Put myself down with silly thoughts in my head
Wish it was me but you chose him instead
Am I good enough to even be with you
Or am I a hopeless romantic who hasn't got a clue
Please let me know because I'm dying inside
I've made my feelings clear, I have nothing to hide
But it seems that no matter how hard I try
He has something for you that I can't supply
Push me away before I get to sad
He's getting your love that I wish I had
Don't want to stop trying but my chances look bleak
But you hold the love that leaves me weak

The more you make me jealous, the more I want you
The bruises from these games are starting to show through
He's a lucky man, I wish we could swap shoes
But when I came down to love he was the person you wanted to choose
Maybe another time I will be in his place
In this game I love I have lost the race

I look upon death
Because I'm scared of the present
The pressure of life
Keeps me
Holding on to better times
When I was happy
Because in the now
I'm scared of everything
And never happy
But when I look upon
That past that I lived
Loved even
My glasses have clarity
But even when I look back
Death still lingering
In my memorys

I have to sit in silence or I'll say the wrong thing
Having to just listen makes my heart sting
Don't want to get angry or say something rude
It's not my intention to ruin the mood
So I'll sit in silence wondering what to say
Or my intrusive thoughts will ruin the day

We walk a dangerous line when we start to flirt
Because someones feelings are bound to be hurt
We can dance over this fine line
But in the end I just want you to be mine

Keep your head up when times get thought
I know it doesn't feel like it but you are enough
Hundreds of positives comments and one gets you down
Ruining your day and leaving you with a frown
But their opinion shouldn't matter because you know you
Their lies shouldn't be the reason you fall though
I think you're amazing and I'll tell them all
And if they want to make comments then we can have a brawl
I'll always be here if every you shall fall

I sometimes feel like giving up but don't want to lose hope
But I'm already half way through tying my rope
I know I'm not him and probably not the one
By my feelings won't change when it's all said and done
What do I need to do, or do I need to change?
Because I'm getting mixed feeling and these feeling are strange
Guess I just have to wait and see
Maybe the answer is right Infront of me

If you ever feel sad you can always come to me
I'll pick you back up and cleanse any insecurities
Let your tears flow down my chest
And all these demons we can lay to rest
For you are perfect in every single way
You're the only trophy I'd put on display

You dance like the burning embers with fiery passion
Though never leaving the fire pit you burn bright and bold
Letting everyone you come across know you're there
Sporadic in nature, never truly tamed
Destructive as all hell
But such a pretty and warm sight
You're a crimson red flame burning down the night

This is a modern day love story told through rhyme
A story I hope to tell for a very long time
I met a girl and she was sweet
Talking to her made my heart skip a beat
I caught feelings but was too scared to show
But I couldn't hold it in and had to let her know
I wrote her hundreds of poems telling her how I feel
Showing her a love she would know to be real
She didn't want to ruin what we already had
I tried to play cool but deep down I was sad
But I think in my heart she does feel the same
If this ruins our friendship then I'll take the blame
I promise I'll be here till the end of our days
I want you forever, you're not just a phase

A heavy weight has be placed apon my head
A dark twisted sickness, I don't want to leave my bed
Thoughts keep growing leave nothing but pain in side
I wish to escape my mind, to run away and hide
How did I got from happy in the morning to almost crying tonight
My minds at war and I'm loosing the fight
I can never tell anyone now I truly feel
Because opening up makes them all too real
I don't want the label that's given to people like me
If only I could open up for people to see
Someone to talk to but I cut my self off
Because if I'm seen as week I'm scared they will scoff
I'm the big strong man that's not afraid of dying
But in side this man is a young boy crying

What does your soul feel like?
Lost in a claustrophobic, neverending plain
Of love and pain
Gripping on the fake feelings you believe to be you
But will they ever be true?
What does your soul look like?
In-between the brightness of pure black
Or the hollowing emptiness of light itself
Where does your soul sit?
It looks so dim even though the flames been lit
So happy and confident living in despair
Your soul?
Is it really there?

