A million lessons learned,
In a second of desire.
As the needles draws blood,
From my wrist.
I found pleasure,
In sickness, not in health.
A millions lessons learned,
Lying in bed,
Shaking from the cold,
No one else can feel.
Days pass,
Sickness fades,
But I'll not forget,
What poison brings.

I'll compare you to the full moon,
That pulls and pushes the tides.
You are the rain that quenches thirst,
Of a million lavender poppies.
And how I'd like to taste,
The sweet smoke of excess,
That burns behind your lips.
To taste the flowers kindly,
I'll dream of pods and petals tonight.

Here's to hoping for another night,
Spent alone, I'm not alright.
This sedation feeds me another pill,
When will my brain have it's fill?

Another *****,
And it's joyous gains.
Pull back,
And watch blood taint,
The liquid gold inside my heart,
I wish i could close my eyes,
And just depart.

It's in my veins, my heart, my brain,
Another rush to make me insane.
But i close my eyes and go to sleep,
In hope that death will finally keep.

Should i wake through the night,
Darling tell me everything is alright.
Hand me my rig, my spoon and cotton,
So I can remember what I've forgotten.

A sad song, a little lullaby,
To get me through another night.
I miss how your lips,
Never touched mine, a repeated process of goodnights and goodbyes.

Don't cry, for me tonight,
I'll find my way out of the dark.

I'm hallow now,
No needle to fill me up.
No more little white pills,
To hide your absence.

Take my hand one more time,
Like at that concert that one night.
When I thought he was gone, and so was she.
I thought we could make us right.

I can't take any more,
And yet you want another piece.
I've got everything you can keep.

And it feels like rain,
When you've had too much to drink,
And you can't fall asleep at night.

Take a pill or two,
For that hangover,
You'll have when you wake up.
Cause darling, I miss you so **** much.

And it feels like rain,
When you cry from all the laughter,
That's pouring from their mouths.

And it feels like rain,
When you tie the knot,
And prepare to jump.

But darling, wait.
The sun comes up,
In the early morning,
You just have to get through the night,
When it feels like rain.

Can you hear the truth behind my lies,
When i say that I'm just fine.
Is it time,
For us to say our goodbyes?

Can you hear my whispers,
When you're afraid of the dark?
I love you lady,
Take that to heart.

We tried too hard,
Failed before our time,
Your words leave me,
With another white line.

I love you lady,
Misery is your name,
In the darkest reaches of my heart,
You found your fame.

Leave me here,
Just say goodbye,
I watched you leave,
And felt a piece of me die.

These are the words we speak,
When pillow talk isn't enough.
I never knew you could be so weak,
Like a schoolboys words, as he tries to be rough.

In these gallows I found home,
A deadly game of love to me,
You're everything I'm not,
Everything I hoped I could be.

So I'll sing my songs
In hope your heart hears them while you sleep.
And I'll poison your dreams,
In hope my words will bury deep.

I can say im heaven sent,
An angel of despair.
I am more than anything,
You could ever hope to bare,