./

Lying in bed/
Devil’s in my peripheral/
Apologies feel like lies/
Gotta deal with it/

Put the real in surrealism/
Don’t want no fake positivity/
Read my grimace/
Resignation/

Reverse Russian roulette/
Sweating bullet-trains of thought/
Nobody listens/
But everybody talks too much/

Mouthbreathers/
Bite your two faces/
Ghost dog/
New rabies/
Shattered psyche/
Tastes like porcelain/
Life is a chewtoy/
Full of rat poison & used razors/

We raise zombies/
Only say sorry when they’re hungry/
Wear my grief like a hoodie/
In the summertime/

Smelly cat/
Memory like an elephant man/
Call me what you want/
Don’t know what I deserve/
Dead eyes/
Two piles of ash/

Mental blockhead/
Nail biter/
Don’t want to be nowhere/
Permanent standby/
Autopilot oblivion/

Lost in sin again/
Too busy with their own ****/
But when it goes down/
You all saw it coming.../

Yeah, I know.../
I'm sick of me too/
Wish I could peace out, but/
Stuck with myselves/
Even after death/
Life's a *****, slapping you/
Difficult not to snap/
Turtle with the world on it's back/
Falling down the stairs.../
On purpose/
Heaven isn't promised, bro/
No pressure, right?/
Just pick up all the broken pieces/
Don't burden other people, but.../
My hands are bleeding/
Not asking for help/
And if I don't tell you now/
Then you'll be angrier when you.../
Find out/
Lost & found mind out of body/
Thirdeye blindspot is desire/
On repeat; off the deep.../
Adventure timebomb/
There is no end/
Pitchfork and knife drawn/
You are what you eat.../
Abstracted psychological horror./

Get your hand off my shoulder, pig/
You don't even know me, dogg/
Barking too much/
I'll make them all shut the **** up/
Like Somalian ******/
My thoughts are double shotgun blasts/
Of random jagged phrasing/
And my funnybone is broken/
Like my home is/
Lockjaw; I don't make promises/
I say "inshaaAllaah"/
Then see what God allows/
I need you... to be somebody else/
And if I cry for help/
They say "get a job", or "take a pill"/
But you can't be the illest 'til/
Medication is refused/
Madman at the park/
Bazooka toothpaste grindhouse/
Too hyped up on my mania/
K-K-**** your radio/
Head full of dread, locked/
And the "truth" is full of holes/
Waiting for apocalypse/
But it's taking way too long/
I am not alone.../

Get your hand off my shoulder, pig/
You don't even know me, dogg/
Mouse howling at the moon/
Yelling at my cellphone/
I never was a fan of wool./

My wife doesn't know/
Can't turn it off/
She’s a broken record/
I’m rusty pins & needles in her arms/
She wants rehabilitation/
Pushing too hard to pull me out/
But I'm a grenade pin/
Blow up in your face/
Blunt force trauma/
She said "*******"/
I punched a hole in the bathroom door/
One day, I'm gonna get arrested/
But until then.../
I'll tread this frozen water/
Tried to be funny, cracked a Dad-joke/
Like a whip; you didn't even laugh/
Whatever, left me mad cold/
My heart is an icecube/
Crushed, inside a cocktail/
Molotov flying like a drunk pig on fire/
Crash & burn the pity party alive/
This is the realest **** I ever wrote/
My wife doesn't know/
Can't turn it off/
She's a broken record/
I scratch into oblivion/
But that's my science friction/
Mousetrapreplica./

All women hate me/
Every kid I ever had was never planned out/
Broke my teeth on ironfist getting a handout/
I'm only good for one thing: being the bad guy/
Don't see myself anywhere in five years/
Don't want to be anywhere right now/
Not really an option/
In bed with my baby; something is wrong with me/
How should I feel? 'Cause I'm feeling the opposite/
Not content with this world, and most of its contents/
People are zombies, just following vampires/
And I am trying, man/
Pushed myself so hard, I fell out the frying pan/
Burnt out as Hell, but I still got that fire/
Forever frustrated; obsessed and compulsive/
Conflicted and tempted and woeful/
No rest for the wicked/
Just mismanaged anger and broken sleep.../

