The massive stars
give all their fuel in the night sky
somehow, time will come
they will explode and die
One's existence will turn black
and will eventually fade.

Words slither from their mouth 
The sound ripples
in her ears like the drops
of water from a lonesome cave
She decided to build a wall
and hear no more echoes

In silence,
the heart pitter- patter's
the lungs pounding... in and out
wanting to tell that she's alive,
telling her in a mute
'don't let your gutsy soul fly'

In silence, 
there's too much noise

so she just decided to break the walls down as she rose from solitude.

I, sometimes think,
I am wasting my time for nothing.
It is running and I'm not moving.
The world revolves,
people evolve
They told me to find my place,
and I'm still here on the same spot.
I don't know what to do.
What I see are them walking on fast forward
and I will always be on a slow motion.

Don't let me fall. I'm scared of heights

Weeping under my sheet. I tried to endure but one thing's for sure, there'll be no cure!

My mind's distracted like an abstract making myself lose it. There might be a dose but my eyes... please scrutinize for you to realize.

It's a dark empty room and I'm all doomed. I want you to witness and caress my wet cheeks and if only you can squeeze me tight on this cold night :(

As I recall, you disappear through a throng. Left me hanging with a thought, 'what have I done wrong?'

But this solitude is quite rude for dragging me lifelong.*

-A

8/14/14

Listen, can you hear?
The birds singing wistfully just for you
We are all mourning with your name written as a song
Together, we sing as the toll of bells
dance with the chilly wind
and we will forever sing it

You may not see your daughter’s swollen eyes
Or the little ones running and laughing above the ground
But your secrets are buried deep and will be forever keep
No, I do not just sit and stare
My aching heart will always beat for your name
And I will forever sing your song

Your flesh sat so neatly
and bones will sweetly blossom in the air
But together, you will rise as a seed that grows
You grew into a beautiful flower under the morning sun
You grew bigger as vines crawl into the gravestones
Weeds have sat upon and cover the bold carved words ‘you will forever sing my name’

We might have seen you somewhere, somehow
up, up in the sky as a tranquil bird
or under the ground as a water gushing
from the ocean's call

you are everywhere
and your name will be forever written as a song

an old song hidden from the trunk and voices, running out

Can you still hear?

As the sun folds in half
the orange horizon blazed in the sky
darkness plunged
and cover the world

I closed my eyes,
found myself laying in the soft, moist grass,
feeling the weight of the earth
the humming of the wind,
birds singing wistfully
crickets hiding in their sanctuary

I am alone with the brimming moon
and the myriad of stars

all the flaws, imperfections and scars
became hidden from the dark

for once, my soul revives...

no one can touch me.

The bloom of my heart on the first day of spring. You gave me flowers and so much to remember. You promised a forever with a pinky finger.

We had fun this summer. The beach and adventures. Always the best time when I'm with you, coz you make me smile, that's what you always do.

The falling of golden leaves in the fall season. Oh boy! That was a whole lot of pies in our belly. We rake and play on these leaves together. Then I pause and thought, you might be the one. No doubt, I finally found you.

In a cold winter night where you left me in December, I stand on the side of the road, hugging myself on this busy street wanting to stop the tears. This is what I've always fear. You dissapear and that I couldn't bear. Watching the snow fell from the dark sky, I thought I'll be permanently happy but here I am just feeling empty.

Because those seasons are now nothing but a memory.

-A

8/9/14

How can you not hear my inner voices
and you're that clueless
that I'm already making a mess

Listen to the inaudible scream
look through the window
and find the glint

Lend me your ears,
hear my heart beat?
Hope this won't explode
as it goes to fast mode

My mouth is zipped
as I'm trying to keep
what is safely hidden inside
But the water's
overflowing in the glass
Here I am, trying to wait
for the next bus

But I need to grab the ink
and paste the unwanted feelings
For this is the only way
to grab a rope and not sink*

-A

10/4/14

I do love rain! I do!
A sweater and a cup of tea
My bed and the silly thoughts
in my head

Dancing and kissing in the rain
Laughter playing in the mud
I would say, It was insane
and a little rad

But sometimes, a sail in a storm
could wash you away
A lighting that struck
could **** a day

A heartbreak isn't okay
There are times when it rains
Tears stream down my face
Watching the sky,
from my window pane
Dark as a broken heart
Everything is gray

Raindrops ripple
Like the water
coming from my eyes
A distraught mind

Then all I wish is for rain to go away.*

-A

8/28/14

She's the kind of girl
who is half of a whole
Her body is art, drawing lines
coming from her heart
The pain she endures,
Putting sadness away from her soul.

They put her down
crawling on the ground.
Her face... so full of frown!

Stop hating, start loving
You may be hurting
but this life isn't about crying
It's about smiling
and creating a rainbow
that makes a heart glow.

Can I reach & grab your hand?
Letting you know
I understand.

Doing this to yourself
won't let you see the real world.
It's because darkness
covers the light.

