Autumn arrived
The leaves burnt, crackled at the stems
With pink edges, drifting in the firmament
In step with the wild wind

Even as I watched the clock count down time
There, in my heart, I held on tight
To hope, like a little child
For many years

That while the trees lay bare
I could hear what's in their heart
So that they knew someone listened
To them

Year after year, they shed their skin
Laying bare to nature
Helpless to raging storms
You can still see the bruises from the last hurricane

Their broken heart is like an old, torn book
Passages dying to be read by a curious mind
They heal me and soothe the pain
When I'm in pensive state

On the days that I hurt the most
I write their words for you
And that is when the dam surrenders
Letting the flood of emotions pour asunder

I've spent my life exploring the forests
And racing through the aged greenery
But as the seasons change
Something stirs their harmony

In the heart of the deep rich sanctuary
There were multitudes of trees
Bare and brave
Letting the breeze raze them

Weakening their grip on life
They surrender their peace to the stars
While it takes strength to come this far
Nature says that it is time to let go

A wildfire cracks the aged willow
Ravaging the forests of antiquity
Leaving behind the white dust
There's no anguish nor sorrow

A wildfire consumes
Leaving behind only
Millions of roots underground
Yet they survive

So the eye of Death is kinder
To the frail branches that held yesterday's leaves
As God sheds off the imperfections
Leaving behind only a memory

Life persists
And after many seasons
When I am gone
There'll be another forest that takes it place

You take me to your art studio after a night
Of cold coffee and cigarettes
Canvases with streaks of blue and white
A scene out of an old French flick

Below the light, exposed film, bathed in red light
You feel me over my black top, with a hungry stare
Caressing me with your eyes
My heart throbs at your slightest touch

I dare you to **** on my lips and leave me weak
My heart lurks in the shadows
And only pleasure can release me
From the chains that bind me

I want to dress for you
And sometimes
I want you to leave me breathless
As I guide your hands over me

Unbuttoning my shirt slowly
Pressing your lips against my bare *******
You pull me closer
Maybe for a kiss that lasts forever

But you let the moment linger on
Penetrating me deeply in the cold winter night
With just your warm gaze
Bringing me back to life

Something that I'd lost long ago
Now found in your comfort
I was reminded of my grace
Because you took the time to unmask me

The lipstick that matches my red shoes
The heat that rushes through my thighs
And your palm on my heart
A light blush on my tear-stained cheek

I hope there's a place for me
In your heart
Give me your cold hands, hold mine, gently
You hold my waist, twisting me

I was dancing for a moment, in the room
As you held on tight
I gasped loudly
Laughing a little too

If I wanted a hug, I imagined this
Someone beside me
With his strong arms wrapped around me
My heart pounds against my breast

I can hear a song playing on the stereo
As I pick up the only piece
Left of my soul
The strength, you gave back to me

The warmth inside burns deep like a fire
Your naked lips touch the nape of my neck
We share the pleasure and pain
And I'm not alone again

Wanna see her
I hear a voice that better say
And it said
I'm not leaving again

Once I saw her
The piece of my heart left said
My peace is with her
I'm not leaving again

I've no reason
I wanna wish it all away
And she called on my line and I said
I know what I said, I'd do it all again

And on the wayside
I waited
I called out, I know
I told her I'll leave

In a box or a bag
Can you see then?
I'm not made for this
Ain't no way, I'll sleep again

And I know
And I know
I wanna stay
So bad it makes me cry

The fire in your eyes when you sip your cocktail
Lips pursed as your heart beats fast and heavy
Breaths slow and steady
Elated by my presence

We haven't seen each other for quite some time
But you've visited my dreams every night
A thirst that invigorates me
I think of you with so much love and affection

Wanting you more with every part of my being
My essence pours through your soft skin
As I ravish your body, tasting your lips
Hips hugging my waist, as the tide rises

Waking up next morning
Holding me in your arms, legs, and waves of thick hair
There's light inside that hasn't gone out
There's comfort knowing that I'm in your heart

When the sunlight breaks into the depths of the forest
I'll know that the leaves have grown back
That once withered with last year's winter
As the summer takes up its place

