Hey, I know it's late but I really miss you
Trying to focus on work and I don't know what to do
You're lurking here, trapped in my mind
Searching for answers but you're all I find
Even though youre not mine, you're still all I see
You know I miss you, do you miss me?

I hate my brain, why cant I just let go
I know you changed but my mind said no
I regret what I said and how I acted
All of my actions I wish could be retracted
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, because I still love you
But the battle inside my head kept bleeding through
I know I'm bad with words and I should have spoke more
I know I ruined everything and the wound is still sore
I hate myself because I let my mind win the fight
I hate now knowing you'll be lonely at night
I hate how I let emotions get in the way
I wish I could go back to that faithful day
When I got off the train and saw your face
My head fell silent and my heart skipped a pace
I hate myself and I know you now hate me
My actions spoke louder than words and I'm sorry
I'm not asking for forgiveness, just wanted to write down what I couldn't say
I'm really sorry

I'm still waiting for the day when you will come here
Maybe god will guide you or maybe your mind will steer
Holding out hope for something might not come true
But even after everything I'm still in love with you
Maybe I'm being foolish by waiting for your love
I just need god to help me if he's listening up above
Please come back to my arms and I'll never let go
I still love you and I need to let you know

It ***** that you cant tell someone you love them after just meeting
But sometimes you can tell it's love just from the first greeting
Maybe it's just a look or maybe how they talk
But they leave you weak in the knees and unable to walk
Love can hit you very very hard
But it can also leave you very very scared
I don't care if we just met because I know what I feel
And if you just bare with me I can prove it to be real
You said hello and I was instantly attracted
But can't tell you I love you because I know how you would have reacted
I don't wish to play the long game but I cant shake that we could work
So my feelings lay dormant and in the back of my mind they lurk

I cannot contain these feelings for you any longer
But I'm afraid who will get hurt if they grow any stronger
In another life you would have been my soulmate
But our paths intertwined under a cruel fate
I know what I feel and I know my feelings are true
I think God intended for me to meet you
But we met at the wrong place and the wrong time
Is loving you really a crime?
I can't think like this I can't lose what I've got
Maybe in another lifetime I would have a shot
To love you, hold you maybe make you my wife
I hope I find you in another life

I hope in another life we're still together
Maybe we actually reached forever
We worked on our issues hand in hand
We completed everything that we had planned
Another life me hopefully made you his wife
I hope we're still together, in another life

If you ever raise you voice at a woman then you're weak
Shouting horrible things you know you shouldn't speak
You don't control her, you're supposed to be a team
You don't realise you're living another guys dream
Honestly *******, your pathetic and insecure
One day she'll realise that she deserves more
Don't take her for granted or she'll just up and leave
Sooner rather than later I'd hope to believe
Sorry I've been drinking so my anger spilled onto the page
But the way you treat her fills me with rage
Or maybe I should just keep drinking
And let you know how I'm truly thinking
Because I feel like I'm dying
You keep her crying
And if I said this is all ok then I'd be ******* lying
I care way to much about this girl to be silent
But you're not worth fighting so I won't get violent
But if you saw her how I see her then you wouldn't treat her like this
You understand she's one in a million, something you don't want to miss
I think I should drink more till I pass out
But don't you dare break the heart of the girl I care about
Guess this is what it feels like to be on the outskirts
I don't think she understands how much my heart hurts

I have to sit in silence or I'll say the wrong thing
Having to just listen makes my heart sting
Don't want to get angry or say something rude
It's not my intention to ruin the mood
So I'll sit in silence wondering what to say
Or my intrusive thoughts will ruin the day

It's all coming back to me
How I used to be
Life before you was just a distant memory
But I'm slowly falling back into place
Hoping the pain you brought will erase
And the man in the mirror will once again be my true face
It's all coming back to me
Slowly but surely
All the scars you left are finally healing
The love I thought we had is just a distant feeling
I'm moving on and trying to grow
It's all coming back to me, the person I used to know

I used to write poems telling you I loved you
Now I write poems about how much I miss you
I used to write till you got sick of my words
Now I'm writing words you'll probably never read
I used to write poems with all my heart and soul
Now I struggle to write like I used to
I used to write poems all about you
Now I write poems about a fading memory

I want you, entirely and completely I want you
I want to hold you, love you and make all your dreams come true
Never let you go and hold on to you tight
For I will be here for you every day and night
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you
Entirely and completely I want you

Death, Life and what come in between
How do I get from here to there without being seen?
Who do I take and who do I leave behind?
A fractured web for you to unwind
Hold on tight for this soon may end
Open the door to welcome and old friend ?

