I feel empty and drained

There is no thought

Just empty

God promised me Joy

So I will seek it

I will seek Joy in him

Sometimes I feel like I can't find it

But it was promised to me

Therefore it must be there

Maybe I will receive in it in just a little while

Maybe I must endure a little while longer

If so

I am at peace with that

I have come to God

I have come to see his wonders

I know I have the ability to be filled

But I must keep fighting

You will know

That one loves God

When they cry out on their knees

Thy will be done

Here I stand

There they run

In herds

As a mighty wolf pack they run into the fire

Here I stand while they blindly run, drunk on there own arrogant ignorance

I scream and cry

Yet they do not heed

In to the pit of Hell run billions

They care not for the things of the glorious God who made them

They don't understand that Christ came to save this filthy race called man

I cry in the name of Christ

Turn from the ways of the world

Follow Christ

Grow to know him

Only then can you be saved from an eternity of fire and suffering

I write this because I love you dear reader

The here and now will pass away like snow

But our souls shall never end

They will only move to a different place

Make the right choice of where your soul will go

Why do we rush to end a life?

So many are quick with a knife because of their own conveniences and preferences

How many are quick to save a life?

As we were adopted into the family of God shouldn't we adopt the innocent little children who are about to be slaughtered?

"It's all about me" or so we're taught

We're taught to make a name this world won't forget

Go for  fame and fortune

Power, money, pleasure

All these material things

They don't have an ounce of meaning outside this pitiful seventy year lifespan on this earth

All good things, just turned into Gods

This pitiful seventy years isn't even a drop in the bucket of eternity

If all I do is follow this heart of selfishness,

I will end in self destruction

If I humble myself and follow the Lord of Life

I will find myself in wonder of a Heaven I couldn't even imagine

Follow Jesus

Forsake yourself

Follow Christ

Without love

I am nothing

If I don't hold true to my God then I will die

If I don't study the scriptures everyday

If I don't open my ears to his teaching

I WILL DIE!

If I don't obey my master

I WILL DIE!!

If I open my door to Satan

I WILL DIE!!

I must not allow Satan to crush me

Don't allow him to crush you

Where are they?

Where are the men who stand to protect their families?

Where are the men who pray with savage determination?

Where are the men who lead with a kind spirit?

Where are the men who truly love their wives?

Where are the men who respect their wives and see them as their one and only?

Where are the men who would lay down their life for their family?

Where are the men who discipline their children out of love?

Where are the men who teach their sons how to fight the right way?

Where are the men who teach their sons to be men that treat others with kindness and respect?

Where are the men that teach their sons to respect authority and treat women with honor and respect?

Where are the men who teach their daughters that they are precious and are dearly and wonderfully loved?

Where are the men who teach their daughters that they have more worth than a toy that brings a boy pleasure?

Where are the Men of God?

The chances are that most people will hate me if they read this

All the new trends and all the new fads never change reality

Gender fluidity will never be right

Abortion will always be ******

For any women who read this and maybe made a mistake

I'm sorry

I feel for you and there is forgiveness for you found in Christ

Homosexuality will never be moral

God will always be right

Man somehow always seems to be wrong

So why do we depend on our own lies and deceive ourselves into thinking we know better than the one who created us?

Some may say I am a hater

That I believe in the restriction of human rights

Some may say that I am narrow minded

But I know these things in our country are a horror and an abomination

The God I serve didn't give us an instruction manual for life so we could decide to change it to better fit what we want and feel like

He gave it to us to warn us

Don't follow these destructive new trends

Follow the God who defies them

He is the one who took my place

He is the one who forgave me

He is the one who purchased my freedom with his blood

He is the one who gives me the strength to live every day

He is the one who stood before a whole army of darkness and beat them single handed

He is the one who I serve

He is the one I will call King

He is the Christ

He is the Messiah

He is my Savior

He is the Intercessor

We are always blind

We begin to find

We can't think past ourselves

We can't tell others about a God who loves them because we're so busy, wrapped up in our own needs, our own wars

I wish we as a nation could look past our selfish selves

And look to the God who made us

It's about Jesus

It's about his glory

Not ours

When can we look past the depression and this society of mass suicide and look around at the grace and forgiveness that was given us

We're so busy looking at our own wars

We don't bother to look at the one happening in the person right next to us

It's not about us

That is the first step to looking past this hateful world

To humble ourselves

To see that it's not about us

That is how one can be saved from Hell

You see those demons that torment you day and night?

