My world is upside down tonight,
I feel inside out and full of doubt.
                      The path I'm on seems quite bumpy,
     I'm not sure of which way I'm headed.
          Although to someone new I might seem dizzy and distracted-
I usually know exactly where the map is...at least the map of my heart.
                                             But everything's changing and so am I.

I want to give you a beautiful Japanese robe
I want to watch you walk from our living to our bedroom with that look in your eyes
I want to watch that robe fall to the floor
As you approach me full with desire and more

You picture our living room,
I picture our bedroom, hmmmmmm

Kisses to my fathers cold, emotionless cheek
Makes the future of my self confidence very bleak

Burst of hope
In my soul
Like a lightening strike
Short and sweet
Leaving a lingering taste
Of memories past and
Promise of more
Memories to cherish
Burst of hope
I can see
Through the storm
Through these battles
I keep fighting
I'm tired
I still keep fighting
But I hope
These bursts of hope
Never leave
These small pieces of light

I am not the diamond girl,
That is, I am not strong for compassion often overrules
I am not clear it is quite difficult for me to express my self on the first try
and hard no I'm soft a mush...
Although sometimes I wish I was strong, clear, and hard

But maybe I am the diamond girl
The diamond girl who emerged from a blackness-
That is prismatic
Ha! a piñata at times,
Shiny(glitter tactlessly applied),
With many faces, hmmm
Who am I tonight-

That is I!
That is the diamond girl
I am!
******* :)))