i am still alive
and if i wasnt
you wouldnt know

i am that person you abused
i am that person you never loved or cared about
and i still exist
and i remember what you did to me
every single day

and if i did ever die
i would be at peace
because finally for once
i exist in a world
where you don't.

and i don't have to live
with your memories.

I am holy
and I will purge
with my soul, free,
I will merge
I am murdered
I am hurt
I sought it out
at all cost

running like a faucet,
baby I'm exhausted
and I'm unhinged
searching for forever
what felt like never
has come tinged
into a red.
you're in my bed
inside my head
it feels like ***,
it's so complex
I feel satisfied, it's good
it's revenge well understood
yeah, i didn't know at first
but I finally quenched my thirst

I have revenge

Feeling like a black slime
is it criminal,
if in my room alone?
and no one is here to see
my mom wonders
what's wrong with me
she gave birth to a deviant
and I can only deceive the world for so long
there's nowhere I belong
I should put it in a song
sitting here, starving out
at least I'm healing slowly
thinking about if everyone in the world was dead
judgement day, coming now
hell and heaven, coming down
nothing left to do
but
die
and go to hell
I'll burn forever
for not praying
I'll burn forever

i dont have love
so it makes all the pain
and the turmoil
seem worthless

because in the end
i still didn't get what i wanted

i don't write for fun
when my germy fingers hit the keys,
i say "this is the one"
this is the best thing coming out of me

you are the one
the coolest grime
the dirtest blood
the grittiest slime

you're mine,
sometimes i possess you
and in my life
you know i'm obsessed with you
it's a competition
i always tried to best you
be your best self.
be the best you.

you put such a cruel mixture
within me
of hatred, love, and envy
and ****** desire
and blood, and lust
and dirt, and bones,
and bodies, and dust

cause' it's gettin' so old
and i'm gettin' so old
too old for this
or so i'm told
i'm still young
but i bite my tongue
because sooner or later
i'll be lyin' on my death bed

and you're a cruel mixture
that killed me
that poisoned me
and distilled me

our species
is so ******
smeared all
in feces
i got a soul
and existence
ima burst it open
like a diamond
my dreams are dark and intense
my goals are sharp and immense
my pain is heavy and dense
will something ever make sense?

i'm just an earthly alien
with some mitochondria
i just wanna blow guys up
i'm just different

what's inside of me
that they really want?
i'm the prey
and you're on the hunt

high level healing modal
productivity busyness mouse
i'm sick and tired of this house
and the earth is filled with trash

i'm just an earthly alien
with some mitochondria
experiencing major traumas
don't know what it's all about
until i'm ******* dead
till' then I'm just sick in the head

doubts and worries disappear
like fog blown by wind
but they come back again
zebras eating grass
how long will this mood last?

don't know when, don't know how
it will ever end
my dear reverend
can you tell me the answers?
i see crosses in the sky
god hides from me and i don't know why

my dear revenant
coming to haunt me again
i guess he wants me again
is life going as planned?

i'll get out of here
i'll write better poetry
maybe when my mind is clear
maybe when the end is near

whatever the world is,
i'm the opposite
i'm an angel standing
on top of a white light
underneath the soft earth
and into the twightlight
my foot is halfway
in the word of fireflies
and i split my conscious
in thousands of lifetimes

i'm the opposite of happiness
i'm the opposite of fear
although closely aligned
yours is yours and yours is mine
i'm enmeshed with my flesh
i am raw and i am fresh
i'm a mix, i'm a twig
off the giant tree of yggdrasil
c'est so facile
rolling down a hill

i'm the ****
i'm the hunt
i'm the opposite of what they want
i am damage
i am green
i'm the root and i'm the seed
i'm a product of society
and carve my life out of stone
i'm enmeshed with my flesh
i am raw and i am fresh

i'm the blood, i'm the bone,

in your head i'm all alone

but deep inside you really know

i'm not the opposite of home

i love when my life feels like i just snorted 60 mg of crack
and all the stress is lifted off my back
like pushing off a giant piece
of a 70 foot story high apartment

my brain bursts bubbles
in my ears they go 'pop'
and the colors feel more vibrant
i want none of it to stop

but the high only lasts 5 minutes
until the trigger is set
then the bullet hits my head
and soon i start to forget

i go back to sorrow
bleeding into the morrow
digging into the marrow
buried into a burrow

