Cold December breeze fills the air
Perfect weather for a warm cup of tea
The thought of you with someone else, I just cant bare
Its 2 in the morning and I wish you've chosen me

Beautiful night sky as far as the eye could see
The stars wouldn't shine this bright in the light of day
Missing the times we spent by the sea
I'm just hoping our paths would cross along the way

Its almost 3, maybe I should take a break
Another day to go through, I already can't wait for it to be over
Truth be told, i'll admit it was all my mistake
I left you so easily without any closure

How deep can your soul go
When you lay awake at night
With nothing but loneliness by your side

Where the mind goes to a darker place
You keep telling yourself "its just a phase"
Deep down you know its just a lie
So that you could forget the way she left
Without a goodbye

Tell me everything about you
Your secrets, fears, passion
Because I want to get to know you
Better than ever

I could spend my days
Listening to you talk
Every moment, minute, second
Just to fall for you repeatedly

Every time you speak
Its like your eyes light up
You'd smile so many times
I got lost in them

There will always be someone
you compare everyone to,
Could be family,
A friend,
A past lover

You'll try to find the qualities
she have in others
Maybe in the way they talk,
Someting they did,
Or just simply a lovely smile

You look for someone like her
Because you can't have her
You would say you hate her
Would break her if you see her again
But deep down
All you ever wanted
Was her all along

I rarely tell anyone
Anything that is going on in my life
Because I don't have someone to talk to
Everyday

I usually like being alone
Figuring out my problems myself
Maybe its because I have trust issues
Since that day

But is better to keep it to myself
Rather than letting the world know
What I struggle with
Day to day

Because in the end
I know i'm on my own
"Every man for himself"

I'm not a smoker anymore
But I do smoke an occasional ciggarette
Just when i'm really happy
Or maybe feeling lonely
Sometimes just to let my mind free
To write up some ****** poetry

Its weird how something that kills you
Would somehow save you
From the ******* of the world
Your own mind overthinking
And even the doubts you have of yourself
People's words were train to cut you deep,
And they say smoking kills.