Get out of my head, I'm begging you now
Wish I could stop thinking about you but I don't know how
So I keep writing in hopes it helps me heal
But I the pain wont go and it feels so real
I want to drink to forget
Instead I cut myself and regret
You're hunting my mind, please leave my head
Because I know if you don't then I'll end up dead

Whats the point in praying if God doesn't answer my prayer
Blanking me like that, guess you're not even there
Tell me why you keep taking the good and leave all that is bad
We're suppose to be your children, you're suppose to be our dad
So tell me father why do you make us suffer
Is it just for your amusement or are you trying to make us tougher
Because lord I cant take it, I'm getting weaker each day
Why give me family and friends if you're going to take them away
Can't we make a deal, please lord I'm getting weak
Reality's getting bleak, but you won't even speak
Forget it, no point praying
All I ask is maybe you understand what I'm saying
So you can stop this evil and maybe you can hear our cry's
I'm starting to think you're the devil in disguise

How do we describe that childhood feelings?
When life was pure
When life had meaning
We're older now
But life still goes on
Wishing we were young again
Wishing we had that feeling
Would go on on and on
When I think of years ago
Life seems fuzzy
Yet beautiful
Now life seems dim and bleak
Where did they joy go?
Why did I grow up?
Maybe I guess I'll never know
Or maybe I'm not who I used to be

My words don't compare to the art you create
Paintings so beautiful but let me be straight
Your works of art reflect who you are
All your love, your energy even a long lasting scare
Hands of an artist, you're second to none
You paint stories and I wish to live one

Your heart stops the war inside my head
Your love makes me bleed and I feel like I'm dead
Drained from the pain and soft to the touch
All I ask are for your words but is that too much
When I said I loved you I wasn't lying
You turn painful tears into happy crying

Ignore what they say not men just boys
Keep doing you and just down out the noise
They try to act big to put you down
Don't ever let that pretty smile turn into a frown
Their words may hurt and there words may bruise
But hold your head up high and you will never lose

You left me on open and you left me sore
Do my words mean anything to you or are they becoming a bore
Feel like we're slipping and can't go back
You're my weakness, my life ending heart attack

I didn't want a relationship until I met you
It's weird to say but I don't know what to do
I want to talk and text any chance I get
A soul like yours I could never forget
Even though I don't know you very well
Any second without talking to you is like a living hell
If you get this message please call me back
A day without you is like a heart attack

When I say I love you its because its true
Though we've never met I really miss you
You seem to hold my heart like you've owned it before
I think you're the angel I've been looking for

I don't know why I fell so hard over you
But you unlocked feelings I never thought I knew
You may not be my first love but I hope you're my last
I want only you in my future and not in my past

Lost in her small town wishing for a way out
In hopes of her Prince charming to come about
She's destined for more and I know she'll do great
Lost in her small town but forever she will wait

How did I get like this?
Trapped in a dark abyss
My mind is clouded, heavy thoughts like rain
Numb to the point that I don't feel pain
Mum said time will heal me
But she doesn't understand the pain I see
It's hard to explain when you feel so low
I just want this dark abyss to let me go
I can feel it getting worse, day by day
As I'm writing this now, I don't know what to say
Maybe I'm broken, a lost puzzle piece
Everyone getting put together while I slowly decrease
I'm scared to ask for help because I think I'll look weak
I think it's because I'm a man that I don't want to speak
I guess I'll keep pushing and see how long I last
I never thought at 21 I'd want to die so fast

I don't feel nothing anymore, this life just causes stress
When god chose to ruin a life, why did he pick my address
Whats the point in trying when all I feel is pain
I cant trust my emotions, they keep driving me insane
Is it love or is it hate? I cant tell anymore
You know I said I would love for richer or for poor
But look at everything that's happened now
People tell me to forget but I just wonder how
Forget this life, for get about me
You're better off with him, that's not hard to see

I am a poet
That's lost all meaning
Words come together
Like a child crying, screaming
Dreaming of a way to make these words feel new
I am a poet
That doesn't know what to do
Writings not the same
It just feels different
Maybe the passions been tamed
Or maybe I'm just different
I am a poet
Or maybe I'm not
I used to write loads
Now I can't write a lot
If you were to ask me what I am I'd tell you I forgot
Am I a poet?