being shot with an arrow
when the highs turn to lows
it's like the death of a pharoah
and i'm deaf to the metal

i fall soft like a petal
and now they're pushing the pedal
instead of the breaks
when the highs turn to lows

i crash myself awake

mindcontrolling parasite
im in your head
its painful for you
but **** to me
lets cooperate
in this te-le-pathy
its a little ikkle dance
and a bitter acid romance
nothing about it is sweet
'cept the taste of your meat
and the way your heart beats
in tears out of fear
cause you know that i'm here
watching you like a ghost
cause' i never disappear
sick sick sweet love
so so serial
i'm a ****** up void
in human material
mindcontrol


come


to


me


now

people feel
and i feel
and they like the fact that i am real
broken barbie bruised skin
beautiful without, beautiful within
if you are abused with awareness,
spread your truth if you aren't careless
our minds are all that's left, old minds are all that's left

this world is a crooked fantasy
bent broken rust with busted teeth,
yellow, crooked, and miss-sized eyes
narcissists and ***** prizes
hurt people hurt people
and i don't care at all
if you don't learn from hurting me
it's another fist straight to your jaw

cause self-defense is different from abuse
and we haven't all healed
so please be gentle with the language that you use
and the soft truth will be revealed

all we really need is love
and to love each other
because that 10 out of 10 perfect Ken,
is so ****** up inside
he'll use you over and over again
coming and increasing his void

and everyone feels pain
but you still have a status
and you don't suffer like us at the bottom
so please humble yourself
give us **** poor beggers some shiny coin
with your face pressed into it

i'm going to create for myself
in my dystopian little world
inside my head, i'm a little girl
toes pointed in a dance
and our romance can last forever
cause when love works
and love is happy
it really is a fairy tale
have you ever seen a fairy's tail
wiggle when she's happy?

scrappy, scrappy
everything is so ******
so i take the metal
and make me a drum
i can cook up some trash beats
and feed my people
and dance to the music
i need my people

this is what poetry gives me
a community
i can be a weird outlet
years of weird words
that somewhat rhyme in my head
and others like it
somehow
im so fantastical
it's all to me
like a song that doesn't rhyme
but makes me feel so good

people feel
and i feel
and they like the fact that i am real
broken barbie bruised skin
beautiful without, beautiful within
if you are abused with awareness,
spread your truth if you aren't careless
our minds are all that's left, old minds are all that's left

and then i wonder, what was the point of ever opening my heart in the first place
no first kiss, in the first place,
reminisce about the things that were wrong in the first place

something tells me that i shouldn't, but maybe i just should
i already knew you wouldn't
there's no chance that you would
in the first place

i don't wanna go back
in the first place
i didn't even wanna live
in the first place
i just wanna fall back
into the sky
i wish i could fall
right into heaven
that's the first place

the first place
i was in
the first place
i ever sinned
i always lose
i never win
i want to end
so that i can begin

the first place
i ever lost
the first pain
i ever caused
i am exhausted
i first started falling
when we first met
and the crash and burning
it leaves me withered
thinking of the first thing
i can't forget.

no one coming to save me

they appear
like giant black specs
in the corner of my eyes
peeking behind doors
hiding under beds
they are our fear
we do not feel
they are the pain
we shove, hide,
and push away
they are the black holes
in our minds

blasting music in my ears
having triggers for some years
the same guy its the same guy
its not the same lows
or the same highs
i think i'm in hell
in earth i see the same sky
but not all that well
someone blast me with a bullet
someone stab me with a knife
my thoughts are getting darker
and i'm not acting very wise
i kinda like the fact
that it takes every part of me
to take myself a part
and create a new life
i'm giving birth to myself
over and over again
dying in a hospital
as a clone, a copy
when they do a biopsy
they'll see a bunch of gods
grouped together
i might blast myself
with some pills
tried to do it
tried to ****
when you blocked me
the 400th time
we're opposites
but the same
twin flames
barbed wire
melted   a bit.

My soul heavy, chasing material desires
Frustrated by the iron chains that hold me down
Heavy on me,
sinking me
into hot
scorching
magma.

As I try to become more and more God-like,
I get filled with more emptiness
more nothingness
I cremate
into ashes
and scatter across the void

I feel the horror
and anger
and fear
and whatever it is
and an inability to understand.