Maybe I'm not the one, maybe you don't like me
Maybe you're scared I'll treat you how you should be
Maybe the feelings are one sided
Maybe we're two souls that should never have collided
Maybe I'm not thinking straight
Maybe it's all too late
Maybe it's wrong for me to feel this way
Maybe this is a game I don't want to play
Maybe I'll never be him
Maybe the chances of us ever happening are very very slim

Now I'm not a fisherman but I found the best catch
A girl I just want to pick up and ******
Plenty of fish in the sea but I found the best one
I can retire my fishing rod now it's all said and done
So I'll sail my boat back to shore
Knowing I don't need to fish anymore

And I fell back to the drink, my dark abyss
Never again did I think I'd feel like this
We were so close but now youre so far
Now I'm bleeding because you left a scar
Can't let go but I'm loosing my grip
Running out of words, guess I'll take another sip
Can we not talk this out, I think we can make it through
I'm holding onto hope and I don't know what to do
We were nervous to meet and now I'm feeling defeat
The story is ending before it could be complete
Tomorrow was ruined because of one stupid lie
Now I'm stood at the platform watching my train go by

Colour me in and if you fall outside the lines please don't rage
For I need you to remember there's always another page
So when you mess up one day and thinking "what's the point then"
There's always the next page for you to start again

A fire burns inside my heart
Cogs turning but refuse to start
I love you
But somethings stuck
Help me please
I'm running out of luck

She haunts my dreams
She haunts my dreams
Nothing as, it, seems
I dont know
I dont know
I dont,
Know
She left me down in this hell
Trapped in a cell
Down in this hell
Feeling like I'm dying
Everytime
I close
My eyes....
Is this how it ends?
What does all this mean?
Mean? Mean?
She haunts my dreams
Dreams Dreams

I feel like we're made for each other
Maybe that's why I'm scared we'll lose one another
You love me even though I'm unstable
I love you like a never ending fable
Can something be this good without a fault?
I guess this loves definition by default
I know we'll be together not matter what life puts us through
Because you'll love me forever just like I love you

A bitter sweet poison
I crave every drop
Slowly killing me
Yet I cant seem to stop
Fell victim to your power
Your grips getting tight
I need you just to function
So wrong but so right
I fall and I stumble
Because you always have to win
So beautiful so perfect
My poison my sin

God put me here to mend your broken heart
One of the kindest soul I've seen torn apart
Life can be cruel, I know this for a fact
But hold strong of me darling for this is only the first act
You will have bad days for that I'm sure
There will be days where you eyes start to pour
There will also be days when you fall to the floor
But I'm here to pick you up when your down on the ground
I'm here to wipe your tears when theres no tissue around
I don't judge or care for you past life of sin
People will be mean but you just have to take it on the chin
You have so much to offer that no one else could replace
Grab my hand, I'll lead you out this place

You give me life when I feel low
You give a reason to get up and go
Seeing you face brings me nothing but joy
All my dark thoughts you seem to destroy
I'd do anything in my power to see you smile
In the court of love I must stand trial
You make me laugh with out even trying
When we say goodbye it leaves me dying
I somehow miss you though I've never seen you face to face
Everything you do makes my heart skip a pace
Search you feelings, you know them to be true
You like me and I like you

I work all night while you lie asleep
Knowing you're alone makes my heart weep
I hope you sleep well and your dreams will be kind
Wake up in the morning and I'll be the one you find
I worked all night and now I'm back here
Laying next to you I have nothing to fear

I ignored my depression for many many years
Substance abuse took away all my fears
But it made me feel worse in the end
It's hard to let go when the substance is you're only friend

You said you've never been given flowers but I'd steal you a whole flower bed
Any type any colour, blue green or red
You've never been on a date well let's change that now
I'd take you to the moon if I only knew how
We'd walk among the stars and dance next to the sun
Don't think I've ever felt this way about anyone
I would write your name in the sky above
Just to show you the extent of my love
Let me be clear I'd do all this and more
Just to show you love like you've never been shown before