It's in you to make things right!
And it's never too late
for you to realize.
Come on, get up and try.

You are beautiful,
don't tell me that you're not.
Because we are all born to be
and will always be.

-A

8/22/14

ebb of dreams swam at the depths
and will no longer found on the shore

Shout or scream,
no one will hear
it was already on the ocean floor

In a silent night,
I can hear the fast beating of my heart
I thought it's going to explode
My hands are shaking,
my body's trembling
Am I going to die?
I like you and that's not a lie
They say 'the truth will set you free'
But telling the truth crushed my soul
Hades pulled me from underground
I toss and turn in bed,
My thoughts went wrong
I listen to some sad songs
Feels like my world is falling apart
I just want to drift away
so when I open my eyes,
I'll be okay.*

-Adele

10/17/14

thank you for the friendship we once have.
thank you for giving me the chance to be a part of your life.
It's funny how you can't put the pieces back perfectly.
But if you think im being fake, this is me being real.
Thank you and I mean it.

-A

8/4/14

The deafening of silence
The apperception of my brain
It is just seem to wander
Because here I am trying to wonder
The feelings that I thought were gone from what I ponder.
In a glance... it's coming!
Everything's rushing!
Endeavoring to shut my mind,
wanting to stop the hunting of what was elapsed.

What I want is, to doze off and escape from this 3am thoughts.*

-A

8/9/14

All this time,
I believed I got it.
I believed I got better.
I am stronger and smarter.

But when I looked at myself,
it weakens my knees that everything inside my head scribbles.
There is a way out of this maze.

I turn into poetry, a clairvoyant
who can only define why I have to get out before the clock strikes twelve, and it takes hard work to get out
I needed to plan. It is possible.
Poetry guaranteed that all I needed to do is to use my senses
to put the pieces back together and find this one way out.

The luminous sky brought wonders to my life, it’s soft morning breath made me rise. This is the day where I get to face, something different from all of those gloomy days.

The sun is high and bright, the warmth lingers through my skin. Yesterday was a frozen breeze, raged with horror and fear. But today, is something to cheer.

I can see different colors lining in my way. The beauty blossoms on a May. For the last cold day it died with a sigh. Right now, its petals are happily dancing with the friendly wind.

There’s no more darkness in sight. How happy I am to be alive. After all those sunken nights where I can’t breathe from the storm that smashed my ship, I am now sailing placidly ashore.

What a beautiful sail, there’s no more lightning that will strike. Only sunshine and happiness in this vast ocean where I sing the pirate song and turn the anchor forward. Slowly on my way to the happiest place. ❤️

You are the sun of my life
and I am the moon in sight

You gave me light that keeps me alive
From crescent to full phase,
you keep my heart race

Now, stop running around that orbit
I'm tired of catching up
Just come and fall to my gravity

...slowly.

She floats in a throng
Like a music without a song
Sometimes, she flies
Trying to find a place to hide

Sad invisible girl,
crying in the corner
Whispering dreams and wishes
in a dry thin air

the scars on her wrist
buried her deep in the ground
where daisies grew
and more lovely
Flowers bloom in May

She watches her grave
Full of bliss and peace
As she closed her eyes,
She found the brightest ray of light
Her body dispersed,
Forming one of the cosmos
In the vast sky*

(a.k)

The jangling of shackles
those calloused feet
The disgruntled grunt
gnashing and grinding of teeth

In a distinct cell
comes an echo of shrieking voices
Seeking for liberation
Digging for truth

The hope of truce
of the soul
who wanted to be free

Justice from inequality!

-A

7/26/14

I want to write in a silent night
Holding my pen in a white sheet
I looked so uptight-dripping black ink.
Just can't think.

A dark clouds dispersing my mind
A big storm is coming
There must be an exit,
just can't find.

It washed everything away
Thoughts clambering on a trench
It's in the tip of the tounge,
just can't say.

The feelings were trapped
In an empty room so cold and dark
A shudder from horror,
just can't pray.

Squiggle! Squiggle!
Crumpled papers on the floor,
I badly want to find a door
Ugh, just can't write!

-A

8/14/14

The way his leather boots
stomp the ground
Swaying his black jacket,
Jumping while singing
in a bolt of lightning
making heads spinning around

Most girls love...
How his sweat sparkles in the light
His face, so flawless and bright
the way he winks makes all of them scream
wanting him more in their dreams

When he plucks his strings,
The world rocks
that's what he always bring

It's a high ceiling where
she loves doing her thing
Breathing deeply,
stroking the bow on the strings forming a beautiful reverberation while closing her eyes
The untied hair goes with the beat
This stadium's starting to heat

He stood in the hallway with a smile
Leaning on the white wall
waiting for her to pass by
This is too real, looking dumbfounded talking to a tight-jean-kind of guy

The one from school
which you'll find cool
standing in this hall
making every gals drool

Looking at each other's eyes,
melody and harmony
starting to collide,
not leaving each other's side
Creating a perfect balance of tune for the rest of their lives

