Found love, gained hope
Lost love, tide my rope

You say all the right words just to get me going
You look down and you can see I'm growing
It's all yours baby so take it slow
I'm craving you so bad you don't even know
Throw you down on the bed, wrap them legs around me tight
Get ready baby because we're going all night

I put my heart and soul into these word that I say
Because everyday my sanity is drifting away
Can feel anymore I'm going numb from pain
Like a sickness in my brain that's driving me insane
Is it a cry for help just empty husk writing
A war in my head that I can't stop fighting
I step to light but the darkness fights back
Holding out for a hero with a plan of attack
We're all God's toughest soldier when we're trapped in the pit
But that's writing helps me out of it
These words are my weapon and I use them good
Trying to reach people I never thought that I could
So listen to these words and let's hope they empower you
Because this is my story and these work bleed true

You're sad
Yet happy?
You're the sun
And the night
No light can escape
But you shine so bright
You're trapped in a loop
And still on the right track
Though one step forward
Is one step back
From our understanding
What we believe to be true
No colour in the world could ever describe YOU
So be the in-between hue
Be Zima Blue

I know you're out there
Waiting for me
I just don't know where
But I'll find you one day
I guarantee
I've wrote so many poems for you to read
Described the art I'm waiting to see
Hoping you wont make my heart bleed
I know you're out there.............

Waiting for me

I guess it's time I let you go
Moving on so that I can grow
But in my heart I will always see
A love story that was never meant to be
So I say goodbye to me and you
And all the pain we couldn't work through
I guess it's time for me to grow
Moving on because I let you go

I want you, entirely and completely I want you
I want to hold you, love you and make all your dreams come true
Never let you go and hold on to you tight
For I will be here for you every day and night
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you
Entirely and completely I want you

When I showed you love, you responded with pain
You made your problems mine, it was driving me insane
Why did you make my life hell, with no sign of hope
Ever since I met you, I've been falling down this deep *****
I couldn't take it
The stress you caused plagued me, so much I couldn't shake it
And now you're gone i'm happy, finally i'm free
Never will I take this abuse that you gave to me
Time to say goodbye to life I new
Its over now, finally away from you

Its over 2019, gone, finished, done
2020 a new chapter of my life has just begone
Thank god its over, I hated this year
Drown my sorrows with my 12th beer
Keep drinking, maybe forget ?
Most things I did this year I could never regret
I'm glad its done and I never have to do it again
Hopefully I never have to feel like this, not now, not then
Goodbye 2019, leave me and don't come back ever
Hello 2020 please change me forever-

I don't feel nothing anymore, this life just causes stress
When god chose to ruin a life, why did he pick my address
Whats the point in trying when all I feel is pain
I cant trust my emotions, they keep driving me insane
Is it love or is it hate? I cant tell anymore
You know I said I would love for richer or for poor
But look at everything that's happened now
People tell me to forget but I just wonder how
Forget this life, for get about me
You're better off with him, that's not hard to see

I wear this poppy to show respect
In a moment of silence we all reflect
These brave men fought on Flanders field
Millions in a crowd with a poppy they yield
People brought together by this one event
Everybody knows what this poppy represents
Lest we forget, a time to remember
Lest we forget the 11th of November

I put my heart and soul into these words I write about
Bleeding with emotion, writing till my thoughts die out
Why do I keep writing? Is it effecting anyone?
Or have I wrote so much that their meanings been undone?
Will I give up? No, writing is the only way I stay sane
Not going to stop, I need these emotions out my brain

A ****** love that should not grow
But I wish for these emotions to show
Never knowing I would feel this way
Emotion brew day by day
Im a wanderer in this world that strangers call love
I listen but I dont know the words these people speak of
Lost but not knowing
Old emotion that are still showing
My love needs to stop growing
You opened old wounds that lied under the surface
Now that you're gone I have no purpose
If I could, then I would go back to the start
Back to that when you stole my heart

I hate being alive, depressed, I want to die
Never thought I'd feel like this, I really don't know why
Or maybe I do and just don't want to say
But I know, its a thought I have every single day
Help me please, save me from this pain
Sometimes the right words can make my thoughts seem sane
Tell me I'm joking, or that I'm lying to myself
It cant be true, my words must be locked on the shelf
I'm worthless I know, never more than I think
Wish my life would end faster than a blink

When I die, I want to go to hell
I'm a waste I'm useless, thats not hard to tell
It doesn't make sense why I mean anything to you
I could do it right now, theres nothing you could do
All my I've felt like an outcast
Hoping everyday that it would be my last
I wonder If I die will tears come to your eyes
Forgive me for my disrespect and forgive me for my lies
All I know is that the reaper is stalking
Forget this I'm sick of talking...

