So much crowd is here but
I am feeling all alone ,
My head try to cover up
But my heart gave a shake to my bone,
No one is mine
While all are my known,
My body is feeling terrible heat
although its calm dawn,
I choose self respect over my friends
But now my control on heart has gone,
This stupid heart want them again
Knowing how it was crushed and thrown,
Even my head feel heart pain
And do best to stay away from *****
Heart is not always right sometimes
Need to be bared when it hurt own,
I will strong hard so no one hit my spirit
No matter how long I have to stand alone......

One day I forget my poetry diary in school
My class teacher read and find them cool

She ask me to share
But i didn't know why and where?

Those are just the words what I feel
What if some one break my keel

What I feel no one might care
It take me 3 years to dare

Then too I played a game
I choose a PEN name

This is not really the end
May this give my life a bend

For now it fulfill my greed
That of to write and read:) :) :)

As a person I was reluctant to change,
Adapting  them was out of my range,
Now every month new people & new place,
A strange professional deadline race,
When I look back,
I have changed so much that I can't track,
Some fear they may not get what they want,
Unfortunately I don't,
Something as , make me to shiver,
What if I couldn't sail in expectations river,
My people expect me 2 find exclusive pearl,
My heart expect me to smile and swirl ,
I don't know what is in my fate ,
Have no option , just have to wait,
Preparing life's workpaper as per my trait,
Waiting for God’s review,Let's see how he rate….

You can feel my breath
But i am dead
You can hear my beats
But I am dead...

Some hours before We are showered by rose
And now you ****** my part of blood and heavy dose


From My red rose to your blood red
Made me dead..

No longer I feel any pain
No longer romantic this rain

All mistaken they think I am sad
No I am dead

I still kept in fridge your favourite bread
You live in me I Am dead

We Exchange our hearts not head
That day not you my heart was declared dead
I dont want your heart to do tear shed
Your heart have to live, its mine which is dead
Belive me or not
I am dead.......

You want to know why
Than just go to hell,
Now you are no one
To whom I should tell....
Just take your memory With you
Dont come ever even to see
I am dead or well....
You blacken my dream of sky,
And now you are asking why,


Our peril of love is lost
Because you break the trust shell,
My heart echoed all this
But my mouth decline to spell.
My feelings stop me to
Curse you for hell
But true love will never knock
your door and ring your heart bell,
Nature will do justice ,you will have
flowers in life but you cant feel their smell.

I will remain silent
But the almighty make your
Life complete but dry,
that day you will get answer
Of your all those why why????

I am missing you all
I feel like lost my soul

All are stupid but my friends
Some love movies other love brands

Today i am missing our cold wars
When sitting all alone to stare stares

I miss you all
But will not make a call

I miss you all
B
U
T
dont want anyone back
this time may not be
able to stay on track.

You trusted me never ask why
'Kaash' you caught my lie
I hurt your heart by my good bye
'Kaash' you hold my hand see me shy
" I want diamonds that you can't buy"
And you again believe your cutie pie
How can I tell you soon I will die
''Kaash' you can hear my hidden cry
For once only  you would spy
You may know your love going to die
'Kaash' you didn't trust my lie

I could see your face before I die
Than you might too look for me in sky
'Kaash' you didn't trust my lie
For once you might ask why
You shouldn't trust my lie

You have chosen an easy path
Why hardest one is mine,
You got the ticket for last station
Why am I still in this long line,
I am alone here
But there you shine.

Without you every breath
Feels like a crime,
Living behind is a torture
Dying is so fine,
You have chosen an easy path
Why hardest one is mine.

We will meet again
But how much more time?

You ask me to fly
But where is my open sky

You ask me to think out of box
But you stick to old thinking rocks

You want me to follow my goal
But force restrictions like hole

You ask me to show devotion
But didnt allowed me to ask question

Might you are right to give me chances
as we don't have your experiences

Now I have strong wings and ready to fly
please now just give me my clear free sky.........

My life use to be like river's flow,
Never changed path, my craziness made other to bow,
But life never run in the same row...

My age become a dam of expectations,
Expected Maturity create weir to my emotions,

I am changing my ways as per society norms,
My fishes of emotions and dreams are eaten by conservative worms,

My people are diverting my way to grow,
I am flowing calmly without any anger-fear show,

But I doubt,
I Doubt how more can I hold..

My dream, ambition & my crazyness is suffocating in this muddy cage,
I fear, I might get distroyed or distroy everything in my rage,

Will I get my free flow,
In the moonlight will I ever glow..

Now only Time will tell...
Will I or they bow?

When I had a doubt
I had a name to shout,

Good or bad talks I just wanted to share
You might Break my trust but I didn’t care,

We supported each other when we were weak
We unlock smiles when our eyes tap got leak,

My friend whose daily talks got addictive,
For you, I became so predictive,
One day suddenly you disappear,
I cried for days and rolls out my tears

It would be better if
Memories are amendable,

It would be better if
I was less dependable,

Still My hope makes me to wait
you will call me, may be a little late.

My friend ask me "how
I should propose my girl"?
"Should I say you are
the most beautiful just like a pearl"?
OR
"Should I knee down
to make her feel like queen"?
"Should I cut my wrist with her name
to tell, for me what she mean?"
"Should I buy a diamond ring
so to give her a happy swing?"

