I don't blame you
Not for the words you forgot to speak
Not for the actions you didn't take
Not for the thoughts you left me to think
Not for the regrets, not for the mistakes

I won't blame you
or your eyes blinded so conveniently
or your ears momentarily blocked
or your lips silenced repeatedly
or the shame the years have unlocked

I shouldn't blame you
because I did not open my mouth to tell
because I fought my battles alone
because it's not your fault you didn't know
because I kept my burdens all my own

I do not blame you
I will not blame you
I should not blame you
But I do

Heathcliff my love,
Had I known you at times before
Before the glory days of your tormentor
Perhaps your future would not be so bleak.

Heathcliff my love,
If you had not been so hated
Your misery and doom lain fated
Your life might have reached its peak.

Heathcliff my love
Were you not bruised and beaten?
Were you not shamed without reason?
Until you had no cause to be weak.

Heathcliff my love
Once you have broken free
With your rage contained barely
Will you find the revenge you seek?

Heathcliff my love
When terror is six feet below ground
And all that remains is offspring dumbfound
Will equivalent wind render his oblique?

Heathcliff my love
The one you detested you have become
And young son’s potential left unsung
Do you finally see the havoc you wreak?

The trash is half full,
With papers and words and half finished thoughts
Now lost in the land of never-to-be-completed
The wallpaper has continued its peeling;
The brown underneath a long forgotten memory
A breeze blows through
A stranger in an equally strange place
This house is no longer home.

We’re caught in this silly game
of cat and mouse
you, the cat
and me, the mouse

It would be so easy
to be caught by you
to just give in
to what we feel

But the people we would hurt
make this game
not worth the heartache
or the pain

What if you’re just playing me
the way you play the game
so well, yet in the end
it’s just a game

Who would be hurt more
by the results
if reasoning and logic
gave way to basic animalistic instincts

Me, my breath caught
You, with those smoldering eyes

How we love this game
that I started for us
then you joined in
and the damage began

For how long we’ve played
I doubt I could stop now
but maybe just maybe
you’re just as caught as I am

Whatever the outcome
we’ll always have our sport.

Life came at her fast
till she could breathe no more
the world was quickly fading
death knocking at her door
Then one day it seemed to change
a present given by a friend
the gift of music presented
and the darkness seemed to end
When the sweet sound reached her ear
she cried for hope at last
she played for the present and future
but music made up for the past
The future was hers to take
Though the world was tough and grey
Magic made in her hands
What sweet music did she play
but lies and drugs deceived her
friends and family she had shunned
the world was hard and lonely
and the darkness soon returned
once a hopeful dreamer
once so gay and proud
till lost was the sight of that dream
now another face in the crowd
She couldn’t win in the end
her goals and dreams all lost
but here’s a lesson for you
fight at any cost
Don’t become another
who has lost their way
hold tight to your dreams of greatness
and they’ll come true one day.
Don’t give in to temptation
don’t believe the hype
she had so much before her
but now she's a stereotype.

You tapped on my window
knocked on my door
and you always catch me when I fall
Tried to apologize
but it’s been too late
and so I turned around to say
Where did I go wrong
I seem to have lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness
and
It’s 2am
I stayed awake
trying to unravel your latest mistake
It was you and me together
through the days and nights
and I don’t wanna fight
because
I have seen the others
and their mothers
and I have discovered
out of the doubt in your mind
I somehow find
you and I collide
and till the day my life is through
This I promise you.

The things I feel
for you
are not what you
would think
Don’t get me wrong
I love you, I do
Like the bees
love their honey.
But not in the way
that you would think.
I wish to be near you
all the time
to touch you
to hold you
But not in the way
that you would think.
How I enjoy the stories
that you tell
and the sound of your voice
and the way you laugh,
and the way you make me laugh
I wish for you to look at me
with those big brown eyes
and feel what I feel
and know that
it’s not the way
that I would think
Because everything
to do with you and me
Is not in the way
that you would think.