Tears leave my mind and heart
But not my eyes
How did this all start?
Through deceit and lies
Lying to myself about how I truly feel
You told me you loved me
Was that love even real?
Or was I blind and just couldn't see
Until I realise all my fears
Were clouded by my falling tears

I cut my wrists again
Then blame it on the drink
I look at the scars every now and then
But I don't know what to think
See the blood keep dripping
All down my arm
Thoughts keep slipping
From happiness to harm
Just want the pain to all go away
Hope the blood will stop spilling
One day

I hate being alive, depressed, I want to die
Never thought I'd feel like this, I really don't know why
Or maybe I do and just don't want to say
But I know, its a thought I have every single day
Help me please, save me from this pain
Sometimes the right words can make my thoughts seem sane
Tell me I'm joking, or that I'm lying to myself
It cant be true, my words must be locked on the shelf
I'm worthless I know, never more than I think
Wish my life would end faster than a blink

I hate you, I hate you, I hate you
And you know that I do
You know the rage that sleeps within
You feel the pain creeping in
You hate me as much as I hate you
And when I look at you I hate what I see
I hate the fact and you are me

I have a voice
But I'm too afraid to shout
The silence is defining
I have a voice
Though I choke on my words
They linger inside
I HAVE A VOICE
Fighting to be heard

I'm about to go to bed
Maybe I'll dream of you
Writing about you is new
Now thats all said
Please message me back
Please cut me some slack
I want to know you more
Your messages I cant ignore

I like you, but I think you already know
Ever since we first spoke these feeling knew to grow
I like you for everything you are
I feel you so close even though you're so far
I like you for you laugh and you're honestly so funny
I like you for your looks and you're sweeter than honey
I like you for what's inside, you care so much
I only hope that one day I can feel your touch
I like you because you're not scared to say what's on your mind
I like that even when people are mean you're still so kind
I like for reasons I can't even explain
You seem to be my sunshine when I'm lost in the rain
I don't want you for you body, I want you for your soul
A lifetime with you would be the ultimate goal
I tell you I'm different like every other guy
But when I like you for all these reasons and more then why would I lie

You're going though a lot and I understand you don't want to talk
But I'm always here if you're up for a walk
Or even just sit and enjoy eachother silence
Sometimes just company can solve all the violence
I'll wipe your tears and you can feel my touch
I'll hold your heart if it gets too much
I'll always be here, night and day
Just say the words and you'll know I'll stay

I'm here to pick you up if ever you shall fall
Carry you up the mountain so you can stand tall
When the world get to heavy I'll give you a hand
Whatever you need your wish is my command
The weights on you shoulders will eventually disappear
You'll never have to worry because I am always here

I love you, one powerful phrase
An emotion that will keep growing till the end of your days
I love you, forever and ever
Till death do us part I will do whatever
I love you, more than life
That's why I asked you to be my wife
I love you, more than you could know
Even though you're gone my love will still grow

I love you so much
And I KNOW I'm going to marry you
But I'm scared that I'm not good enough for you
I'm scared that I'll ruin your future as well as mine
I can already feel that I'm going down
A spiral of emotions that I CAN'T control
I'm sorry this is how I am
I'm so so sorry
I'm sorry

I'm not good for anyone
It's clear to see
You know I'm a ******* drunk
Just look at me
I just keep sipping
Till I hit the floor
Stumbling and tripping
I can't even write sober anymore

Word, word, word with some deeper intent
Pointless poems that you've come to resent
I don't care anymore, I'm honestly done
No point writing anymore, its not that fun
My words mean nothing, and no one wants to know
Why did I even try, doesn't matter I'm about to go
Bye forever, no more writing, not now, not then
I'm finished with poems, I'm never writing again

Hey, I know it's late but I really miss you
Trying to focus on work and I don't know what to do
You're lurking here, trapped in my mind
Searching for answers but you're all I find
Even though youre not mine, you're still all I see
You know I miss you, do you miss me?

