You are caring,
Passionate, intellectual,
You have an intense pure aura
I feel peaceful and calm around you
I feel drawn to you
When I'm near you it's like a connection that I felt from a past life
Like our souls are connected
Like we are meant to always find each other

C.     Escape.      my.     rage .         C
A.             its                                     A
N.                  breaking                   G
'T.    .  Out.         of.        this           E


The
animal
within
is
ready
to
win

You're the first thought when I wake
About what a pair we make
the last thought when I close my eyes
About how we have no lies

I can't get you out of my brain
Thoughts of you pours in like rain
you've taken over my head
Every time we talk I turn red
I've known you for years
you're still here to wipe away my tears
even though we are far apart
I'm afraid you've stolen my heart even though we were intimate in the past
it was never more than just a blast
it was never meant to last
You've still been my friend
I never want it to end
I had given up on love
you flew into my life like a dove these past few months just talking to you
seems too good to be true
I can't help but miss you
I never saw before
how wonderful you are
like you fell from a star
I wish you weren't so far

I remember when we were teenagers
attacking eachother like tigers

The more I remember our old habits
it reminds me when we bred like rabbits

I dream of the old days
I think about you in many ways
I wake up in a daze
You put me in a craze

If its the last thing I do
I will find a way to be with you

You are my sunshines
My three sunshines
Without you my sky's are grey
You'll never know my dears how much I miss you
Please my sunshines come back someday
The long nights while I lay sleeping
I dream I hold you in my arms
but when I wake my dears
I was mistaken
so I hang my head and I cry
You are my sunshines
my three sunshines
When you're not with me
My sky's are grey
You never know my dears
How much I LOVE YOU
PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINES AWAY

I fantasize about it would be like to have you makes me wonder if you would be true I ponder what it would be like to kiss your plump lips I fantasize about your skin pressed against mine passion and heat kissing your chocolate skin moaning when you put it in
Is it just infatuation? Or just ****** frustration? Could it turn into love? Or is it just lust? I don't know but I just want you to ******

People think I am strong
                                They are wrong
But I just soldier on
                               I am just a pawn
My kindness
                              Is my weakness
I love with my all
                      That is my down fall
I try to put up this wall
                         I try to stand tall
But I get knocked down
                     Fear that i will drown
In a pool of tears
                     Created by my fears
I am weak
                   But I don't act meek
I turn the other cheek
               While I continue to seek
The strength within
                                Trying to win
Kindness is my weakness

Addicted to your touch
Long for your embrace
Wish I could tell you how I feel
Your brown skin against mine
Caressing the contours of your face
This feeling inside
Is getting harder to hide
I dread the day that I might accidentally blurt out those three words
Should I hide hide how I feel
Is what im feeling real?
Should I let my love soar?
Or should I close that door?
Im unsure
Don't have a cure
My black beauty
Could you possibly love me?
This is not a fantasy

Blue skys
Dry eyes
Sunshine
Fun times
Clouds appear
People fear
Rain to come
Fun is done
Sky opens
Rain pours
People cry
Fear they'll die
Chaos of the unknown
People groan
Winds gust
We don't trust
Hail cascades
Clouds fade
Rain goes away
That's all for today
Colors appear
A rainbow is here
Dry your eyes
Don't you cry
Hope is here
In the darkest of times
There's always hope for tomorrow
After every storm there's a rainbow

When I see your face
as we go from place to place
my heart beats faster
my knees get weak
My stomach hurts
I can hardly breath
My heart pounding
My body shaking
Pull me closer
Im yours for the taking
Kiss my lips
Grab my hips
Hold me tightly
Undress me slightly
Heavy breathing
Just what Im needing
You are the fuel to my fire
You are my hearts desire
You are the song in my heart
Even when we are far apart
You make me feel like me
You make me feel free
Maybe its meant to be

I live my life in isolation
I feel the worlds devastation
I keep it all trapped inside
All my pain and anger I hide
You'll never see
the darkest Part of me
You'll see me but you won't see
The true me
I smile at the world
Even though my heart is wounded
My pain is hidden
behind my grin
You'll say its a sin
But I hold up my chin
Noone can hurt me again
There's a hole in my heart
Where everyone ripped me apart
I wouldn't know where to start
To repair a holy heart
So I will hide my pride
And slowly die
My eyes remain dry
Its too late to try
My isolation is my own devastation my soul is beyond recognition
So when you see me smile at you know that it isn't true and there's nothing you can do because there is no glue to fix the hole in my heart that humanity tore apart.

