Promised a life of sweetness
Said you wanted to take care
Feel better feel better feel better

For worse.

My soul says no to you

But body
she begs me
Always for more

I'm sick
I'm Tired

Of shoveling you in
putting you inside me
betraying all that I am

I am finished decaying
But sweet tooth wont stop panging
Oh, how desperate
always
for more

And I see that coat of yours fall to the floor... just a story the tongue
told to open a door

Now I find holes in my heart,
Cavities.
Galore

I beat within you
as you beat within me
I plant my love with the intention that it will grow flowers as yours has. That it will grow trees- enriching the breath of our people, the breath of your beat
Traveling to the rhythm of seasons.
And reasons.
To go and to stay
To move closer
To shiver and quiver
To love
To dance
To your beat
A beat that will bounce
From heart to eyes
Lips to dreams
listen
And taste me
Taste me in the salt of every tear I leak

I wake up at 3 am
Just to hate myself again
The loathing crawled in while I was asleep
but this is a story that I will not keep
This is a story that I will not tell
Rainy and cold
But she won't ring the bell
I try to love harder
than the thoughts that deplete
But if I don't accept them-
am I really complete?
For love does not fight
It is too soft and kind
It nurtures as is
Leaves no bits behind
So I'll try this on now
Zip it right up my spine
Applying the heart now
To the parts I don't find
To be easy to love
To be easy to see
The parts that burn my eyes out
Screaming
don't look at me
I will love them in distance
Space
And in time
I will love each vibration
Because it is mine

to love
Three two
We are one
Suited In mirrors
Reflect.
lower your weapons
Raise your word
Your earth
my earth
Our earth
soldier of war
Refract.
warrior of peace
Breathe.
Release.
Breathe
Release

Here in mountains haven
throned with gods of every star
I spend borrowed moments wishing lady death lived less than far
If she would worm her way
to wells of heart
Without a claim to time
I would rip these roots of sorrow
Watered knowing I'm not mine
I would  empty all the ash trays
of this suitty soul -I keep
Tell her it will make her whole
she says a grave will best me keep

Tumbling through the rabbit hole
down sets of spiral stairs

You try to keep your candle lit
But darkness never scares

There are walls in place to separate
craft of your own hand;

Bricks of thoughts so heavy
Even dreams don't stand a chance

Poison heavy poison
works these walls from outside in

You slam doors that can't be opened
pinch your skin to wake again

You are trapped
Tick tick

Hunched in half
Tick tick

Lungs collapsed
Tick tick  

Now the queen of your being
Cuts off her own head
The wrong Alice
Wrong alice
Wrong Alice
she said

Let me go
you beg the earless cease  
Shrink and grow
Seek silence
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SLAY THE BEAST