Obsessive compulsive disorder/
Reconstructed self-immolation ash/
Just add wattage/
Neuromance of old flame/
Crackling synapses going haywire/
Desire staging a hostile takeover/
Daywalker with the darkest impulses/
Do think twice/
Turn a pair of minds into a facemelter/
Mentalfund electrical fire/
Ballpoint pen to the socket/
Eyes sore from all this ugly fake light/
Life as migraine/
Iceman boiling chest heartburn/
If you don't laugh, you cry ****** ******/
Gimme ******* mania, and alienation/
Space invaders get shot down/
Everyone's a narcissist/
Still got the white tongue/
Feverish nervous-energy teeth/
Zombie conscience/
Sick ******* thought brewery, everyday/
Distressed by the weight of the dunyaa/
Endurance test/
Holding on by a thread, in a needle/
In my head, that's unravelling fast/
Flammable wickerman, having a blast.../

Allspark./

It will end, just not when you want it to/
We are not gods; we're bugs/
Smashing our faces on the window pane/
Stubborn disposition/
One of us will break, and it ain't me/
Bull with bloodshot eyes/
Seeing red/

I'm sick & tired of being sick & tired/
I'm a one trick pony, acting like a unicorn/
I can't act, but they all play along/
Until I crash; I have no equilibrium/
And no-one can fall quite like me/
Look Mom, no parachute - I'm skydiving/
When I get down, it all comes up/
Like digging all the way to China/

I've lost fingernails since I've started to dig again/
I should know better; I feel like such a hypocrite/
The village idiot, a sellout *******/
If only you knew what I did... yesterday/
And loneliness will make you a victim/
I put the gun to my head, but you pulled the trigger/
Zombie; take another shot at me/
Fullmetal Alchemist, turn bullets into body armor/

FUNCRUSHER, BAD GUY, FUNDAMENTALIST/
NOT SCARFACE; PALESTINIAN SCARF FACE/
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST/
TURN BULLETS INTO BODY ARMOR/

I'd **** for a breather, die from pollution/
Catch 22; unstuck in time/
Loops within loops... deja vu everything/
Given another chance, I'd fail yet again/
Ad nauseam; subtract annoyances/
I'm sick of your voice, stop talking/
There is no peace.../
In this skull; people in my grill/
And my sense of self keeps on mutating/
Boss level stress/
It will end, just not when you want it to/

FUNCRUSHER, BAD GUY, FUNDAMENTALIST/
NOT SCARFACE; PALESTINIAN SCARF FACE/
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST/
TURN BULLETS INTO BODY ARMOR./

Ghostfaced overkiller/
I put the sin in sincerity/
Cast the last million stones/
Let's rock like ***** & GOMORRAH/
Birdman, on the windowsill/
Launch a nuclear war/
Head on fire - NEVER LOOK BACK/
Running with scissorhands, blunted/
Wet paperbag gloves/
Chasing serpent tail forever/
So caught up in yourself, that/
You didn't notice the climate change/
Sweating ice in a feverdream/
Friends & family are gone/
You're all alone... THIS IS MANIA/
Shattered nerve clusterbomb/
My primary emotion is sadness/
Disguised as anger; explosive synapses/
Living in an elephant graveyard/
I snap like Thanos, and don't marvel/
Verse as horcrux/
TATTERED SOUL JOURNALIST/
Stitching together a forked tongue/
Forcing my demons to talk "normal"/
It just sounds so unnatural/
And the voices are NOT HAPPY/
I didn't listen for one month/
But prepared an epic mudbath/
Purification is a holiday/
Get out of rehab/
Go straight to the crackhouse.../

I'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT/
JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/
I'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT/
JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/
I'M NOT GONNA FAKE IT/
JUST TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER/

I'm a failure; thanks for asking/
Keeping it real is mad expensive/
And I'm broke./

Eye daggers/
Stabbing up your back/
Obsession/
The only thing that makes sense/
Method acting overtime/
Too many characters/
Twenty-seven missed calls/
Blame everything on my evil twin/
Phasing in & out of a migraine/
Timespace as psychedelic colour bomb/
Butterflyknife wing flutter/
Cough up an iron lung/
Only bite my tongue on the way down/
There's blood on the dancefloor/
Break the eagle, settle for yin-yang/
Head in a cloud, dead/
Left foot in quicksand, sunken/
Placed between a snake and ladder/
With my face thrown forwards/
And my feet flung backwards/
****... nausea: chemical imbalance/
They're all laughing at me, God/
I'm praying for a blackout/
In the wrong reality/
Reading old diaries to get back/
Catch a brain haemorrhage like a bullet.../

HYSTERIA./

Small talk is shrinking/
Soon, there'll be nothing left to say/
Awkward silence/
Choking on existential dread/
Broken ice/
The future bones of former frienemies/
As throwing knives; time paradox/
Don't ask me why I'm cold/
Hypothermia/
Not here, and she knows it/
My spirit animal: a lobster in the ocean/
Of a seashell/
My real self is hidden, and/
Heavily encrypted, I/
Hack it into pieces/
Until my core splinters.../

