Warm nights like this
Remind me of when I would watch you
Sit on the porch
And look at the sky  
As she beckoned for your worries
To join her

I can see your sunken shoulders
As you sat there,
Setting your alarm to wake up
And cook us breakfast
Before we went to school
And you to work
Scrolling
Scrolling
6:00 am set
If you went to bed now
you would probably get 5 hours

You scratch your head
That started to pepper out years ago,
Yeah, its time for a cut
But little Charlie needs shoes and
Terry graduates this year
And don’t forget
soon it will be Mary’s quince
Maybe next month you mumble

I can smell you light your Newport
While you look back at the sky
And you know
To this day I could never tell
If it was the stars reflecting in your eyes
Or Tears
That reflected in your eyes.

It's so hard
To Forget
When you have
Yet to Forgive

And it's so hard
To Forgive
When you have
Yet to Forget.

And as I looked into his eyes
I no longer could see my reflection
For his gaze held the silhouette
of Another

I think
That there is a child
Within me
Every time
I lay to rest
I hear her screams
Not to be forgotten
Not to be left behind
Although
No one hears her
But me
I guess no one listened hard enough

I have a love
Of whom I cannot call out too
How many times
Has my heart whispered
I love you
As you embraced me
I have said it in every language possible
Beyond English
So i can fight this urge of uttering
The words
You do not wish to hear
Despite your cold demeanor
And pushing me away
I love you
And yet
I cannot say it
For it is you whom I love

I can remember
Your smile
And yet worn eyes
As you burried yourself
In religion
And work
No mother nor rest
In sight
And as i continue
To live in this life
And wake up in the middle of
The night
I think I understand
How you went astray
Dad,
I really miss you

I’m processing
Configuring
The time
And Calculating
The distance
That separates us
Oh the seconds
Until i see you
Once more
To God Above
I pray
You don't forget me

I never
Meant to lie
To you
You see it was at
Another's request
And I was left
To decide what I thought best
Yet
My lying isnt the best
And remembering turns my head into a mess
So instead of the stress i turned
Silent
To keep from hurting you.

I hate
Being in my head
Left to my own thoughts
It's feels like my head
Is then a prison cell,
No visitation rights....

The day you said
You liked me
As a person
A friend
I cannot deny
The sky opened up
And together
We cried

I waited
Forever
To finally say
I love you.

Love
Is a responsibility
One takes on
To protect another's heart
While entrusting the other
To do the same
Naturally,
You will understand
when you meet the right oerson

I never thought
The day would come
Where you would no longer
Need to hold my hand
But in reality
For me to let go
Of my hurt and past
I had to leave your hand hind as well
Forgive me......
I'm sorry

I'm lost
No longer wanting
To be found.
Just waiting and wanting
To be lost
Some more.

I want to scream and shout at the world
Holler at the tolerance
Tell people just how lonely I am
Explain how important you are to me
But when I open my mouth
Inhale
Exhale
No words are formed

Dear Words on the paper
Please heal my mind
I know what they say
And what I need is time

But time is of an essence
that I do not have

My pictures
My words are the visual
The tree trunk
But lack of confidence
My stuttering and shyness
The roots
But still, everyone picks
at my leaves

Another chapter
Same story
A continuation
Of a saga
Behold
A torn page
Torn heart

We were never
On the same page
The same chapter
Perhaps,
We crossed paragraphs
And sentences
And yet
I wanted you
To still be in my book

You were,
A rib
A Backbone
Multi-Dimensional and goal-oriented

You were
A human
A woman
Loving and nurturing in every aspect
In honesty? Perhaps to good

Now you are
Fragments of what once existed
Alas, you were enough...
Just not for the right person.

With each tear in my heart
Another poem is written
A **** less is given
And one less life to live in
I guess I should be grateful
But I'm to upset
Over the aftermath

There are times and situations
Where I know I should smile
When I should be happy and elated
Instead in tired and life seems vile

So I retreat to the voices in my head
And we just talk for a while

You were
Consistent
With your
Inconsistency
And now all I yearn for
Is to emotionally
Be free.

You are the Universe
Disguised as a human
Hope
Transcendent upon land
Light
For a better tomorrow
You are a new day
Make the best of it

It hurts
To know
To fathom
To understand
That I will never be your number one
Or even anything to you

How I wish
That I could come out
And say the things
I yearn to say
Love you with my all
But I wallow in fear
Because you say I'm too clingy

I think I heard my heart break just a little

Oh Daisy
Loved by everyone
Flowed with the wind
Kissed by the sun

Petals filled with starlight
And dancing to the Sunday's praises
Advice and love always at heed
And right now grandmother
You're what I need

Oh Daisy
How I miss you

No matter the age
Or how grown up I may be
There still hides a crying child in me

My mind cannot decipher
Wether my heart wants to be free
From stress
Or from you

I asked for
Assurance
Not
Insurance
For this broken heart
You gave me

I don't talk black
However I talk back
To the uneccesary judges
That have appointed themselves such
In life

Do I even need
A reason to be upset
When life itself
Is so.....
Aggravating