Yes, might be
To think is such a responsibility
The less curious won’t read
Won’t  mind, won’t care
Might be complacent, maybe unaware
But how come you’re still here?
Stirring thoughts beneath my phrases
Holding me, through your mind in ages
If soulmates are unreal
Surely we won’t believe it
For certain, I know you feel
So surreal yet so real
Come, bury us down with what we deserve
You and me, in this slow spinning world

I know I shouldn’t be
Fitting in to what I hate to see
Spending time and energy
Useless lines, so temporary
Her and her every night parties
When she gets sad, there’s suddenly me
Oh God, She remembers
I somehow make her happy

Mind’s pitch black
Thoughts’ upside down
She yells and screams
She smokes and thinks
Dancing life through her makeshift joy
I should allow, as her happy toy
A total opposite
To my depths, to my flames
Her and her every night parties
A perpetual bleed to my agony
I beg, please let me sleep

Here, you’ll see
Wild souls, so vivid
Young minds, fueled spirits
Bursting hues beyond grit and faith
Striving, truly, is the heart you’ve made
Molded and shaped to ignite the blaze
A treasure indeed, we’ll forever embrace

In life, I race
High-heeled climbing rocky mountains
Undaunted swimming in gnashing flames
The harder it gets, the better I’ll be
For in life, I’ll race
Just to hear, your praise
So I could die, lucky
Hearing, you’re proud of me

She, a collector of chances she embraced
Piling the work, in her big blue space
She’ll toss and catch with her hands so weary
Clutching ways, through her handmade glory
A jill of trades, yet master of some
We’ll watch her out, she’s just begun

Not much was given, yet I give so much
And if you’ll treat me badly, I’ll treat you good
A one step better aid, the way it should
See? that dance I know for a living
Come, play too as the grateful being
With firm handshake, I’ll support
Here, one of the easy wins, I can afford

Lighting up as she puffs the haze
To soothe the grief through her magic ways
How come do you need? While I don’t
Your killer glow stick, your healing zone?

The hurt that lives, between your lips
The smoke that bursts, in your mouth, I’d kiss
Truly some things fetching are beyond control
Go share me pain, go build your wall
To smash and break, then and there
To suffer is an option, we’re both aware
So I’ll pause, I’ll hear, I’ll stare
And I’ll move on

Deep breaths hither as I ponder
Stretched out limbs, bearing my character
Heavy, but I’ll let my pain lift me
Closed eyes, as I see clearly
Calm, is the mindful and aware
Mind, is the weapon
To this world, so unfair

There, go carve your thoughts to fit in
Go groove in an ever changing
Go weigh the flow, play the games
Adapt to grow, endure the chains
For one day you’ll see
What a seasoned traveler could be
A well rounded shrewd who knows to listen
A wise who can soar, fly and link in

A deaf space to hands ticking,
A pause, to the overwhelming
All we need, all we need
A while, a mind to feed
To sow flames, to blossom the verve
To replan, to rewrite the words
To recline, is to rekindle in solace
Here, we’ll rest and we’ll bloom again
Always...

How cruel? How true?
Blazing souls that crave to thrive,
Seek colors beaming on the same page
Alike, is the energy that you chase
For your circle,
Will impact, will shape
Your own ways

“Rational to brawl the irrational!”
As they irrationally brawl like pawns?
Feeding kings and queens with faithful heart
Bursting flames with tongues so sharp
How far can you go? How far can you go?
With the depths of what you know
With the love you can’t let go
How far can you go? How far can you go?

Come hell or high water!
Skin’s to serenely kiss the danger
Here, being stifled by the blue
Sinking, but teaching me to push through
So in deep,
I’ll constantly wander

Step by step, you’ll hear
Music, of smiles, and tears
Your footsteps, in rhythm with mine
Vivid, valiant, and divine

Not to think alike, but to think together
They said, a tiring walk, of two forgivers
Who fell by chance, who can stay by choice
Yet, a lifetime with you is the greatest glory,
I’ll always rejoice

Some moments, some days
Scared, we are to him
He, a path maker building towers
Dribbling battles, catching hurt
Writing our next chapters, word per word

His unheard laughs, his unseen tears
His grateful heart, his firm power
He, a light seeker lifting us like a king
A man who can lose for us to win

Enraptured with flames, here I stand
I’d lick the shame built by eyes tricking
Visions tempting to suffocate, to bury bliss under
Them seeing light as a phase, a never forever

Yet why here, I stand still like a brawny brute?
Blazing courage, a burning gritty pursuit
Drifting cosmic hues, flowing boundless gleam
How come to love, is now a sin?

