I haven't wrote in a while and my words fell silent
But the war in my head still remains violent
I've changed so much and come a long way
Pushing through day by day
I've missed these poems, they kept me sane
These poems I write take away the pain

Laying here smoking alone in my room
Thought keep lingering of my inevitable doom
Trapped in this tomb I leave this place
Waiting for you to make my heart skip a pace

I've fallen hard, please don't scar me
All I can ask is what are we
You say we're friends but it feels like more
I've never felt this kind of way before
Youre the madness, I'm the badness, together we combine
All I wish is to call you mine

Now that you're gone I don't know what to do
I pray that god is looking after you
Time fly's, but now you're gone
Life's hard, I cant move on
When I get low I think about us
All the things we cant discuss
I'd give anything you hear your breath
I know your living life after death

Write me back and let me know how you feel
Does he really make you happy or is this not real
I may sometimes wear my heart on my sleeve
But I follow my heart with everything I believe
Tell me the truth because I'm begging to find out
Tell me everything you're thinking about

Your drunken heart told the sober truth
Revealing dark sins from your youth
Even darker sins that currently fill your head
After these truths you speak you wake up feeling nothing but dread
Nothing but sadness clouds your mind
Looking for excuses but there's not answers to find
I'll always be here to make you feel alright
I'll talk you through these lonely nights

You and me wasn't meant to be we
I get that, I'm not blind I can see
Don't make me jealous don't make me sad
No matter what you do you know I'll get mad
Stop please I asked but you won't
I know I love you but clearly you don't

I don't know what to say anymore
I've never felt this way before
My head's gone numb, I don't feel well
Lies were told, now I'm stuck in this hell
Losing my grip, she's slipping away
A single lie ruined my entire day
Trying to calm my mind
But it's only the liquor I find
Running out of words, struggling breathing
I can't believe she's actually leaving

I could write for you till my words bleed dry
When at my worst and I don't want to try
Just your voice will keep me going till the day I die
You empty a room with just your smile
Would it be wrong if I stayed with you for a while
No word is good enough to describe you and all you are
When the sky feels empty you're my shining star
I'll tell you this now and I mean it to be true
In a room full of art I'd only stare at you
I breath you in and breath you out
Trust me when I say you're all I think about

It ***** that you cant tell someone you love them after just meeting
But sometimes you can tell it's love just from the first greeting
Maybe it's just a look or maybe how they talk
But they leave you weak in the knees and unable to walk
Love can hit you very very hard
But it can also leave you very very scared
I don't care if we just met because I know what I feel
And if you just bare with me I can prove it to be real
You said hello and I was instantly attracted
But can't tell you I love you because I know how you would have reacted
I don't wish to play the long game but I cant shake that we could work
So my feelings lay dormant and in the back of my mind they lurk

I miss you so god dam much
It kills me that I'll never get to feel your touch
Again and again you play through my mind
I look at the clock hoping it will rewind
Almost 4 years together and I can't seem to let go
Almost 4 year ago the seeds of love did sow
In those 4 years our love did grow
I cried for 4 minutes after you broke my heart
4 seconds without you feels like a life time apart
So I'll put on a brave face and try to move on
I took just 4 minutes for you be gone

Let's ruin this because I think we're destined for more
Don't know if you feel the same but I've never felt like this before
Because I know in my heart I would never let this end
This has transcended a love you couldn't comprehend
I've seen heaven with out dying
Felt true love without trying
And when I told you I loved you I wasn't lying

Hold me close for this soon may end
But I know you will only ever see me as a friend
Put me down gently and try soothe the pain
Because I know you last words will haunt my brain

Drinking to forget, god dam I need some rest
**** to get off my chest
I get so stressed
Thinking about that pain
Cause I'm never gonna feel the same
Lost in my brain, words just cant explain
Why I was so vain
Lord tell me why, I need to drink to feel sane?

