I gaze through the window
I see you having fun
Oh how I long to join you
But I'm in chains
You see me
You just smile
Like you know something I don't
I try to move closer to the window
I hear my chains rattle
And I feel them pull me back
I watch as the sun goes down
It's now dark inside and out
I see a figure move
Is it you?
No it's just my hope
Slipping away

I see the sun
I want to be in it
I wish I can run and play
I wish it everyday
But you keep me locked up
In my body
I don't know why you won't let be
All I want is to be free
Please just let me go
I wish you could know
How much
I want the sunshine
It's cold
Where I am
All I want is my freedom

I see you
You haunt me
You are constantly in my thoughts
I wish you would go away
I never want you to stay
I know you don't know what I'm thinking
I wish I could tell you
But it will hurt me more
I don't want to cut again
All I need to do is pray
That I'll never see you on any given day

I make mistakes
I try to fix them
I make them again
I try to fix them again
It's a vicious circle
It's a constant struggle
I try so hard not to make mistakes
But it's easy
To just give in
So I do
Then I feel like a failure

I'm surrounded by beautiful people
Skinny people
Strong people
I'm just a giant blob
Not an equal
They can do more
Be more
Feel me
I can't move the same
I don't feel the same
All I feel is hatred
Dispare
I look at myself and cry
Why can't I be like them
Why can't I be beautiful?

I have an itch
That I want to take care of it
But it would cause me pain
Maybe pain is what I need right now
But it will leave scars that I'll regret
But the itch will fade
Now I don't know what to do
Maybe I should try something new

Each day I get stronger
You come back and make me weaker
My time with you destroyed me
I think about you everyday
But not in a good way
I wish you were no longer in my thoughts
I wish I could live my life
I'm glad I never became your wife
It's time now to let go
But you are still winning the show