If I hold onto a moment and keep it forever
It would be us laying like this
You ask if I'll let go and I reply "Never"
For you are my haven, my eternal bliss
I'll love you forever if you hold me like this

I see you're trapped in a state but no one understands, do they?
You're hooked on a substance but its just fun and games you say
Always asking me of money and I just smile and say its chill
I just cant see you go broke but for once can you act real
Been telling you to stop but you keep taking and taking
You know its bad for your health but with out it you're shaking
You know I loved you like a brother and that I always help you out
You always told me you're fine but inside you want to scream and shout
But now its too late, it caught up, finally consumed you
Why couldn't you stop like everyone assumed you would do
I'm not mad about what you did, I just blame myself
I stood back and watched you mess up your health
Goodbye to you brother, I really sad that you're gone
But deep within my heart your life will live on

You said it's always been me but keep me at arms length
I want to keep pursuing you but don't know if I have the strength
I thought to you felt the same but dont know anymore
All I know is I've never felt this way before
I'd love to know if you feel the same
Because I got some strong emotions that I can't tame
Can we please talk this out so I know how you feel
I really want to believe that is love could be real

I can't write anymore poems about you, it'll make me feel worse
I beg you please unlock me from this love curse
Because I can't take it anymore, I feel so strong
I know in my heart with you is where I belong
I quite drunk right now and almost crying
I can't say I don't love you because I'd be lying
You mean so so much to me
If only you could look through my eyes and see
How I see you, I think I need a re-do
Because you make all of my words suddenly bleed through
Hold onto me dear because I need you
I still love you, I hope you feel the same way too
But I'm stuck underneath your curse, I think I'm dying
I love you way to much, I'm not lying

I'm so ******* in love with you, it's all I want to say
I know you'll get fed up because I'll tell you everyday
I've never felt this way about a girl I've met before
I can't ever just be friends with you, I'm begging for more
I don't care if I sound desperate because it's honestly so true
But I've never loved anyone the way I love you
Tell me to shut up, please before I say to much
Na **** it, I somehow fell in love with you before I've even felt your touch
I won't say it again and repeat the same line
Because you already know I want to make you mine

I could write for you till my words bleed dry
When at my worst and I don't want to try
Just your voice will keep me going till the day I die
You empty a room with just your smile
Would it be wrong if I stayed with you for a while
No word is good enough to describe you and all you are
When the sky feels empty you're my shining star
I'll tell you this now and I mean it to be true
In a room full of art I'd only stare at you
I breath you in and breath you out
Trust me when I say you're all I think about

I think it's time for me to sleep, it's been a long day
Wrote to many poems, ran out of things to say
But when I close my eyes I still see you there
Just out of reach, life's not fair

I'm ****, confused and I don't know what to say
Your **** in my head every single day
I'm not good with emotion but you muddled them in my head
Now with my thoughts all I feel is dread
Forgetting about you? No I cant do that
Hit to hard by love and I wasn't wearing a hardhat
I will forget one day, hopefully that's soon
Tomorrow? Next week? Anytime in a blue moon?

The legends are gone, but do they really die ?
Their names echo through time for us to be inspired by
Is there a reason to this, will we ever see the clarity?
Sadly we loose them to this deep dark reality
RIP to the legends, you deserved are love
Your name live on even though you're watching from above

I don't sleep like I used to, nights have come cold
Thoughts always clouded with the memories of old
My beds so soft but I can't seem to rest
My beds so empty without you laying on my chest
I close my eyes but never feel at ease
My body's so worn just let me rest ....... Please

I guess it's time I let you go
Moving on so that I can grow
But in my heart I will always see
A love story that was never meant to be
So I say goodbye to me and you
And all the pain we couldn't work through
I guess it's time for me to grow
Moving on because I let you go

A ****** love that should not grow
But I wish for these emotions to show
Never knowing I would feel this way
Emotion brew day by day
Im a wanderer in this world that strangers call love
I listen but I dont know the words these people speak of
Lost but not knowing
Old emotion that are still showing
My love needs to stop growing
You opened old wounds that lied under the surface
Now that you're gone I have no purpose
If I could, then I would go back to the start
Back to that when you stole my heart

When I showed you love, you responded with pain
You made your problems mine, it was driving me insane
Why did you make my life hell, with no sign of hope
Ever since I met you, I've been falling down this deep *****
I couldn't take it
The stress you caused plagued me, so much I couldn't shake it
And now you're gone i'm happy, finally i'm free
Never will I take this abuse that you gave to me
Time to say goodbye to life I new
Its over now, finally away from you

