Without love

I am nothing

If I don't hold true to my God then I will die

If I don't study the scriptures everyday

If I don't open my ears to his teaching

I WILL DIE!

If I don't obey my master

I WILL DIE!!

If I open my door to Satan

I WILL DIE!!

I must not allow Satan to crush me

Don't allow him to crush you

Just another animal

Is what teachers and classmates say

Man is just another animal

No wonder suicide rates are skyrocketing

We have it ingrained in our minds

That there's no difference in our kinds

Our lives have no more importance than a fruit fly

But don't worry if my teaching got to you

Remember that there's a suicide prevention hotline you can cry too

And once the pills and therapy makes it so you're not quite suicidal

You're good too go

Your oil and water are fine

So go back to your life

Be a good clone and be like everyone else

Climb the financial cliff

Don't worry about your family

You can't afford to spend the time with them

Just keep making that money

Live for yourself

Make the money

Get that mansion

Get that Ferrari

And when your old and regret forgetting your family

Just remember you've got your stuff to comfort you

I'm trying to be here

So many times my spirit and body are at war

But God gave me the strength to be different

Some days I wish he would just burn away this body and replace me

So many tell me

The Bible's old fashioned

Out of date

Narrow Minded

What fools we are

We must be different

I don't want to be like my generation

Everyday I hear about the pain in our world
I walk down the school halls and I think about the stories I've heard from those around me
I listen to the lives of others and my heart breaks
The one kid over there is broken on the inside because his
Mom just committed suicide
That other guy is dying of anxiety because others look at him and see a freak
I look into the eyes of the depressed and broken and all I can do is say you need Jesus
You need the God who made you
The girl over there who's buried her face in her screens is dead on the inside or she will be soon because her Dad didn't give her the love he should've so now she looked for it from another and he's just using her for her body
I hear these stories and collapse under the weight of sadness
You see these are people who lost the flame to live
They lost their reason for life and now they're fighting to live just because they made it this far
The problem is they haven't allowed themselves to be hit by lightning
The reason that I fight so hard to tell others about Jesus is because he broke me with love and when he struck me with lightning
It sparked a fire in my chest that I can't put out
Now I have the joy of life
I have a reason to live because Jesus broke the rules of death
He died for me and took my place in hell
He took my hell and gave me heaven
You see these people I meet everyday are dead with reason for life
It's your choice to live or die

I was thrown into this pit of darkness

This is a lions den who are ready to strike

Day after day they pounce

I'm covered in scars and blood

I can't fight these lions on my own

They constantly wait until I'm at my weakest

Then they drag me to the ground

I'm tired of fighting these lions

I wish I had the faith of Daniel

Who got on his knees and prayed

I wish I had the courage of Caleb

Who never doubted his God and followed him without question

I wish I had the strength of Samson

Who killed 1,000 men

But none of these men walked on their own

These gifts were given to them by God

Dear God

I'm tired of losing vigilance

A society of suicide is what we live in

People locked in their own minds

Thinking about their own problems

We isolate our selves

And promote our own agendas

Yet the only way we can stand together

Is if we burn away the barriers

Stop living for ourselves

Give up who you think you are

Accept who you are in Christ's name

Let Jesus burn down your walls

He stormed the gates of Hell for you

So why are you still locked in your cell

Why do we operate off of what we feel

Nearly every teenage relationship works off what is felt

What does self get out of it

You see any relationship can't be what I get out of it

It's what can I give

Who ever seeks his life shall lose it

Who ever gives his life shall find it

How hard are you willing to fight for her?

How long are you willing to stand with him?

