There's a blank spot in my head
Filled with fear and looming dread
Surrounded by the scars that you left me
On display for everyone to see
All my sins put on display
Violent thoughts I can't even say
You left me naked covered in shame
I'm not saying you're to blame
But you opened up the blank spot in my head
Now wishing I was dead

I'm not him and hurts me so bad
Its not your fault and I shouldn't get mad
But I know you love him, its why I feel so sad
Why cant you see me, I'm the same as him
Because you don't love me, my worlds so dim
To be the one, to feel you touch
What makes it worse is you know I love you so much
Do you care about how I feel?
You say you love him but is it real?
Hes made you different, hes made you fake
I hate to look, I don't know how much I can take

I know I'm not prefect
Sin after sin
I could write a whole ledger
But where to begin?

When I showed you love, you responded with pain
You made your problems mine, it was driving me insane
Why did you make my life hell, with no sign of hope
Ever since I met you, I've been falling down this deep *****
I couldn't take it
The stress you caused plagued me, so much I couldn't shake it
And now you're gone i'm happy, finally i'm free
Never will I take this abuse that you gave to me
Time to say goodbye to life I new
Its over now, finally away from you

I'm like a broken clock, constantly telling the same time
But instead I tell you I love you in every single rhyme
It  seems to be the only thing I can say
I can promise you no one has ever made me feel this way
You make me heart pounding when you look at me
In a room full of art you're the only thing I see
I've never felt love this strong
But In my heart, I know with you I belong
So I say it again, I love you
I can promise you baby this love is true

When the tears stop falling and words don't work
Sit in silence and in our minds we lurk
We all have demons from our past
Damaging feeling that we don't want to last
We all suffer alone at the end of the day
But if we keep pushing through then I'm sure we'll find a way

I like you, but I think you already know
Ever since we first spoke these feeling knew to grow
I like you for everything you are
I feel you so close even though you're so far
I like you for you laugh and you're honestly so funny
I like you for your looks and you're sweeter than honey
I like you for what's inside, you care so much
I only hope that one day I can feel your touch
I like you because you're not scared to say what's on your mind
I like that even when people are mean you're still so kind
I like for reasons I can't even explain
You seem to be my sunshine when I'm lost in the rain
I don't want you for you body, I want you for your soul
A lifetime with you would be the ultimate goal
I tell you I'm different like every other guy
But when I like you for all these reasons and more then why would I lie

You cry over him but the tears are not true
You never loved him, he never loved you
Wasting time thinking about the past
No matter how it went, you knew it wouldn't last
Why did you do it if you knew it would cause pain?
It wasn't love it was just insane
You thought you could just live a lie
Fake love, fake love, why did you even try?

My feeling grow each day
So many things I wish I could say
Your beauty's incomparable, you're second to none
Stuck in my mind, I can never get anything done
A voice so angelic its all I want to hear
I can be myself around you, I have nothing to fear
I love your laugh, so innocent and sweet
Seeing you happy makes my heart skip a beat
Your eyes are so beautiful and your smile is pure
I've never felt like this for that I'm sure
You have a mysterious aura that draws me to you
I've fallen, fallen deep and I don't know what to do
I would write forever about these feelings I can never show
This is to my love, my love will never know

I don't want to be just friends, I'll admit it
I'm drunk off your love, can't quit it
Can I speak from my heart for a minute
For a minute, think you need you need to hear it
Youve got me lost in my dam mind
Looking for answers but you're all I find
Tell me where we will draw the line
Because I want it to make you mine
Three in morning thinking I'm going crazy
Tell me what you're thinking about baby
When it comes to you I could never be lazy
You tell me to shut up well baby come make me
Think I'm lost again in a daydream, in a daydream
Hoping you can save me

Ignore what they say not men just boys
Keep doing you and just down out the noise
They try to act big to put you down
Don't ever let that pretty smile turn into a frown
Their words may hurt and there words may bruise
But hold your head up high and you will never lose