To be here,
Bathing under sunbeams
Stirring hues aloft our dreams

To be here,
With a cup of courage, a cup of care
A cup of warmth, we both can share

Years and years, smiles and tears
To be here,
Always

How true?
Today’s fear’s today’s tears
Scared, but I’ll let it flow
From my fiery eyes, dripping low
It’ll fall, it’ll water
Tomorrow’s gardens, tomorrow’s flowers
Fail again, fail better
Learn, persist and be luckier

Like her,
I’ve never been finite, never been limited
I outstretch, I outreach and I know I’ll win it
Yet, like me,
She’s crying behind locked doors too
Letting tears, help her get through
Granting hurt, just seconds to waste
Then rise back up, like a phoenix with grace
Then I’ll wonder how pretty? I’ll wonder how fiery?
Playing my cards, dreaming
Next to an alpha lady

You know I give so much
Though not much was given to me
You know I feel so much
Though not much is what you feel
They’ll never give back what you give
I never complain, I never speak
Yet sometimes I ask
Am I unlucky?

“Hurry up!”, the blue world saying
Yet when love dives deep, none will be drowning
Beneath the hues, it’ll set your soul burning
Side by side, you’ll find life’s worth living

Tanned, muted
Yet it’ll never fade
Your frailty, your warmth
Your courage, my faith

Gently, it echoes
Yet sometimes it shouts
You know with years and years, I’ll still recall
How you made me smile, after all

One shot for life, one shot for death
Been thrown down under, deep sea bed
Lonely and shaking, yet I swam instead

Limbs are heavy, yet I’ll fight the undertow
Little do they know, I just cried then I’ll glow
Like the bright gold dancing ray of sunshine
A loud talking rainbow among the clouds
I always can, for I always choose to

Amidst mismatch, I’ll go rearrange
Go stumble, go flourish
Go groove when it rains

Though lights are off, It’ll never stop
It’ll flow, It’ll grow
If you choose to, it will
No matter what

Breathing free, blooming untamed
Carving pathways, swallowing phrases
Time will fly, yet words will recall
How pretty it is, how great?
After all...

Never can a teardrop even
Roll down on your sad face
Whenever you leave me
Whenever I’m hurt
And here am I
Crying oceans below you
Feeling the weight, feeling the depth
You’ll never feel
You’ll never let the world to see
How come you’re telling me
You love me?

Never a stumbling block
But, a rising stepping stone
To leap, to outlive, to surpass on
A constant change, where I belong?
A constant move, to thrive along
Hence never will I stop, never will I fret
Leaping higher, jumping over
Me, myself

Tons of letters, I put on to sheets
Day by day, by and by
For myself and I, could fly and die
For you

No pressure, no diamonds
Glittering out of hard work
No rain, no rainbows
Learning out of hurt
Bursting hues, such an eye candy
Life can be dull, life can be pretty
Yet it’s your eyes who’ll choose
Which one to see

How pretty, isn’t it?
Gazing back to mornings
Skin’s vivid beneath sunbeams
Crying courage, bleeding faith
I snog risks,  swallow pain
I, who grew up the hard way

Gold is the gleam, that roams at the top
Go talk to the lucky, then know it wasn’t just luck
Each stairway’s endless, each ending’s a start
Every step’s heavy, every leap’s twice hard
But I won’t stop
Stepping up

Come hurl hurdles
Come hurl hindrances
Never will I loose grip
Heading to where I wish to be
Never will I swim, in depths of apathy
To strive, to thank, to forgive
I’ll faith it till I make it
So please don’t you lose faith in me

Bet myself should award me
As the most protective and trustworthy
For I can never fully trust anyone, but myself
Go ignite flames, It still won’t melt
Nothing to lose, nothing to prove
Walls are high, sturdy as it should
Who hurt me? They ask

Wonder why I’m blue
Wonder why I’m chilling
Your hands are cold, though they are tanned
I’d warm them up, but they’re still numb
How I wish, I can always carry them with me
But, time-to-time your hands get heavy
It’s just you, and how you act naturally
How I wish, I wasn’t this overly sensitive
How I wish I can always lift you up
But you know that wouldn’t work
And I couldn’t change that
Until forever

Ditch fear, do it scared
Greatness, she desires
Greatness, she should get
So she’s bathing schemes, mastering ploys
Playing her cards, making some noise
She, who is limitless, for she thinks so
She, who is a dreamer, is someone you shouldn’t let go