You see how close you are to jumping off that cliff because you feel that you will never be enough?

You see the lies the world shoves in your face

This world's full of dealers dealing out lies like they can actually satisfy

Don't go to the false gods that leave you hungry for more!

I don't only say this to the few who may read this but right now my mind is screaming it to myself

DON'T LEAVE UNCHANGED BY THE POWER OF GRACE!!!

The power of Grace is Hope

Jesus came to give us Hope

HE CAME TO SAVE THE WORLD!!!!

PLEASE FOLLOW HIM SO THAT YOU MAY BE SAVED!!

Don't follow the lies of pleasure, fame and fortune

Walk in the hope of Grace

You may live in a shack made of cardboard but if your hope is in Jesus Christ you will be satisfied!

Feed on the words that give you access to power

That allow you to see past the smoke and mirrors that composes this suicidal society

PLEASE DON'T READ THIS WITHOUT THOUGHT!!!

PLEASE READ THIS AND BE CHANGED!!!!

Pray to God

Follow him

Cling to his word

You will be hated

But nothing can ever stand in the way of the reckless and powerful love of our God

I know the one in whom my hope rests

Maybe I'm just preaching to myself

But even so please know that I am a sinner

I hope you forget who wrote this and remember the words that were written

Follow Jesus

AND LIVE!!!!

It's what we are

We are all shameful

Disgusting

Harmful

Sad

Sickening

Yet we don't have a conscience that condemns us

It is to warn us of what our monstrosity will bring

Strange

Too serious

Too committed

Bigots

Fundamentalist

Old fashioned

These are some of the names that I receive

For what?

For speaking the truth?

If standing by Biblical principles gets me killed then it will have been worth it

I cannot remain silent

If I don't speak out to billions running straight into Hell then their sin is on my head!

If I don't warn them then I appease men

I must appease God

I cannot remain silent

Homosexuality

Adultery

Lying

Stealing

Gluttony

Hate
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These things are what takes most people away from the truth

Some hate change

Some hate conviction

But I must tell the world

These false gods cannot satisfy

They cannot save

Only by the love and grace of Christ can one be saved

So I must hold by these principles that I hold true

I cannot remain silent

I cannot be quiet

I MUST SCREAM THE GRACE OF CHRIST!!

The world must know

The only way to salvation is through humbling oneself

Laying down their old gods

Accepting that this life isn't about us

Tell the world

Don't remain quiet

Don't fear the ones who can destroy your body, but fear the one who can destroy your soul

Speak out

Spread the word

Four long years

The Devil tried to crush me

I was deep in sin

Fighting to climb out of the darkness

My God gave me his hand 12 years ago

I kept letting go

I kept chasing shadows

Getting glimpses of the light

When I took Jesus hand I was able to escape the darkness

It was slow progress

It took several years

He kept pursuing me

He kept reaching out

He kept loving me

Through the disgusting muck that I threw in his face

My God has done everything for my good

Every time I cursed his name

He forgave me

Every time I take his gift of salvation and spit on it he forgives me

I can't let go of his hand

His hand is the only way to salvation

So you can keep your lies because I'm high off of Grace

The further I go down this road of life,

The harder everything tries to pull me away from my King

I have to tell the world

They can keep their fantasies and make believe satisfaction because I'm gonna cling to this hand

My grip will only grow tighter

Here I have found my life

Here I have found my joy

Why do we operate off of what we feel

Nearly every teenage relationship works off what is felt

What does self get out of it

You see any relationship can't be what I get out of it

It's what can I give

Who ever seeks his life shall lose it

Who ever gives his life shall find it

How hard are you willing to fight for her?

How long are you willing to stand with him?