On the radio I heard our song start to play
Suddenly taken back to that faithful day
When we danced all night to that song on repeat
Learning all the words and remembering the beat
The song brought love and joy, sadness and heartache
Maybe listening to it again was a mistake
Even though listening to it maybe be wrong
It will always be our song

Giving you this in person will be scary yet exciting
So I better use my best hand writing
I'll try and keep this short and sweet
But I love you from my head to my feet
Meeting you was my favourite mistake
Life took me down a path I'd never thought I'd take
I can't thank you enough for just being you
I wish you could see yourself from my point of view
Beautiful, funny and so so kind
A soul like yours is hard to find
So read this poem whenever you feel low
I care for you so much, more than you'll ever know

I think I've finally ran out of words to say
I've been writing about you every single day
But I'll never write a poem good enough to describe you
The rights words don't exist and I don't know what to do
But I'll keep searching till find the right word
And I'll write the most beautiful poem that you've ever heard

I feel like Im writing the same old story
Guy meets a girl in search for glory
One forms feeling and the other doesn't know
Talking till the season change from sun to snow
He tries to tell her about his feelings that hide
Hope she might feel the same way deep down inside
Love letters and poems all about them together
The same old story that will go on forever

Looking at you makes me feel paralyzed
You're so god dam beautiful and youve never even realised
An angel questions it's existence when looking apon you
Everything I'm saying you know it to be true
In the universe nothing is made to perfection
But it seems to be you're the only exception

I love our hellos but I hate are goodbyes
If I said I don't miss you then that would be lies
I want to tell you I love you everytime we part way
Then I'm stuck missing you for the rest of the day
Don't know why I feel like this when we say goodbye
But if I said I don't miss you then that would be a lie

The kindest soul I've ever met
You outshine the most beautiful sunset
You paint pictures and you write art
Colouring in the gaps within my heart
I wish I could write everything I want to say
To call you mine every single day
So for now we'll keep making art to describe eachother
Writing poems, painting pictures for a long lost lover

Stay in my arms and hold me like this
I'm drunk off your love, an eternal bliss
The world falls silent when you lay with me
An out of body experience is what it's ment to be
You hold my soul so **** tight
You show me love with all your might
A bond so strong even god can't separate us
You show me nothing but love and trust
Like atoms we attract and hold strong
If loving you is a crime then I don't see nothing wrong

My light is slowly fading, lying on the ground
I had to do it while no one was around
I hear sirens in the distance, I they're not for me
My light is slowly fading, this is how it's supposed to be
Looking at the wreckage, I did this to myself
This is what happens when you don't care for your mental health
But this is what I wanted, to end all my pain
Twisted dark thoughts that I had in my brain
My light is slowly fading, I guess the end is near
Tell my family I love them and that I died without fear

You said it's always been me but keep me at arms length
I want to keep pursuing you but don't know if I have the strength
I thought to you felt the same but dont know anymore
All I know is I've never felt this way before
I'd love to know if you feel the same
Because I got some strong emotions that I can't tame
Can we please talk this out so I know how you feel
I really want to believe that is love could be real

How many times can I wright about something I don't feel
When will I ever find something I think is real
Do I know what love is? Or am I just dumb
Feeling that you give me seem to make me numb
I'm lying to myself, I know I don't feel this
I have my moments but its not true bliss
When will I know? I don't mind
Love is a thought I don't want to find

Stop me if I mess this up
But I've been sipping from a heavy cup
You're still looking for what you left behind
Pain and sadness is all your find
Turn around and you'll see me
Pulling you towards where you need to be

Lost in her small town wishing for a way out
In hopes of her Prince charming to come about
She's destined for more and I know she'll do great
Lost in her small town but forever she will wait

We made plans but spent all day kissing under the cover
You found my in a dark place, I'll admit I was a broken lover
Picked me up, wiped me off, kissed all the bruises off my chest
Now when I hold I know in my heart that you're different from all the rest
I never knew love could hit me so god dam hard
I promise you baby that I won't leave you broken and scared
Just like you see it in the movies we share that same type of love
Since I met, I truly think there is a god above
Watching over me, he sent an angel to protect
You hold my heart like no other, never felt this kind of effect
And if I dropped dead tomorrow, I hope I wake up at the start
And relive the moment that you stole my heart

