It's almost 3 am
And for the third night
Im thinking of you

Why do I do this
It's not your fault I trap myself inside

Are you awake?
Are you wondering if I'm thinking about you?

Only a message away
Only a few months apart
Only a few days to begin with
And yet
It's almost 3 am
And for the third night in a row
Im thinking of you

I hate myself for this
I could have a life
But what else would I do
When there's no one else around

Im so codependent
Im so needy
Im so clingy
Im so disgusting
And the worst part is knowing it will never go away because i don't belong here my home is far away

This is dangerous
Im falling to hard
Moving to fast
The smoke fills my head
Fogging my vision
And setting off alarms
But I don't know if you even smell sulfur
Where are you
Are you next to me
Or out at sea
I can't know
Are you convincing yourself to let go
Or falling just as hard for me
Am I on your mind or an afterthought
I can't see
I can't breathe
Will you carry me out of the burning building of my anxious mind
Or will the weight of me and my burdens
Cause you to run away
How do I tell you
That I need you without pushing you away

On second thought none of it matters
But why do you matter to me
Oh why do I always choose to lose
Why does my mind trap me inside
Im thinking too much and breathing too little
I just want to hear you say that at least for now you can stay
Just for tonight show me it's no fault of mine

In my dreams
I sit near you
And we laugh about stupid things

In my dreams
You see me
And I can't breathe

In my dreams
I rest my head on your shoulder
And we watch movies

In my dreams
Im cute
And you tell me

In my dreams

I want to capture the ocean in a passage
The sweet thunder rolling through
The light of a thousand sunrises
Glinting off the peace of each individual wave
So many have come to see here
So many have lost their way
But I come home to find there
I could never stay away

I learned to love myself
When I was told is not to
I learned to hold myself
When there was no one by my side

When the only one who stayed
Was the one who never dies

He told me who I was
And helped me realize
That I am not invaluable
Just because my size

It's not a kind of love
That's impossible to recognize
It's not a kind of love
that tries to criticize

This love Is a new love
A kind love
A love that I can trust
This love was a gift
Only beaten by him above

God
I want to thank you
For holding on to me
For giving me a peace that's deeper than the sea
Thank you for the feeling
Of loving my thighs
Thank for giving me
A love I can't deny

There's something beautiful in the wisdom of the dead
But people tend to wonder what they could have said
So Here's some wisdom from the wise
Don't obsess over the words of time
When time has passed let it go
don't forget what you already know

The idea of you
With her...
She was so beautiful
You couldn't resist
Lioness
Jet black dress
It makes me wonder
How was she
What if I won't do what she would do
If in a moment of weakness
She walked by...
Can I be all you need
Would I satisfy
It makes me realize
I could never do that
Because what if one day
The right guy couldn't stay because you were mine
I know it's in the past
But the thought of her
With you
Brings tears to my eyes
I torture myself
With images of her
And I don't even know what she looks like
I want to be your one and only
But I can't because she took you places I could never go to