Have no fear babe because I'm here forever
Through thick and thin I'm here for whatever
The highs, the lows and the in-between
Till death do us part of you know what I mean
I'll be your man till the end of my days
As long as I'm with you we'll get through this crazy maze

Your heart stops the war inside my head
Your love makes me bleed and I feel like I'm dead
Drained from the pain and soft to the touch
All I ask are for your words but is that too much
When I said I loved you I wasn't lying
You turn painful tears into happy crying

How did I get so lucky? Someone please tell me
I found the most beautiful girl there ever could be
Perfect in every single way
I fall more and more in love with her every single day
She makes me so happy, like no one ever could
If I could have found her sooner then I already would
Don't want anyone else because she is my soulmate
My destiny, my lifeline, my eternal fate

I guess friendship means nothing to you anymore
You new that I'd be angry but na my feelings you'll ignore
I saw you as a brother, so much more than a friend
By each others side until the very end
You snaked me and it hurts, things will never be the same
The worst part is, you don't feel any shame
I never thought you'd ever do this to me
Some friend you turned out to be

I'm here to pick you up if ever you shall fall
Carry you up the mountain so you can stand tall
When the world get to heavy I'll give you a hand
Whatever you need your wish is my command
The weights on you shoulders will eventually disappear
You'll never have to worry because I am always here

12 years since you died and the wounds still like new
I miss you I miss you I miss you
I was 6 when you was taken form us and the pain wont go
There just so many things I want you to know
Nan really misses you, the love of her life
Why would God take a man from his wife?
Why would God rip you from our family?
Your death really effected me
So many things we never got to do together
As a kid I used to think you'd live forever
All I want is to give you a hug and tell you everything
But lifes just cruel and just takes and takes and takes  
I miss you I miss you I miss you
Please come back

This is to my friends that I'm glad to have known
We've laughed, we've cried and as people we've grown
Never would I have guessed that I would have met you
Even if our path ends I will never forget you
You've impacted me and changed me forever
We met for a reason, do I regret it ? Never

I miss you more than words can say
I think about you every single day
My heart crys when you're not around
But in my mind is where you'll always be found

Looking a your eyes I finally see clear
Everything in life was worth it because it lead me here
All the pain and damage was worth it in the end
Because I found my soulmate and my best friend
You're not know ordinary girl, I know that to be true
I've never loved anyone the way I love you

All I need is your voice to make me feel at ease
Whisper that you love me, I beg please
Kiss my wounds and I'll do the same
Claw up my back and spell your name
All I need is you, all I want is you
If I was ever with out you I wouldn't know what to do

We said forever, forever came fast
The love we had I really wanted to last
I keep wanting to call you and sort everything out
Apologies for getting angry, I didn't mean to shout
I wish I didn't drive off, and instead tried talking to you
Because I'd do anything to try make forever come true

Been waiting so long for you to be here
I gave up on traveling and just let go steer
Walking me down a path, guided me blindly
So now Im here would you stay with me kindly
This journey have been rough and long
Would staying here a while be so wrong?
Im going to stay if you don't mind
Because you were the person I was trying to find

I feel sad but I cant even cry
So much mental pain, but all I cant ask is why
Why am I like this? Why me?
Maybe its the way life is suppose to be

I could look at you forever, the most beautiful view
No other girl is matched by you
You're eyes sparkle, Im sorry that I stare
I miss you so much, I wish I was there
Holding you in my arms, I'll never let go
When I look into your eyes time goes slow
The moment we share I want to last forever
I pray this moment doesn't end, not now not never

These pills took away my ability to feel
Now I dont know whats fake and whats real
Cutting myself because I need the relief
When Mum saw my arm she was in disbelief
I know I shouldn't, its not goof for my health
But when I look in the mirror I dont recognise myself

I still love you even after last night
I still love you even when we fight
You can be hurtful sometimes and yet I still love you
I can't explain why but I just do
You can be a pain in the *** but I still loved you none the less
I know we had a lot of problems we needed to address
I fell in love with you and now I'm addicted, stuck like glue
No Matter what happened in life I still love you

Felt so lost before I found you
I think my life's complete I don't know what to do
You're all I could have asked for and more
I don't know why I was gifted happiness for
Thank you for coming into my life, you re lit my spark
You're the light that pulled me out the dark
I love you so much, more than words can say
My love grows day by day

I speak few words but my soul wont stop shouting
Never ending emotions that my mind keeps on doubting
I can imagine feelings and express them when I write
But when I come to showing them you wont see an emotion in site
Is something wrong or am I broken
This is my cry for help but don't ask me or no word will be spoken

Why are you still here in my mind
We broke up a month ago, yet you're all I find
All the arguments and fights broke me in two
But for some strange reason I can only think of you
I keep acting reckless to try and forget
But loosing you is my biggest regret
I hate the fact we left our future behind
Maybe that's why you're still in my mind

