they told me
"never fall in love with a bad boy."

what they didn't tell me
was that bad boys
are not boys with scars
that have no stories.

they are not boys
with split bones,
stretched shadows,
black irises, and blacker bruises.

bad boys are the ones who
stitch together their words,
silk spider webs,
wrapping you up,
just like he did in his arms.

they are not boys who hide their faces,
and spill smoke from thin lips.

bad boys are the ones who
fill your hungry cries
with red wine and black waters,
dragging you down,
just like he did with his words.

they told me
"never fall in love with a bad boy."

but I did.

Bad boy with your tattooes and piercings.
You are the player of our neighborhood.
Why do all the girls gather around you?
Can't they see that you're up to no good?

Bad boy with your sparkling blue eyes.
Your hypnotic gaze it captured my heart.
I fell head over heels in love with you.
Never believing one day we would part.

Bad boy with your charming laughter.
It's what I missed about you the most.
A sound I would hear late every night.
Haunting my dreams just like a ghost.

Bad boy with your seductive smile.
Never again will you trick nor fool me.
I am no longer trapped by your spell.
From your hold I have broken free.

When I was with him
He was bad
And beautiful
And dangerous
And my secret.
I saw through eyes that
Were hopelessly in love
With him.
I saw his bad qualitys
And quickly forgave them
When I heard his voice.

Now, I love him,
But not for who he truly is.
I love him for what I thought he was.
He didn't change.
But my eyes did.
My perception of him did.

And I see now who he is.
He is a skinny
Acne faced
Dug addict
Who takes the love of
****** closeness
And spends it time after time
With girls he doesn't know.

He is no bad boy.
He is a lost boy.
An I have grown too tired
Of his disappointments
To try to save him.