Tick tock
seconds for most
minutes for others

breath in
breath out
heart pounding

My face bruised
the blood drips from the cuts
my eyes slowly look up

Time freezes
the devil grows white
and my target grows weak

Hit me once
shame on you
but you don't get a second hit

one day you'll know my name
one day
ill throw you back in the dirt like you did me

We used to be so close
I used to call you a friend
A friend I never met
I trusted you with my heart
And we made time for each other

Now we don't talk unless I speak first
I send messages you never reply too
When I express why I'm hurt
you fix it for a day
before leaving me alone once more

Now I hope you can find time to talk with me
I hope that I am not an inconvenience to you
I hope that you still care about me

Yet when you've had a bad day
I stop what I am doing
I let you rant on about how bad work is
and when I tell you what's going on
I feel hopeful that I do matter to someone somewhere.

but then the silence comes once more
Showing no one does care
leaving me in the place

where I hope you find the time
that I make for you

So swift
So small
you blink
and its gone

Small idea
Large applications
understanding
the concepts beneath

Stories untold
Inventions to be created
Past pain
coming back up

So swift
So small
All the thoughts
of a troubled mind

Talk at work
Talk at play
Talk with everyone during the event
Talk with the visitors who never stay

Talk with everyone
But no one talks to you
Outside of where you met

Is it too much
To wish some to mix
And finally have
At least, just one
Friend?

The story is there
The conflict is perfect
The ending will be a page-turner

but why do I struggle to write a single paragraph
I use to write pages
Stories just flowed off the keys

Now it's like a burden to type a single letter

Am I ready for the story
or is the world not ready for the tale?

Time is seen in the fading scars,

The understanding of the pain one felt,

The memories haunt them,

But slowly, they are getting better,

They didn't notice,

Until their first thought after pain,

Wasn't to make a new scar.

Golden Feather
so light and pure
your light
casts away the darkness
simple yet strong
innocent in war
perfect and flawed
both the truth
simple and powerful
burn bright Golden Feather
and keep the monsters away
Tonight

You were a rock I didn't know I had
A ship that kept me afloat in the endless sea
And loosing you hurt like he'll

But the damage that was caused afterwards
The fighting and breaking
Only made the pain of missing you grow more

I miss your wisdom
I miss you taking me to play
I miss just spending time with you

People talk about the both of you
And say how I'm like you two
Business spitfire from hell
But a caring loyal creator

I only knew one of you
But I feel like I know the other pretty well
And seing your names covered in stone that day

Going back to the beginning of my problems
The start or a chain reaction
I relized how much I missed you

And even though I know your the one who saved me
That lonely night in December
I still wish you were here with us

Just so I could get to say goodbye grandma

Her smile is intoxicating
Her personality contagious
Her mind
a lovely prison
Slowly they come
Men of all ages
All trying to win her hand
But soon, they become poisoned
From her love

So true
So pure
So deadly
Unable to control it
Shes watches them choke
And slowly die
from loving her

Alone she lives
Broken men surround her
Reminders of her curse
No matter what she tries
the poison seeps through
And kills everything
but her

I want you here
I want you to hold me
and tell the world to leave me alone
I like your arms to keep me at night
and I want your lips to kiss every inch of my body
but as much as I want you here
Next to me
I can't have it


You wake up every day
tired from the day before
and you still find the energy
to run and help at a moments notice

You are there helping people
saving them when there is no hope
Calming blazes till their out
You're a hero to them...


So how can I want you
when it would be
taking someone's hero away
at the moment when they need one the most?

How can I control the winds
Or the rays of the sun
Or the crashes of the sea
To ensure you'll be safe

You've gone through so much
More then I can imagine
But I know the war isn't over yet
But how can I help

God why her
She's 13
Let her be a child
And not deal with all of this

Just let her be a child
Give me her pain
If she can stay a child
For just a little bit more

Drown out the thoughts
Blow the speakers
Damage your longterm
For temporary sensation

To stay sane

Small and simple
and yet what my heart craves
to finally have a home

I would shout it from rooftops.
Pay to have it written in the sky
Carve it in stone

Would you do the same?

Would you move the mountain if I asked
part the seas to let me walk
tame the wildest beast for me to pet

Would you?

I will smile when I think of you
The idea fueling my hearts fire
and your name the last upon my lips

Would I be yours?

A home
A sanctuary
A outgrove hidden from the world

Would you think of me the same?

I will choose you till time stops
No matter where you are
Will you choose me, too?

Your body tensed
your mind confused
something we haven't done
something that was almost failure

But at the last attempt
you stayed
letting me climb
letting me slide on

the old familiar pace
Balancing as you moved
trying to figure out the weight

happiness bursting at the seems
of a moment I thought would never happen
I could feel you smile

With a attempt of control
in a open field with a mare you bow to
fear took hold
and you bolted

some how still aware of me
and the dangers around
trying to bring me to safety

but muscle memory failed
my mind confused
and in one sharp turn
I fell

but through the pain I felt
assesing if a bone broke or not
I was happy

and even though you thought you were at fault
and the boss stood between us
when I put my hand on your skin
you calmed
understanding it was not your fault

but a start of a new chapter
no mater how long it is
we were a team once more

My sweet little devil
you've learned how to care
how to thrive
how to love
and you have it in your mind
that you wish to come
but would you still feel the same
if you understood why I dread it?
why I want it to both happen and not at the same time
a internal torment of my mind
over my simple regret

if you only understood how deep
this action goes
if you only remembered who was involved
if you only remembered how you stopped me
from making a terrible mistake

simple and swift
a request of a job
you refused
not because of the target
but of the payment











being me...

Master of Strategy
You see moves before I can even think of them
a simple game of chess

but though you used to proclaim your skill
you still have no idea how simple it is
to play you

you studied the board
I studied you
strange questions
only make my heart shatter

perhaps one day, I will relieve the guide
one day I will remove this curtain I have you behind
One day





When I see you again