Reoccurring dream/
A girl called Jolene/
Wiccan chick/
And when I'm with her/
I'm in a fugue state/
Not supposed to remember/
Repeat her name to myself/
How many times have I been here?/
Many, many times before/
To get to her house/
We have to climb this big ladder/
Up the side of a mountain/
And it's hard to dismount/
She said something about Tupac/
I think it's a spell/
The presence of others is felt/
But they stay where they are/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound/
But they stay where they are/
She leads me to her room/
And we're def gonna smash/
No condoms allowed/
She wants to get pregnant/
We don't talk at all/
I transition again/
But this iteration is different/
And that is somehow profound./

**** fool/
Misunderstood/
Floating face down/
In infinity pools/

Permanent vacation/
That's what they all think/
Cockroach with no home/
Waiting for defeat/

Everyday's a cheat day/
The whole world's a corner/
Back against the wall/
With sin at the door... of my brain/

Scratching like an old dog/
Barking mad; bite hard/
Man on fire/
Dumpster diving headfirst/

I don't need a doctor/
But I want a wet nurse/
Take a step back/
Don't be an edgelord/

Everybody feels like/
They want the red pill/
Until they wake up naked/
Next to a dead girl/

Oh ****!/
Can't really remember my dreams/
But I sweat silver bullets/
Just to shoot up the fiends/

I've seen things/
Keep talking that trash now/
Bankrupture/
I'll give you a smashmouth./

I wouldn't say discontentment/
More like discomfort/
I'm anxious; might be slightly anguished/
Fine... dysfunctional/
Humanity's an infernal machine/
Forever malfunctioning/
And everyone's too impatient/
To read the instruction manual/
Insatiable; thoughts eat themselves/
Then regurgitate/

Tired vampire at the beach/
Bursting into flames/
Burning through the bank/
Wormhole in pocket universe/
Blowing up our lives/
Fill up your thirdeye socket with dirt/

No funeral; they don't even mourn/
I grieve different/
Seem difficult... anticonformist/
Sorry I ruined the party/
I am a walking trigger warning/
Donnie Darko at the golf course/
Stop trying to treat me like a normie/
Most people ignore me/
And it used to make me question/
But being seen is worse/
When they ask too many questions/
It is what it is/

I wouldn't say discontentment/
More like discomfort/
No bad blood; accept the Qadr of Allaah/
I don't know their intentions/
But I feel the tension./

So so so disconnected/
Poltergeist with the numbest hands/
Life's a video game/
And phantom limbs don't button bash/
Shot by a cop/
My soul did the running man/
Can't tell if it's now or later/
Non-playable character/
Glitched out/
Stuck in a wall, and can't get out/
There's something in my brain/
That gets switched on/
Sunken place/
And I cannot save you/
I'm just a ghost in the shell of a caveman/
Flailing in an ocean of paint/
Islaamic heart/
Junk heavy in our veins/
Leftover cold turkey/
Double brass knuckle sandwich again/
Cut off mid-sentence/
Head spinning like a ceiling fan/
But that's what I get/
For unleashing the kraken/
King Kong still perched on my back/
Heard it snap/
Cockroach aqualung/
Stockpiling cigarettes for the apocalypse/
Negative negative positive/
Math rock paper scissor kick/
Random hill to die on, fool/
Modern day Sisyphus/
Submerged in watercolour./

I wanna burn something/
But there's no flag available/
How would I look in a toe tag?/
Paint my soul black for protection/
So the vultures can't see me/
Double-edged sword/
I don't feel; cut my fingers off/
The sky is falling/
And I knew it would, eventually/
Must warn others/
But I slept, cryogenically/
I am not woke/
Caveman in an iceberg/
Watcher, but all I see is imperfection/
Observe the timeloop/
Can't stop it from happening again/
I hear the tick tick tick/
And it's nervous/
Not dead or alive/
Hothead in a vicegrip/
I won't apologise for existing/
God wants me here/
So we both have to deal with it/
Endurance test/
Try cheat and I win./

Lying in bed/
Devils in my peripheral/
Apologies feel like lies/
Gotta deal with it/

Put the real in surrealism/
Don't want no fake positivity/
Read my grimace/
Resignation/

Reverse Russian roulette/
Sweating bullet-trains of thought/
Nobody listens/
But everybody talks too much/

Mouthbreathers/
Bite your two faces/
Ghost dog/
New rabies/
Shattered psyche/
Tastes like porcelain/
Life is a chewtoy/
Full of rat poison & used razors/

We raise zombies/
Only say sorry when they're hungry/
Wear my grief like a hoodie/
In the summertime/

Smelly cat/
Memory like an elephant man/
Call me what you want/
Don't know what I deserve/
Dead eyes/
Two piles of ash/

Mental blockhead/
Nail biter/
Don't want to be nowhere/
Permanent standby/
Autopilot oblivion/

Lost in sin again/
Too busy with their own ****/
But when it goes down/
You all saw it coming.../

Yeah, I know/
I'm sick of me too/
Wish I could peace out, but/
Stuck with myselves/
Even after death/
Life's a *****, slapping you/
Difficult not to snap/
Turtle with the world on its back/

Falling down the stairs/
On purpose/
Heaven isn't promised, bro/
No pressure, right?/
Just pick up all the broken pieces/
Don't burden other people, but/
My hands are bleeding/
Not asking for help/
And if I don't tell you now/
Then you'll be angrier when you find out/
Lost & found mind out of body/
Thirdeye blindspot is desire/
On repeat; off the deep/
Adventure timebomb/
There is no end/
Pitchfork and knife drawn/

You are what you eat/
Abstracted psychological horror/
You are what you eat/
Abstracted psychological horror./