When the devil took me he laughed and said
"The sins of your past will haunt you now you're dead
And the sins you committed hold much weight"
I said to him "If loving her was a sin then what be my fate?"
He look down apon me and said "do you really think love was your sin?"
What I utter next took away his grin
I told the devil that my sins came from love
"I would have stole, lied, murdered and all of the above.
I showed her love in a world full of hate
She was my heaven in this twisted curl fate
Any man that wronged her I would fight to the death
I would do anything for that woman till my last breath
I know I'm not prefect and I never will be
But I loved with all my heart because that's just me
So I'm guilty of loving because my morels won't budge
Doesn't matter what I say when the devil is my judge
I saw heaven without ever going
She knows she is loved and that loves still growing
And I died a happy man, you can never take that from me
So if loving is a crime then it's in hell I must be"
The devil look angry and mumbled"just go"
A bright light above my head then started to show
He shouted as I floated away
"Once you go back this will be your last chance then"
I replied with a gin "I can't wait to do this dance again

Maybe I'm not the one, maybe you don't like me
Maybe you're scared I'll treat you how you should be
Maybe the feelings are one sided
Maybe we're two souls that should never have collided
Maybe I'm not thinking straight
Maybe it's all too late
Maybe it's wrong for me to feel this way
Maybe this is a game I don't want to play
Maybe I'll never be him
Maybe the chances of us ever happening are very very slim

I got some thoughts that I got to let out
So please just listen and you'll know what its about
Ok?
Good, now this is what I have to say
Bullied to the point I felt like I was in the rubble
I'll take that shirt in an X, actually, na double
Words like fat used to make me feel bad
Became a self conscious kid who would always feel sad
So why not be the class clown
Even tho I'm sad no one else needs to frown
Skip a couple years and I'm still the same
But I chose this lifestyle, no one else it to blame
Yeah I say stuff that probably shouldn't say
Its not my fault that my brain thinks this way
Maybe these poems are a truth I don't want to speak
I guess I'm scared that I seem weak
I could keep going and write some more
But you don't care and you didn't care before

I don't want to meet you half way, I'll meet you at the start
I'll just follow the string you have round my heart
It's pulling so tight that my heart start to ache
With feeling so strong I don't know how much more I can take
You'll either be my happiest ending of my worst heart break

This is a modern day love story told through rhyme
A story I hope to tell for a very long time
I met a girl and she was sweet
Talking to her made my heart skip a beat
I caught feelings but was too scared to show
But I couldn't hold it in and had to let her know
I wrote her hundreds of poems telling her how I feel
Showing her a love she would know to be real
She didn't want to ruin what we already had
I tried to play cool but deep down I was sad
But I think in my heart she does feel the same
If this ruins our friendship then I'll take the blame
I promise I'll be here till the end of our days
I want you forever, you're not just a phase

I've been gone for awhile looking through my mind
Erasing evil thoughts I should have left behind
Changed in many ways, grown as I should
This life changes people in ways they never could-
Know and understand, but should we even try
Or let gods hand moves us till we die?

How can I be in love with her but have feelings for you
Thoughts in my head focus on you and I dont know what to do
Thinking about what could have been
But like you said are future was unseen
Now someone else is trying with you and it makes me regret
All I want to do is drink to forget
I shouldn't have these thoughts, why have the come back?
Stuck with this inner conflict, I cant hold off the attack
Everything's being questioned I wish I couldn't think
Want to forget this all in a blink
Suffer in silence and take all the pain
You're in my head and it drives me insane

My feeling grow each day
So many things I wish I could say
Your beauty's incomparable, you're second to none
Stuck in my mind, I can never get anything done
A voice so angelic its all I want to hear
I can be myself around you, I have nothing to fear
I love your laugh, so innocent and sweet
Seeing you happy makes my heart skip a beat
Your eyes are so beautiful and your smile is pure
I've never felt like this for that I'm sure
You have a mysterious aura that draws me to you
I've fallen, fallen deep and I don't know what to do
I would write forever about these feelings I can never show
This is to my love, my love will never know

My light is slowly fading, lying on the ground
I had to do it while no one was around
I hear sirens in the distance, I they're not for me
My light is slowly fading, this is how it's supposed to be
Looking at the wreckage, I did this to myself
This is what happens when you don't care for your mental health
But this is what I wanted, to end all my pain
Twisted dark thoughts that I had in my brain
My light is slowly fading, I guess the end is near
Tell my family I love them and that I died without fear

