Help
I've fallen
On my back
Head filled with despair

Thoughts of what I once desired
Flood my mind
**** my soul
Untapped potential spilled like blood

Wasted on me
No more desire
Clings to my actions
Only repetition keeps me moving

My youthful vigor eludes me
Time has stolen my passion
Life has taken my prize
I am left without

A shadow of what used to be
Alone, lonely
A comet in a sky filled with stars
Burnt out

Life is a sick joke
Cruel to those who strive to be kind
I want to know
How do I see when I am blind

Am I supposed to believe
Let someone else take control
Of my life's reigns
Feel good inside my soul

Should I discard my feelings
Memories I hold dear
Leave  my judgement
Out of existential fear

I am a drop in a barrel
A sheep in a herd of cattle
I don't belong to this tribe
I don't have the right vibe

I distance myself
Out of fear of judgement
I know I am broken again
A caricature of man

A larger than life mockery
Of the human condition
I am a slave
To my demons' inhibition

When does the doubt end
I need to know
I'm asking for a friend
When do we get to go

When is the tour of hell over
Is there a stop at the end
Does it get better
Or is it just another blend

Pain tastes different now
No longer stings
It takes away the edge
It makes me feel things

I have lived a timid life
Fueled by my weakness
Buried by my fear
Killed by doubt

And I see those around me
Scars telling tales
Lengthy stories of loss and fear
And I can't help

I can't relate
My life has been without
And I feel helpless
Weak in the face of true cruelty

Why has life dealt these cards
To those so undeserving
These beautiful cracked portraits
Filled with potential

Leaking out sadness
Only through cracks
They radiate smiles
But I only see the sadness instead

I want to reach out my hand
Take theirs in mine
But I am not enough
I will become enough