I don't want this

I don't want to be on a pedestal

I don't want to have opportunity to grow my ego

You see the higher you are the harder you fall

I feel like I keep falling but someone keeps putting me up on a pedestal

I feel like I'm a painting on display

Only someone painted over my cracks and faults

Jesus you are the master painter

I know you don't hide my faults

You restore them

But I don't want to have this delusion of a pedestal

I don't want to think I'm on one

I don't want to stand on one

I never liked being the center of attention

It always made me nervous

But God you called me to speak for you

I don't want to twist your words to make them something they're not

Dear Jesus

You stand tall

Put me in the back where no one can see me

He tried to chain me

He tried to shackle me with temptations

He tried to pressure me into submission

But Jesus came and broke my chains

Then they kept coming back

Thinking I'd allow myself to get chained again

No matter how many times Satan tries to take me down

He will never destroy me

He can't touch me without my fathers permission

You thought you had me

You thought you could take me with you

But Jesus gave me the strength to thrive on the pain you gave

What doesn't **** me makes me stronger

And you can't **** me

But this strength doesn't come from me

I will stand with my father

His strength makes me unstoppable

You may as well melt those chains

Because you and your demons got no other use for them

It's easy to rejoice when there's nothing to bring me down
When you can't hear that sound
The sound of the world screaming it's coming after you
But I need to give thanks through the good and the bad
Easy or hard times
God gave me all I ever needed so no matter what I have no reason to not give thanks
To the one who holds the world in his hands
So today give thanks with a Grateful heart.

Everyday I hear about the pain in our world
I walk down the school halls and I think about the stories I've heard from those around me
I listen to the lives of others and my heart breaks
The one kid over there is broken on the inside because his
Mom just committed suicide
That other guy is dying of anxiety because others look at him and see a freak
I look into the eyes of the depressed and broken and all I can do is say you need Jesus
You need the God who made you
The girl over there who's buried her face in her screens is dead on the inside or she will be soon because her Dad didn't give her the love he should've so now she looked for it from another and he's just using her for her body
I hear these stories and collapse under the weight of sadness
You see these are people who lost the flame to live
They lost their reason for life and now they're fighting to live just because they made it this far
The problem is they haven't allowed themselves to be hit by lightning
The reason that I fight so hard to tell others about Jesus is because he broke me with love and when he struck me with lightning
It sparked a fire in my chest that I can't put out
Now I have the joy of life
I have a reason to live because Jesus broke the rules of death
He died for me and took my place in hell
He took my hell and gave me heaven
You see these people I meet everyday are dead with reason for life
It's your choice to live or die