I feel paranoid
and confused
and just wished it was all clear

I feel stupid

And I'm sorry.

the door is open
and the sounds of voices like babbling spirits
fill the hallway

people are around me in my home
my heart treats them like strangers
it pains me in a subtle way

i crave the soft touch of a man
being on his warm body
i fantasize about his kiss

i want someone

someone who fills me
someone who doesn't make me feel alone

i'm back
and i'm better
and i'm hotter
and i'm wetter
i'm dripping like a soaked sweater in the rain
the sweater of a dead body
whose cells are filled with pain
she don't feel it
she was drowned

i'm back
and i'm hotter
than a sauna
an oasis
love
such an illusion
it'll **** you slowly
before it makes you stronger
i've almosted killed myself 4 times and can't take it any longer

my back
it's turned
the bridges
are burned
the lessons
are learned
the spells
are made
it's your time to pay

you follow
my rules
you obey
my rue
is too strong
to ever break
i'm the best
risk to take
i'm the most underdiscovered gift

i'm a monolith
i'm  a poem
i'm a rebel
i'm a stoic
i'm a tribe
i'm heroic
i'm demonic
i am loving
i am what history is becoming

you are a void
you are love
you are a parasite
inside of me
whose hunger never stops

you are
the single cause
you are
the only reason
and you have
so much power

you wanna be the king of hell?
well, feel free to rule my world
because i'm in hell every single ******* day.

i must be a satanist then
because you are god
and I've spent the rest of my life trying to replace you

twisty achey thoughts and voices in my head
do all the talking and as i look within
the lines of my skull have thousands of lips
giving me gentle kisses
they keep talking
i keep crawling in these desert sands
and i'm sinking into the abyss
i am a hologram full of noise
i'm going back into the earth
i will slowly be destroyed
if it's not by the sound
i'll be drowned out by their constant talking
the journey is long
in this desert sun they're stalking
it's way louder than a whisper
in my heart i feel a blister
so sharp and cold they make me shiver
even as i'm melting down
the echo forms a surround
if you heard it it would hurt
i'm going back into the earth

i see eyes in the dark
i feel tears behind mine
i keep everything in
like a drunk
with the alcohol
in his liver
the world
in my head
is a flimsy hell
and this earh
we live on
is a flimsy paradise
you gotta build bricks
of scorching magma
to climb your way out

all my pain
can simply change
if i just
rewire my brain!

delete your *******
from my cells
so my life won't be
a living hell

read, write
exercise,
keep *******
away from my eyes

live life
meditate
wok hard
don't hesitate

it's so easy
at first hard
but a little steps
cover a yard
eventually

blah blah blah
anyways
the point is
you control your brain

just a slither of cake
honey drowsed
i felt elated
as i browsed
no self control
i'm too aroused
and you're the kind of guy
to stay around
to lie to me just a litte more
cause all you think's is that i'm a little *****
just a slither of your "love"
is enough to fuel me up

it taste like honey
you only want one thing from me
you got me believing how this is men are
i'm crying in my room alone
shivers through my body
the tears are heavy
and i'm asking god why, and why, and why, and why and why and why..

just a slither of cake
honey drowsed
i felt elated
as i browsed
no self control
i'm too aroused
and you're the kind of guy
to stay around
to manipulate me just a litte more
to just use me a little more
cause all you think's is that i'm a little *****
just a slither of your "love"
is enough to fuel me up

revv the engine, load the gun
then go and tell everyone
that i'm not the one you love
tell that ***** i'll push and shove her
but before i do that, i'll fall first
i'll jump off a roof and die
even if i don't, at least i tried

i'm a litte snake

when you're at rock bottom
a crystal cove
climb your way up
or imagine broom stick

let's be weird witches
far away in the forest
give you little kisses
and complain about hens

let's drink from gauntless
and find springs of water
to have steamy showers
over and over again

we're unnatural but natural
21st century divine
this is what our ancestors died for
and now is our time

my therapist hurt me
my friends hurt me
my partners hurt me
and god hurt me
so now
who do i have left to turn to

You saved me from my pain
by filling up my heart
with a love plastic and fake
that quickly fell apart

Our empire of love
was built upon a lie
But I love you still,
and that love will never die

You were my hero,
and I was your zero
You were my trophy,
and I was your prize

I wanted to keep you, always wanted to be near you
but I was an object inside of your eyes.
Your lies were crystal, in my rear mirror,
I was secret that you bled to hide

You were my lover, my one and only,
but I was a shadow in the shape of your lust.
I was so young, and I am naive
been too many years, yet I still stand to grieve

I always wear my heart on my sleeve
and you grab my wrist to prey on me;
I have no one to pray to
and although in this world I am free,

you are the one I'm a slave to
my childhood belief is that you'll set me free,
although you search for someone to save you
what a dangerous thing to have made you.