When the hours go flying by
I'll think upon the past
And the memories will keep the love alive
But what was lost is nowhere to be found

There's a dryness in my throat
When I think of you
My heart speaks out in quick pulses
Its just that the pain dulls it

Hear my breath get faster
As a calmness washes over me
You've got my knees weak
At the slightest teasing whisper

This longing has taken its toll now
And the poet inside has turned into a court jester
Keeping the humor alive
Stoking the fire, hopelessly

This begging has gone on too long now
I need you in my arms more than my heart does

I miss the way the room lit up
When your eyes glanced mine
And you'd blush a little
And smile a bit

I still remember how you
Told me your hands were small
As an excuse to hold mine
And I could tell it felt right

If I trace back time
And do it all again
I'd make more memories
That could save me tonight

My note is a little too late
Because my heart died yesterday
When I couldn't feel the arms
From which bled my wrists, wrestling with death

Wide open eyes
As my tears drained my life

Its the lack of a sound
Of my throbbing heart
Enough of this pretending
Stealing doesn't come close to the damage you've done

This is the closest I've come
To being free from the shackles
Of your control
So let me go, I'll carry my words elsewhere

Let me drown into a sea of endless dreams
Where you can hear the whispers of circling waves
And the reddest sunlight bedazzles your mind
In the lilac clouds of the northern sky

Caught in a circle of despair
I'm unafraid of the waves
As the tides of the ocean creep up
Upon the horizon, there's a sun flickering

I want to feel the water drown me inside and out
If you'll see for a little longer
The weight gets heavier
That's tied around my ankles, filling the lungs

I'll be submerged in the vast expanse of time
So close to slipping into the night's tides, I am
Not to be found the next morning, sleeping with the fishes
You'll know that I had the time of life, exploring the ships

The waves with its shapely fingers called out
So that I swam a little more to feel alive
Even though the heart is heavy with sadness
My legs can't help but kick, out of breath

Out of breath
I waited for the storm
And its powerful onslaught of water
To bring me to a whimpering end

I want you in my arms
Nestled in, hugging my chest tight
I've made my share of bad decisions
But being with you isn't one of them

Your sweet fragrance fills me
Like a breeze on the street
Some feeling it is
Like the soul needs poetry

My fingers languish without your body
I can't taste the coffee anymore
It's bitter without you
No more young, fiery stares filled with sweetness

No more raw lips and kisses on the neck
Raw with hunger and thirsting for your presence
A hurt heart can't be healed
Without you marking your territory on my body

I feel safe with you
In your pain and suffering
I feel understood
In your beauty and physicality

I'm stuck in a daydream
When I'm without you
I'm running in a nightmare
When I'm without you

A sealed letter lays upon your shelf
Unopened for days at end
You're the only one with the key
So I call your name again

And I wonder what it says
We haven't spoken for days
The blues haven't gone away
You're the only one who ******* cares

If I come either in a box or a bag
And I don't want to live with the pain
In some ****** up way
You've carried me through this day

Unsealed
It made me cry to see you
Wish it all away
As the sun goes down far away

Ah, I see them
I see them, all clearly
Waking me up
From my last breath

Ah, I see them
Waking me up
From the dead
And you've thrown the key away

On some days
When I'm feeling fine
And the sun peers through the angelic clouds
And I'll catch myself staring
A second longer, at the skies
Really soaking in that fleeting moment
To remind myself that I'm well
But not cured
I'd hit rock bottom almost decade back
Falling to the depths
Closer to madness
Some of those days, I can't remember
Whoever finds this poignant
Trust me
When I say, I find no joy
In telling you that I had no roof over my head
But I want you to avoid
The mistakes I made
Along the way
I'd sleep on some park benches
From time to time
Praying for rain to come
And wash the night off its sweat
I too was tired
Everyday when it was dinner time
From sixteen to twenty seven
It's been a long way
But somehow the change took place
I started working
Had a life of my own
Money of my own
And the future became a bit clearer
My heart a bit kinder
To a clean mind
I never could tell when it all started
To think I didn't get a head start at life
Even fewer get a blank slate
A chance to repair and make amends
Too often
I've held onto regret
To those who I damaged
I carry the weight still
And I hurt myself even now
Bleeding their blood
In a war with myself