What are we waiting for ?
I like you, you like me, do I need to say more?
We tiptoe around these feelings that we hide
I wish I could tell you all these feeling I hold inside
I think you feel the same but are to scared to show
But if we don't take this risk then I guess we'll never know
If you're worried you'll get hurt then just know this
Good or bad, with you there's not a moment I want to miss

Part of me died trying to love you
And now I'm sat here feeling blue
Lost to time I wasted holding onto that feeling
Praying for my self to come back
Please cut me some slack
I keep feeling the same heart attack
Guess its just my way of healing
Blood running out my veins
A shell of my body remains
You left me tied to these chains
This love for you I keep concealing
Hoping how I feel is just a lie
Soundless screams that I cannot cry
Feeling like I'm about to die
Why was your pain so appealing?

She broke me in two
Shattered like glass
Now what can I do?
Will this pain ever pass?
I lost myself trying to please this girl
I will never be the same
Falling deeper and deeper in a downward swirl
Maybe I did this to myself, maybe I'm to blame

It seems to be same old conversation
Hes said or done something and you give the retaliation
If it's the same old story then why doesn't it end
You know it's true so let's not pretend
Help me understand because you seem down
You keep letting him be the reason that you always frown
I care about you more than you'll ever know
He's left bruises and scares that you don't let show
Answer me now and answer me clear
What's stopping you from leaving him, why are you still here?

I finally lost my mask, finally I can be me
The person I was scared for everyone to see
Hes finally out, look at him shine
Just kidding, I had that mask to make you think I was fine
Inside I'm dying, so I hid from my truth
Deep seeded issues that came from my youth
Buts all out now, you can see who I was scared to be
Finally the mask is off and now you can see me

Where did you go?
I've lost who you were
You're the piece I'm missing
Where did you go?
Part of me wishes you never left
Part of me wishes it ended with you
All of me knows we were happier back then
Young, free and living wild
All of me misses that inner child

I see you're feeling down, it's hard I know
But you can open up to me, and let's these feeling show
Tell how you feel, just let it l all out
Don't keep it in, you can cry even shout
I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on
Day or night, I'll be your person to rely on
Keep that head up with that pretty little smile
The pain will end but it might take a while
When you feel low, I'm just a message away
I'll be your person to rely on, night or day

Hey, I know it's late but I really miss you
Trying to focus on work and I don't know what to do
You're lurking here, trapped in my mind
Searching for answers but you're all I find
Even though youre not mine, you're still all I see
You know I miss you, do you miss me?

You're the most addictive drug I've ever tried
Loving you was an addiction that I couldn't ever hide
We cried, we fought, we laughed and loved so hard
Maybe a little too hard that in the end it left us both scard
But now you're gone the effects won't disappear
I need a fix for this addiction but you're no longer here
But the ghost of you still lingers inside my head
Imagining life without you is something I dread
So I'll wait for you because you know I'll come straight away
I'll love you forever is all I want to say

Drunk again so I start writing
All these dark thoughts I keep fighting
She starts smoking to cure the pain
Guess we have different prescriptions for pain

No silly mistake would make anything change
Because love can be shown in a wide range
But I want at you purest, all your flaws and sins
You and I will never know if we never begin
I can't thank you enough for just being who you are
I've said it before but you're my shining star
It's weird how you hold me up when you're not even here
I'd risk it all for you, I have nothing to fear
Keep writing, don't stop I need to read more
You're the art and the artist, need I say more?

I hate myself, so ******* much
Because I live in a world where I can't feel your touch
I'm broken, scarred, damaged beyond repair
Trapped in this lonely pit of despair
I miss you so much, but we can't go back
Falling for you again would take me off track
Maybe one day I might hold you again
As a much better man than you knew back then

I'm scared
And I know I shouldn't
But I'm scared
Please hold me
Because I'm scared
Of...
Everything
Literally everything
I'm scared

Mum said you don't know her and she lives so far away
But Mum I think I love her, I cant feel any other way
Mum said you met her online, are you sure she's even  real
But Mum I'm being honest when I tell you how I feel
Mum said I will support you I just don't want to see you sad
But Mum this is the girl I want to introduce to Dad
Mum said follow you heart if you think you know best
Thank you Mum she's different from all the rest

