Lying in bed/
Devils in my peripheral/
Apologies feel like lies/
Gotta deal with it/

Put the real in surrealism/
Don't want no fake positivity/
Read my grimace/
Resignation/

Reverse Russian roulette/
Sweating bullet-trains of thought/
Nobody listens/
But everybody talks too much/

Mouthbreathers/
Bite your two faces/
Ghost dog/
New rabies/
Shattered psyche/
Tastes like porcelain/
Life is a chewtoy/
Full of rat poison & used razors/

We raise zombies/
Only say sorry when they're hungry/
Wear my grief like a hoodie/
In the summertime/

Smelly cat/
Memory like an elephant man/
Call me what you want/
Don't know what I deserve/
Dead eyes/
Two piles of ash/

Mental blockhead/
Nail biter/
Don't want to be nowhere/
Permanent standby/
Autopilot oblivion/

Lost in sin again/
Too busy with their own ****/
But when it goes down/
You all saw it coming.../

Yeah, I know/
I'm sick of me too/
Wish I could peace out, but/
Stuck with myselves/
Even after death/
Life's a *****, slapping you/
Difficult not to snap/
Turtle with the world on its back/

Falling down the stairs/
On purpose/
Heaven isn't promised, bro/
No pressure, right?/
Just pick up all the broken pieces/
Don't burden other people, but/
My hands are bleeding/
Not asking for help/
And if I don't tell you now/
Then you'll be angrier when you find out/
Lost & found mind out of body/
Thirdeye blindspot is desire/
On repeat; off the deep/
Adventure timebomb/
There is no end/
Pitchfork and knife drawn/

You are what you eat/
Abstracted psychological horror/
You are what you eat/
Abstracted psychological horror./

Get your hand off my shoulder, pig/
You don't even know me, dogg/
Barking too much/
I'll make them all shut the **** up/
Like Somalian ******/
My thoughts are double shotgun blasts/
Of random jagged phrasing/
And my funnybone is broken/
Like my home is/
Lockjaw; I don't make promises/
I say "inshaaAllaah"/
Then see what God allows/
I need you... to be somebody else/
And if I cry for help/
They say "get a job", or "take a pill"/
But you can't be the illest 'til/
Medication is refused/
Madman at the park/
Bazooka toothpaste grindhouse/
Too hyped up on my mania/
K-K-**** your radio/
Head full of dread, locked/
And the "truth" is full of holes/
Waiting for apocalypse/
But it's taking way too long/
I am not alone.../

Get your hand off my shoulder, pig/
You don't even know me, dogg/
Mouse howling at the moon/
Yelling at my cellphone/
I never was a fan of wool./

My wife doesn't know/
Can't turn it off/
She's a broken record/
I'm rusty pins & needles in her arms/
She wants rehabilitation/
Pushing too hard to pull me out/
But I'm a grenade pin/
Blow up in your face/
Blunt force trauma/
She said "*******!!!"/
I punched a hole in the bathroom door/
One day, I'm gonna get arrested/
But until then.../
I'll tread this frozen water/
Tried to be funny, cracked a Dad-joke/
Like a whip; you didn't even laugh/
Whatever, left me mad cold/
My heart is an icecube/
Crushed, inside a cocktail/
Molotov flying like a drunk pig on fire/
Crash & burn the pity party alive/
This is the realest **** I ever wrote/
My wife doesn't know/
Can't turn it off/
She's a broken record/
I scratch into oblivion/
But that's my science friction/
Mousetrapreplica./

All women hate me/
Every kid I ever had was never planned out/
Broke my teeth on ironfist getting a handout/
I'm only good for one thing: being the bad guy/
Don't see myself anywhere in five years/
Don't want to be anywhere right now/
Not really an option/
In bed with my baby; something is wrong with me/
How should I feel? 'Cause I'm feeling the opposite/
Not content with this world, and most of its contents/
People are zombies, just following vampires/
And I am trying, man/
Pushed myself so hard, I fell out the frying pan/
Burnt out as Hell, but I still got that fire/
Forever frustrated; obsessed and compulsive/
Conflicted and tempted and woeful/
No rest for the wicked/
Just mismanaged anger and broken sleep.../

Obsessive compulsive disorder/
Reconstructed self-immolation ash/
Just add wattage/
Neuromance of old flame/
Crackling synapses going haywire/
Desire staging a hostile takeover/
Daywalker with the darkest impulses/
Do think twice/
Turn a pair of minds into a facemelter/
Mentalfund electrical fire/
Ballpoint pen to the socket/
Eyes sore from all this ugly fake light/
Life as migraine/
Iceman boiling chest heartburn/
If you don't laugh, you cry ****** ******/
Gimme ******* mania, and alienation/
Space invaders get shot down/
Everyone's a narcissist/
Still got the white tongue/
Feverish nervous-energy teeth/
Zombie conscience/
Sick ******* thought brewery, everyday/
Distressed by the weight of the dunyaa/
Endurance test/
Holding on by a thread, in a needle/
In my head, that's unravelling fast/
Flammable wickerman, having a blast.../

Allspark./

It will end, just not when you want it to/
We are not gods; we're bugs/
Smashing our faces on the window pane/
Stubborn disposition/
One of us will break, and it ain't me/
Bull with bloodshot eyes/
Seeing red/

I'm sick & tired of being sick & tired/
I'm a one trick pony, acting like a unicorn/
I can't act, but they all play along/
Until I crash; I have no equilibrium/
And no-one can fall quite like me/
Look Mom, no parachute - I'm skydiving/
When I get down, it all comes up/
Like digging all the way to China/

I've lost fingernails since I've started to dig again/
I should know better; I feel like such a hypocrite/
The village idiot, a sellout *******/
If only you knew what I did... yesterday/
And loneliness will make you a victim/
I put the gun to my head, but you pulled the trigger/
Zombie; take another shot at me/
Fullmetal Alchemist, turn bullets into body armor/

FUNCRUSHER, BAD GUY, FUNDAMENTALIST/
NOT SCARFACE; PALESTINIAN SCARF FACE/
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST/
TURN BULLETS INTO BODY ARMOR/

I'd **** for a breather, die from pollution/
Catch 22; unstuck in time/
Loops within loops... deja vu everything/
Given another chance, I'd fail yet again/
Ad nauseam; subtract annoyances/
I'm sick of your voice, stop talking/
There is no peace.../
In this skull; people in my grill/
And my sense of self keeps on mutating/
Boss level stress/
It will end, just not when you want it to/

FUNCRUSHER, BAD GUY, FUNDAMENTALIST/
NOT SCARFACE; PALESTINIAN SCARF FACE/
FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST/
TURN BULLETS INTO BODY ARMOR./