It has been almost 6 years,
Since the day that I lost you.
I lost a little piece of me when you died.
I could really use you right about now.
I have had so many moments in life
I wish you were here for those moments.
I miss you daddy.
Even though you were in my life for a short while,
I knew you would still try to be in my life,
But why didn't you try harder to be there.
I am the baby of the family.
Your last child.
Your last baby girl.
It has been 6 years now.
Are you watching over me?
Are you proud of your baby girl?
I am graduating this year.
I'll be 18 on the 17th next month,
Did you know this daddy?
I have gone 6 years without you here
I wish you were here for my sweet 16,
My graduation,
Me turning 18,
I am finally going to be a legal adult girl now.
Your baby,
The youngest one
Doesn't that make you feel old dad.
I miss you.
I love you.
I'll see you soon daddy!!

My eyes see the beauty that no one else sees in the world.
Everyone only sees what people make is beauty,
For me beauty is all around us.
The most of the beauty I see is in nature.
I see the little creatures,
I see the flowers flow through the wind,
I see the water flow slowly.
The best thing about what I see,
I capture the moment as it happens.
My eyes are my best feature
They see what no else can see.
No one can tell me otherwise.

Every good side has a bad
Every bad side has a good
Everything was once pure
Its what we do with it
Is what counts
Whether it is bad or good
We all have good intentions
Even though others think it's bad
The only thing that matters
Is what we think of it
Whether it is good
Or if it is bad

With this ring,
I promise to you
That I will never cheat or leave.
I will by your side.
Forever,
Until the ends of time.
My love for you
Will never fade.
With this ring,
I promise you
My all
And my soul.
This ring
Symbolizes our love.
It makes more then just wife and husband
It makes us one just like our hearts do.
I'll love you until death do us part.
I love you and I always will.

I'm just a dreamer
Not a doer
Nothing I dream of comes real
Its all fake
Nothing will come true for me
Nothing
I'm just a dreamer
Nothing more
This life I live is just a dream
I can never have anything real
My life is only a dream
Nothing more
I'm just a dreamer
Nothing more
Or less
This dreamer will never stop dreaming
My dreams are mine
If they want to come true
So be it
I will always dream
So let me fly in my dreams
There not yours
Leave me alone
They are mine not yours
Let me dream on
I'm only a simple dreamer
I'm Just A Dreamer
With A BIG Dream

A piece of me has been broken
That piece can never be healed
No matter what you do
It is a piece that will never return to normal
That piece is a part of my soul
My soul is broken
Thanks to you
So thank you very much for that
Have a good life

Why do we fall in love?
What is it about love that we fall for it?
Love is an emotion
Why do we feel love?
Is it because we need it,
Crave it,
Want it at all times?
My love has been stolen from me
He stole it
I only want him to have it
No one else.
He can have it
I only want his love
In return.

The truth can ****.
The truth...
Something no one,
Wants to hear.
Something that can rip you apart,
Piece by piece.
My heart was ripped in two
The truth ruined my life
It has caused me to think
Am I worth something to somebody,
Am I worth the time and effort,
Am I really human?
Are we just puppets,
In a world
Much smaller then it is,
Or are we alone
Is this small world?
What is truth?
What is life?

My poems are all true.
I feel all the pain,
All the love,
All of it.
I will post things for people,
By people that give me permission.
For the ones who have passed on I wrote those
I wrote them so they know they are still loved
Even if they are gone.
My poems are my music
My poems are my escape
From the real world.
Don't hate on them
You hate them
You hate me.

My pain
Is something that no one can take
My heart is breaking
My body is aching
My mind is racing
These pains
People can I have too
But these pains are my pains
No one can feel what I'm feeling
My pain, Is my pain
Not your pain
Don't make me feel your pain too
I don't need anymore pain on me
I'm breaking already
My arms will fall off
My heart will break
My legs will be broken
I will be in so many pieces
No one will put me back together again
The pieces won't fit together anymore
Once they are broken
They are broken
It will take so much to be put together again
This is my pain
Don't try and feel my pain
You will not survive
You will die with how much it hurts
This is my pain
And ONLY my pain

My love for you will never end
My heart is forever and always be yours
I love you
I always will love you
You stole my heart when you said that first hello
It has been a month
But it feels like years
That we have known each other
You are my best friend
You are my lover
You are the person I hope to wake up too
I want you to be my king and I your queen
I want you to never leave me
You promised you would never think about doing that to me
I am glad I met you my baby
I ignore everything others say
Even tho you are far for now
We will meet half way and will always be together
Happy Anniversary Baby!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

Eyes are strange things
Blue
Green
Gray
Brown
Black
They can be any color
But what is color
Color is also a strange thing
Everyone sees color differently
No matter what others say
Color and eyes are the same
Just as me and you are the same in a way

Oh is my music to loud for you?
Too bad, it's my music!
Music has always been there for me,
More then anyone else has.
Music and I have become 1.
I can never go with out music,
Take away my music then you are taking my life away from me.
Music can change a mood,
Life,
Music isn't just there it communicates to you
You just have to listen to it.
Figure out what that music is saying to you.
Did you know music is alive?
Do you hear the beat, that's its heart beat.
Music has words,
Music has a life.
Music is my life!!