I used to write poems telling you I loved you
Now I write poems about how much I miss you
I used to write till you got sick of my words
Now I'm writing words you'll probably never read
I used to write poems with all my heart and soul
Now I struggle to write like I used to
I used to write poems all about you
Now I write poems about a fading memory

Family is a bond that can never be broken
A love so pure it remains unspoken
We live with these people who we love so dear
The thought of losing them is are one true fear
No matter what happens down the road the love stays strong
Nothings more important than family, correct me if I'm wrong

I keep cutting myself to numb the pain
Because I cant seem to get you out of my brain
Why is my mind destroying me like this?
Maybe if I end it all I'll reach eternal bliss

Your beauty is unmatched by any other soul
The beat keeps going from my heart you stole
My love cant be trapped nor kept in any space
You're a masterpiece on gods canvas, nothing to erase
Never before had I seen such a stunning sight
From that moment I new this love to be right
To show you my love is no easy thing
Until that day you look to see a ring

Pain and anger trapped inside
I look around to see nowhere to hide
Words spoken I should no have said
Evil thoughts to leave my head
Regret lingers and plagues my mind
Its hard to move on and leave the past behind
No words can change what I've done
Now I think about it, it wasn't worth it in the long run

Lay in my arms and the world will fall silent
I know the war in your head can be quite violent
But trust me my dear you're safe with me
I'll show you the beauty that you cannot see
Talk to me when times are tough
And I'll still love you when times are rough

You say all the right words just to get me going
You look down and you can see I'm growing
It's all yours baby so take it slow
I'm craving you so bad you don't even know
Throw you down on the bed, wrap them legs around me tight
Get ready baby because we're going all night

We were just talking
But it didn't take long for you to start walking
Gone, just left, blanked what I said
But now youre gone I wish I was dead

I guess it's time I let you go
Moving on so that I can grow
But in my heart I will always see
A love story that was never meant to be
So I say goodbye to me and you
And all the pain we couldn't work through
I guess it's time for me to grow
Moving on because I let you go

When I showed you love, you responded with pain
You made your problems mine, it was driving me insane
Why did you make my life hell, with no sign of hope
Ever since I met you, I've been falling down this deep *****
I couldn't take it
The stress you caused plagued me, so much I couldn't shake it
And now you're gone i'm happy, finally i'm free
Never will I take this abuse that you gave to me
Time to say goodbye to life I new
Its over now, finally away from you

All my life I never really cared
Love was just a feeling, I thought it could be spared
Entering my life,I didn't think it would be you
As life went on, my love actually grew
Love did blossom on you and me
But love did fail before we could be
Though we tried,It didn't work out
My love still lingers with out a doubt

I don't feel nothing anymore, this life just causes stress
When god chose to ruin a life, why did he pick my address
Whats the point in trying when all I feel is pain
I cant trust my emotions, they keep driving me insane
Is it love or is it hate? I cant tell anymore
You know I said I would love for richer or for poor
But look at everything that's happened now
People tell me to forget but I just wonder how
Forget this life, for get about me
You're better off with him, that's not hard to see

A ****** love that should not grow
But I wish for these emotions to show
Never knowing I would feel this way
Emotion brew day by day
Im a wanderer in this world that strangers call love
I listen but I dont know the words these people speak of
Lost but not knowing
Old emotion that are still showing
My love needs to stop growing
You opened old wounds that lied under the surface
Now that you're gone I have no purpose
If I could, then I would go back to the start
Back to that when you stole my heart

I love you, one powerful phrase
An emotion that will keep growing till the end of your days
I love you, forever and ever
Till death do us part I will do whatever
I love you, more than life
That's why I asked you to be my wife
I love you, more than you could know
Even though you're gone my love will still grow

Found love, gained hope
Lost love, tide my rope

I hate being alive, depressed, I want to die
Never thought I'd feel like this, I really don't know why
Or maybe I do and just don't want to say
But I know, its a thought I have every single day
Help me please, save me from this pain
Sometimes the right words can make my thoughts seem sane
Tell me I'm joking, or that I'm lying to myself
It cant be true, my words must be locked on the shelf
I'm worthless I know, never more than I think
Wish my life would end faster than a blink

You sold me a dream that I never wanted to end
But everything you sold was just pretend
Atoms ripped in two
And the truth bleeds through
Tears fell down like rain from the sky
When I uncovered the weapon you sold was a lie
Too arrogant to see past your cosmic gaze
That this dream was just a nightmarish maze
Now I'm sat here alone waiting for those atoms to realign
And turning that dream into mine