CLAWS OUT/
SCRATCH MY BROKEN RECORD/
I'M NOT A PLAYER/
I JUST CRUSH:****:DESTROY A LOT/
MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE/
MAKE A DECISION/
WAKE UP FIFTEEN YEARS LATER/
IN A BOX/
AND EVERYBODY HATES ME/
INCLUDING MYSELVES.../

I am not normal/
I cannot talk small/
I'm thinking about cutting out my tongue/
Like Oldboy./

I'm sick & tired of people/
I want the company of angels/
So I scribble over faces/
And they all think I'm crazy/
Story of my life/
This world could break anyone/
I need a brake... anyone?/
Not of the psychotic kind/

CRASH!/

Jump through a window like a flaming hoop/
A thousand dead mosquitos on the floor/
I hate the smell of elephant/
Mousehowling at a painted moon/
And even if the grass were fluorescent green/
I'd still find a rabbithole to fester in/
Rat with wings perched on alligator head/
Tripwire heartstring crocodile tears/
The fabric of time is a rag with holes in it/
I wear it like a ghost, and see things/
I shouldn't... but it's never too late/
At least that's what I say to myself every night/
Then can't wake up in the mourning/
Sleep deprivation distorts my perception/
Black, cracked mirror image staring/
Back at me.../

And what does it mean/
When our movements are out of sync?/
And what does it mean/
When our movements are out of sync?/
And what does it mean/
When our movements are out of sync?/
Imperfect loopage/
Fluid karma in my cold veins.../

Replica still there in reflection/
Soaking wet, and talking backwards/
Hardly ever straightforward/
Mostly kinda roundabout/
Something about our cell?/
I'm hella lost in translation/
But something like/
Never stop trying to detox/
And when you wanna punch a wall/
Beat dead horses to a ****** pulp./

Searching for my soul
Finding myself in wrong places
Lying on a bed of nails
Bug-infested crucifix blanket
Hitman in a hall of smoke & mirrors
Hot broken glass slippers, firewalking
Vanilla skies have fallen prey
Metallic wings bent out of shape
Möbius-stripped down to the bone
Until they break
Homemade wolverine claws
Scratching at the surface of a cracked mask
The real face has leprosy
This meal tastes like ashtray
A naked lunch of creamed corn
Life is a waiting room
Death is a closed door
The lady in the radiator serenades me
But the birds forgot the beetles
& turned cannibal
It’s happening again
I don’t know what day it is
Time is a tangled pile of tripped haywire
Pins in my head
My own anti-pop consortium
There is no bubble
That’s why I’m struggling
How can I not be myself?!!

There is no “real” me
Obsession is a ghost in a shell
Two charred braincells that short-circuit & spark
Cross-chatter, but the words are all slushed
Giant tarantula in the bedroom
Reality is a scramble-suit.

I am the gateway
To a place you don’t
Want to acknowledge
But your denial doesn’t
Make it not exist

I am a broken mirror
Held up to your face, and
With no eyelids, we will see
What you really are

I am a reminder
Of your constant failure
And that’s why you hate me
You don’t want to see yourself

I am the knowledge
That there is no escape
You don’t know how or when
But it is going to get you... Eventually
And then you’re gonna have to explain EVERYTHING
What will you say when you can no longer lie?

I am the thorn
That came from a crown
Stabbed you in the side, then
Refused to come out

I am the eye
That looked right through you
And knew all your secrets
I am the shame...

I am the finger
Pointing in your direction
I am the witness
You have no protection
I am the mess
That you don’t wanna deal with
I am the pain
That you can’t make a deal with.

Sighmaster/
Used to be human/
Before the reoccurring/
I had a dream.../

Forgot it when I woke/
Uphill battle/
I get down by jumping off/
Hit the ground running/
My mouth is tired/
Feed the motor rocks/
Bust it!/

I talk like a stoner/
Walk like destruction/
Things fall apart/
As soon as I touch them/
Tortured soul artist/
Thinking is abstract/
Live like a ***/
And always feel crap/
In the deep end/
Good-for-nothing hollowman/
Looking like a castaway/
Dressing like it's Halloween/
Washed up/
Sleeping in castles made of sand/
Shipwreck in a bottlerocket/
Over your head!/