There's a certain power
In being happy
And content
When others around you
Just don't care
About whether you live or die

Because it shows you give a ****
About yourself

When you get out
Of a depressive spell
It feels like you've come out
Of the longest hangover
Ever

I must confess, I've fallen in love before
When the leaves settled
Upon the feet of autumn trees
That let the drizzle pool in their palms

I've been in awe of beauty before
That was during a sudden summer
As the heat baked the sheets of linen and satin
That hung neatly on my balcony, letting out the petrichor

I have been kissed, not by her
But by the cold rain that touched my lips
As I looked up at the blue grey skies
Longing for comfort

Although when she'll love me
I'll never know
I know this misery
Will come and go

And so I welcomed the winter
Held its cold, dead hands
Caressed it with tender touch
Accepting that good times aren't meant to last

So, I've fallen again
But this time I think it is for real
And she makes me happy in so many ways
That makes it worth the pain and grief

The play of the seasons
That come and go
Like life's small victories and love's blindness
Remind me, this too shall pass

At the quiet hours of a starless night
In a hushed town
I wait for you in a cafe in a crowded street
Wanting to tell you

You are the warmth of summer
In the vast lands covered in snow and hail
That melts the glaciers
Turning them into rivers that run free

I was yours
But sometimes you were mine
Beautiful and innocent as this may be
I bury the passion inside

The last time when we met
For a brief moment, I felt a shiver run through me
The heat pulsate from within
A hunger for your sensuous lips

I wish I would have said something
But I'm afraid my heart wouldn't let me
Yet, you are calm and tempered
Gasping as you read this, nudging me to write

I remember what you wore that day
The burning sensation inside
Doesn't fade into the endless ether of memories
I need you now, more than ever

Let me hold you till you are left breathless
Gushing into you and gnashing your *******
Away from the world around
Covering your lithe figure with my scent

Unable to get you off my mind
Under the pale moonlight
I write for you on this starless night
As my poems slowly become void of life

Yet, you still love them
And so I channelize the fire
Letting my poems speak for me
Revealing my darkest desires to you

The seconds hand snaps and clicks
In the art studio
Dawn comes upon the cold horizon
With a solitary lamp shining at five in the morning

Shaking off the darkness and all the gloom of yesterday
Under the blushing sun, the green of grass
As the traces of the past fade into oblivion
The nocturnal birds wince at the sunrise

With splotches of paint upon a cream canvas
Crafting silent trees laced with rusted leaves, gently
A northern wind bends the fluttering flowers
A flurry of raindrops smudged with my brush

When the morning is in full bloom
Bringing with it sunlight and courage
The dew drops glimmer on the spears of grass
As the warm wind wakes the morning doves

All of nature alive, almost in prayer
The music flows through the air
Even when I cannot face another day
A beautiful sunrise always takes my breath away

Dreams fade as soon I am awake
As I sit over by the window
I feel the sun wade through my soul
When the flowers rush to greet me

With dewdrops on their petals
That fall gently on the ground
As they settle and are absorbed
By the cheeks of mother Earth

Your fingers nestled in mine
As you look in my eyes
You were with me that night
And so the stars shone brighter

The moon still waits for you
And all I hear is it calling out your name
This heart engulfed by its own flames
Still remembers your laughter

My love for you grows
So does my desire for you
If you loved me too
My dreams would come true

While this city breathes and sleeps
I carve out myself a little space
In your heart
When I dream of you

With passion and
Broken will
I yearn for you still
You’ll never know how much more I will

Your kisses
That beauty
A serene smile
Your skin against mine

"It's not that I'm missing her
Her words and soft voice comforted me
Blanketing the emanating hurt"
I tell myself

"We ended as friends but I couldn't ignore
What my heart felt
Nor what said the stirred soul"
I tell myself

Although we ended as friends
My body and soul aches still
When the heart longs to be fooled
I'm at a loss for words

As the dawn lights up the room
Through dark curtains
A solitary ray peaks through
Afraid to disturb the silence

The morning is restless
Without her embrace and presence
The first sound I hear is the bird sing
Her sweet gestures still rankle this broken heart

