I am alone but not lonely,
Pills and sativa and these sins tryna hold me
Tell me do you  notice me ?
Uber up in Tulsa please somewhere they notice me
Still I got your number and your photo of your i.d.
hope you don’t despise me…
Fed me only pipe dreams but
5,000 only paper if you love me you gone wake up only me that’s in this cap huh
Tell them how we mad up ?
Tell them bout the times when your sister need cake up
Tell them bout the time when you held me like a baby
Crying in your arms now I’m more then what you take me
Broken and confuse still wanted all your babies
Put it all on here just show you how you can’t see
That
I
Been
Doing
By
Myself
Too long
And
I’m
Still
…in love with your ***

Paint a different picture vision getting blurry
And everyone around me seem like I did a story
Momma was worried but your son is 30
And yet I needed sickle straight from the honey
Papa gotta mouth but that’s another worry
Sinking in the fields headed to it slowly
Avens are heavens these boys don’t really want me
Cause I’m the type to cuff you and give ring buddy…
Grindr dates **** me like I should have had ******.
Never been before but it’s better private
I rather not speak on another logic
When I’m asking for forgiveness from God in another login
No more sinking in bedrooms
Gotta dorm but better off to text to you
Kinda young gotta get up out my bedroom
I like pears shout out chef to
He pushing 24 and me im on 30 gates
What I learned..?
It’s better to Love still then burn for another’s plate.

You prayed for demons hard to block you,
Every time I wake up now sometimes I wonder who beside you
It never hit the same like cold rain in the storm…
I honestly don’t know what the hell we was going
I’ve been in the field asking God cause your grown
U can’t believe that I had wings and now he’s gone

Can you find time for Me?
Was there somewhere that I needed to be ?
All these questions under the marajuana
I forgot how it feels to hear the silence when I find home

Blessing to the giver,
It slips you from the strays
Hold me like a beginner
Don’t let go until change.
Secrets in my veinsss
Whisper them to me
There lost beneath the sheets
Only those that strays

…am I just another high ?
Tell me babe are you high ?

Tonight I had to make two coffins
Okie so listen to this ...
Mathew left ... The Virgo ...yea but he blames me for all the problems we made.
And Nathan came back ... The Capricorn .... Yea I know and he only wanna be firends.
But Mr. Cap called Mr. Virgo and Mr. Cancer is in the middle looking on the outside like...
How do they both not like me ?
Then I thought and I was being honest dude like ... Yeah I did do that yeah I did make those mistakes but I stayed loyal to both ... Wait huh ? Ohhh.. yeah I get you hold on im  getting ahead of  my self .

I was with mr.virgo I been knowing him since he was 16 but we went out when he was 20 because he called me saying am I okay? And I was like why is he calling and yada yada yada now this is where Mr. Cap comes in.
I was with him *** Virgo never told me we were together until I lived with him ..... Yea! Right .... Oki Oki but here is the kicker.
Me and Virgo haven't been together for 3 months cause we fought alot.... But out of no where we are done . But he text me saying **** u and **** him I'm like WHOOOOO???
AND GUESS WHO IT IS ?
**** ASSS MR.CAPRICORN
SOOOO I text Virgo like I'm not him idk why he tryin to find me... Noooooooo that made him more mad at me and anything that we had was now shattered beyond prepare
And Im not going to lie I loved Mr Capricorn *** he kept coming back in the relationship being a gnetlemen but it was toxic .... FAST FORWARD TO FINISH THIS.
NOW
both are mad at me Virgo said I don't care what u say u want him and u ****** me over. But my poem brothers & sisters Im telling I loved him with the last of everything i told cap to move back I'm in something.

Now that I'm out cap wants to be firends but wait wait wait ....you were just trying to get back together and now that I'm like okay what are we doing he hugs me u comes a hour away for me and now he says I just wnana be firends !!?¿?????? *** IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE .
Soooo I had to block both and truth be told I want mr Virgo back but i don't break him more and wen I loook at the Capricorn I want him to just pick a side if u gunna love me love me only but ....now .... U think I'm over them I'm just now gstting over it yet who got tears in there eyes ? Not me I just wish I was a better lover .... You know ....I .... Need help someoem to talk me .... Someone... Idk who to talk to but why did I have to block them like ....

Is he worth it I'm still trying to find out,
I was going to do alot metaphors and rhyme but no I think telling the truth is suitable for the accusations...
I mean the acaustion.
When you let me lead instead of promoting my past like sane of attention?