My pain
Most people will try to understand
But they never will
As I sit here crying eyes out
You are over there probably laughing
Saying that u care and everything
But I can tell that you don't really care
Why must I fall so easily for guys like you
You make me feel special but you never mean it
You ignore my tears
My suffering pain
As I sit here
My mind is racing with suicide notes and ways that I can die
There is just one thing I must ask
Do you honestly truly care if I'm dead...if I cry
Do you honestly truly care for me and my feelings

Wait...
Wait...
Is that all that I'm going to hear my whole life
They tell me to wait
To just wait a little bit longer...
I'm so sick and tired of waiting
Waiting only brings me troublesome thoughts
As I sit here typing this and waiting
I'm tearing my eyes to shreds
Soon my heart will be cold as the darkness inside of me
Please don't make me wait anymore longer
Don't make me go through more pain then it is
Just tell me to go and I'll go forever
I'll leave and never speak again
I'll delete everything and go.

Today is a day I wish I could forget
Your family is morning because of your death
You died of Cardiac Arrest
48 years old
To young to die
No parent should have their kid die before they do
But yet you did
I hope that you can still protect them
Me
Everyone who knew you
All the people who cared for you
We all miss you
I love and miss you
Rest In Peace
Try not to worry to much
Just relax we will be ok

The day that you left
I still remember that day
I was in a motel
Your mother called me and my mom
She asked if I was in the room
Mom sent me to get ice
I come back she's crying
I ask why
She says you have died
I was on my way to Six Flags
13 days after your birthday you leave me
I hardly got to talk to you
Mom says not to cry over you
But how can I not cry
You were my dad the one and only
I don't care what she says
This is the 4th year you have been gone
It still hurts me inside
I have dreams of that day
They **** me inside
I wish I could have talked to you before you died

Everyone hears her cries
Everyone sees her tears
They see her sore tears
And yet they don't stop
To ask why she tears so much
Everyone sees but do not stop to help
Does she even matter anymore
Do people even care that she cries painful tears
I guess not
She cries herself to sleep at night
She hides her tears with laughter and joy
The cuts on her arms are not from the cat or dog
Bruises on her arms are not from running into things
When she is alone she cries a lot more then people should
Yet do people care about the girl they see crying her sore tears
That girl that everyone sees but do not care for
Is a girl who may save the world one day
But with the stuff that goes on in her life right now
The world will end
She will be gone
Before she can save the people
Who never knew her name

With all these things that have happened
Why haven't you left me
Because you want to save me...help me
Please there is no turning back now
Once I have made up my mind that is the end of that
No changing
No nothing
I don't want to see you get hurt by my choices
Everything I say will happen
MY life is over
YOUR life is not done
I don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to feel anything anymore
My feelings don't matter anymore
I don't matter
You have to live
Live for me
So I can have someone I trust to take care of my family and friends
You are the person I care about
But I have to end it here
No going back
So just leave me alone
Just go away

She cries in the hall wall
No one notices her tears
People walk by and never stop
She cries herself to sleep at night
No will ever notice her
That same girl you think is happy
Is the same one
Who cuts,
Cries,
Burns
All that stuff
That girl is the same person that is happy at school but sad at home
When she is alone she cries even more
Will anyone notice her
Or
Will she just be the girl that no one will help
The girl I am talking about
Is...
The...
Same...
Person...
Writing...
This.