For My angels

         F.                 N
      T.    O.           I.   M
    R.        R.      R.        Y
  A.            E.  E.       ­     H
P.                 V.                  E
R         Memmorie.       A
  E          Clayton.          R
     V      Warren.        T
       E.                       W
         N.                  E
              L.         W
                  L.  I


    Sent.                            For
             From.      Above
Me.                  To.             Love
A.                                     Gift
   To.                               Lift
     My.                        Heart
      Loved                 From
          The.             Start
               My.        Soul
                     Now
                       W
                        H
                        O
                        L
                        E

Heart
                                           Ice
                                   Cold
                            For
                 years
          My
fears
         Driven
                      by
                           tears
                                    My
                                          brain
                ­               Insane
               thoughts
clouded
              pain
                      surrounded
                                            Living
             ­                                           in
                   ­                         doubt
                                  want
                              to
                      pout
    ­                I
               do
without
               Wash
                          away
                                    my
                         ­                 fears
                                                    With
       ­                                   tears
                            Nobody
                  hears
    Nobody
                  cares
                            Nobody
     ­                                      dares

                                              I
          ­                        Carry
                            On
                    Like
                A
   Drone


...............alone.............

You're born
Told who to be
Told What to do
Told what to see
Told how to be you
Told how to feel

Then one day you see what is real
You see the hate
You see the pain
You wonder why this is our fate
You try to remain Sane

One day your up
One day your down
There's tears and a frown
Other days you're a clown
You get angry
Which is scary
Then you break down and cry
Until one day you die

Taught how to live
Taught how to love
Taught how to hate
Told its our fate
Then its too late
Taught its not ok to cry
Noone teaches you how to die
We're told its all about love
I guess its all comes from above

You had my heart
You tore it apart
I gave my all
I catch you when you fall
I gave you kisses
You gave me bruises
I stood by you
I was true
I was in deep
You left when I was asleep
Didn't know how bad it was
Until a knock at the door
It was the Fuzz
I don't want no more
Leave and don't come back
I will wear black
Im in mourning
The death of our love
Has my tears pouring
thought u were sent from above
All lies
Now our love dies
Found out the truth
You lied through your tooth
I now know what is real
Being alone is ideal

There's a fire burning inside
That i try to hide
So many times I have lied
But there's no pretending
That a desire is burning
Lust yearning
To be set free
Inside of me
I yearn to be touched
Give anything to be caressed
But that's not enough
I want to be rough
I want to be thrown onto the bed
Or even the floor would work instead
I want to be kissed
I want to be licked
I want to be suckled
I want to be cuddled
Skin on skin
It may be a sin
But I want someone to put it in.

Suffered
             Endured
                             Worked hard Jumped through hoops
                        Ran around in loops
With sweat on my brow
           Needing to get things done
Not knowing how
          Sometimes wanting to run
I pushed ahead
                I wanted to cry in bed
But my hands bleed red instead
             Hard work determination
Refusing termination
             Holding my head up high
Happy I didn't die
                        As I wipe my eye
Happy its not a lie
                                    Relief
               Disbelief
Pain almost at an end
         Thank god for a good friend
Keeping me sane
                 Keeping my brain tame
I have knocked on doors
                              I have rang bells
Well no more
                    That's enough hell
I will stand tall
        Not backed up against a wall
Proved them all wrong
              Showed them I am strong
I will do it all
                          I refuse to fall
I have climbed up out of the hole they put me in
                          They
                   will
           not
  win

Inside my cage
                            Fists of rage
I may be strange
                            Its hard to change
Been poked
                      Been prodded

That's how it all started

                  Abuse
                          Misuse­
                          
Now I refuse
                        To let you
           take
                     refuge

Inside
           My
                  Cage
                           I
                              Shall
                            ­            Remain
                            Hidden
           ­       Away
         From
All
     The
             pain
                      While
                                ­ My
                                       Rage
                                                Stays

L
O
C
K
E
D

I
N

T
H
I
S

C
A
G
E

Struggling with pain
Corroding the brain
Slowly turning insane
Glaring at the knife
Just wanting to end the strife
No one to be a friend
Just want it to end
Contemplating suicide
Considering how to decide
Flip a coin let it ride

Heads the knife
Tails deal with strife

Heads
wide up dead

Tails
Live to tell the tale

Its odd to say
But life happens this way

Your born you die
In between you cry

Many people contemplate suicide
How do you decide?
To live?
To die?