I love you dearly
I hope to spend my whole life with you
When I cried
You were there for me
When I needed a shoulder to cry on
You were there
God must have been nice enough to say
I will grant you with this one joy in your life
You have made me happy since I met you
Even when I did not notice
You were always protecting me
From all the pain
From all the evil
From all the people who put me down
And from all the things that could harm me
I love you
I hope we last along time together.

His leather boots.
His straw hat.
That's where it's at.
His **** accent.
Deep voice.  
Ohh boy honey you are a cowboy.
Will you teach me how to ride?
Will you show me your ways?
Will you show me how to he your cowgirl?

Can you hear it?
Can you feel it?
Can you touch it?
My heart is loud.
the only thing holding me back is my
fears.
But why does it only beat for you?
Are you the one? Or are you just for a moment?
I have tried so many times to make
these work.
They never have. They all end the same.
With a broken hearted girl.

My pain
Most people will try to understand
But they never will
As I sit here crying eyes out
You are over there probably laughing
Saying that u care and everything
But I can tell that you don't really care
Why must I fall so easily for guys like you
You make me feel special but you never mean it
You ignore my tears
My suffering pain
As I sit here
My mind is racing with suicide notes and ways that I can die
There is just one thing I must ask
Do you honestly truly care if I'm dead...if I cry
Do you honestly truly care for me and my feelings

Wait...
Wait...
Is that all that I'm going to hear my whole life
They tell me to wait
To just wait a little bit longer...
I'm so sick and tired of waiting
Waiting only brings me troublesome thoughts
As I sit here typing this and waiting
I'm tearing my eyes to shreds
Soon my heart will be cold as the darkness inside of me
Please don't make me wait anymore longer
Don't make me go through more pain then it is
Just tell me to go and I'll go forever
I'll leave and never speak again
I'll delete everything and go.

Today is a day I wish I could forget
Your family is morning because of your death
You died of Cardiac Arrest
48 years old
To young to die
No parent should have their kid die before they do
But yet you did
I hope that you can still protect them
Me
Everyone who knew you
All the people who cared for you
We all miss you
I love and miss you
Rest In Peace
Try not to worry to much
Just relax we will be ok

The day that you left
I still remember that day
I was in a motel
Your mother called me and my mom
She asked if I was in the room
Mom sent me to get ice
I come back she's crying
I ask why
She says you have died
I was on my way to Six Flags
13 days after your birthday you leave me
I hardly got to talk to you
Mom says not to cry over you
But how can I not cry
You were my dad the one and only
I don't care what she says
This is the 4th year you have been gone
It still hurts me inside
I have dreams of that day
They **** me inside
I wish I could have talked to you before you died

Everyone hears her cries
Everyone sees her tears
They see her sore tears
And yet they don't stop
To ask why she tears so much
Everyone sees but do not stop to help
Does she even matter anymore
Do people even care that she cries painful tears
I guess not
She cries herself to sleep at night
She hides her tears with laughter and joy
The cuts on her arms are not from the cat or dog
Bruises on her arms are not from running into things
When she is alone she cries a lot more then people should
Yet do people care about the girl they see crying her sore tears
That girl that everyone sees but do not care for
Is a girl who may save the world one day
But with the stuff that goes on in her life right now
The world will end
She will be gone
Before she can save the people
Who never knew her name

With all these things that have happened
Why haven't you left me
Because you want to save me...help me
Please there is no turning back now
Once I have made up my mind that is the end of that
No changing
No nothing
I don't want to see you get hurt by my choices
Everything I say will happen
MY life is over
YOUR life is not done
I don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to feel anything anymore
My feelings don't matter anymore
I don't matter
You have to live
Live for me
So I can have someone I trust to take care of my family and friends
You are the person I care about
But I have to end it here
No going back
So just leave me alone
Just go away

She cries in the hall wall
No one notices her tears
People walk by and never stop
She cries herself to sleep at night
No will ever notice her
That same girl you think is happy
Is the same one
Who cuts,
Cries,
Burns
All that stuff
That girl is the same person that is happy at school but sad at home
When she is alone she cries even more
Will anyone notice her
Or
Will she just be the girl that no one will help
The girl I am talking about
Is...
The...
Same...
Person...
Writing...
This.

To walk in my shoes
Would be to walk in hell.
From deaths to back stabbings.
From pain to sorrow.
Broken hearts to feeling love again.
Losing the ones close to you.
Getting bullied but not realizing it.
Getting your heart ripped out from ones you once trusted.
Losing family members who are dear to you.
All these things have happened to me in my life.
There is much more to come in this wonderful life of mine.