It's time that we grow up and think with our minds

Not like children who throw people in the trash because they're sick of looking at them

But people who see other people as precious

You keep trying to put me in a box

You try to crush my future

You try to surround me with all of this evil

You try to make me think that I'm what I was

But I won't go back

I was declared free of this shame

I was given the power of Grace

I was declared a free man

I can walk where I want

I can think what I want

So stop trying to make me think that this evil is what I want

You can't put me in a box

My God has a plan for me

So what can stop me

I will bow before his name

I will serve him

So back down before my God

A society of suicide is what we live in

People locked in their own minds

Thinking about their own problems

We isolate our selves

And promote our own agendas

Yet the only way we can stand together

Is if we burn away the barriers

Stop living for ourselves

Give up who you think you are

Accept who you are in Christ's name

Let Jesus burn down your walls

He stormed the gates of Hell for you

So why are you still locked in your cell

Where has faith gone

We only have faith if we walk unhindered

If no one stands against us

But what if we stand alone against an army of 800 men

I know my God is with me and he will fight for me

All I must do is call upon the God of grace and he will be my strength

If I walk in his ways and not mine

SO RELEASE THE 800!!!!

My God is with me

When I speak I try to mean it

It breaks my heart when I don't practice what I preach

I'm covered in filthy rags before a mighty God

But when I told how I felt

I meant it

Sometimes I joke and say things that aren't serious

Sometimes I just try to dance around my feelings with a quick joke

Sometimes you ask me how I'm doing

And I dance around you

But you have a way of pulling the truth out of me

I just want you to know

That I meant it

Watch

Watch as the God I serve crushes these demons

Watch as he puts the spirit of a warrior into you

I know that my God is with me

If I stand alone waiting for his might then so be it

If I have to wait for centuries

Just to see him win a war in a matter of seconds

So be it

My God is my champion

Now sit down and watch the God of Wonders

I remember what it was like to be lost

I remember running as a young child

Thinking about how many problems this world has

I remember thinking I was going to do something about it

I remember when I began to grow into a teenager

I felt a spark light in my soul

I didn't know just how big of an explosion that spark would cause

I remember staring into the eyes of the lifeless

Speaking the words of life

I remember fighting those long nights

Fighting thoughts of suicide

Wrestling the demons in my mind

Jesus overcame

And I forgot

I forgot his power

I forgot the fire

I've prayed for a revival in my soul

Like it's God's fault or something

You see I did a whole lot of talking but not much listening

I will stoke these dimming embers in my soul

I will let them grow

I will carry this fire in my soul

I will Remember

I'm tired of breaking it

God when I step across these lines

It keeps getting easier to cross every time

Father

I'm so imperfect

I need your forgiveness

You have blessed me

And I keep breaking conscience in two

I take those promises I made to you and crack them over my knee

You give me grace

And I give you these ****** hands

I dropped my guns

Gave up the fight

My fire is dimming

Dear Jesus

I'm tired of fighting you

When I should be fighting these demons

Yet I join them

Please forgive me

I guess this is more of a prayer

But dear God

I struggle with putting you first

I want to be better at it

I say I put you first

But sometimes these priorities get mixed up in my mind

You know I'm not perfect

Yet you love me

You are a God of Love

I want to get my heart back on track

But I need your Grace

Caleb

Your God called you to life

So why do you cling to death

Let go of your Gods

Remain steadfast in who you are

Remain strong in what you know to be true

This world has nothing for you

Cling to your God

You tried to weigh me down

You tried to take my crown

Tried to be the only sound

You thought I was something you could pound

Then I realized the power of a single cry

When I asked why?

A new breath filled my lungs

A new spirit took a hold of me

Then this body, filled strength

Out ran a cage

By the power of Grace

By the power of God

I leave you in the dust

I enjoy my freedom

I enjoy life

I have joy

So stay in the dust

You were bred for war

You were designed to fight

So get off the sidelines

From a young age you were trained to pick up your sword and swing

You were trained to have your bearings in the midst of the carnage

So why are you on the sidelines

They're dying out there

Your God called you to this

So why are you just sitting there feeling sorry for yourself

You sit there in the corner

Sulking, because you think your merely a shadow of who you could've been

You could've done better

If you were perfect

You would've chosen Jesus over everything

But your human

You have a tendency to ***** up

I wish you had made the right decisions

I wish you were more like the God you serve

But you have to live with those decisions

So get off the sidelines and join the fight

Caleb do it

You keep making these silent cries

I see the sadness in your eyes

I know you feel so much pain

But through it all

I know you may only see us as friends

But to me you are my brother

So keep on fighting

You can count on me to lend you my hand

When you struggle cry out to your God

And wait with patience

Never forsake the Lord your God

He will never fail you

I know you may not always be able to see him

It's so dark down here

But he's here

Call his name and he will answer