Procrastination?
What is that I've never heard of such a thing.
But maybe because I'm to busy procrastinating to hear it,
I am mike,
I am not a poet, a leader, a storyteller, or an academic,
I am a dreamer, a gamer, a man of many things,
I would rather let life pass me by and sit in my game,
Than to deal with the drama of reality.
It is not that I don't like reality,
It is that reality is too busy,
With school and work
Facebook and friends
Learning and imagining
Are they even one in the same
I love my games because it allows my mind to run wild
From building empires in Minecraft to taming creatures in Pokemon
Games are a way I can re envision my world
They allow kids to show their creative side something education removed long ago.
So I stand before you asking,
What is procrastination,
I'd rather play my game and imagine.
My life seems to pass by but in my one life span I have lived dozens of others.

The thoughts run through my mind a hundred at a time
Whether to let you go and hope for the best
or keep pushing through wanting to be with you

But it seems as though I can't get you back without giving someone else the pain I carry...
I never thought I'd see the day when I really questioned such decision
I want to be with you so bad but can't to see you hurt
or more surprisingly him hurt, I see how he looks at you

It's too late to apologize, but not to late to let go
The hardest part isn't having to let go but......wanting to let go
He looks at you the way I do and I see I could never be the one to take that from him
No matter how much hate or jealousy makes me want to.

It is the pain I carry
Not the pain he carries.
No one could carry it the way I have and do...

An early November morning
It all started then
I fell in love
For the last 4 years
No one else
Gives the same feel.
Lost without you
4 years gone by
And all i want is one more day
A never-ending day
A day with just you and me.

I can recall that day with sorrow,
But it will happen again tomorrow,
The day you thought you'd be together forever
Seemed to be the day it all fell apart
Now I watch from the distant
Yet closer than ever
I hate seeing you hurt
But I wish you weren't together
To know he has such control on you tears me apart
I just have one wish for you and one wish for me
Sadly I can't say I have one for him....
My wish to you is that your happy
And my wish for me is to be part of it.
Whether I'm dating you or just a friend
I'll always be committed
Until....
the....
end....

When you said good bye,
I felt like I was gonna die,
Oh, I’m losing it all,
Baby I feel like I’m about to fall,
I’m just sitting here waiting for your call,
All of the sudden my heart stopped,
All of the sudden my pulse dropped,
Without you it feels like my life's been swapped,
Without you here I’m scared tonight,
Everyone keeps saying it’ll be alright,
But baby I just wanna see you in my sight,
I’m standing right here,
Oh I know your near,
Just show me that your there,
As I keep turning around,
I see my world crashing down,
Without you I feel like I’m gonna drown,

I know you love me but your with him,
I wish you were with me,
I wish I could hold in my arms forever,
I love your smile and your deep brown eyes,
Your gentle touch,
Your soft voice,
Oh girl I love you
There's not a minute
A second
A day
A week
A year
That goes by that I don't think about you
There are those moments
Those precious moments
That we spend together and then I realize
You two are still together
I start to fall
I'm losing it
Afraid
Scared
Alone
Yet I know that you love me
You want me
But you are more scared than me
What if I hurt you
What if I let you go
What if it's more than you ever expected
More than you
Than you ever wanted
What if it is was perfect
What if
What if
I think about that everyday
I would never hurt you
Never leave you
Never let you go
For 3 years
I've proved this
For 3 years
I've loved you
Give me the chance and I'll show you
I'll never leave you
I'll love you till the end of time
So now I let my emotions flow
Out everything comes
I can't hold it back anymore
The tide of emotion flows forward
This is how I see my world
This is why I need you
.
.
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This is why
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This is why I love you

What is love
Thats the question everyone wants to know
Love is never letting go
Love is knowing they love you even when they are giving up
Love is not wanting to let go
Love is being scared to say good bye at night because you are afraid that in the morning they will be gone
Love is having your heart torn up in front of you a hundred times and still wanting more
Love is watching as they find someone else and knowing you will still be there for them
Love is waiting for that moment you fear will never come
Love is wanting to die rather than live without them
Love is being scared of getting everything you ever wanted except the one who mattered
Love is seeing them in everything you do
Love is crying at your favorite memories
Love is telling them every secret you've ever had
Love is listening to every song on the radio and thinking to yourself that is us
Love is that feeling that no matter what we do we cannot escape it
Love is staring deep into their eyes and knowing they love you
Love is being scared they won't be happy
Love is wanting them to leave when they have given up
Love is the one thing that scares everyone more than death
Love it faking a smile when it hurts to even think about life without them
Love is never wanting to wake up the next day because you know they are already gone
Love
This is what love is to me
But what the hell do I know I'm just a kid
Just a kid thats willing to give the world just to get a minute with her
He's just a kid
He cant understand love
He
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Just
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Can't