Maybe then I’ll meet
My secret weeper, in public places
My yesterday’s plea, my shade of blue
Yet, I can never look her in the eye
Jump high instead, would I?
Leap over, overcome
So I can laugh, like it’s no harm done

filling up, coping up
beneath a guesswork of a frightened mind
quiet, yet moving
sad, yet hopeful
deciphering fright, coming up roses
as we read and hear, wise stoic phrases
diverting fear, kindling gloom
one day, what’s used to be normal will resume

all the way, I’m trying
anyway, I’m used to dying
and rising back up like a phoenix
a vivider fervid flashing hues
In win or die trying, I’ll never lose
A dancer in the storm, an artist in the rain
It’s all in the mind, a cheat to this game

day by day, I go
to unfamiliar paths I’ve dreamt
without a thing, but with a word
a dream, an aim to put to work

by and by, I’ll learn
little by little, I’ll thrive
to inspirit every end of the story
every luckless can someday be lucky

Go, gaze; eye to eye
Dive in hues, swim against the current
Do what scares you, until it doesn’t
Each tasted hurt, each tasted flames
Yet, guts eat fire; grit win games
A mirror of charm, a mirror of gloom
A toast to the grief
One’s sadness in bloom

On glooms and shadows, alone we seek
Strokes of hues, glimpse of light
To flip the page, then start to write
A new chapter, as we sleep tonight

Aren’t we all trying?
To live a life worth dying
To put a smile beneath our breath
So lucky you, if you have met
Who will toast with you to new beginnings?
Who will make life worthwhile?

On pins and needles
I’ve never dreamt with bated breath
Though not all I wish is what I get
Though I swim in sins, in tears I shed
For my limbs hugged me to get up
For my faith helped me to never drown
Never, as long as I believe

What would we be?
If only we’ll forget
Limits, we used to set
Limits, the mind coined threat
A win or die trying
I’d lift my body soaring
For I and I, who made myself suffer
Would fly one day, steering together
My tears, my sweat as a dreamer
Tastes like water, feeds my brain
Eyes on the prize, numb on the pain
How wild, how mad, life’s truly a game

One stage, time may thought it halted
Skipped the beat, missed the pocket
Cut the groove, tried to reset
Sat and stood, yet will never forget
The love it poured, behind these wires
In every word, in every line
Who sees, who saw? both sides can rhyme

What have you become?
From every harm that has been done
From every bullet you bit
From every grief you licked
You tasted fire, you chewed flames
You’d burn greater, you’d burn brighter in the rain
For every courage came from pain
Out of love, you’ll win every game
Out of hurt, you’ll never be the same
So why would I fret?

How can we believe,
on love we don’t receive?
How can we give back,
something that’s not given to us?
How can we depend,
on words they will send?
How can we wait,
though we know it’s too late?

Things I’m surprised I can do
Never for anyone, just for you
I’d stretch limits, I’d swim through
For I trust, someday you’ll hear me too

so beautiful dependence,
pardon me, I won’t embrace
sweet life world promised, full of grace
for I know, for certain, what’s real
so I won’t leave

worry not, we’ll cheat death
eternity, I had it set
for you’ll live forever in me
deeper than my soul
louder than my divinity
so I’ll always get through
here in the cold, unmoved and blue
yet, will never be bluer
for waves, they’re pulling me under
yet with faith, all is above water
so I believe

with all she has heard, with all she has seen
living’s cruel, so she has to win
she’d take her sorrows, wash them clean
go cleanse the hurt, beneath the skin
so you won’t see, you won’t notice
the pain below, she’d never show
Instead, she’ll  grow, she’ll let you know
crowns won’t shine, for those who let her go

never did I feel
the touch of grief
the ****** of mercy
until,
his arms, it cracked me
his eyes, it crashed me
hurting, wishing
time, can alter truth
force, can heal my youth
love, that’s all he gave
tears, as he kneeled and prayed
oh father, you embraced me while I bleed
oh father, who am I not to forgive?
love, I thought I’ve known it
until...

How can you sleep?
Only to dream
How can you sing?
Words you don’t mean
How can you try?
Without aiming to win
And how can you love?
Without giving it

I need to learn, I need to see
How can you even turn,
something real to a dream?
How can you do it?
How come I’m still wondering?
In the middle of an ocean
of tears, I swam
of blood, I sailed
all day, all night
for you