Wait...
Wait...
Is that all that I'm going to hear my whole life
They tell me to wait
To just wait a little bit longer...
I'm so sick and tired of waiting
Waiting only brings me troublesome thoughts
As I sit here typing this and waiting
I'm tearing my eyes to shreds
Soon my heart will be cold as the darkness inside of me
Please don't make me wait anymore longer
Don't make me go through more pain then it is
Just tell me to go and I'll go forever
I'll leave and never speak again
I'll delete everything and go.

My poems are all true.
I feel all the pain,
All the love,
All of it.
I will post things for people,
By people that give me permission.
For the ones who have passed on I wrote those
I wrote them so they know they are still loved
Even if they are gone.
My poems are my music
My poems are my escape
From the real world.
Don't hate on them
You hate them
You hate me.

The day that you left
I still remember that day
I was in a motel
Your mother called me and my mom
She asked if I was in the room
Mom sent me to get ice
I come back she's crying
I ask why
She says you have died
I was on my way to Six Flags
13 days after your birthday you leave me
I hardly got to talk to you
Mom says not to cry over you
But how can I not cry
You were my dad the one and only
I don't care what she says
This is the 4th year you have been gone
It still hurts me inside
I have dreams of that day
They **** me inside
I wish I could have talked to you before you died

I love you dearly
I hope to spend my whole life with you
When I cried
You were there for me
When I needed a shoulder to cry on
You were there
God must have been nice enough to say
I will grant you with this one joy in your life
You have made me happy since I met you
Even when I did not notice
You were always protecting me
From all the pain
From all the evil
From all the people who put me down
And from all the things that could harm me
I love you
I hope we last along time together.

My pain
Most people will try to understand
But they never will
As I sit here crying eyes out
You are over there probably laughing
Saying that u care and everything
But I can tell that you don't really care
Why must I fall so easily for guys like you
You make me feel special but you never mean it
You ignore my tears
My suffering pain
As I sit here
My mind is racing with suicide notes and ways that I can die
There is just one thing I must ask
Do you honestly truly care if I'm dead...if I cry
Do you honestly truly care for me and my feelings