She often brought me happiness
In my life void of affection and beauty
Her words calmed
The river of traumas

I share these songs with her
Now those memories bring me solace
When her eyes listened, lips smiled
As I pick up the broken pieces

When you wandered into my life
The dark room filled with sunlight
But there's no way you could know
I loved someone long ago

Her gaze
Her hair
A soulful song, I played on repeat
So many times that it has lost its meaning

Now I write your name carefully
Across the seams of my heart
Where it has been ripped apart
Repeatedly, repeatedly, you wouldn't know really

When I first peered at you by rare chance
Caressing me with your unfaltering, fiery glance
My soul fell breathless, taking flight
Silent for a long while

I could hear my shallow heart beat in my chest
As your eyes found their way down my waist
Looking at me with a love I had longed for
Ushering life into me, bringing back the fervor

And so, I searched your eyes too
Tracing your sculpted figure, now in full bloom
Drenched in ****** rawness, you had me
Lost in a boundless sea of beauty

You ran through my very being
And my heart has abandoned me
It is comforted by sunsets and nature
But soothed by your laughter

When I first met you on an afternoon
You were sitting in a little cafe
Smiling gently
With your eyes calling to me

You wanted me close
Holding your hands too
Gently kissing your nape
Placing your jet black hair to one side

You'd bring the cup of latte
To your ruby red lips
Thinking of my mouth shift across your shoulder
And quiver and shift in your seat

I can see it in your trembling hands
You wanted to spend a little time
Unzipping me with your mind
Clutching my hips, bringing it closer to your skirt

Letting me pull apart your *******
And stroking your thighs
I pressed my lips harder as you took off my t-shirt
Grabbing your legs for this wild ride

Placing your arms on my shoulders
Sinking my teeth in, letting it all slide in
You can hear my breath grow louder
Inside you, moving with a steady rhythm

It only lasts minutes, it feels like an eternity of pleasure
As you breathe, heave, and sigh
The cup almost falls out of your hand
Thinking about me this way

Bra undone, makeup's a mess, and it never felt so good
With my scent on your skin
Your lips redder than a rose
Cheeks blushing pink like a cloud in autumn

In your everlasting hunger
Lying next to me with a passion
That fills the both of us
As my tender lips trace your soft skin

You ask me to get closer to you, bare and breathless
As I explore the deepest, darkest places
Caressing your sweating, supple thighs
You stroke my hair gently

Telling me, "Yes. More.
I've never felt like this before."
Pulling my face closer as your body shivers
You tremble, quaking, and quiver

As I hold you tighter
Your moans tell me it's alright
You'll guide me tonight
Till the morning comes

So, sleep gently
Tell me that you feel safe with me
As we wake up tomorrow
With your head on my torso

The downpour rocks the forest gently
Trees cast under the spell of the howling wind
Almost asleep as the golden leaves shudder in silence
As a wolf calls out in the distance

The freshwater lilies fall into a reverie
As the raindrops splash and spray on the streams
Playing their enchanting melody
Slowly rocking the rested bream

On days when I'm tired and frayed
I think upon the song of the rain
Helpless the storm inside
I find solace as time passes by

For the first time in my life
You've opened my eyes
To the crimson fire
That burns inside, consuming me tonight

It has ignited
My mind, soul, and body
Flooding me with flames
The heat extending to my fingertips, down my spine

In the warm noon under the clear skies
My legs go numb as you creep up to my face
Covering me with kisses under the sheets
I'm dizzy when walking the empty streets

In the quiet hours of midnight
When the world's sound asleep
My heart pounds across my chest
With all its might

It rains and the clouds thunder, a guttural cry
I search for you in the pools of crystalline  
Often I'll stumble upon the stone pavement
As this obsession drowns me in this moment

Pulling me under, clogging my windpipes
Breaking my spirit, carrying my soul
Through the dark nights spent in complete solace
I'll watch the satin sky, as the rain falls on and on

On a silent, dark night
After the rain has subsided
These words, in time
Will show you my truest fears

As I race through the fog, running through woods
Scarred by the biting wind laced with snow and ice
The blizzard runs through me, freezing my temples
Curling through my veins, seeking warmth