All the time glaring at the knife
Wanting to end your strife

I'm done fighting
I'm done trying
Im done with bruises
Im done with excuses
Im done with lies
Im done drying my eyes
Im done with the pain
Im done with you controlling my brain
Im done having hope
Im done with you and your dope
Im done with your drunken rage
Im done feeling like Im trapped in a cage
Im done with you playing victim
Im done being your victim
Im done being weak
Im done with you making me feel meek
Im done trying to convince you
Im done being abused by you
Im done being stepped on
Im done thinking your the one
Im done trying to get you to talk to your son
Im done giving you chances
Im done with second glances
Im done with you
Im just done noone to blame but you

When im around you my knees get weak my stomach hurts I can hardly breathe fluttering butterfly's when you touch my skin I get goosebumps when you kiss my flesh electricity runs through my veins you're my weakness yet my strength I wish you could see the one you're looking for is me

I look around and all I see
is stupid people all around me

what happened to common sense?
When I was growing up we didn't need warning labels on everything we weren't that stupid

what happened to work ethics?
When I was a kid we had to work hard if we wanted something now people expect handouts

what happened to being kind to your neighbors?
Growing up everyone in our neighborhood were every race and we were "family"

what happened to respect for your elders?
I was always taught to be kind and respectful of my elders and help them out whenever possible

What happened to morals?
My parents instilled honesty, respect , don't steal, don't cheat, don't help someone else cheat, and treat others the way you want to be treated, in me at a young age I couldn't break them if I wanted to because they are hardwired into my brain.

What happened to telling the truth?
All I ever hear anymore is lies

What happened to society?
We used to play outside, shovel snow for our neighborhood, we didn't use technology, we went on actual dates , holding hands and talking was the best way to show you cared , now people have online relationships never meeting eachother and sending ***** pictures. People text when sitting next to eachother. No-one actually talk to eachother. People now are so stupid that they need warning labels on everything, no-one has god in their hearts.

I was taught that there is good in everyone but when I look around all I see is morons that only care about themselves and will lie cheat and use anyone to get what they want.

Ripped from my arms
Deprived of your charms
Upon your foreheads  i cannot kiss
Your faces i will miss
Torn from my heart
My heart ripped apart
Wish to hold you all
Can't be there when you fall

Wish to see
My angels three

Mommy is there in your heart
Even though we may be far apart
Sheer agony
Not being able to be there with you three

Wake up start my day wake up the kids get them ready and on their way get ready for work even though my boss is a **** work all the time just to earn a dime come home make dinner so the kids don't get thinner clean up the house eek is that a mouse? Put kids in pjs and read them a book long days go by in a daze kids are fast asleep I fall on my bed in a heap hopefully without a peep everyday is the same routine some days I want to scream but I love the little things like hearing about my children's dreams I start my day and end my day the same way with my kids saying I love you that's thanks enough for all I do

Fists of rage bursting out of this cage can't restrain the animal much longer everyday it gets stronger. Every time I hear of someone living in fear that death is near I can't escape my rage this animal is strange clawing at my brain its hard to sustain and keep it tame its breaking out there is no doubt
I fear that the animal is here

It seems these dreams have seeped into my head while in bed
I can't shake this feeling that life is the dream instead
I want wake from this nightmare called life as I wipe away my tear and try to over come my fear
This panic is tragic I wish I could live in my dreams like magic away from all the havic
I dream of a place with no pain no strife no longing for a knife no one to call you insane because everyone is tame
These dreams seem real I just want to feel normal but that's not possible

What
                                  if
         life
                                            is
             ­      just
a
                                 dream

/\                                             //
        //\\                                          //
     (¤) (It's)                                   //
() (Breaking)                              //
  ~£ ( loose Nothing left to lose)
       (The animal is breaking out)
     (There)                          (is no)
     (doubt)                         (It wants)
   (to howl)                       (It wants)
   (to roam)                         (The)
(((Animal)                     (((is home)

Angels are everywhere
If you know where
To look
They aren't in a book
But all around you
Its true
A mother holding a newborn
Keeping them warm
Safe from harm
A child
Innocent and pure
Keeping your heart sure
A stranger on the street
That pulls you out of the street
So you don't become roadkill
A friend that takes care of you when you're ill
Angels are all around you
You just need to know where to look