You're an alcoholic, please stop
Please don't drink until you drop
We need to keep going until our life ends
Keep on surviving for the family and friends
Who wants to see us live another day
I'm begging you stop drinking what else do I have to say

I love you so much, you're always on my mind
All I think about it's our future and leave the past behind
We've both sinned and made a mistake or two
We're both not prefect but our love is true
I've never felt like this about anyone ever
And no matter what happens, I'll love you forever

I don't know if its love but I feel it true
I hope that its love because it begs fore you
Lost in my thoughts because you cloud my mind
When I look for an answer you're all I find
You're the only thing to appear in my head
I think I love you, that's enough said

Two lost souls floating through space
An empty love void trying to find their place
Never knowing that they need each other
Searching through the emptyness to find one another
Separate the glow dim, and long lost spark
But when combined they outshine the dark
Maybe they'll never meet but they both Kling to hope
Two lost souls connected by a rope

The pain that linger leaves when suppress
I shouldn't do it but it stops the stress
Make bad decisions that change how I feel
Don't want to feel emotions because the emotions are to real
We live like we know what all these feelings mean
But you can look deeper from what you've already seen
I'm in a shell of my fake self
I know its bad for my health
But being human is condition that requires a little anaesthesia
So we do it and the feelings become part of your amnesia
My mind knows what I feel and I found a way to quit
So I feel less, try less but truly I cant handle it
I'm in sate and all need to is tell someone
Clearly I cant but these words are a start.... I'm done

Slowly drifting away from reality, guess I've died
My words are now forgotten whispers, whispers that hide
Though life is an echo of my past that I cannot return to
I pray my words gain new meaning for inspiring you

What do you do when your hero falls from grace
This person is your world, a person you cant replace
A bond so strong formed from respect
Never knew them falling would leave you with this effect
You try to be strong for their sake
Because that's a choice a hero would make
Though they were your light when you were in dark
They have fallen, you must relight their spark

Tomorrow we put you down
Because it's for the best
I keep telling my self
It's OK
But there's this pain
In my chest
We love you so much
Our furry little friend
Why is life so unfair?
Why does it have to end?
You're more than a pet
You're more than a cat
You're family
And that's that
We love you so much
It's sad to see you go
We'll hold you in our hearts
Everywhere we go

Word, word, word with some deeper intent
Pointless poems that you've come to resent
I don't care anymore, I'm honestly done
No point writing anymore, its not that fun
My words mean nothing, and no one wants to know
Why did I even try, doesn't matter I'm about to go
Bye forever, no more writing, not now, not then
I'm finished with poems, I'm never writing again

This river of pain bends and winds
I shouldn't have jumped in
Where were the signs?
Dragged by the current
Drowning in my sorrow
Lucky if I ever see tomorrow
Begging for air as I get dragged down deeper
Why does it feel like it's getting steeper?
The rapids of anger?
Waterfall of death?
Will I ever get a chance to catch my breath?
Try as I might to swim to the top
I feel close to the approaching drop
Begging, praying to escape this muddle
Clawing, fighting, this river wont beat me
I cling to dry land and what do I see?
The river of pain was only a puddle

You found someone knew, guess you moved on fast
Maybe you're trying to forget our past
How can you move on like I was never there?
I cant seem to move on and that's not fair
Missing you so much, I'm lost in despair
No matter what I do I see you everywhere

The legends are gone, but do they really die ?
Their names echo through time for us to be inspired by
Is there a reason to this, will we ever see the clarity?
Sadly we loose them to this deep dark reality
RIP to the legends, you deserved are love
Your name live on even though you're watching from above

You read my poems
That makes me so happy
You enjoy my words
Even if they're sappy
I'm glad you like the poems I do
I'll keep writing these poems just for you

Numbing my pain with all these pills
This feeling I get seems to give me chills
Can't be sober to go outside
So behind theses drug I will hide
My mind hates me and I know that well
Or I wouldn't need pills to leave this hell

You said forever, and at the time I thought that was true
I guess I'm the fool who chose to believe you
We loved we laughed but why did that change so quick?
Our relationship was like blood, so strong and thick
But you left like water, flowed out my life
I really thought I'd make you my wife
Now I'm sat here all alone
Wondering if you'll ever pick up the phone

When I'm on my own and you're far away
I look at the pictures of us to get me through the day
Knowing you're back home waiting for me
hoping this week goes by quickly
Stay strong babe, and don't let your mind wonder
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
You know I'm working hard to get back to you
And crawl back in this bed we made for two

I see you're trapped in a state but no one understands, do they?
You're hooked on a substance but its just fun and games you say
Always asking me of money and I just smile and say its chill
I just cant see you go broke but for once can you act real
Been telling you to stop but you keep taking and taking
You know its bad for your health but with out it you're shaking
You know I loved you like a brother and that I always help you out
You always told me you're fine but inside you want to scream and shout
But now its too late, it caught up, finally consumed you
Why couldn't you stop like everyone assumed you would do
I'm not mad about what you did, I just blame myself
I stood back and watched you mess up your health
Goodbye to you brother, I really sad that you're gone
But deep within my heart your life will live on

I got some thoughts that I got to let out
So please just listen and you'll know what its about
Ok?
Good, now this is what I have to say
Bullied to the point I felt like I was in the rubble
I'll take that shirt in an X, actually, na double
Words like fat used to make me feel bad
Became a self conscious kid who would always feel sad
So why not be the class clown
Even tho I'm sad no one else needs to frown
Skip a couple years and I'm still the same
But I chose this lifestyle, no one else it to blame
Yeah I say stuff that probably shouldn't say
Its not my fault that my brain thinks this way
Maybe these poems are a truth I don't want to speak
I guess I'm scared that I seem weak
I could keep going and write some more
But you don't care and you didn't care before