I'll take one more sip, keep drinking to feel good
I say like I'll stop when I know I never could
Poison In my veins making me feel this way
Keep drinking and drinking is all my head can say
Trying to numb the pain of daily life
Drinks getting stronger and stronger, stabbing me like a knife
I start to stumble and stutter
Regretting words that I mutter
Spilling thoughts that I keep buried inside
Wake up and realise what I've said, wishing I could just hide
Thinking the liquor was my friend, well I'm guessing it lied
Back in reality and now I want to just cry
So I'll return to the bottle and drink till I die

You're going though a lot and I understand you don't want to talk
But I'm always here if you're up for a walk
Or even just sit and enjoy eachother silence
Sometimes just company can solve all the violence
I'll wipe your tears and you can feel my touch
I'll hold your heart if it gets too much
I'll always be here, night and day
Just say the words and you'll know I'll stay

Does my message come through with these words that I write
When I'm alone in my head, surviving the night
You make me write and write till my page is mess
I can't get over the girl in the red dress

Talking to you makes my day
No one else makes me feel this kind of way
I could talk to you for hours on end
When I feel down you bring me to a mend
You make me laugh till I'm about to cry
I love talking to you, I can not lie

These substances make me feel stuff
Is it true or is it a bluff
I don't know
No matter what feelings do grow

He ignores your messages, he clearly doesn't care
I always reply if I ever see one there
He doesn't even trust you, so tell me why him?
I'd be your candle when the world is getting dim
Maybe hes got money and maybe this is true
I'd work forever just to spend it all on you
Does he even care when you're dying inside
Because I can read you like a book so there's nothing to hide
Is he really what you want, will he be the one
Or is he just a bit of fun
I think falling for you was my biggest crime
If I was him for a day id make it last a life time

With no future in sight I don't see the point in trying
When I acted like I didn't like you, I was lying
If I knew that you liked me as well, I would have asked you out
But I thought different so I wouldn't let my feeling shout
I kind of wish I never knew
Now all I think about is you
I shouldn't have these thoughts because someone will get hurt
But now its all I think about, my thoughts I cant avert
I still like you when I should not
I still like you a lot

Do you treat him like you used to treat me
Or is he a better guy than I'll ever be
I used to drive hours just to get yelled at
I bet he doesn't ever get that
Have you realised what you did and finally changed ways
While I'm all alone lost in this scary maze
Because now he's got you and living a perfect life
While I'm looking at my wrists holding a knife

I'm so ******* in love with you, it's all I want to say
I know you'll get fed up because I'll tell you everyday
I've never felt this way about a girl I've met before
I can't ever just be friends with you, I'm begging for more
I don't care if I sound desperate because it's honestly so true
But I've never loved anyone the way I love you
Tell me to shut up, please before I say to much
Na **** it, I somehow fell in love with you before I've even felt your touch
I won't say it again and repeat the same line
Because you already know I want to make you mine

You tell me not to wait when you know I'll never leave
Because you and I is something I really want to believe
Leaving is easy but I don't quit
And somewhere in your mind I think you know it
Attached by a rop I don't want to cut
Staring at a door I don't want to shut
I may wear my heart on my sleeve
You tell me not to wait but you know I'll never leave

Why am I a poet?
Why wright about an emotions if I don't know it
Never felt love, Never been depressed
Or maybe they're feeling I wish to repress
Do my words mean nothing or really hit hard
Is it deep or makes you more scared?

