Smoking cigarettes can **** you, it could also comfort you;

I was frail.
You we’re agile.
I was fragile.
You we’re breaking.
I was loving.
You we’re letting go.
I was holding on.
You we’re leaving.

One day this pain will make sense to you.

Where do our hearts go, when our chest is too cold for it to be called its home?
Lost in this loneliness, I wandered alone...where do I find you?
I sought peace as if it was air.

Can someone save me, Im so sick and this disintegrating  carcass makes it so worst.

I really hate the way you make me look stupid and jump the gun,

Seeing unpredictable smile, simply every seconds crash with no bounds

even those same songs with the same old rhymes felt new.

How could that September feelings growed to October love,

I do have friends, I do have people that care for me, but why do I feel alone?

“If you lost so much, why are you so willing to give more away?”

For a long time in my life,
    I have sought comfort in poems and songs.
To heal wounds and hide scars
     feel haven for just a brief moment
Be free of the agony and terror
      brought by a brute reality.

Cold and aching, I hid everything,
    thinking of fooling everybody with a mask so beutifully painted.
But the heart can only take too much...
So there I layed wasted, crumbling to dust.

Endured the raging trials of life, silently breaking.
Smiling so brighly to hide the aching;
I have felt solitude like no other;
I stayed and watched 'till my heart shattered.

Where do our hearts go, when our chest is too cold for it to be called its home?
Lost in this loneliness, I wandered alone...where do I find you?
I sought peace as if it was air.

-its like drowning, except you can see everyone breathing.