Part of what makes me so attracted to you
is the feeling i get of nostalgia
of what it felt like to be myself
before you ripped me to shreds.

and i know we both feel
the highs and lows
the sweet sugar crashes
and i'm so addicted to you
but so afraid
that maybe you'd put
the magical rollercoaster at a halt.

i'm insane,
and it's all in my head
but when i feel that nostalgia
i really wanted you

a flash, a *** scene,
of hot steamy love
flashed in a head
for a second.

when i awaken
with a fresh mind
the machine
revvs itself up
i spend my days in isolation
a wasted life
just ignore
the voices in your head
they'll all stop
when you'll soon be dead
in this world
it's **** or be killed
all the darkness
has to be filled
with daemons

fake me
i read the words on the screen
through other peoples eyes
i tell myself i'm being authentic
like everyone else,
i lie

but i don't know who i am
i'm feeling middle-aged
and my sexuality and soul
is feeling pretty caged

i'm feeling pretty fake
so fake me
mistake me
misplace me
or take me
away

somewhere far with all my things
i wanna be a stray
i wanna make love in an open land
and run my fingers through the sand
no one in this world will understand
me except my man

locusts in my throat
for years i couldn't figure out what was wrong with me
it festered inside my head
thousands of voices
simulating schizophrenia
the irritation
the regret

all i had to do
was use my voice
and say The Things I DIDN'T SAY

i remember
when you said
you were going to marry me
and i really thought
you were the one

leashes like a matryoshka doll
you rip one off but you're still a dog
sit next to la plage
my mind filled with fogged
it's a sunny day
but my life is a swamp

do i have an addictive personality?
my obsession carries over from one to the next
the sessions and season happen without reason
my mind is criminal treason
i betray myself
i just can't sit still

i hate my life, i try to escape
these men dissapear like smoke from a vape
i'm running around a hall of mirrors
in the end i'm always alone
playing this stupid game
there's always more, and they're all the same

being used like a toy
of course it's by a boy
cause they're minds are so feeble
they get brainwashed by physical reality
and i float out of my body like a ghost
into duality, individuality

i split up
i sit up
i spit up
i'm a baby
i'm *******
psychotic
neurotic
and crazy

but of course i change
unlike before
you thought you knew me
now there's more layers under the surface
so peel me away
and see my rotten core

you know your sins will always resurface
there's always more
buried away
your little secrets
are in my brain
and it seeps through like pain

i'm bleeding sweet nectar
THERES ALWAYS MORE OF IT
THERES ALWAYS MORE of it
THERES ALWAYS MORE of it
THERES ALWAYS MORE of it
THERES ALWAYS MORE

i realized
i am many
and they have
different writing styles
all my selves
different worlds
imaginations
words
which is why
i keep
coming and going
i can't   be
who i was
5 years ago
she was
the beautiful
one

and
now
im
broken

into
a
thousand.

i am almost fully grown
although my soul is poorly sewn
there is not much that i own
i'm myself when i'm alone
i don't feel at home at home
in this lonely house i roam
i am not that girl
i am a whirlwind
i am a model
i am the engine
i am a throttle
i'm a magical trapped spirit
i'm a genie in a bottle
i am darkness, i am sad,
i am depressed, i am mad
but i am not that girl
that girl you once had
my innocence has run dry
my naivety is buried
over layers of affairs hurried
my brain is slightly scurried
my vision is kind of blurry
inside of the reflection
i am becoming human
lost touch with the connection
of the essence of what it meant
to be a child
i had no protection
a victim of erections
from boys that scour the internet
their mouths foaming wild
but i am not that girl
who is young and naive
and easily manipulated
i am not that girl
who is desperate
i am not that girl
who thinks she is worthless
i am a similar girl
but a different girl
i am not that girl anymore
i am
lonely
hurt
sad
broken
but i am
strong
i have a will
i am older
i am wiser
im
a little
more mature
i am slowly leaving
my past behind
because
i am not that girl anymore

following them around
cause i really love their sound
it's not an obsession,
but it's just the start..