It's time that we grow up and think with our minds

Not like children who throw people in the trash because they're sick of looking at them

But people who see other people as precious

The world has become a dangerous place
Kids chasing the latest trend but soon it will be their end
Chasing after money, fame and pleasure
But what happens when they find out
That these Idols have don't satisfy
That's when the depression and the pills and the anxiety set in
You see the world tells people not to think
Just be a good clone and climb the ladder
Chase after these Idols that's all that matters
Kids are told don't think on your own just do what your told
They don't think about what damage they can cause
They don't think about the true satisfaction
I hate this world
I hate the religions and the sins of this world
But I love the sinners
I love the religious
Why?
  Because I serve the friend of Sinners
I will tell the world that the ladder doesn't take you up
It only takes you back
I will tell the world of the real satisfaction and the real love
Jesus loves you and he died for you
He died for me
I just want to tell all the world that Jesus Christ is King
He's coming back some day because he didn't stay in the grave
He broke the rules of death so that we could have a chance
So you can take him and be holy as he is holy
The world will ask
Why would he do this for me?
Why would you tell me about him?
The answer is simple
Love
This world is a dying world full of people
People in need of Love
Love that never ends
Love that is patient and kind
Love that is unconditional
Love that will show you untold wonders
Don't stay with this suicidal society that doesn't even have the foggiest notion of love
Join with Jesus
He loves you more than you will ever know
So all I can say is
Take his love
Take his hand
And be holy as he is holy
Jesus loves you

What ever happened
To the design called family
I was raised to see that
Every family
Desperately needs a father
A protector
A husband
Yet I see so many fatherless homes
So many kids grow up hating their father
Then they become them
They abandon their family
They become the man they hated
So where are the men of courage
Who will take their responsibilities
Who provide for their families
Who will protect their families
Who will lead their families
Who will honor, respect and love their wives
Who hold their family as second priority only to God
Where are the men of courage?

Where are they?

Where are the men who stand to protect their families?

Where are the men who pray with savage determination?

Where are the men who lead with a kind spirit?

Where are the men who truly love their wives?

Where are the men who respect their wives and see them as their one and only?

Where are the men who would lay down their life for their family?

Where are the men who discipline their children out of love?

Where are the men who teach their sons how to fight the right way?

Where are the men who teach their sons to be men that treat others with kindness and respect?

Where are the men that teach their sons to respect authority and treat women with honor and respect?

Where are the men who teach their daughters that they are precious and are dearly and wonderfully loved?

Where are the men who teach their daughters that they have more worth than a toy that brings a boy pleasure?

Where are the Men of God?

It's what we are

We are all shameful

Disgusting

Harmful

Sad

Sickening

Yet we don't have a conscience that condemns us

It is to warn us of what our monstrosity will bring

You keep making these silent cries

I see the sadness in your eyes

I know you feel so much pain

But through it all

I know you may only see us as friends

But to me you are my brother

So keep on fighting

You can count on me to lend you my hand

When you struggle cry out to your God

And wait with patience

Never forsake the Lord your God

He will never fail you

I know you may not always be able to see him

It's so dark down here

But he's here

Call his name and he will answer

I'm tired of breaking it

God when I step across these lines

It keeps getting easier to cross every time

Father

I'm so imperfect

I need your forgiveness

You have blessed me

And I keep breaking conscience in two

I take those promises I made to you and crack them over my knee

You give me grace

And I give you these ****** hands

I dropped my guns

Gave up the fight

My fire is dimming

Dear Jesus

I'm tired of fighting you

When I should be fighting these demons

Yet I join them

Please forgive me

If you could see
My filth ridden heart
You would only want to tear me apart
You see my outside
I look like I'm chill
And I've got everything under control
The truth is
I battle my heart constantly
I am the chief of sinners
In need of a savior
I fight pressures on all sides
When I jump into the fight all alone
I'm sent spinning
My strength just isn't enough to win
I begin to cave in because all these pressures are to much for me
But it's not about me
It's not my fight
It's a burden I was never meant to bear alone
It's the fight that was won two thousand years ago
I'm just feeling the aftershock
The truth is that I'm a sinner who is just a fool
But when Jesus came in my soul
I began to ignite
And God made one of his knights
This heart isn't mine it belongs to my King
Jesus Christ

Summer friends will give you a smile as you walk down the hall

They might hang around when things are going good

But when the good gets going

They're the first to burst through the doors

Don't surround yourself with friends who will only be friends in the good times

Winter friends will stand by you when things get hard

Winter friends stand with each other like soldiers.