-A

10/03/14

a shot of dart made my bleeding heart into art

She's afraid to spread her wings
as everyone got lost in the air
She was left in her own misery
in the midst of nowhere
she broke her wing
promised not to fly
Alone and scared, she has to try
Ready to open wide
and flap that white light feather
She wanted to soar high
But afraid to fall and cry
Looking fierce and brave
The only thing
is to get lost from this cave
It's the only way to be saved
No more tears and fears
Casting the trapped shadows
It's time to go and feel,
how the cool wind
wanders through her feet*

-A

9/24/14

Here I stand from the assailant of the world
The burden I carry slows me from moving my feet
The daggers they throw lacerated my being

I stumbled with an agonized cry
There's a whammy inside that
I'm too frightened to fight

It's the heap of gaze where believing was crushed.
Perceiving the truth I am thrown underground
A black abyss where screaming won't make any survive.

Just when someone hand me his arm
I submerged from the hole of what's draining my heart

I thought I'm alone but the light stopped by
The lightness He creates is blinding my eyes

I learned that giving up will lose your mind
Ignore the crowd that have push you.
Auscultate what's it beating for.

Reach for the peak and look at your feet. Everyone will gape and see what's beyond.

You're a sky!
That's high you'll become.

-A

7/25/14

maybe what people
usually say is true
3am thoughts
is a curse that turns
your day soul into blue.

lonesome
as an island with
waves that roars but no one listens

a legion of people
in a downtown intersection
but I stay afloat in desolation

in the midst of a city hustle
I reclused to move

I defeated myself
and surrendered with the action

I live in a jungle of solitary
like a hermit dancing on the ocean floor

They call me Alfred Prufrock
but this is not a love song.
Oh, halt! he wasn’t writing a love song.

The dew turned into a crystallized ice
It's a good day yet I shiver
the sun looks nice saying hi
Rubbing my hand for friction
Time for school, I'm all set
Stopped in the hallway, I'm lost
New faces and gazes
Seems like a challenge
That's what I love best
Handing the white sheet,
wanting for directions
Took a deep breath and actiooon!
Smile and be yourself
Smile and be yourself
Smile and be yourself
The mantra keeps chanting
inside my head
Then, I thought it's not a bad thing
First day... really is something :)

-A

09/11/14

I stood and read the letters
with a pinch of disappointment
of no candles or flowers to buy
I looked up the sky and believed
that beyond the thick
combust are billion of stars
scintillating for the dying hearts
and the roses
that was left languished
on the floor

a remnants of photos
remained
with notes and mournful regrets
flooded the walls

the world just keeps going
which is supposed to
No one heard me cry
for the souls had left the atrocious lane behind

I touched the petals
that used to bloom
and throes my heart
that life has to presume

On my grave, it will read "regretting all the ships that never sailed" and some people will think it's poetic, but others will know

"a pocket full of shells" is playing on my mind
under the scorching tender heat
on a white villa with a panoramic view of a sapphire blanket covering the entirety of the world

the sound of vigorous wind whispered to come and dance as he blew mini waves on the shore, they didn't stop dancing,
so does the trees and the birds that sing along
from afar the mountains are silhouette

these nature, whispered a secret at each other
a conundrum, only they- can understand
and humans trying to search for answer
that seas, mountains, the skies
become majestic to everyone's eyes,

but we only come and watch them for a while,
ponder an ethereal thoughts
in some way,
we find ourselves
there's something about them and they won't tell.
they'll keep calling for you to come,

but you still ponder.

Full of pity for what was promulgated. Watch how I chortle with a tone of "Nobody cares". Is cackling like a witch amusing that much? Might look around; no one seems to listen. My dear friend, cracking jokes will never be our forte. Well, just too engaged in our own lives. Can't say 'Go get a life' when it's kinda rigid turning around, especially when you got stabbed by a knife. And you know, just too fab that you don't actually have ;)

‘April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain...’

The chilly wind entered the dark room,
lamp post flickered outside
as he closed the window,
a gush made the feathered pen tumble as the ink splattered on his white crumpled paper

she opened her eyes and said, ‘Go to sleep...’ but he kept writing and she dozed off

the remnants of his past became an ash...

He found a title ‘The Burial of The Dead’

the candle was blown by the wind, he just stared at the dark sky, the waves from the coast was angry and his head needed the fragments to come altogether
his heart, knocking on silence, crying

1) I scratched your disc jockey
And left a note that I was sorry
Forgive me for your taste in music
Sounds a little bit dreary


2) Last night, while I was driving your car
I fell off a cliff!
It sure was damage, but I am still alive
Thank you for having me use it


3) The hearth needed more wood
And I cannot find one
Instead, I burned your favourite book
Sitting on the table
Forgive me, I did not like Dostoyevsky

4) I have eaten
The strawberries from the countertop
And which you were probably
Saving for your morning smoothie
Forgive me they were delicious and fresh