I'm captured by your cold, cold heart
Transfixed by your beautiful eyes
Longing for your delicate hands that break the spirit
Starving for your naked embrace, abandoned and desperate

Someday, these words will kiss you
Under the cold July rain, where you lie bare
When the storm caresses your luscious locks
And the rivers of your soul drain into the vast seas of sorrow

Our memories will fade into thin air, tomorrow
But all I can think of is your sweet face
That carries me through this difficult phase
I'll hear your breathless whispers and soothe your nerves

Clasped arms in an intense moment of passion
Let me move into you in the heat of the night
Till you need me for an eternity
This fire will burn indefinitely

As I breathe you in
Douse you with the flames of my eyes
Caress you with a touch
As the mask falls away

I yearn for you when the wind is breathing heavily
The tresses that lay over your shoulder
Like trees across the shore of a river
Brushing your neck with my lips soft as waves

Take your clothes off, white linen hugs your skin
Draped across your breast, quivering lips
Curling into a ball of passion
Your hips will ache with every dip and ******

Wanting me more with every intimate glance
I'll dance with you under the rain
I want you just as much a bird yearns to sing
You bring out the wild side deep inside of me

As I undress you with my eyes, seated next to you
Close to your heart, listening intently to its beat
Lightly touching your hair, sliding my fingers through it
Bringing our lips to meet in a stolen kiss

Rustling leaves that flutter with the naked breeze
The heart of the forest is calm and serene
Pleasure and pain are just the same
As our peaceful night ends

We stare at each other, wondering
When will we cross paths and exchange fresh glances
Like strangers meeting
In the next life

I'm not missing her
Sad that her scent faded with the breeze
She's gone with the wind
I'm not missing a part of my soul

I'm not missing her
The blush on her rosy cheeks
Is a faded memory
I'm not missing the better half of me

I'm not missing her
But a part of me is with her
It calls to me
"Forget her."

A bird sings in my heart tonight
It is full of desire
The silence inside is gone
As my heart beats on

And the bird whistles a tune
Which reminds me of you
In her plaintive song
I find warmth

It's something I can sing and hum
While I stroll on a wide street in some distant town
I am at ease
Knowing the bird will keep me company

While the bird has grown tired
I want it to sing tonight
So that I can share with you
Something that's honest and true

Trees sway to the night breeze
The birds welcome the rain
With a song in their hearts
As the leaves shudder in the cold

The lilies are in love
With the streams
Never leaving their side
In the light drizzle

On days when I'm tired
I think upon the song of the rain
And it begins to pour again
Filling my heart with gladness

The coldest winter is here
Flowers have wilted
Friends have been gone for years
The heart cries its silent tears

There's an escape sometimes
After all time's too quick
For me to carry the weight
I tell myself that it'll be alright

If winter's goes, can spring be far behind?

As the winter rain came
The flowers came to life
Surrounded by the chatter of leaves
Upon which droplets fell and slid

The beauty that existed all around
Present in every waking moment
Faded into the warm spring of my life
That changed me as a person

I found the littlest things
That brought me joy in the coldest times
Breathing life into when I hoped
With a broken heart

I think this what finding love is like
You go through every passing day
Clinging to the smaller pleasures
Letting them fill you

Until happiness comes easily
Sadness becomes a distant memory

With her gentle breath
She brushes against my skin
My neck placed in her curls
Embraced in blissful sin

She breathes life into me
Pouring her soul into mine
Coloring me with brushstrokes
Of scarlet flowers and red wine

As I gaze warmly at her
The trees shiver in the dark
And flowers sway in the breeze
Leaving me numb at my heart

She leaves a song within me
That's only meant for the heart
An imbroglio in my soul
And a fresco of the mind

As you gaze into my eyes
I hold you close to my heart
Caring for you deeply
Hiding the hurt inside

I don't trust myself
But my heart is yours
In this solitary moment
Do you love this man?