A band of brothers and sisters

Surround yourself with winter friends

They're there

The chances are that most people will hate me if they read this

All the new trends and all the new fads never change reality

Gender fluidity will never be right

Abortion will always be ******

For any women who read this and maybe made a mistake

I'm sorry

I feel for you and there is forgiveness for you found in Christ

Homosexuality will never be moral

God will always be right

Man somehow always seems to be wrong

So why do we depend on our own lies and deceive ourselves into thinking we know better than the one who created us?

Some may say I am a hater

That I believe in the restriction of human rights

Some may say that I am narrow minded

But I know these things in our country are a horror and an abomination

The God I serve didn't give us an instruction manual for life so we could decide to change it to better fit what we want and feel like

He gave it to us to warn us

Don't follow these destructive new trends

Follow the God who defies them

He sent us into this world to spread his message

He sent us as warriors

Soldiers

To penetrate and pierce the horrors of this world

We were called to work together

As a band of brothers and sisters

What do I do when my brothers are shot down

And my sisters are set on fire?

We are always blind

We begin to find

We can't think past ourselves

We can't tell others about a God who loves them because we're so busy, wrapped up in our own needs, our own wars

I wish we as a nation could look past our selfish selves

And look to the God who made us

It's about Jesus

It's about his glory

Not ours

When can we look past the depression and this society of mass suicide and look around at the grace and forgiveness that was given us

We're so busy looking at our own wars

We don't bother to look at the one happening in the person right next to us

When all I see is black

It's so dark I can't see my hand in front my face

It's so dark it makes me sick

There's no light in here

It makes me depressed

It makes me hopeless

The darkness is endless

The dark is so loud

All I hear is dread

Terror

Death

Brokenness

I hear that I'm unworthy

Worthless

Stupid

Unloved

Pain

The only way to come out of this darkness was to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger.....

Or so I thought.....

Or so many think

They see no hope

And all they feel is pain

We think we live in Hell

But what no one seems to get

Is that when you pull that trigger

There's no turning back

If you pull that trigger

You will be in Hell

You will experience loneliness

Darkness

Burning

Pain

Hurt

Brokenness

Sadness

A­ll you will hear

Are screams

There you will spend eternity

Burning in the lake of fire

I'm just waiting for the day when all humanity cries out for the light

When will we cry to Jesus

When will we let the light shine

I don't ever want to walk in darkness

I will let the light of love shine

There's no one else who can pull us out of this darkness

Jesus is the light

The light always beats the dark

Let him shine on you

Let his love overwhelm you

Put down your guns and let him in

There's rest

When every ounce of my strength doesn't come from me

It's peaceful in these storms

I'm not anxious anymore

I just want to seek your face

I just want to know you

I want to see you

I love this peace you give

Thank you

I don't want this

I don't want to be on a pedestal

I don't want to have opportunity to grow my ego

You see the higher you are the harder you fall

I feel like I keep falling but someone keeps putting me up on a pedestal

I feel like I'm a painting on display

Only someone painted over my cracks and faults

Jesus you are the master painter

I know you don't hide my faults

You restore them

But I don't want to have this delusion of a pedestal

I don't want to think I'm on one

I don't want to stand on one

I never liked being the center of attention

It always made me nervous

But God you called me to speak for you

I don't want to twist your words to make them something they're not

Dear Jesus

You stand tall

Put me in the back where no one can see me

Poetry all over the screens

So much sadness

Where is the hope?

Through all the bottles and feelings

Depression, addiction and where do we look for hope?

This life isn't enough for anyone

So why do we keep seeking hope in our addictions?

We're just a society of insanity

So when will it all stop?

When will we see our mindlessness?

Maybe we're just too busy writing poems

I guess this is more of a prayer

But dear God

I struggle with putting you first

I want to be better at it

I say I put you first

But sometimes these priorities get mixed up in my mind

You know I'm not perfect

Yet you love me

You are a God of Love

I want to get my heart back on track

But I need your Grace