I finally lost my mask, finally I can be me
The person I was scared for everyone to see
Hes finally out, look at him shine
Just kidding, I had that mask to make you think I was fine
Inside I'm dying, so I hid from my truth
Deep seeded issues that came from my youth
Buts all out now, you can see who I was scared to be
Finally the mask is off and now you can see me

Pain speaks more than words ever could
You tried once, you tried twice, you tried more than you should
You say just shut yourself in and don't let them see you hurt
Just try to hold your head up high, dont fall back down to the dirt
Why do you feel stuff they can't ever understand
They offer you a choice but Its to hard to hold their hand
The walls close in because you shut yourself out
I miss you, I need you, are the words you want to shout
Tell me it will be okay, I want to hear it from your voice
If I have once chance to take it back I would always take that choice

My tormented mind will never rest
I will all aways feel second best
Battered and bruised all throughout my life
Thoughts cut deeper than a knife
I hate myself and I dont know why
Just waiting for the day I die
A lifeless husk just surviving day by day
Praying for the pain to go away
My tormented mind is slowly dying
Every day I feel like crying
Sometime I think I might be insane
Why do I feel this pain
Can't find a way out, guess I'm blind
Trapped inside my tormented mind

We danced I the rain like we didn't care who saw
We had everything and everything but still wanted more
We'd watch the stars that would shine so bright
When darkness would fall you'd be my light
When held eachother we felt more than love
I really should have thanked the god above
He brought me my peace in a world of violence
Hearing your voice brought me inner silence
Thick and thin we held on tight
When I first saw you it was love at first sight
I always hoped we would be together
Neverending this love, not now, not ever

I'm not a fighter I'm a lover but for you I'd hold my ground
Take on any battle that comes our way even if you're not around
And if I came back wounded I know you'd heal my heart
Pick up all the pieces and make it restart

You cry over him but the tears are not true
You never loved him, he never loved you
Wasting time thinking about the past
No matter how it went, you knew it wouldn't last
Why did you do it if you knew it would cause pain?
It wasn't love it was just insane
You thought you could just live a lie
Fake love, fake love, why did you even try?

When you wake up in the morning and you're all alone
You'll find me waiting on the other side of the phone
Sending you my love with texts or still videos I share
I just want you to know how much I care
You're the first thing on my mind every single day
Can I message you some more? Would that ok?

You said that I'm different, I'm just not the same
We both know the problem, it's the drink to blame
I'm not the man you met all those years ago
Turned into a stranger, someone you don't even know
Looking in the mirror, I know this to be true
I became the man I was all because of you
But something just happend, I guess I lost my way
Maybe I'll become that man again.... One day

Life never goes the way you plan
But it's time for me to set up and be a man
Face all of my dreaded fears
Dark thoughts I've been hiding all these years
When you last saw me I was a broken mess
Hiding all of the pain and stress
Look at me now finally I've grown
Not the same man you thought you have known

All of these feeling finally off my chest
Now I know I can lay to rest
I told you I loved you and you said it back
Hearing those world almost gave me a heart attack
Can't tell you how happy I feel
I've honestly never felt love this real
Say it again till it's tattooed on my heart
Because I've loved you since the very start

Let me be clear, you're all that's on my mind
Looking for an answer and you're all that I find
You live through my poems, because I can't tell you to your face
Or maybe I'm scared you'll put me in my place
I want to know how you feel but I'm scared of your answer
It takes two to tango but I think I'm the only dancer
Just be honest and let me know
Or is this a place that you cannot go
Maybe one day we can lay things out
And I'll get to know what you're thinking about

On the radio I heard our song start to play
Suddenly taken back to that faithful day
When we danced all night to that song on repeat
Learning all the words and remembering the beat
The song brought love and joy, sadness and heartache
Maybe listening to it again was a mistake
Even though listening to it maybe be wrong
It will always be our song

I'll never be a perfect man but you make me want to try
I can't promise I won't fail, get knocked back or maybe even lie
Till my back lay broken and I'm falling apart
I will keep trying with all my heart
Fueled by love that you provide me
For you I'll be best version of myself that I can possibly be

Numbing my pain with all these pills
This feeling I get seems to give me chills
Can't be sober to go outside
So behind theses drug I will hide
My mind hates me and I know that well
Or I wouldn't need pills to leave this hell

Eyes can be deceiving, the brain can be teasing
The heart can be healing but also leave you grieving
Feelings come and go but they stick in the mind
Some so strong that they leave you blind
Close you eyes and you'll see clear
The purest answer will finally appear

Does my message come through with these words that I write
When I'm alone in my head, surviving the night
You make me write and write till my page is mess
I can't get over the girl in the red dress