The way she looks at you when you wakes up in the morning and takes your breathe away
The way she crawls up against you and lays there for what seems like forever
The way she rubs your belly and leaves soft kisses on your skin
The way her soft voice penetrates deep to the soul
The way she says I love you
The way she she wraps her fingers around yours
The way she trusts you
The way she gives everything for you
The way she thinks she has to ask when you were already doing something for her
The way she looks when she comes out of the bathroom ready for the date
The way she makes you think
The way she makes you feel
The way she lets you in
The way she keeps giving everything
The way she falls asleep
The way she makes you worry
The way she breathes
The way she is

I wish
I wish I had
I wish I had said I love you more
I wish I had told you what was on my mind
I wish I had shown you that we we're special
I wish I had you back
I wish I had more time
I wish I had us
I wish this wasn't the way it is
I wish I had shown you our future
I wish I had shown you our apartment
I wish I had shown you my dreams
I wish I had shown you the very depths of me
I wish I had shown you that the small things were my favorite things
I wish I had told you that the far idea of looking at Sophie with your eyes made me smile instantly
I wish I had told you that the idea of maci with your ears made me cry
I wish I had told you that the idea of watching the Bentley Colton Sophie and maci grow up was the thing that kept me moving forward
I wish I had told you how many nights I laid in bed looking at the ceiling thinking about how nice our future was
I wish I had told you how perfect it felt when you rested your head on my chest at night
I wish I had shown you how much it ment when you looked at me
I wish I had shown you how much it meant when our fingers interlocked
I wish I had shown you more of me
I wish I had more time
I wish I had you
I wish I had
I wish
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He sits in his quiet room
He misses the happiness
He misses the fights
He misses the things people don't pay attention to
He misses the way she turned to mush when she saw a baby
He misses the twinkle in her eyes when she looked at him
He misses the smile she had when they talked about the future
He misses the incredibly small things
The things he wishes people paid more attention to
The things that make someone fall so far in love that they can't escape
The way a person feels safe in ones arms
The way they breathe so softly when they are dreaming
The way a person just being in the same room calms everything
The way a person says cole slaw
The way a person can dream about and describe their future so vividly
The way a person can ask you anything and you can't help but tell them
The way they frown when they are mad
The way they want to frown when they are mad but can't because your their
The way you make things better
The way they take your breathe away when they aren't are there in the morning
The way they change everything
And as he sits and thinks
All he can find himself thinking about is
His
Eternal
Rapturous

The first thought in morning is there she is
The last thought at night is there she is
Each precious moment between those two I dream
I see a future
A happiness that shadows even this
A happiness that brings tears to my eyes when I think about it
A happiness I find myself questioning because I can't understand how something makes me happier than I already am
I can't comprehend
I don't follow what is happening
Where my dreams lead or what my mind does
All I do know is that every moment with her beside me is precious
Every minute text is a gift
And every thing that people take for granted is something that means more to me than life
She makes me smile
She makes me laugh
She makes me feel even better than I thought she would
Ahe loves me and I see it
And I'm happy
With her
It is just her
Her and I
Her and I verse the world

Roses are red
Violets are blue
This poem is stupid
But I love you

Silence speaks louder than words so that's what I leave you with.

Dear Myself,
It's been a long time coming,
I never wanted to have this conversation,
To admit the things I did to us after she left were wrong..
I tucked you away and treated you as a secondhand citizen in our shared mind.
I wanted to protect you, to save you, to keep you from being hurt again.

Dear myself,
I buried you and burned memories I had no write to destroy,
I did everything I could to help keep you from reliving those moments,
It is now that I realize,
I never helped move forward instead I forced you to sit in the memory of what had happened,
I denied you the ability to move forward, to grow, to become the man you will be.

Dear myself,
I believe it is time for you to come out as I take a backseat,
You will find the good in people where I couldn't,
You will see life for the adventure it is,
You will show me how happy we can be,
I've forgiven everyone else and allowed them to move forward with their lives,
Somehow I forgot to allow us to move on,

Dear myself,
I will always be here,
However you never needed me,
I needed you,
I needed you to stay in time with me because I felt alone,

Dear myself,
I pray for only the best for you, for us,
I know with time you will find what I could not,
I know now that a cold heart and a numb soul do not protect you,
Rather they keep you from love, passion, friendship.
They keep you from living and all I want for you,
Remember me?
I will always remember you and this journey we took.

Good-bye Myself.