Whats the point in praying if God doesn't answer my prayer
Blanking me like that, guess you're not even there
Tell me why you keep taking the good and leave all that is bad
We're suppose to be your children, you're suppose to be our dad
So tell me father why do you make us suffer
Is it just for your amusement or are you trying to make us tougher
Because lord I cant take it, I'm getting weaker each day
Why give me family and friends if you're going to take them away
Can't we make a deal, please lord I'm getting weak
Reality's getting bleak, but you won't even speak
Forget it, no point praying
All I ask is maybe you understand what I'm saying
So you can stop this evil and maybe you can hear our cry's
I'm starting to think you're the devil in disguise

Laying here in my room staring at the ceiling
Feeling numb from all the drugs just trying to find a feeling
Praying for a better day when I wake up tomorrow
I can't keep spending these long ol' nights just living in my sorrow
So I take sip of another beer
Wake up in the morning and I see things clear
This old town just ain't good for me
Time to pack my bag and leave real fast
100mph just to escape my past
No idea where I'm gonna go

Keep your head up and hold it way up high
Just let the negative things in life pass you by
Its an imperfect world so be your best
Never give up when the world puts you to the test
When life puts you down get back up because you're strong
Get up right now and prove them all wrong

I can't write anymore poems about you, it'll make me feel worse
I beg you please unlock me from this love curse
Because I can't take it anymore, I feel so strong
I know in my heart with you is where I belong
I quite drunk right now and almost crying
I can't say I don't love you because I'd be lying
You mean so so much to me
If only you could look through my eyes and see
How I see you, I think I need a re-do
Because you make all of my words suddenly bleed through
Hold onto me dear because I need you
I still love you, I hope you feel the same way too
But I'm stuck underneath your curse, I think I'm dying
I love you way to much, I'm not lying

Everything she is
A garden of rose's dancing
In the wind sways slow
Flowing unapologetically
With loves lost message
The blood runs thick
Red stamp, red stain?
She's pain!
A poison so rich so pure
An overflowing tonic that
I? distilled wrong
She's lost in a sad song
But she cries these tears
To feel and not forget
Everything that makes her
Everything she is

You're Gods art, I describe you through poetry
A picture so perfect everyone should see

My drunken words spill for you like the liquor I drink
Everything I write for you I tend to overthink
Do my words make sense or am I a drunk man rambling
Trying to find the right words, my thoughts are scrambling
I might just give up and keep sipping this liquid death
But I have to keep writing because Ive ran out of breath

Pain speaks more than words ever could
You tried once, you tried twice, you tried more than you should
You say just shut yourself in and don't let them see you hurt
Just try to hold your head up high, dont fall back down to the dirt
Why do you feel stuff they can't ever understand
They offer you a choice but Its to hard to hold their hand
The walls close in because you shut yourself out
I miss you, I need you, are the words you want to shout
Tell me it will be okay, I want to hear it from your voice
If I have once chance to take it back I would always take that choice

I've been gone for awhile looking through my mind
Erasing evil thoughts I should have left behind
Changed in many ways, grown as I should
This life changes people in ways they never could-
Know and understand, but should we even try
Or let gods hand moves us till we die?

I think it's obvious that your my crush
With just a smile you make me blush
Just your words make me want more
Any moment with you is never a bore
Never seen you in person but I know how I feel
Give you love give you life, give you something real

I miss you now, more than ever
Now I'm back in my stormy weather
You've been snatched away by a controlling hand
The fairest lady's been locked away from the land
All I wonder is why him and not me
I'm not hiding behind some deep seeded insecuritie
There's nothing there if you don't have trust
Just an empty ship waiting to rust
I skipped off work tonight because I missed your voice
Now I can't talk to you because you don't have a choice
Don't think I'll stop writing you because he's in the way
You will alway get a poem every single day

Death, Life and what come in between
How do I get from here to there without being seen?
Who do I take and who do I leave behind?
A fractured web for you to unwind
Hold on tight for this soon may end
Open the door to welcome and old friend ?

I'm still waiting for the day when you will come here
Maybe god will guide you or maybe your mind will steer
Holding out hope for something might not come true
But even after everything I'm still in love with you
Maybe I'm being foolish by waiting for your love
I just need god to help me if he's listening up above
Please come back to my arms and I'll never let go
I still love you and I need to let you know

There's a blank spot in my head
Filled with fear and looming dread
Surrounded by the scars that you left me
On display for everyone to see
All my sins put on display
Violent thoughts I can't even say
You left me naked covered in shame
I'm not saying you're to blame
But you opened up the blank spot in my head
Now wishing I was dead

You left me on open and you left me sore
Do my words mean anything to you or are they becoming a bore
Feel like we're slipping and can't go back
You're my weakness, my life ending heart attack

I'm sad all the time and I don't know why
Sometimes I just wish I could just die
Ended, gone, not here anymore
I won't spear you with the details I know its a bore