How did I get like this?
Trapped in a dark abyss
My mind is clouded, heavy thoughts like rain
Numb to the point that I don't feel pain
Mum said time will heal me
But she doesn't understand the pain I see
It's hard to explain when you feel so low
I just want this dark abyss to let me go
I can feel it getting worse, day by day
As I'm writing this now, I don't know what to say
Maybe I'm broken, a lost puzzle piece
Everyone getting put together while I slowly decrease
I'm scared to ask for help because I think I'll look weak
I think it's because I'm a man that I don't want to speak
I guess I'll keep pushing and see how long I last
I never thought at 21 I'd want to die so fast

I hate my brain, why cant I just let go
I know you changed but my mind said no
I regret what I said and how I acted
All of my actions I wish could be retracted
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, because I still love you
But the battle inside my head kept bleeding through
I know I'm bad with words and I should have spoke more
I know I ruined everything and the wound is still sore
I hate myself because I let my mind win the fight
I hate now knowing you'll be lonely at night
I hate how I let emotions get in the way
I wish I could go back to that faithful day
When I got off the train and saw your face
My head fell silent and my heart skipped a pace
I hate myself and I know you now hate me
My actions spoke louder than words and I'm sorry
I'm not asking for forgiveness, just wanted to write down what I couldn't say
I'm really sorry

Missing you like crazy, just want to hold you forever
Id travel to you everyday, anytime, any whether
Only 4 days together but it feels like a life time
All these poems are for you, every word, every rhyme
Can't wait to see you again in a week
And tell you I love you till my voice can't speak

Love me forever, I beg you please
The way you look at me brings me to my knees
The way you talk sends shivers down my spine
In every lifetime I wish to call you mine
There's isn't a world where you don't make my heart race
You are my home, my happy place

We haven't spoke in a while
I hope you read this soon
Worlds apart yet I miss your presence
We only spoke for a little
But now you're gone
Please come back
Please come back
Just come back
Come back

I see you through the emotion you hide
You tell me your alright but I know you just lied
Tell me everything, I'll alway be here
You know I won't judge, you have nothing to fear
Lean on my shoulder if you need something to cry on
I'll be the one you can alway rely on
Or if not me then let your family know
They will alway help you when you're feeling low
I wish I was there to help you through any pain
Just say the word and I'll be on the next train
Or I'd race through the night just to wipe your tear
You can tell me anything, you have nothing to fear

I want to write for you
But you're not here
I don't know what to do
Can't see things clear
Please give me a sign
Bring back my light
I want to make you mine
You're the reason I write

I'll give you my last name and you can keep if forever
Watching you walk down the isle will make me cry but however
They will be tears of joy seeing you walk towards me
Knowing since I've met you that you're my future wife to be
Starting a life together with the love of my life
Not just a girlfriend but now my wife

It's all coming back to me
How I used to be
Life before you was just a distant memory
But I'm slowly falling back into place
Hoping the pain you brought will erase
And the man in the mirror will once again be my true face
It's all coming back to me
Slowly but surely
All the scars you left are finally healing
The love I thought we had is just a distant feeling
I'm moving on and trying to grow
It's all coming back to me, the person I used to know

Breathing getting heavy I cant take it no more
I think this is the moment we've both been waiting for
I grip your waist and hold you tight
You've got my lips trembling, I hope you don't bite
We give into sin as passion takes place
The look in your eyes makes me heart start to race
I feel your skin, so soft to the touch
I've been craving for this so very much
The taste of your lips make my blood rush
You can see my cheeks start to blush
United as one, it's all lead to this
A moment of passion and eternal bliss

We're not going to be just friends, and I think you already know it
I think we share the same feeling but are to afraid to show it
Please let me know if what I'm saying is true
Because I'm praying to hear these words from you
There's so many things I wish to say
And maybe I'll get to tell you one day
But for now we'll stay "friends" and dance around these feeling we hide
But deep down we both now how we feel on the inside