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It started off innocently
Me trying to prove a point
Where there was none to be made
"Just play along, see what he does"
I was suppose to get clarity

Clarity on life
Clarity on feelings
Clarity on me

But this game has evolved
Where I now face a new opponent
One I don't wish to play

'Play along, see what she'll do'
Am I that skilled
That I can fool the one
I've been with my whole life

Or am.i that broken
That I wish to make a copy of myself
Where no one would miss me
And life continued as it is

But then I could finally
Let go of the hesitation
And finally have a silent mind
Once again?
I was already down
Having the negativity swirling in my head
and then you had to push me further

Its ok
everyone punished the wounded anyways
I should not be crying every night
I should not hate my body despite what people tell me
I should not let my thoughts tell me I'm worthless
I should not want what I can't have
I should not want
you...

Your smile
Your laugh
Your voice

I miss it

I should not be this broken.....

Not at this age
Have I really lived
all life has to give
so soon?
Where no living thing breathes
But the ones who can not sleep
Where the ones whose minds run
Stay awake and think
Where the heartache becomes real
And why the loneliness sets in

That's where I am
That's why I choose to sleep
Life is anything but predicable
but the words spoken
are only a memory
held by a few

Some record it
turing those same words
into a code
a string of pixels and 1's and 0's

What a weird way to be remebered
not by who you were
but the code you created on a machine
for others to execute at a later time
Her beauty was simple
No makeup to change her features
No fancy clothes to expose her figure
Just her
As she was made

When storms came
And others ran for shelter
She ran into it
And danced in the rain

Her laughter was a drug
Yet to be invented
But so intoxicating
That is was quickly addictive

Her kind hands could hold a wounded animal
Nurse it back to health
And defend those she stood to protect

Pen and book in hand
She made the world bow down to her
Demanding it listen
As she spoke

But her smile
The glint in her eyes that could mistaken for a dimond or precious stone
The way she could hold her hand up
So proud of what she accomplished

Her smile
Is the one thing she will be remembered by

So when you think of her
Think of the woman who laughted at fear
Rode danger like it was a wild beast
Tamed those who could not be tamed
And loved with a ever lasting love

But most importantly
Remember her smile
And how she glowed when she showed it off
Let's play a game
Where you be the guy
And I'll be the girl

We don't like each other at first
But soon fall head over heels
And them become a inseparable team

Our character flaunt each other
Drawing out the moans we desire

But after a while
This little charade will end
And we must take the masks off

Once more
Being strangers again
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