What if
She don't want the ring and royal treat
Just want some love words on plain sheet

What if
****** cut and metaphor to pearl didn't give her swing
Your promise to share your life give her wing

What if
She don't want you ever to be on knees
She may want a caring hand when she needs

"ohh my my
you are a girl too still Don't know the girly trend
God knows how your one will impress you, my friend!"

He left while thinking how he should propose
"Should I sprankle petals of rose?"
"Or should I......

I stand still and puzzled
if my words are so cubersome to understand????
If my definition for love is too simple to lend??????

Elders told whatever do
Do because of some reason

I became a devotee to this advice
either being rude or doing something wise...

Than came a season
When i can't find the reason...

He is a cheese piece for
whom my heartbeats run like mice
Oh God! First time my head
Suffer from reason crise....

Than realize the reality
Feelings ,logics or reason are apart
Reasons are work of head
Feelings are most illogical logic of heart.....

God create human with a heart
Which have unlimited seats,
whenever new one come and old leaves
Heart increases its beats...

Some really deserve that place
While others just cheat...

I love my heart
Don't want a wrong one to take
special seat,
so i gave my heart a prisoner treat,
never let it feel trust's warm heat.....

head lead me away where
heart want me to rush,
I succeed and never had any crush....

BUT
In loneliness my heart seat began to rust,
I start loosing my seats in others heart
And all's trust....

NOW
Open the passage
And welcoming to fill vacant seats,
Ready for loving the love
And facing the cheats,
I can feel the lively beats
My heart beats-´\  /_  /__  /
                          \/   \/    \/      \/

The day is finally here for
which I have waited so long,
''Anyone will ever miss me?''
this hit my head like hard tong.

Which things make them to miss me?
neither I a beauty to attract their dwelling,
Nor have so guts
Ever to share my feelings.

what they expect from me don't know!
what I want from them I don't know!
no matters these talks anymore
Now I have to have to go?

The day most awaited...
The day most hated....

So many new faces in front of me
Hiding themselves in laptops,
I am a thrown seed in this field
Of  professionally grown crops,
Sound of fingers hitting keys so fast
Is only thing I hear from one hour past,
Another is  loud sound of clock's tickles
Making me to miss my college giggles,
Auditing the figures in million
None have that care free smile of minion,
Probably I will get handsome money
But will I be able to live life fully Honey??

Every day I get up to play a game,
Life is its name….

Like other games, it has its own set of rule,
No hack for this was taught in my school,

I try to hold things in my fist,
But every day is a new twist,

This is a game full of weird human characters,
Some remain & some leave depends on their benefit factor,

This game gives sudden shake
Those will win who don’t break,

But this is incomplete solution to life equation,
Because I am still on board not reached the final station……

Till the end came I want to chat a lot,
In every rain I want to make paper boat,

I don't want to go really high,
But a rooftop will work if I can stare sky,

I want those random heated family fights,
Thinking who say sorry first want to waste my nights,


I want my hair to fly in cold air,
I want to laugh and cry with those I care,

Being at the top like milk's cream,
It's not and never could be my dream,


I want to be angry I want to scream,
But dancing till my last step is my dream,


Don't know where and when these beats can end,
This uninvited guest that no one can bend,


This time is only mine that I have lend
I will not live but shine,till the end..

I always condemn myself for not recognizing true faces,
Staying around them is like running with open laces,

I blame my eyes, Why I can't see their true color!
Why these eyes can't make them just blur!

I know they can't change,
I have to now reduce my range,

I have to live in this manuplating world,
Where my friendly talks are always swirled,

I have to mind my each word
Now they are no more free bird..

I am 20 now and you want me to feel
Like you care when you give me teddy
I got my first first bear
When I was of 8 by my daddy
You give me flowers and chocolate
To show your love is so trendy

Let me tell you boys, whom your VIRTUAL QUEEN
she is someone REAL PRINCESS already
Try as much you all can
My king will be only my daddy

Whenever you are about to fall
I gave you my hand,
Everything inside me shattered
Why not you take my stand,
I thought you just dont show care
But you backstab me, My Friend!
My body is lying cold and motionless
But my finger still wear your band,
WHY? Oh.......WHY?
you gave me and my trust on you
Such a tragic the end...

Mummy want me to be mature
Brother want me not to be a bore

Sister want my secrets to share
Dad want me to take care

Boss want me to do all the work
Friends want me to be free like ****

My colleagues want my support
My cousin want my new fur coat

I know what all need or want
But what I need ? I don't

There are many heart's that I won
Except my own :(

When world step on you,
And you are too afraid to stand or even to try,
You can cry….

When No one is there to answer
And mind is full of why?
You can cry....

When betrayal crushes the trust,
And the pond of love is going to dry
You can cry….

Because You are alive … You can cry
Because You are hurt…. you can cry
Because You have a heart…. you can cry
Because You feel the pain …you can cry
Because You have a soul…you can cry

No need to be embarrass or feel shy
If you want to…you can cry,

Now stand again and give it a try,
Now search answers for some new why,
Now collect drops of loves to fill the pond about to dry.
Don’t hold… If you want to.. you can cry.

You want to go
Just go

But promise me
You will not look back
It's not that I willn't be there
But I don't want you to see my heart's crack

You want to go
Just go

But never look into my eyes
If you will see me on your way
I don't want you to read unspoken
Love words today I want to say

You want to go
Just go

But promise me you willn't
come on my grave with flower
It's not that my love will die with me
I don't want to touch your soul as rain shower

Its not that I willn't wait for you
Or patience for my love I lack
But promise me
You will not come back

You want to go
Just go
Gooo
Goo
Go......