Dearest Penelope,

I write this with shaky hand,
Making sure that every line is perfect,
With dotted i's and crossed t's,
Hoping it will make you,
Think much higher of me.

But Darling, my most beautiful atrocity,
Dearest Penelope,
You know you bring me nothing,
But heart aches and misery.

But if that is what I need,
To feel attached to you.
Then heart break it is,
'Til I find my way through,
To you.

Dearest Penelope,
I'll love you,
Forever if it'll be,
Dearest Penelope I love you,
Signed Sincerely, me.

You took a piece of my heart,
That night you looked back at me,
And our eyes met,
But you took his hand and I let it be.

I read your poem again last night,
Trying so **** hard,
To tell if it was about me,
Like mine are all about you.

I cried myself to sleep last night,
Thinking of how you share his bed.
I couldn't think of us together,
Now these thoughts are stuck in my head.

I wished upon a Star,
That he and I could trade lovers.
And you and I could do nothing,
More than lie down and hold each other.

But I suppose my story,
Won't end in a happy way.
But I wish you never leave me,
I just hope you stay.

I guess it doesn't matter,
If you kiss him goodnight.
I'm used to feeling,
Like I'll never be right.

I thought you were ******,
But you taste like *******.
The way you make my heart beat,
And my tears fall like rain.

I thought you'd be the flower,
I'd pick and you'd be mine.
But I got lost somewhere between,
Jealousy and fine.

Sadly it'll never happen,
You'll never share my bed,
So I'll just have to load this needle,
In the place where you could rest your head.

Sometimes the meds aren't enough,
When I’m trying to fall asleep at night.
And I keep seeing the same thing pass behind my eyes,
Memories and dreams of years past by.

I feel my eyelids start to close,
Before they come round again.
My chest feels heavy,
My head feels light.

A concert, four peach colored walls,
A red flower and a silent pose.
Two cups, both half drunk,
An uncourageous half dead rose.

**** I can’t sleep tonight,
But the meds are kicking quick.
If I close my eyes,
Will it be worth the risk?

I lost my mind,
You broke my heart,
And took my soul
I could return to paradise.

I float,
Somewhere between hell,
And purgatory.
A soul afire, I float.

Light is the rain,
Dancing around your flesh,
And it arouses me to think,
You were innocent once.

I'd like nothing more,
Than to wear your meat around my soul.
To watch the skin melt from your bones,
And turn your body to ashes.

I'd like nothing more,
Than to breathe in Your pain,
And heaven will find you,
Dancing in the rain.