can you feel my pain?
it's driving me insane
the way your pretty make up
changes my heart

i wanna sleep next to you
i wanna *** you
it's so hard to listen to your music now
cause i need you to be with me
the way you make me feel
behind the screen

you're the hottest celebrity
i need you to have *** with me
i want you to be with me
in my dreams and fantasies

when i was crying
i swear to god
you were talking to me through the music video
in my endless sobs
and my ex really hurt me
and my ex is gone
but that pretty *** makeup
is turning me on

hot online celebrity
im losing my integrity
i made fun of people
for being those kinds of fans
but the way you do it to me
musically ******* me
i know it's my hormones
i don't think that i can
control them anymore
cause i'm so alone
im about to text you
on my ******* phone
and just beg you
baby please
i've got a demiurge, a craving,
you for to feed

just **** me
in that
SICK ***
SWEET ATTIRE

you sing to me
so perfectly
and i'm on fire
your casting spells
and your witchcraft is working
on me

i'm gonna believe
i'm the only one
oh please
kimmy

come to me kimmy...
come to me kimmy
COME TO ME KIMMY
COME TO ME KIMMY!!!!!

this P    M  S
made me a m e t a l h e a d
i feel like him and i feel like myself
we bleed as one and it feels so fun
for my double ego to melt

i want us to be combined
we're already both so aligned
i wanna melt in your blood like ice
sleep in your darkness like a lice
in your hair at night

i feel so devine
as i bleed
and i touch heaven
as i leave
with my ****** hand
and bad deeds
i feel so alive

when will I have sweet love
he looks into my eyes
and stares so deep
knowing I am the one
it all feels
like a perfect song
and the blissful emotions
rise and fall
as all I've ever wanted
falls right into my hands.

when will I be taken care of
when will I be
given everything
that no one ever gave me
when will someone love me
without hurting me
when will they say
"I love you"
and mean it?

when will I feel safe
to share my body
and sexuality
with another person
when will I
be able to relax
because he doesn't
make me feel any stress
when will I have
to not worry
about my safety
or constantly check
to see if I'm
being manipulated
when will I
be finally be able
to lower my defenses

when will I
stop feeling hopeless
scared
when will I
feel what it's like
to be inside my body
and not feel insecure
not feel men
look me up and down
like thirsty dogs
trying to aggressively
have *** with me

when will I be happy
when will I have
this love
that lasts forever
that makes me feel
like a little sun
is inside my heart
burning all the
darkness away

and when
will I have
someone accept me
for who I am
the fact that
I'm ****** up
I have mood swings
I get angry
sometimes
I age regress
back into
a child
I have kinks
that are weird
I do the opposite
of what I say
because it's hard
for me to be vulnerable
I have a history
of abuse
and being manipulated
over and over again
I feel tired
and overwhelmed
I am so
sick and tired
of being strong
for everyone else
and taking care
of everything by myself
all the ******* time
but then
being told
that I'm too much.

when will I
attract someone
that is handsome
so I don't
have to feel like
I always have to settle
and then made guilty
cause "looks don't matter"
"be grateful"
none of these dudes
are in my league.

and that's why
they're always
cheating on me.

when will I
have to stop wondering
and fantasizing
about all these things?
when will it not
leave knots in my heart
in my stomach
when I see
a happy couple
holding hands
and it brings me to tears
because I wish I had that
so badly.

I prayed for it
it makes me cry
and hurt
it looks
so effortless
they're smiling
and holding hands
and I just
want to know
the secret
I just
want to know
what's wrong with me
I just
want to know
how long it will take

I just
want to know
when it will happen.