I'm scared
And I know I shouldn't
But I'm scared
Please hold me
Because I'm scared
Of...
Everything
Literally everything
I'm scared

I hate my brain, why cant I just let go
I know you changed but my mind said no
I regret what I said and how I acted
All of my actions I wish could be retracted
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, because I still love you
But the battle inside my head kept bleeding through
I know I'm bad with words and I should have spoke more
I know I ruined everything and the wound is still sore
I hate myself because I let my mind win the fight
I hate now knowing you'll be lonely at night
I hate how I let emotions get in the way
I wish I could go back to that faithful day
When I got off the train and saw your face
My head fell silent and my heart skipped a pace
I hate myself and I know you now hate me
My actions spoke louder than words and I'm sorry
I'm not asking for forgiveness, just wanted to write down what I couldn't say
I'm really sorry

I'm still waiting for the day when you will come here
Maybe god will guide you or maybe your mind will steer
Holding out hope for something might not come true
But even after everything I'm still in love with you
Maybe I'm being foolish by waiting for your love
I just need god to help me if he's listening up above
Please come back to my arms and I'll never let go
I still love you and I need to let you know

It ***** that you cant tell someone you love them after just meeting
But sometimes you can tell it's love just from the first greeting
Maybe it's just a look or maybe how they talk
But they leave you weak in the knees and unable to walk
Love can hit you very very hard
But it can also leave you very very scared
I don't care if we just met because I know what I feel
And if you just bare with me I can prove it to be real
You said hello and I was instantly attracted
But can't tell you I love you because I know how you would have reacted
I don't wish to play the long game but I cant shake that we could work
So my feelings lay dormant and in the back of my mind they lurk

I cannot contain these feelings for you any longer
But I'm afraid who will get hurt if they grow any stronger
In another life you would have been my soulmate
But our paths intertwined under a cruel fate
I know what I feel and I know my feelings are true
I think God intended for me to meet you
But we met at the wrong place and the wrong time
Is loving you really a crime?
I can't think like this I can't lose what I've got
Maybe in another lifetime I would have a shot
To love you, hold you maybe make you my wife
I hope I find you in another life

I hope in another life we're still together
Maybe we actually reached forever
We worked on our issues hand in hand
We completed everything that we had planned
Another life me hopefully made you his wife
I hope we're still together, in another life

Where did you go?
I've lost who you were
You're the piece I'm missing
Where did you go?
Part of me wishes you never left
Part of me wishes it ended with you
All of me knows we were happier back then
Young, free and living wild
All of me misses that inner child

If you ever raise you voice at a woman then you're weak
Shouting horrible things you know you shouldn't speak
You don't control her, you're supposed to be a team
You don't realise you're living another guys dream
Honestly *******, your pathetic and insecure
One day she'll realise that she deserves more
Don't take her for granted or she'll just up and leave
Sooner rather than later I'd hope to believe
Sorry I've been drinking so my anger spilled onto the page
But the way you treat her fills me with rage
Or maybe I should just keep drinking
And let you know how I'm truly thinking
Because I feel like I'm dying
You keep her crying
And if I said this is all ok then I'd be ******* lying
I care way to much about this girl to be silent
But you're not worth fighting so I won't get violent
But if you saw her how I see her then you wouldn't treat her like this
You understand she's one in a million, something you don't want to miss
I think I should drink more till I pass out
But don't you dare break the heart of the girl I care about
Guess this is what it feels like to be on the outskirts
I don't think she understands how much my heart hurts

I have to sit in silence or I'll say the wrong thing
Having to just listen makes my heart sting
Don't want to get angry or say something rude
It's not my intention to ruin the mood
So I'll sit in silence wondering what to say
Or my intrusive thoughts will ruin the day

I think I miss you
But you were never mine
I hate that's it's true
But I'm honestly not fine
Because even though you're not here
Im missing you everyday
Wishing you were near
Why do I miss you in this way ?

