I love you more than anything.
But this road you have chosen to walk...
...I cannot follow.
I cannot be the one who stands at your side.
I cannot be the mediator between you and whatever choices you may make throughout your journey.
I will not be pulled into that world for I know what it takes to get out, and I no longer have the strength.
I told you I would be with you through every hard walk, but my last adventure into darkness left blisters on my mind and the soles of my feet.
I am not afraid to tell you that this path must be walked alone.
Hate me for it, but if you make it through, you will understand.

The warmth of her presence
The taste of her skin
A moment of pleasure
Inspired by sin
A goddess, an angel
From somewhere above
A feeling so pure
Yet we just call it "love"

So, I guess that I'm grounded
Wonder what that entails
Just don't act all dumbfounded
When your punishment fails
Take away my car keys
Okay, see if I care
It's funny you see...
Because you made me a spare
Tell me to stay inside?
Ha, like that'll stop me
With my screen opened wide
Out my window, I'm free
Ground me all that you want
You can't faze me, so stop
Oh no, no wait please mom!
Don't take my laptop!

Maybe I let her know
Maybe she cares
Maybe I let her go
Maybe I dare
Maybe she falls behind
Maybe I wait
Maybe she can't unwind
Maybe there's hate
Maybe underneath her intimidating exterior there is a silent nervousness
Maybe there is longing just beyond our reach
Maybe she is bound by pride, unwilling to believe that there is more, or...
...maybe I am wrong.

Here I stand, framed against a wall of tragedy, unhindered by it's horror.
I am only one among many before me.
Here we stand, altered by time and weathered by our choices.
We are the light in the dark that no one can see.
We are taking our final breaths and falling further into the dreams from which we were conceived.
We are descending into our own void, folding in on each other.
We are eternally trapped in our own freedom, imprisoned in our expressions.
We are drowning in an infinite hourglass.

I never thought I'd lay my hands
Upon you in such violence
Across your face five bright red bands
Eyes locked in chilling silence
A tear betrays your angry face
You're scared to death, I know it
I guess this is my fall from grace
As now my shame would show it
Now as I apologize
You only hear me barely
I hope that you can recognize
I mean it so sincerely
I'll hate myself for years to come
My inner light shines dimly
I never thought that I'd succumb
To darkness deep within me
These demons claw from inside out
I can't face them alone
And darling if you leave me now
I fear their strength may grow
My seams they burst and to my knees
I fall and now I'm pleading
Help me fight fight these enemies
Don't leave me here just bleeding

The love of my life
The wall for my back
A girl plagued by strife
Who couldn't react
In a healthy way
So she'd hold out her hand
Grip tightly the blade
Cut till she saw bands
Of red flowing down
and onto the floor
Her lips in a frown
She cut skin some more

We met on a beach
The waves splashing in
We talked and agreed
To meet there again

I saw her at school
With bruises on her cheek
Her dad was a fool
Their fights left her weak
I would always call
But she wouldn't respond
It wasn't 'till fall
I'd find out that she'd gone

And there dressed in black
Her family stood
She lay on her back
In a coffin of wood

On red velvet lining
They laid her to rest
And I was still crying
My face was a mess

I clearly recall
The last words she did say
"If I ever fall
You should catch me, okay?"