When the lights go down, it's just you and I
We lock eyes and time doesn't go by
It waits for us to finish this loving embrace
Hand in hand, heart to heart, face to face
We become one and it feels so right
Me and you together throughout the night

I'm not a fighter I'm a lover but for you I'd hold my ground
Take on any battle that comes our way even if you're not around
And if I came back wounded I know you'd heal my heart
Pick up all the pieces and make it restart

If you ever raise you voice at a woman then you're weak
Shouting horrible things you know you shouldn't speak
You don't control her, you're supposed to be a team
You don't realise you're living another guys dream
Honestly *******, your pathetic and insecure
One day she'll realise that she deserves more
Don't take her for granted or she'll just up and leave
Sooner rather than later I'd hope to believe
Sorry I've been drinking so my anger spilled onto the page
But the way you treat her fills me with rage
Or maybe I should just keep drinking
And let you know how I'm truly thinking
Because I feel like I'm dying
You keep her crying
And if I said this is all ok then I'd be ******* lying
I care way to much about this girl to be silent
But you're not worth fighting so I won't get violent
But if you saw her how I see her then you wouldn't treat her like this
You understand she's one in a million, something you don't want to miss
I think I should drink more till I pass out
But don't you dare break the heart of the girl I care about
Guess this is what it feels like to be on the outskirts
I don't think she understands how much my heart hurts

You never liked these boys so why waste a tear
You never needed them but you knew already that my dear
They mess you around and leave you broken
If they didn't mean it then they wouldn't have spoken
But you knew that my dear, that they were not right
Same old thoughts keeping you up at night
Don't fall to soon because it may not last
You have much to learn but not to fast
The right ones on his way but he might be late
Or maybe he's here you just see him as a mate
So wipe your eyes keep your head up high
Save you tears my dear for the right guy

11th of November we stand in silence
And just for a minute we forget all the violence
We pay respect to those who fought
And carry the lessons that they taught
This poppy hold strong, pinned to my chest
Thank you to the soldiers you may all rest

I'd rather tell drunken truths than sober lies
Endless poems you've come to despise
Words without meaning, words without rhyme
Words thoughts, words lost in time
Hold my hand and never let go
My sober feelings you will never truly know

I tell God I love you, more than life itself
Rich, broke or poor, I'd love you more than any wealth
I'd hold you hand no matter what
I'd kiss you here right now on the spot
Because I love you so much, you're my one and only
Please don't leave babe, I'd be so lonely
Just give me you're pinky and hold it tight
Because the love we share feels so right

Emotionally I'm broken, I'm hiding behind a shell
I just laugh through the pain, I'm stuck in this hell
People see me as fake me, the opposite to how I feel
I'm not who I want to be, my reality isn't real

Real eyes, realise, real lies
Stuck with a man whom you really despise
I know how you feel by the tone in your voice
Maybe picking him was the wrong choice
Or maybe I'm wrong and just being confused
I just don't want to see you hurt or used

Stepped off the train and saw the love of my life
The second we touched I knew I'd make you my wife
Cuddled in bed kissing and talking
When I'm with you I'm on the clouds walking
You're so beautiful, even though you say you're not
But honestly babe you're so so hot
I've never felt this way about anyone before
I want you for the rest of my life and even more

All of these feeling finally off my chest
Now I know I can lay to rest
I told you I loved you and you said it back
Hearing those world almost gave me a heart attack
Can't tell you how happy I feel
I've honestly never felt love this real
Say it again till it's tattooed on my heart
Because I've loved you since the very start

What's holding us back? Honestly tell me
Because you know I'm all in, it's obvious to see
I don't hide how I feel because I know I want you
All I can hope is you feel the same too
I think you do but don't know what to say
All I pray is you realise it one day

I miss you so much, and it kills me to say
I've started cutting myself almost everyday
I hate that we cant talk and hate myself so much
All I want is to feel your touch
I know we toxic and argued a lot
But it kills me know another guy is in my spot
You probably hate me and I understand why
But there's no point living without you, I might as well die
Just want to here to tell me its going to be ok
Because I'm really struggling to live another day
I'll keep pushing in hopes we'll get back together
But if tomorrow doesn't come then just know I'll love you forever

Its crazy how one night can make me regress
I ****** up all my progress
Hating myself for a stupid mistake
Maybe my happiness was all just fake
Maybe I wasn't making any progress at all
Or maybe I'm always doomed to fall
I just want to give up and accept my fate
And let myself be consumed by hate
It's easier to go back to hiding in my bed
Praying that soon I'll be dead