When you touched me
I felt the warmth
Travel through me
Like a light in a dark cave

Under the bare, pale moon
As I burn hot and blue as a cold star
Hold me tight and secure tonight
If the leaves fall from their heights

In winter's heart, within the icy
Bring me close in your arms
Please let me love you with what's left of me
Only the tenderness of a summer breeze

This poetry lives on the mere thought of you
Building me up with strength
In the face of darkness, giving me light
Before I die in springtime

She had kissed me days ago
After school
Now a memory
On a warm afternoon

I have books filled with her
Verse after verse
In search for the truth
She's poetry in motion

Lies seem sweeter
When I look into those eyes
That hide the love
Inside

If the last leaf falls from the barren tree
As the flowers turn frail, cold, and dry
In the deepest darkest times
Where the soul cannot find the light

When the heart turns to nature
With the sun and moon as its guide
During the wintry depths of desperation
On the darkest nights when the stars collide

In this losing battle called life
We're meant not to win or conquer
Our aim is for the sky with feet rooted to the green
Finding beauty in the smallest of things

She wakes up early
As I pass by the hall
Curled up tightly
In her sheets

It's warm outside
She doesn't leave her bed
For it is cold
Inside

If you're lost in the forest among the dying trees
And the river in you runs cold
A gentle breeze sails through the tapestry of brittle leaves
In the icy midst of winter

Invoking a long lost friend
That melts the crystal streams
Crawls through the warm earth
Awakens the entire forest in a collective chorus

If you've never felt your heartbeat
Then I hope you find the right moment
That sweeps you off your feet
Suddenly life will make sense

I've been meaning to say this for a long time
Second guessing my well-rehearsed lines
Taking my sweet time
Riding out the nights

When you were in my life
I had cast myself into a downward spiral
I'd fallen far enough
To contemplate my mistakes

Your beauty's inspired
My staged rhymes can't describe it
There's no better way to say this
Than with honesty

Someday, I'll look at those moments
When every secret revealed
With it a fiery passion
That had festered in silence

While the memories were lost
Held together by these words
Carved neatly in the corner of your heart
They live on

Boundless as the tides of time
When a violent heartbeat
Causes a dull ache
The blood will sometimes course its way

Into your heart and soul
Intertwining with my being
Soft and slow as a gentle breeze
Every time you dream of me

You and I will fall in love
In an endless song that goes on and on
That is found in the gentle sway of the trees
As well as the storms that alert the seas

The stars may shiver in the distance
Yet every morning there is a sun for you and I
A kiss is a moment of kindness
Your hug is an instant remedy

Your laugh, whispers, and cries make a complex melody
I'm fiddling with my hair every time I think of you
On some days, my heart doesn't believe in us
Time and time again, it will hold onto its purpose

The time and memories we shared
Still feeds the hungry soul
It warms the coldness inside
As your words flicker and fade

Now that you aren't here with me
The blankets, sheets, my skin
All have your scent
Water cannot wash away my sins

The flowers, the bush, the bees
The trees
God's melody

I don't smile, the same way at least
My hand doesn't tremor anymore
This pen flows like the water
In which the aquatic wilderness swims

I've found courage
So I look up to the skies
A heart that skips a beat
As a white bird scores a fish

I've found self-expression
Art and wisdom; candlewax pours
It melds with the polish of my table
Books, papers, pens, memories

These are the fragmented thoughts
Of a writer
On the verge of a breaking down
Tired of waiting and waiting

Some letters lay near the bed
For the last three days, half read
My day gets a little tougher
As she's been on my mind lately

I'll lazily stretch my old joints
Yawn a little and tousle my grey hair
My legs feel heavy as the clouds before a rain
If I wake up to the thought of her again

Entering a spiral of despair is so so easy
Staying afloat is the hard part
And a stroll always clears my head
My mind can wander

But in my heart
I've carried the pain of old love
I've carried the weight of old regrets
Now, I'm nursing old wounds

When the night comes
The breeze will rush
The spirit of dawn will caress my soul
Telling me today will be different

But it isn't really
Because everything I do is for her
So I'll learn to live for myself
As time heals those wounds

You cannot overwater
A plant because you missed a day
And expect it to grow
The same way

You wrote in a page of my notebook
My personal diary
A collection of memories, thoughts, and outpouring
I've written many more pages since then

Even filled a notebook or two
Look at how far I've come