Miserable

I don't want to see
the way you ignore me
after you use me
after I pass your thoughts
like I'm not alive
like I'm nothing
I want you
to delete
everything you wrote
I want you
to write poems of misery
of how guilty you feel
and even in those feelings
you're still
a selfish ***
*****.

i feel the decay
i look so pristine
i can't describe the grime
i call my 'feelings'
i'm heavy all the time
a cloud of burden
and with hopeful eyes
i gaze at the window
my body and bones is aching for sun
my cold empty heart
is aching for love
whatever you give me
is just not enough
i'm a modern zombie
in a healthy mold
tears pulse through me
just like blood
i mean nothing
no one reaches out
i breathe, and move,
yet i still doubt
that i am alive
being alive is a feeling
and it's foreign to me now
ever since i got bitten by a dracula
i'm rotting inside, a black hive
and wasps in my dreams
when life is a dangerous virtual reality
i get lost in my dreams

they take so long to become real

Rotting away in my mind
feel like an empty acorn
always falling behind
feel like losing connection
my body is limp
my tongue is dry
im lying in the dark
waiting to die

rotting away, is my mind
i cant leave the past behind
constantly haunted by
the emptiness

im a loser
im a chore
im a ******
im a *****

im broken
im done
i dont know
what ive become
numb

rotting away in my mind
like an apricot
feels so slow
and makes no money

I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a bridge that's burning on both ends.

I feel angry at men, and society, and my ex, and myself, and God, and the world, and everything.

The anger is like a bitter fire that's warm, that builds up inside but doesn't get quite hot enough to burn me.

At this stage in life, I finally feel like an adult.

I have a ton of **** to figure out and do by myself. I have to figure out how to get a place and pay rent and apply to jobs and get experience.

Because that's what being an adult is, right?

I was always independent, and I love my independence, but this is one of those moments where people say they wish they were a kid again when life was good and they didn't have to get their *** up and do ****.

My life wasn't good as a kid.
It's turning good now.
I guess.

I just feel the burn
of having to work my *** off
my entire life
and not get a slap on the back.

I'm putting in 100% effort and getting nothing for it.

I complain about that in my mind
But nobody will ever really know
and nobody will ever really care
All I can do is write poetry about it.

The truth is
is that I'm slowly letting go of my grudges.
And that drives me insane.
My mind is fighting tooth and nail to become livid!

i dont know what ****** god brought me into this world
but i often hate him for it

let me imperfect
let me be wild
let me be a-crazy-little-19-year-old-child
let me be rotten
let me be impure
let me be the dead ocean bodies under the shore

are you shore?
that you want this
i'm  ilmy ickly bicky tricky little slime
i'm halfway dead and halfway alive
i'm a sharky starky darky quiet little trick
i'm the melted candle with a burnt wick

****, let it be..
****, let it be..
****, let it be..
****, let it be..

let me be *****
let me drool
let me crave,
let me break the rules
let me be your slave
let me run
like stale blood
in the winter sun

are you shore?
that you want this
i'm a germy little squirmy little cut up worm
i live in the dirt and sleep in the grime
i'm a slimy little limey little blicky flicky bug
let me chew on your marrow
and **** on all your blood

****, let it be..
****, let it be..
****, let it be..
****, let it be..

let me on my journey
let me be cool
let me be different
like a pink *** mule
let be myself
let me be you
cause i say the things you say
and do the things you do

****, let it be..
****, let it be..
****, let it be..
****, let it be..

My stage stands strong in my head
my sorrow song sings in the noon
my beautiful mate is soon to swoon
we kiss underneath a full moon
i can't wait till i'm rich
i can't wait for the fame
i can't wait to make something out of nothing
and rub it in their face
i can't wait to show off
i can't wait to have it all
i can't wait to wreak havoc and make the whole world fall
at my knees
and the birds
and the bees
will sing all for me
i'm the queen
of the ring

i'm slowly figuring out
in the ****** puzzle of life
that taking my own
isn't worth it all

the story unfolds
and the ugliness spreads
like a cancer, a mold
leaves side characters dead

and now that i'm alone
i've started to grow thorns
i'm a mutilated rose
filled with envy and scorn

i'm healing all alone
i'm a ******* med
i'm taking my pills
and eating my bread

in gematria i'm jesus
in my mosque i'm a ghost
in your head i'm a parasite
in my mind you're a hoax

we're two sides of the same coin
good and evil are exploitative
don't judge the nature
don't try to destroy it

i'm slowly figuring out
in the ****** puzzle of life
that taking my own
isn't worth it all

i can draw your name in the bathroom
and **** on it in the stall
i can rise like a tide
like a tsunami i can fall

i **** on your parade
and still taste like lemonade
and fight my own battles
and heal my own wounds

my mentally illness after all
is only in my room
i can destroy the world if i wanted to