He will always save me in a time of need.
He is always helping others.
He is my hero.
He is loved by all of who he meets.
He is always supporting my opinion.
Does he still exist?
Or was this all a dream?
OH, wait....
It's just me.
It has always been me,
No one else just me.
I'm my own superman!

I'm going to do it.
But I'm so scared,
That I'll get hurt.
I know he will hurt me,
Because that is just how he is.
I'm very fragile hearted,
If you touch me I may brake into two.
I have to do it,
I just have to,
Or I will miss my chance,
Of telling him exactly how I feel.
It may make thing awkward
Between me and him,
But I have to tell him that...
I like him
He's just right over there...
Just get up on your feet...
Go over to him and tell him...
Exactly how you feel.
You have to take that leap faith!!!!!!

I'm so mad I met you
I'm glad I met you.
I can't make up my mind.
The day I first met you
I knew you were the one
to brake my spell.
Yet you still havent broken my spell.
My spell has put me in a world where love does not exist.
When I think of you you make the spell crack.
When I leave this world
I want you to teach me
to love.
Love is the spell breaker
You must be the one to brake it because you are the only
one I love!
You are the ONLY one
who can brake this spell!!

My heart screams for you.
My eyes burn cause of you.
My soul is no more because of you.
Everything about me is dead because you have killed me.
With all those "words" you said to me.
I love you but YOU don't love me.
You may say you do.
That you need me.
That I'm the other part of you.
Well if you really do love me.
You would prove it to me and not let me cry so much for you.

I hope you know your the reasone why i cry myself to sleep at night.
That i think about suicide.
that ill never be who i want to be.
i always want to be dead.
i wish god had never created me in the first place.
that everything u say to me mentally kills me.
im aparantly just a stupid nobody.
that ill never find love.
i cant handle this anymore i want to run away to see if you really care about my feelings.
or if you think im a person who does not feel anything.

My best friend is a girl who will be herself.
She doesn't give a care in the world.
She will say "***** you world im living my life I want to live it."
My best friend is also my sister.
I love my sister.
She will always be my best friend!

This isn't the last good-bye that we will have.
This is just a good-bye for the summer.
We will see each other next year so don't cry.
Don't worry we will be together again.
I promise you that we will be together I promise you that.
I will be back I'm not leaving forever just for the summer.
We are friends and we will always be friends!

Make-ups
Break-ups
Dates
Make up
Limos
Hair
Hair Spray
Tuxedo
Dancing
Crowns
Gowns
Kings
Queens
Prince
Princesses
­Fun
PARTAAAYYYY!!!!!!!

Shoot Outs
Police Officers
Gangs
Scary
Run & Hide
Bullets
Gunpower
Terrorist Attacks
WAR
Many Years
Military
Family
Friends
KILLINGS AND DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Live your life in such away it matters.
Live your life in such away you care.
The life this life will never be the same.
For bliss pure bliss will be your great reward.
If you live your life this way heaven may be yours.
For all the love you give away returns by many doors.
Then life this life will never be the same.
For death your death will never be in vain.
Then life your life will never be the same.
For bliss pure bliss will be your great reward.
Live your life this way heaven may be yours.
For all the love you give away returns by many doors.
Live your life in such away that matters.
Live your life in such away you care.
For all the love you give away returns by many doors.
Live your life in such away that matters.
Live your life in such away that matters (matters).
Live your life in such away you care.
Then life this life will never be the same.
Then bliss pure bliss.
Will
Be
Your
Great
Reward!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!­!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grieving pain hurts a lot.
It hurts the one you love a lot.
Don't do this to me now.
Don't do it to me ever.
So don't go and **** yourself.
Just because of those other kids.
I still love,
That is all that matters.

The young pup has much to learn.
It has so much to learn untill it is all grown up.
My young pup just take it slow.
Don't rush life just let life come to you.
You don't want to grow up just yet.
One minute your wanting to grow up.
The next lifes a pain in the ****.
My young little pup don't wish to be grown up.
Just live life untill the very end.
On my dying breath take my hand and hold it close.
For my final wish I don't want you to be grown up.
Your still my only and my very young pup.

If only you would have opened your eyes...
You would have relized how much you hurt the people who loved you.
But you had to go and do it.
Why did you have to go and **** your self.
If only you opened your eyes and see you were loved by many.
Open your eyes and come back to us.
Don't leave us like the way you tried before.
You were loved by many why did you have to leave.
You left behind many people who would have helped you.
We could have been there when you needed us the most.
But now that I look back you did try and call us by your side but we never heard.
When you call for help make sure we hear just keep calling and we will come to you.
But now I open my eyes.
I see man you could have been grown to be.
The man who could have saved millions.
The man who could have helped save lives.
The man who would have been the one for me.

Suicide is not something you joke about!
Suicide is not something you should ever do!
Suicide is something that can hurt everyone around you!
Suicide is not something that you should think about!
So please if you will open your eyes you will see everyone will miss you!
SO DON'T **** YOURSELF!!!!!!!
R.I.P.
Sammie Muhammad at Carmichal Middle School in Richland, Washington