It's all coming back to me
How I used to be
Life before you was just a distant memory
But I'm slowly falling back into place
Hoping the pain you brought will erase
And the man in the mirror will once again be my true face
It's all coming back to me
Slowly but surely
All the scars you left are finally healing
The love I thought we had is just a distant feeling
I'm moving on and trying to grow
It's all coming back to me, the person I used to know

I used to write poems telling you I loved you
Now I write poems about how much I miss you
I used to write till you got sick of my words
Now I'm writing words you'll probably never read
I used to write poems with all my heart and soul
Now I struggle to write like I used to
I used to write poems all about you
Now I write poems about a fading memory

I want you, entirely and completely I want you
I want to hold you, love you and make all your dreams come true
Never let you go and hold on to you tight
For I will be here for you every day and night
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you
Entirely and completely I want you

I wish I was an artist
I wish I could paint you
Using every colour known to man
And hang you up on my wall
For everyone to see
I wish I was a singer
I wish I could write you a song
Play it on repeat
For everyone to hear
I wish I was a poet
I wish I could write about you
People need to know what these feelings mean
For every drop of blood I bleed
Is a drop of love that I hold for you
I write and I write
Because I cant contain this
I wish I wish I wish

Death, Life and what come in between
How do I get from here to there without being seen?
Who do I take and who do I leave behind?
A fractured web for you to unwind
Hold on tight for this soon may end
Open the door to welcome and old friend ?

If I hold onto a moment and keep it forever
It would be us laying like this
You ask if I'll let go and I reply "Never"
For you are my haven, my eternal bliss
I'll love you forever if you hold me like this

I see you're trapped in a state but no one understands, do they?
You're hooked on a substance but its just fun and games you say
Always asking me of money and I just smile and say its chill
I just cant see you go broke but for once can you act real
Been telling you to stop but you keep taking and taking
You know its bad for your health but with out it you're shaking
You know I loved you like a brother and that I always help you out
You always told me you're fine but inside you want to scream and shout
But now its too late, it caught up, finally consumed you
Why couldn't you stop like everyone assumed you would do
I'm not mad about what you did, I just blame myself
I stood back and watched you mess up your health
Goodbye to you brother, I really sad that you're gone
But deep within my heart your life will live on

You said it's always been me but keep me at arms length
I want to keep pursuing you but don't know if I have the strength
I thought to you felt the same but dont know anymore
All I know is I've never felt this way before
I'd love to know if you feel the same
Because I got some strong emotions that I can't tame
Can we please talk this out so I know how you feel
I really want to believe that is love could be real

I think it's time for me to sleep, it's been a long day
Wrote to many poems, ran out of things to say
But when I close my eyes I still see you there
Just out of reach, life's not fair

I'm ****, confused and I don't know what to say
Your **** in my head every single day
I'm not good with emotion but you muddled them in my head
Now with my thoughts all I feel is dread
Forgetting about you? No I cant do that
Hit to hard by love and I wasn't wearing a hardhat
I will forget one day, hopefully that's soon
Tomorrow? Next week? Anytime in a blue moon?

The legends are gone, but do they really die ?
Their names echo through time for us to be inspired by
Is there a reason to this, will we ever see the clarity?
Sadly we loose them to this deep dark reality
RIP to the legends, you deserved are love
Your name live on even though you're watching from above

I don't sleep like I used to, nights have come cold
Thoughts always clouded with the memories of old
My beds so soft but I can't seem to rest
My beds so empty without you laying on my chest
I close my eyes but never feel at ease
My body's so worn just let me rest ....... Please