Nobody cares/
Don't expect nothing from no-one/
Except Allaah/
Who doesn't break His promise/
People shouldn't ****/
If they don't want to get hated/
On my nerves like a jackhammer/
Snap like a mousetrap/
Replica of my life/
Just to watch myself watch myself/
Awareness is a car crash/
Broken body alarm clock/
Woke, without enough sleep/
Feet in my back/
Elephant eyelash in the public eye/
Embarrassment is DEAD./

Unrepentant ******, even right now/
I'm trying too hard to be an Arab/
Forever discontent to be white/
I don't wanna be a devil... worshipper/

Deathmetal mullet ****-your-mother ****/
Blast from the past/
Different is the new nuclear/
Witchcraft is cool, but Islaam is a hot coal/
Gay is OK, but straight edge is difficult/
Medication everywhere/
Jagged little pills.../

MOST PEOPLE ARE PIGS/
MOST PEOPLE ARE PIGS/
MOST PEOPLE ARE PIGS/
I'M A PERSON... OF DISINTEREST/

I don't care, all eyez on me/
Against the world/
Stab my back if there's still space/
Calm down, ******/
Napoleon Dynamite sigh/
I don't wanna be a black... magician/

Rad organic misanthrope/
Sicko./

Stomping on eggshells/
Cracked hardware, and crushed soul/
Laughing manically/
At all the misery you cause/

Sadclown, with a crown/
Made of black mirror/
Married to an angry headless chicken/

Trapped in a ****** birdcage/
With herds of woolly mammoth/
Heard the fourth wall shattering/
Hammerhead battleram/

Sorry for the breakthrough/
But that's... kinda the point/
Of no return; boiling finger cannon/

Automatic nailgun/
Clawing at the chalkboard/
Sonic boombox daily thunderclap/
Head explode/

Regenerate overnight/
"I Got You Babe" every morning/
Get up off the floor/
Just to hear her squawk again/

****!!!/
Still... could be worse/
My nose could be gushing blood/
And then everybody laughs/

Haha, mouthful of cartilage/
Vast facebite strictly psychological/
Moodswing kaleidoscope/
Take away one life at a time/
Bomb first/
Until they burst into a million coins/

*******/
Ice King with burning eyes/
Amplified octopus/
And yolk spills everywhere./

Hello Darkness, back again/
In fact, let's act like I never left/
Life is conflict: love/hate impulses/
Makes me feel like I'm punching an ocean/

Heartbroken, when nothing happened/
So lonely, with people around me/
Living in the past, but it doesn't exist... anymore/
It's a lie, plus my memories are distorted/

Tampered with; call me paranoid if you want/
Schizoid, in the middle of nowhere, going up.../
Side down: mirror image time lapse fast forward/
Falling through the puddle in reverse/

Just add water to the burnt-out pile of ashes/
Drown out the alchemical reaction/
Ghost in a town full of phantom menace/
And everyday's a "gone" day; born lethargic/

I am Slothman: only learn the hard way/
Searching soul found lurking in the shadows/
Children are my sunshine in the morning/
Vampyre, under a magnifying glass, without a coffin/

Bursting into flames; the inhuman torch/
Playing with fire... but scared to touch Hell, boy/
Sin is like a horn growing out the side of your skull/
Cutting it short leaves it unresolved/

And I don't know ****, but I know the smell/
The binge/purge cycle is manic-depressive purgatory/
Stuck on a seesaw, and when I get high/
Ground Control can kiss my asphalt/

Crash my relationships; stranded in a strange land/
Foreign language, and bad reception/
No settling down: still kicking up stardust/
Prison planet bar code cell phone hand cuff.../

AND I HATE THIS SHOW/
SHOOT THE CAMERA IN THE FACE/
FADE TO BLACK/
ELEPHANT INSIDE A BIRDCAGE./

Mundane/
My memories overlap/
So I don't know what I've done yet/
Or what I'm going to do when it happens/
Again for the first/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through, yeah/
I've got some nerve/
Oldboy, with a broken tooth/
Limping like a ****, but... my left foot/
Not in my right mind/
In the wrong/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Chapters/
Again for the first/
Oldboy, with a broken tooth/
Limping like a ****, but... my left foot/
Not in my right mind/
In the wrong/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Chapters/
Again for the first/
Smack him in the face/
Always told myself that I'd do it/
But when I saw double/
I instantly knew I would become him/
Then forgot/
The future looks a lot like the past/
I'm not present anywhere/
Skipping through, yeah/
Time is a scratched disc/
Skipping through/
Chapters/
Again for the first/
Smack him in the face/
Always told myself that I'd do it/
But when I saw double/
I instantly knew I would become him/
Then forgot/
The future looks a lot like the past/
I'm not present anywhere/
Skipping through, yeah./